Also noticed recon that manifested in the form of confusion/scattered focus, and, “locked” communication skills and state of enjoying reality.
Today, I realized it’s a focused segment from the paradox in my inner world that got unveiled.
Honestly, I consciously don’t know how to work through this and I don’t know how to adjust my stack.
I’ll wait for the new drops and probably modify my plans for the identity phase
The SUN
Does it need warmth to shine? Does it question why it shines? Rising at dawn and setting at dusk?
It is simply what it is. A brilliant presence of warmth, beauty, glory, benevolence and probably more beyond my current comprehension
I am the sun, a specter to behold, shining forth from within and I won’t doubt it.
Gratitude is important, but not necessary for me to do what I must or choose to do.
Stepping on the accelerator, when some parts of the engine is missing
Hell, you couldn’t even shift gear cos some screws from your gearbox are in your palms, staring back at you.
The stupid decisions I make🤦♂️
The amount is glazing I experience both internally and externally should almost be illegal at this point and I’m still in the rookie leagues 
Just realize the context of my posts are sporadic and can differ even if posted back to back.
It’s not like I’m rapidly drifting very different topics and states in that manner. It’s just that I usually stockpile these things in my mind throughout the day and then post them whenever I feel like.
Or I can touch on something and leave some parts out only to post them whenever I feel comfortable doing so.
And lastly, typing out a post usually incurs more things around it to come up, so post all I wanted to post, go back to flesh out more in my offline journal, then post here at a later time.
Now, coming back to this
At the beginning of my last phase (Early September) I had a lot of drive, ideas, action taking, then some presults of BL and NR. I thought it was going to remain that way, but that was just the remnants croaking before being extinguished.
Between GLM, TB, KB st1 and Wanted most of my that drive was revealed to be a host of inconsistencies with “Validation seeking” being the spear head. Extrinsic motivation. The things I’ve been very watchful of, to avoid selling my soul to my craft or achievement.
Now, I thought the amount of change I’ve been through would be enough materials to drive the action I desire and I could postpone rebuilding who I am.
Turns out I was wrong.
Looking from another perspective, I would advise someone else not to do this, but I’ve not been really taking my own advice.
My stack is in a limbo, as most of the cores for my proposed customs are part of the new drop—paragons, Limitless: Raikov and then new Anti-Recon.
I need to read the copies and then finalize what I’m doing with my stack.
Don’t speak to me, Don’t try to stop me.
Don’t tell me what is and what is not possible.
For I will be the one to decide.
And when the deed is done, you will rejoice, probably more than me.
But then, you will be too late.
For you were not part of the journey.
My name is Goldfinger, a man with an inevitable dream.
30s of ASBR yesterday afternoon to power through this sickness and my exams. And for the first time I’m fully expressing the “archetype.” Prior to this I only expressed what felt like a framework of the archetype and then the cognition and fame padded the rest.
And I know why this is now accessible.
On second thoughts, I’ve experienced this before. It just feels smoother now.
Then he asked me, What do you desire?
To stand at the top of the world
But will you understand
I’ve been the same man all along, yet I’ve had to shed so much I could say I’ve changed
When does this ever end? Does it get less painful? Do I even want this journey to end?
For if it ends I’ll never find the peace I desire, that I can only find at the top of the world.
That which has always been, but eludes realization.
The mastery of my very being.
And on we go…
Recon got me at the worst time
Forget who you are
For in forgetting who you think you are,
You realize who you’ve always been
And see who you could always be
Proud limitless you
Stack gradually getting finalized
2 Customs—one for identity and one for health—then NR for wealth (business ideation, building and manifestation).
Diligently but impatiently waiting for the new releases—Paragons, Raikov, anti-recon and new modules.
One of the Paragons is sure to enter my health custom. Leaning more towards the OG, but Health protocol might just fit my custom better. Also the rebranding of the concept will heavily influence how I chose to build the custom.
Then Raikov, because the concept behind it is very unconventional, it seems like one that just requires creativity to unlock something groundbreaking. Giving me serious dark horse vibes.
A late minute entry from the dice man nearly turned everything upside down, 30s of no fame version on Friday brought back my burning desire for conquering achievement markers and entrepreneurship. And yes I mean competing with the big dogs on the global stage.
It also brought up recon, questioning if I’d ever achieve all I want to achieve, along with the deep seated fear attached to it— failing myself, depriving myself of the full experience involved in getting to my achievements and wasting valuable time.
At the same time, I had a continuous very paradoxical state of certainty of being unstoppable, what I want also wants me, I will build my grand vision regardless. I kept catching myself saying “Who can stop me?” Like I was challenging the entirety of reality to try and fail at it.
It’s going to have its time but now I’m focused on foundational things—rebuilding who I am outside of achievement, health and financial capacity to live as I desire.
So now we’re making trending ads while dreaming?
Damn ASBR
My sleep has been absolute shit for about 3 weeks now, which is very unusual for me.
Today’s own was interrupted just once.
The first half of sleep was were I was making the Ad in detail, it was a weird experience so much that I couldn’t tell if I was the one making it or if I was being guided intuitively. I felt like I was in a constant flow state of ease and creativity. The best way I could describe it is the word “genius.” Then the transition to waking up was so seamless I couldn’t determine the point where I actually woke up physically, it was also a consistent flow of consciousness and cognitive activity, no transitions required.
I couldn’t sleep back for close to three hours and also wasn’t conscious of when I fell back asleep. The second dream was about Khan.
I forgot the details of the dream immediately I woke up. However the main theme was getting away with things, others won’t get away with which I consider a subset of invincibility.
Also I think I might have experienced some energetic disruption, which then gave way to me being sick.
I’ve refused to accept that being a possible cause, but I can’t deny the symptoms that had been present for close to four weeks now.
Then everyone around me got the flu and I was still healthy. Then couple weeks after this disruption began, I fell sick and others are healthy?
My two guesses are it’s either my system was compromised or the sickness was contracted and had an incubation period of close to four weeks.
Still sick, feeling the itch to hit the gym, the only thing stopping me is me knowing that my body needs to come back to balance.
Just woke up from a dream.
About my housemates telling me it’s scary to be in the same room when I’m sleeping because of the type of shit I say while sleeping.
WTF do you mean by “The greatest happiness is to vanquish your enemies, to chase them before you, to rob them of their wealth, to see those dear to them bathed in tears, to clasp to your bosom their wives and daughters.”
I had to go take a look at the Khan copy😭
Hmm, energy probably increased from KB St1 and without reinforcing my energetic system (KB St2), tried to move the energy from smooth flow into a very active one (Khan St3) hence the disruption, scattered movement and “evaporation” into my aura, unlike my previous experience with Khan St3.
Noticed two developing results I’ve been trying to achieve for close to two years though—the control of sexual arousal and presence within the body.
On QL last year, I could sense the pathway mentally & energetically and kind of interfere with it to stop or diminish arousal, but I found it really hard to rewire the pathway itself. I could only avoid, cut or redirect arousal.
It seems the pathway is rewiring itself and I can just slip/relax into a sort of detached bodily presence/non-presence which serves as a window to affect arousal levels, like a volume knob. Very difficult for me to describe at the moment, it’s mostly just presence without any descriptive quality.
Seems like this development is a combination of developments from my last stack.
For the last year, all my stacks have been straight up bangers, except some (looking at you EB, RoS & Ascension Chamber)
It’s great to see you have experience with both QL1 and KB1 as at the moment I am choosing between them. Previously you shared with me the benefits of QL1, can you share your experience with KB1?
While on the surface the differences between them are obvious (QL is for intelligence, KB for sexual energy), sometimes of reviews of them seem to overlap somewhat, e.g. mental clarity and physical healing. Not to mention each of them has unexpected incidental effects on users, e.g. KB for a youthful exuberance and QL for detachment and practicalness.