Day#9
Genesis x 7 minutes
LBfH × 5 minutes
Im experiencing such a low tolerance for peoples shit, an inner discomfort for all the crap people are capable of.
Im disgusted at the lies, cheating and manipulation.
I feel Im growing away from society… Im hoping for a quiet life at the beach.
All I can see in people is fakeness and deceit and its breaking my heart.
My head hurts so much its not funny at all, Im feeling nauseated.
Its supposed to be a listening day and Wanted Black debut, but like this I cant listen to anything.
Day#11
Took a mild pain killer, some herbal tea, a cold shower and some sun.
Now I feel like 90% better.
Wanted Black × 3 minutes.
Maybe I will do 3 minutes of Genesis later… maybe.
After listening to Wanted Black a small good feeling began growing in the middle of my chest, after a couple of hours the good feeling cracked the shell of negativity I was feeling.
Now I feel good!!
WB in action.
Also my libido has been very low for a while and today Im feeling the interest coming back.
More Wanted Black results…
Day#13
Genesis x 3 minutes
Wanted Black x 3 minutes (3-6)
Energized again, not as strong as yesterday, but good enough.
Going out to have some exams done.
The feeling of confidence Wanted Black is giving me, is quite profound. It compares to nothing Ive felt previously.
Day#15
Genesis × 3 minutes
Wanted Black × 3 minutes
After this cycle, I think Im gonna let Genesis rest for a while and put something in my stack that compliments WB and grows on what Genesis started.
Something with a lot of drive, like maybe The Executive.
Day#17
Wanted Black × 3:55 minutes.
Yesterday I did 2 minutes of Ascension Chamber and last night the sex dreams started, now my libido is on the rise.
The funny thing about the dreams is that they all were about women I know in real life, but I dont really like them that way. They do have some things that I do like.
The dreams were sort of a recognition of qualities that I like, to build something new, they also presented me a moral dilemma and how to deal with conflicting decisions.
Even deeper than that they were about recognizing my masculine nature and accepting it for what it really is.
Curiously yesterday I was thinking about what it really means to be a man, what sorts of behaviours and qualities does a real man have and what are not desirable nor acceptable.
First decision I made yesterday was doing the things I need to do regardless of what I feel aabout them. I want to excercise, if I feel motivated I go and do it, if I dont feel motivated I go and do it anyway… build discipline.
Did 1 minute of Genesis, the sun is shinning and in a while we are going out for lunch.
Cant wait to walk outside for a while and be bathed by the sun.
Im getting a push for including Chosen on the next cycle.
Chosen and Wanted Black
Sounds tempting
I walked for a while to clear my thoughts about my next stack and whether or not Im continuing Genesis or Wanted Black.
I arrived to the clinic because I have to take some exams in order to enter a big business in which Im doing some training and this was at the entrance. A sculpture with a plaque with its name.
I guess its a message 
This could be recon talking or maybe a wise idea… cant tell now, but washout is gonna resolve it.
I think I picked WB at the wrong time, that I shoud be focusing on Spartan.
Exams came out ok (ish) Turns out Im 4.5 kg heavier and my cholesterol is 15% higher than last time I checked (5 months ago or so)
Seems like an invitation for Spartan.
I think I discovered the root of all the negativity I was feeling towards my girlfriend.
Yesterday she was looking for bonding and looking to the past and I quickly changed the subject.
Today I realized how selfish I am, I wanted to give her emotional support for something that happened and I couldnt, thats when it hit me… I want to be there for her, without her asking me for it, I want for the desire be born from me naturally.
Day#19
Genesis × 3 minutes
Wanted Black × 3 minutes
Getting closer to the end of this cycle.
