The Body Keeps the Score

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#236

It amazes me how much my mind frame alters reality.
Ok let me rephrase that… reality is not the issue, but my mind frame is.

When Im on my best I just ease through life without a care or a problem, when Im at my worst, everything feels so damn hard that Im barely able to move lacking of a sense of direction.

This shifts in consciousness are very radical and have been happening a lot lately. To the point in which Im pretty aware of it and its dynamics.

Ive been thinking since yesterday how Wanted helps you with embracing paradox and imperfections and it seems to me that this is what Im going through right now.

Ive been experiencing a lot of cognitive dissonance, specially due to the conflicting forces of how I feel I should be and how I see that I am. Theres been a lot of unacceptance and rejection on my part.

I believe that was triggered when I started Stark a couple of weeks ago and now Wanted is helping me deal with it.

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#237

I Allow Myself to Breathe.

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#238

Ive been having a headache since yesterday morning, not as strong as the last one, but strong enough to be a nuisance… strong enough to make me doubt if this stack is right for me.

Its a listening day today, but Im not gonna listen to anything until the headache clears.

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#239

Day#9

Wanted × 7 minutes
Genesis × 7 minutes

Headache is gone like 4 hours ago… currently testing Genesis.

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#240

Day#11

Genesis × 8:33 minutes
Wanted × 1:11 minutes

Since my first loop of Genesis Ive been in a prwtty good mood, very nonchalant. Today I woke up a little tired though, too many dreams last night.

On Sunday night I had a nightmare (genesis first loop day) I woke up screaming, its heen more than a year, or maybe 2 since the last time something like that happened.
What was different this time is that I was chasing someone in my dream, spying on this woman, that ultimately appeared during the night in my bedroom while I was sleeping and scared the shit out of me and made me scream (all of this in the dream) but the scream translated into real life and woke up my girlfriend… she was really scared.

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#241

Keeping the record clean…

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#242

Reminder:
Girlfriend started Helen of Troy last Saturday, today was her 3rd loop.

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#243

Day#13

Genesis × 7:30 minutes
Wanted × 2:22 minutes

Waking up early for my date at the embassy :sunglasses:

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#244

Day#15

Genesis × 6:00
Wanted x 4:44 minutes

Yesterday I was a bit overloaded, but nothing serious.
Im gonna try to sleep a bit more.

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#245

Day#17

Genesis × 7 minutes

Things are weird right now… I feel the inner forces trying to push me down to a very dark place, but theres something burning inside that isnt allowing that to happen.
Anyways Im in distress right now.

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#246

You got this, mate!

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#247

Thanks mate! Im already feeling a lot better.

Now doing Wanted for 5 minutes.

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#248

Last saturday I got pretty amazing results from Wanted, both inner changes and outer manifestations.
There were also things that didnt quite flow, but I didnt felt bad about it, instead I noticed the need for a couple of changes in the strategies.

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#249

Day#19

I did a full loop of Wanted early in the morning, if I remember correctly Ive never done a full loop of any title since we were in the ZP v1 era.

Next listening day Im doing a full loop of Genesis and thats it… Im gonna experiment with a 2 title stack, one full loop of 1 title per listening day.

Lets see how that one goes…

For now I feel really good.

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#250

My mood keeps getting better, now Im standing outside at the sun. Even though I got a mild flu a couple of days ago Im in a very high spirit.

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#251

Lol it wasn’t the first time…

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#252

Day#21

I woke up at 5am feeling nostalgic about things I loved doing when I was growing up, about what I could have done different with my life.

Then I did Genesis full loop and felt an emotional release as a warmness in my chest and full body relaxation. Then I fell back asleep for 2 more hours.

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#253

Currently blissing out!!

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#254

On the next cycle Im gonna keep doing Genesis and Wanted, top notch stack!
Im considering a third title, but its gotta meet certain criteria:

•Has to be a light sub.
•Its gotta expand on any of the subjects already covered by Genesis or Wanted.
•It has to come to me… I cant choose it rationally.

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#255

Some thoughts and understandings…

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