What is left?
For ye have knocked on my door
Now shall I open
I’m sorry
For making you wait this long.
This season is dedicated to embracing authority.
I find most of the infrastructure is present, but I narrowed down its expression and outright refused to use the rest, so I don’t lose who I currently am.
Current
It is so because I spent significant perceived effort changing from who I was to who I am.
Coupled with the predicted significant loss of mass appeal I currently experience in my current reality.
Currently, my dominant being and expression is high energy fun, playful, witty, almost extremely nonchalant, very generous, with expansive boundaries that are sharp only when necessary.
Think of a blend of PRIMAL, WANTED & GLM.
Other frames of being come out only as I feel like. Mostly by my mood.
And I try my best not to hurt, sometimes at my expense.
Coming
Something heavy and very intense has been lurking beyond a locked door and has decided not to wait any longer. It’s been bleeding out for quite a while and each time I reduced it as much as I could.
An identity of pure authority and power is what it is.
Last time I slipped into this was very polarizing, I felt rough and jagged in a way that cuts through reality.
Very abstract I know, but the cutting part was the primality. It’s like everything coming to me to get cut down or cut through, while others were scared of getting cut.
It wasn’t mass appeal in any sense. And I believed I didn’t have the skills to bend that way of being as I wanted.
My approach?
All or nothing. Integration is the only answer here. Especially in expression.