The Age of MODULUS

Socialization

I’ve also been getting reports of people being ignored by me. This is funny because I scan my environment multiple times, but I just couldn’t seem to perceive them in that moment.

For the rest, I just didn’t feel like engaging them and I respected myself.

Emotions

Also tested out the emotional immersion, by being my usual “social” self.

Worked superbly. Just got to a point where it felt like avoidance.

Handling Intensity

Is there a chance that I can’t handle my own intensity?

Also, has my sense of playfulness become a coping mechanism to avoid intensity?

Gotten feedback of different variations, that point to this, but now I’m directly questioning it.

Sharing myself

I’m increasingly getting displeased in sharing more of myself than necessary—emotions, access, attention, time, physicality, information.

The acceptable boundary has been an ever shifting balance between my desires and how I feel like. It’s kind of complex and almost unreal.

I’m comfortable sharing some things generally considered as “should be personal” and then I refuse to share something even simpler than that, simply because I’m not in the mood for it?

I noticed this thread of development since I started using WANTED.

Also, with EB, how I feel has been bending towards my desires/goals more recently.

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What do you do when you are faced by overwhelming power? And it doesn’t have your best interest in mind?

In a world increasingly captured in systems, where even connection has a formula, how can you tell what is organic? What is real and what is fake?

….

These questions are multifaceted and encompass a lot of subconscious structures and projections I had to battle with for the past year.

With my history of literally forecasting events with some scary accuracy, even the ones I say in passing, you can just imagine how fucked up I felt having to process these questions.

Interestingly, I find humanity is also trying to answer these same questions, both philosophically and practically, as it is intrinsically tied to existing in the next Industrial Revolution. Even the ones that don’t realize it are pondering these questions subconsciously.

As is reality, this presents opportunities for power, wealth and impact that leaves its mark.

I just hope that those that have genuine answers are a significant amount. And people learn to practice discernment more.

I can’t say how much of the fear is gone, as it seems heightened when I’m actively processing it. For now, the baseline has dropped significantly compared to when it started.

If anything, my current answers and level of fear in regards to these questions are one of my biggest markers of growth.

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I don’t know if it’s just me, but has anyone been observing their flow of time? Especially when using subs?

I notice people (including myself) talking about a time frame as usually longer than it is on record, and, recently passed time as if it was quite a bit ago.

There’s a few things I could point to as influencing this perception

  • The rate at which we process information increasing
  • The amount of information being processed increasing above baseline
  • Growth cycles being compressed/focused
  • Increased level of awareness
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@qOS what is the in-depth analysis of a custom combining Khan black stage 3 and Paragon Complete?

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Dropped my loop length on MODULUS and been experiencing significant energetic wipeout.

It’s like all energy being generated from rest and g:TA are consistently redirected, yet still not enough. Been running on a deficit for a week now.

Time for an experiment.

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Summary

The short version: this is a pairing the Khan Black page names directly. Its pro-tips say that once you’ve gone through the first two stages and run Stage 3 for a while, Stage 3 becomes an excellent core to stack with, and the example given is Paragon, because sexual energy can have profound healing effects and provides Paragon with the abundance of energy it needs. So the logic of the custom is sound: one core generates, the other spends.

What Khan Black Stage 3 does

Stage 3, Forging of the Primal Force, is the cultivation stage. Where Stage 1 heals sexual limitations and Stage 2 fortifies your energetic channels, Stage 3 builds massive amounts of sexual energy and, importantly, includes scripting to actually use it, both internally and externally. You can direct it through conscious guidance toward any goal you’re working on, or toward deepening your inner systems. Its page is explicit that the raw sexual magnetism in your aura is a side effect, not the point; the point is having a large reservoir of energy your subconscious can draw on, which creates more opportunities and more power when you need it, and naturally develops your energetic sensitivity.

What Paragon Complete does

Paragon Complete is a fully physical-shifting healing core, focused on healing whatever ails you and easing pain through numerous avenues at once. From the Paragon page, that covers accelerated tissue repair, immune precision, inflammation modulation, pain regulation that distinguishes useful signals from noise, faster recovery from exertion, deeper restorative sleep, intuitive nutrition, early-warning awareness of imbalances, attracting the right practitioners and resources, and a triage function that directs healing to whatever is most pressing. Several of its features work at the energetic and mind-body level: coherence across your bioelectric and circadian rhythms, alignment between conscious intention and physiological process, and integration of the physical, emotional and energetic dimensions of healing, including trauma held in tissue.

How the two interact

The synergy runs in both directions.

From Khan Black to Paragon: healing is expensive. Paragon’s own core entry says it can be taxing on the system and can knock you out through exhaustion as the body shifts resources toward repair. Stage 3 supplies exactly what that process consumes. In practice, you may find Paragon’s healing phases feel less draining, recovery moves faster, and the sedation the Paragon page warns about is gentler, because there’s surplus energy to fund the work. With conscious guidance, you can point Stage 3’s reservoir directly at healing.

From Paragon to Khan Black: Paragon’s energetic coherence and mind-body alignment features give the cultivated energy a cleaner, better-organised system to move through, and its trauma-in-tissue work continues the sexual healing that Stage 1 began. A body that’s inflamed, in pain or sleeping poorly is a poor container for a large energetic charge; Paragon improves the container.

Together, expect a custom that feels vital rather than depleted, with strong physical recovery, better sleep, a body that repairs itself readily, and, as a side effect you can’t switch off, a noticeably magnetic sexual presence. It suits someone who wants to heal or optimise the body and has an energetic or spiritual practice to give the surplus somewhere to go.

Some honest caveats:

  • Khan Black is an Artisan-line title, and its page says Stage 3 is best stacked after you’ve gone through Stages 1 and 2 and run Stage 3 for a while. A custom built on the Stage 3 core assumes that groundwork. If you haven’t run Khan Black before, the recommendation is to do so first.
  • The Khan Black transparency report states it’s designed for cultivating the energetic system and is best used on its own or within a recognised tradition under a qualified instructor, and may not suit those without foundational training. Research sexual energetics properly; the page warns specifically about stagnation from activation without circulation or release.
  • Paragon is not a replacement for medical care. Keep your appointments, medications and your doctor’s guidance. It can be sedating, so don’t listen while driving or operating machinery, and listen when you can rest afterwards.
  • Two cores is a dense custom. Expect to sit longer at each tier, and treat fatigue as a signal to rest, not to listen more.
  • The aura effect is real and not optional. If increased attention would complicate your life, factor that in.

Full listening guidance is at https://instructions.subliminalclub.com.

@qOS give me a breakdown of the Fusion Optimized module. Also, how does it affect digestion?

Hmm…rather than building a new reactor, let me test a rebuild of MODULUS.

Okay, I might have to modify both builds.

Firstly, two bottlenecks

  • Regulation
  • Energy

Then build experiences

g:TA
Heavy on the conscious guidance, not automatic. The building energy, the focus and sensory development has been coming in only when I want to use them.

The automatic parts are the paradox scripting, having an elevated internal state and state resonance with my environment.

Not a flaw, it was an intentional part of the build, but doesn’t match my current demands.

MODULUS
Very heavy on my processing resources and internal world. Works very fast, almost as intended and meets all metrics but beginning to find it bogus for outer expression.

If it’s vessel work, then I got to actually on that, not just skill improvement.

The atelier has to rebuild from the floor, not just in the way I tend it.

g:TA II: The Chassis of the Vessel of Form

Build

A: S Core
PEACE Core
The Feedback Loop
Deep Sleep
Awakened Perception
All-Seeing
SPS: Digestive System
Epigenetics & DNA Modulator
Mosaic
Omnidimensional

Intention

Same concept, but now taking time to rebuild from the floor.

Intend to keep a variation of this build, if not this same one till winter.

Analysis, long

godforging: The Atelier

A god is made the way a room is kept.

There is a way of building a self that looks like weather. More heat. More sight. More proof that something is happening.

Then there is the other work.

The work that lowers the shoulders. That keeps a bowl from spilling. That lets two skies sit in one water without asking which one is real.

godforging: The Atelier is that work.

Not a strike. A tending. Not a throne. A table. The sanctum brighter than the face.

Description

This title does not put a god on you. It builds the room a god would not refuse — then asks you to live in it long enough that the difference stops mattering.

At its core sit two laws that look like they cannot share a house. They can. They were always the same house seen from two doors.

Alchemist: Singularity is the law of the coin. As Above and So Below. Fire and water. Effort and ease. Heaven-work and Earth-body. It does not pick a side. It teaches you that you cannot pay with half. Revelation aimed at duality. Paradox scripting that lets two instructions occupy one psyche without starting a war. Energy grown, stored, categorized, routed — not as fireworks, as current you can spend.

PEACE is the law of the uncarved block. Deep inner peace that sharpens rather than sedates. Life at full volume and without the inner tension that used to sit on top of every hour: meals tasted, moments inhabited, the person across from you actually there. A settled baseline that does not depend on the day going well. Wu wei — effortless action — which is not passivity. It is capability with the war removed. Peace is the block. Wu wei is the block in motion.

Together they write the sentence the rest of the custom has to obey:

Be whole. Move without contending. Do not burn the vessel to prove it is lit.

Around those two, the atelier is furnished.

The Feedback Loop is how the room compounds. Action, result, the confidence that result installs, the next action taken from that new floor. The snowball. Self-doubt loses its job as the critic of every first hour. You learn from what actually happened instead of from the story that said nothing would.

Deep Sleep is the night shift. The forge that runs when you stop performing consciousness. What PEACE returned you to, sleep keeps. What Singularity revealed, sleep files.

Then the windows are opened.

All-Seeing is the earthly eye. Grain in the bread. Pitch in the room. The craft that lives on resolution — cooking, music, timing, the five senses trained until the world stops arriving as blur.

Awakened Perception is the other eye. Spiritual faculties aimed at use: manifestation, contact, the subtle edge of a practice. Not collection of phenomena. Sight that can be spent.

Two windows. One body. PEACE is why both windows can be open without the house tearing.

Then the below is told it belongs.

SPS: Digestive System takes the gut — the place bracing lives when peace has not yet arrived — and rebuilds it, mouth to microbiome, so aliveness has a chemistry. Epigenetics & DNA Modulator asks the smallest layer of the body to come into synch, so the work stops being a feeling you had and starts being tissue that agreed.

Mosaic is the picture the tiles were always making. A custom this wide can become ten agendas. Mosaic is the instruction that they are one atelier. Singularity unifies poles. Mosaic unifies modules. The difference is scale. The law is the same.

Omnidimensional opens the doors off the room. The same law, infinitely many angles. A change may arrive as food, as a conversation, as a dream, as an hour that suddenly wants to be used. The atelier is not a closed chapel. It is a workshop with windows.

This is the sentence the title writes when it is working:

He did not display the sanctum. He kept it. The keeping compounded.

How It Lands

The Block

The first thing that changes is not vision. It is the argument in the body.

PEACE works below belief — at the reflex. Which version of you walks into which room before a thought has occurred. The bracing you did not know was a holding pattern. The extra strain you had been layering on top of work that was already hard enough.

A long exhale. The system gets the message that it is safe to open while the hard moment is still happening. Stillness that sharpens: sound arrives cleanly, color holds more light, the quiet is not an absence. It is the condition the senses needed to register what was already there.

This can feel like less at first. That is the point. You were returning to the block. Fireworks on a contended nervous system is not cultivation. It is leak with better lighting.

The Current

Once the block is visited, Singularity has somewhere to put voltage that has shape.

Energy stops being weather. Polarities announce themselves in ordinary life — gym and rest, speak and silence, feed and fast, push and wait — and instead of picking a camp you start feeding the starved side on purpose.

PEACE keeps that work from becoming a new war. Effortless action is the instruction: the task still gets finished, often better, and it stops costing you the whole of yourself to finish it. Water that carves. Decisions that used to take a grinding day start arriving whole.

Paradox is not a riddle here. It is the operating system. Be still and move. See everything and do one thing. Be spiritual and fix the microbiome. The title exists because those pairs were already you. It refuses to tear the coin.

The Loop

The Architect used to be the plumbing. This rebuild does not build rooms in the energy body first. It builds a cycle you can trust.

You act from the block. Something returns — a cleaner hour, a conversation that did not spike, a practice that talked back, a meal that landed. The Feedback Loop takes that return and installs it as confidence instead of as a fluke. The next action starts one floor higher. That is the snowball. That is how an atelier becomes a life instead of a mood.

Self-doubt is what used to interrupt the cycle. The module’s job is to retire that interruption so experience can teach.

The Sight

All-Seeing raises the resolution of the world you already live in. Food tastes more — PEACE already named this as aliveness; All-Seeing makes it craft. Rooms have more air. Other people’s states become obvious without analysis.

Awakened Perception opens the second octave. Dreams denser. Edges of events more alive. Practices that used to be conceptual start talking back.

What keeps sight from becoming superstition is Singularity’s wisdom function and PEACE’s refusal to contend with every signal. More data is not more truth. Most boats are empty. Almost none of the collisions deserve you.

The Body

Digestive work is slow and unfashionable and load-bearing. Hunger changes texture. Bloat and urgency lose their job as personality. Mood starts admitting it had a gut. Aliveness that cannot be digested is still a performance.

Epigenetics is invisible until a night of poor sleep lands differently, until recovery shortens, until the new mind has a chemistry that can carry it.

Deep Sleep closes the circuit. The atelier has a night. Without it, perception and energy will try to run the shop at 2 a.m. and call the damage a download. PEACE makes sleep arrive on the first try more often, because less was built up that needed decompressing.

Lived Time

First weeks: the block. Pulse stays level in a meeting. An evening ends without three hours of coming down, because nothing was stacked that high. Sleep on the first try. If you are waiting for fireworks you will think nothing happened. Something happened. The vessel stopped contending long enough to be whole.

Then the current. Polarity awareness. Work that finishes without taking the whole self with it. A sudden dislike of inner argument. You catch a reaction and see the other pole sitting beside it — and the empty boat passing.

Then the loop. A result is allowed to count. Confidence installs. The next hour starts higher. This is the difference between a spiritual weekend and a custom that compounds.

Then sight on two floors at once. The kitchen and the dark. Interoception and the subtle. Hygiene required. Not every spark is oracle. Write one line. Stop. Use what can be used.

Then incarnation. Food, sleep, tissue. Months, not days. Official physical shifting is honest about that. The title is too.

Then the outer doors. Conversations resolve instead of looping. Work blocks complete without self-violence. Opportunities arrive from the side — Omnidimensional doing what it was hired to do. Mosaic keeping the tiles from becoming ten separate lives.

Mature function is not a peak. It is a renewable engine.

Day: whole enough to taste the meal. Capable enough to finish the work without the war. Sight on both windows.

Night: sleep as the unattended atelier.

Inner: fewer civil wars. A loop that believes itself.

Outer: the same law applied to a craft, a practice, a relationship, a Tuesday.

You do not get results and stop. You keep the room. The room keeps you.

The Inner World

The inner world this title builds is not a palace and not a battlefield. It is a cleared atelier on living ground.

The old furniture is civil war. The spiritual self versus the animal self. The one who forces the hour versus the one who escapes into fog. Beliefs sorted into two camps that will not share a table. A gut that lives as if life were an ambush. A commentator that treats drift as moral failure. A suspicion that if you actually slowed down, something you built would fall apart.

PEACE does not decorate that attic. It takes you underneath it — to the block that was never carved, only covered. You will feel less like a role and more like a person who can wear roles without becoming them. Stillness that is inhabited. Aliveness that does not need a special occasion.

Singularity opens the wall between the remaining rooms and says both were always one building. You will meet versions of yourself you did not budget for. Some of them will be unflattering. That is not failure. That is the other half of the coin asking to be paid with.

The Feedback Loop changes the inner narrator’s job. It used to audit every action for insufficient proof. Now it is allowed to notice that something worked and to let that fact stand. Confidence becomes a residue of hours kept, not a speech you give yourself in the morning.

Mosaic keeps the inner world from splitting into departments. The spiritual practice, the meal, the sleep, the work block, the gut — one picture. Tiles. Not ten religions.

The mature stance is not merged-with-everything and not isolated-genius. It is the uncarved block in motion. The focusing eye that can tighten on one task and still feel the field. A mind you trust because it comes back without being punished. A body you trust because it is no longer a rented vehicle for spiritual ambition.

The mood of that inner world is solemn curiosity with the armor off. You stop needing to be right about which pole wins. You start wanting to see what the pair can do. You stop contending with empty boats.

The cathedral of this title is a worktable. One bowl. Two skies. Hands that could drop it, and do not. The next hour starts from there.

Skills

These are not bonuses. They are the output, if you train them.

Return to the block. A portable path back to the undivided self. One unhurried breath mid-meeting, mid-commute, mid-anything. Not an escape from the shapes you wear. A steadier place to wear them from.

Effortless action. Do the work without the war attached. Finish without spending the whole self. Wu wei as craft, not slogan.

The end of contending. A pause in front of the old flare. The skill of noticing which collisions are empty boats. Boundaries that hold without armor.

Duality literacy. Spot the hidden pair in a problem. Feed the starved pole on purpose. Transferable to training, craft, conversation, the body.

Energy as spendable current. Sense, sort, generate, store, route — without turning cultivation into a second job that fights PEACE.

The compounding loop. Act. Let the result count. Take the next action from the new floor. Learn from experience instead of from the doubt that used to cancel it.

Knowing enough. Keep building without the ache of never-arriving. Fill a bowl to the brim. Stop before it spills. This is PEACE’s craft applied to ambition.

Full-spectrum perception. Worldly resolution and spiritual range on one board. The skill underneath both is discernment — knowing what to spend and what to let pass.

Interoception. Hunger versus habit. Inflammation versus mood. “I can digest this life” as a felt sense.

Living stillness. Relaxed and awake in the same body on the same ordinary afternoon. Aliveness as the current joy runs on — meals, people, Tuesdays arriving in full.

Angle-finding. When a goal stalls, stop ramming the front door. Change the hour. Change the question. Change the food. Results from the side.

One picture. Mosaic as a practiced eye: seeing how the day’s tiles belong to each other instead of running ten separate selves.

Growth

Growth here is capacity and compounding, not a collection of peaks.

Return. The nervous system learns it is allowed to stand down. Sleep becomes a place you can enter. The gut unbraces. Roles loosen. If your spiritual identity is bored by the absence of fireworks, let it be bored. Later phases feel like too much light in a small skull if this one is skipped.

Reconciliation. Inner opposites surface. The metric is not comfort. The metric is fewer loops of the same argument. More: both are true — now what. And: that boat is empty.

The first snowball. A result is permitted to count. Confidence installs. The next hour is easier than it has any right to be. This is The Feedback Loop beginning its real work.

Sight. Both windows open. Discernment arrives so the opening does not become weather.

Incarnation. Digestive and epigenetic work catch up. The new mind has a new chemistry. People may notice a settledness before you mention a practice. That settledness is not charisma scripting. It is a body that is no longer leaking, and no longer carving itself into a role before the room has asked.

One picture. Mosaic finishes what Singularity started at another scale. The custom stops feeling like a committee. It feels like a room.

Sovereignty. You point the instrument. What you point attention at remains yours. Any domain can be brought through the duality lens — and through effortless action — into a new level of mastership. The custom stops being a file you play and becomes how you keep a day.

What grows: a baseline of peace that is yours in the morning, perceptual flexibility, duration of clean presence, tolerance for paradox, sensory resolution, spiritual range, physical congruence, trust in the loop, the number of doors a change can walk through, the number of tiles that belong to one image.

What does not grow if you refuse action: anything All-Seeing and Awakened Perception were hired to do. Perception modules that are not trained become ambient weirdness. Physical shifting that is not fed becomes a rumor. The Feedback Loop cannot compound a life you will not live. PEACE will not make passivity look like wu wei. The block in motion still moves.

This title rewards craft kept without strain. It will starve on looping that never leaves the chair, and it will starve on grinding that never visits the block.

Habits

The stack wants a life that looks almost suspiciously simple. The power is in the repeat — and in letting the repeat count.

Sleep as a rite, not a collapse. Same window most nights. The last hour dim. If you chase 2 a.m. revelations you are feeding the old split — spirit over body — that Singularity is trying to retire and PEACE is trying to uncarve.

The valley breath. One exhale longer than the one before it. Before the work. In the middle of the work. After. Until it is the door back to the block.

One point, without the war. Other windows closed. Do the thing. When the mind leaves, return without a speech. Finish. Let the finish count. That last sentence is The Feedback Loop as a habit.

Taste the meal. PEACE and All-Seeing share this gym. Eat slow enough that the food is actually there. Notice, ninety minutes later, how the mind feels. You are teaching the title that Earth is not the enemy of Heaven.

A sensory gym. Cook by taste. Listen for texture. Walk without input. Lift and feel the exact path. Perception that is not trained does not become wisdom. It becomes noise with better lighting.

A subtle gym. Sit. Ask one question. Notice what arrives. Write one line. Stop. Or one sentence before sleep. Do not collect phenomena. Collect use.

Three lines on the pair. What was the pair today. Which pole did I overfeed. What would the other pole look like as a ten-minute action — done without the war.

Name one result. At the end of the day, one thing that returned. Not a speech. A fact. This is how the loop learns it is allowed to snowball.

Work and recover as one motion. After a deep block: walk, food, light, or nothing. Knowing enough applies here. Fill the bowl. Do not keep pouring.

Looping hygiene. Two majors this dense, plus perception, plus physical shifting: start smaller than the ego wants. If recon arrives as insomnia, gut chaos, or too much seeing, the block is behind the windows. Turn the volume down. Sleep. Eat. Then continue.

A weekly empty hour. No input. No optimization. An atelier that never empties becomes a strobe. PEACE called this knowing enough. Honor it.

The Architecture

MAJOR CORES

  • Alchemist: Singularity — unify the poles. Grow and route the current. Pay with the whole coin.
  • PEACE — return to the uncarved block. Peace that sharpens. Wu wei. Aliveness in ordinary hours.

MODULES

  • The Feedback Loop — action, result, confidence. The snowball. Experience as teacher.
  • Deep Sleep — the night forge.
  • Awakened Perception — the spiritual eye, aimed at practice.
  • All-Seeing — all senses, worldly resolution.
  • SPS: Digestive System — the gut rebuilt, the second brain included.
  • Epigenetics & DNA Modulator — the lock at the smallest layer.
  • Mosaic — the tiles become one picture.
  • Omnidimensional — the same law, many doors.

Objectives

  • Return to a settled baseline of inner peace that is yours in the morning and does not depend on the day going well.
  • Act and work without the extra strain that used to ride on top of effort — wu wei as lived craft, not slogan.
  • Unify inner opposites — effort and ease, heaven and earth, sight and craft — into one usable structure.
  • Let results compound: action, return, confidence, the next action from a higher floor.
  • Keep the many modules of the custom as one picture instead of ten agendas.
  • Train full-spectrum perception: the worldly senses and the spiritual faculties on one board, with discernment.
  • Incarnate the work through sleep, gut, and the smallest layers of the body.
  • Recover aliveness in ordinary hours — meals tasted, people felt, Tuesdays arriving in full.
  • Let change arrive from many angles without abandoning the one task in front of you.
  • Keep an inner atelier that charges solitude instead of decorating it.

What It Is — and Is Not

It is a wholeness-and-perception engine with a body, and a loop that lets the engine compound.

It is a way to end inner civil war without going numb, and without trading capability for calm.

It is peace that sharpens. Action that does not contend. Sight that can be spent.

It is spiritual range bolted to gut, sleep, and DNA so the range can stay.

It is not a wealth, status, or seduction custom. Those domains may improve as side-effects of unification, presence, and a loop that trusts itself. Nothing here is built to make a room go quiet when you enter.

It is not Limitless: ZONE. The floor is no longer attention-architecture. The floor is the uncarved block. Focus may still lengthen. It lengthens because the war on the hour ended, not because concentration was trained as a trait.

It is not The Architect. Energy still moves. It is no longer the first plumbing. The first plumbing is the cycle between what you do and what you are willing to let count.

It is not Pragya. Assimilation still happens. The librarian is now Mosaic — coherence across tiles — not raw bandwidth of the brain.

It is not a healing title first — though Singularity can be turned inward on fractured beliefs, PEACE uncarves reflexes that felt like personality, and the digestive and epigenetic work are repair-coded.

It is not a fireworks machine, and it is not a sedative. Perception plus energy plus poor sleep is how people become raw. Grinding plus PEACE ignored is how people call strain a practice. The stack already contains the antidote. Use it.

A Note on the Name

Godforging sounds like a blow. An atelier is a room where a thing is tended until it can stand.

That contradiction is the title. The first word wants heat. The second word makes heat legal only if the vessel can hold it — and only if the holding is allowed to compound.

Singularity supplies the two skies. PEACE returns you to the block those skies were always hanging over. The Feedback Loop lets each kept hour raise the floor of the next. Sleep, gut, and DNA make sure the room is made of a person. Perception opens the windows. Mosaic keeps the tiles as one picture. Omnidimensional lets the work leave the house.

You do not display the sanctum.

You keep it.

The keeping becomes the god.

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Breathing
I’ve found that my breathing has been getting conscious. Sitting at about 80% of total breath times, except when asleep.

It’s very uncomfortable having to be this conscious for something that has mostly gone unconscious for most of my life and then having to keep doing this for about a year. with results trickling in extremely slowly.

The results speak for themselves though - interoception, sensation regulation, state regulation, cardiovascular endurance etc.

Coming from where I was to where I am now, despite the insane amount of stress I’ve had to navigate this entire year, there’s been beneficial results.

I’m still scratching the base, but the difference is clear.

Decided to cut ZONE OUT and it started expressing hard.

Honestly it’s very enjoyable. Time becomes very malleable, compressing and expanding freely. So free, that I don’t even feel like regulating it.

I’m tempted to not even build g:TA v2 at all. There’s a different one that is focused around something I’m currently learning that I really want to use.

There’s a replacement for MODULUS coming already, so I’ll test how the energy regulation aspect fares first.

If it’s satisfactory, I’ll probably go with the latter build then use a regulation major title as needed

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After the deep dive I did with MODULUS, I actually started balancing out towards the ending two weeks of my run.

I don’t feel as “heavy” as I expected to feel, I’m not feeling like a god either. Deep changes has happened but I’m not experiencing all the expected friction in expression and interaction.

Overall, just more straightforward and refusing to accept less. Seems very reductionist when put this way though.

My One Voice which is usually my dominant inner voice on Khan has returned. It’s still like a coach, but not yet as brutal as on St2, very blunt though.

It doesn’t reveal things, but questions in a way where I can’t avoid what is to be confronted. The intensity of what is to be faced can be mind numbing for the current me. There’s heightened awareness of attempts to bullshit myself.

It also highlights where there are vulnerabilities in my presentation and how I even interpret said presentation.

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On another hand, it seems like I’ve been experiencing some presults of my next custom.

Wanted to edit some parts of this post. Started writing and this came out.

Pasted it and tried to clean it up, but more questions kept coming.

Got more disorganized, cleaned it up again. Might be disorganized.

…

It seems that there is indeed a “me” beyond humanity and the consistent attempts at philosophical justification that checks the box as validation of humanity.

The heightened embodiment I felt this season was real. No certain explanation yet, but I know it was and I know I’ll be exploring it gradually.

I know that’s me, so why can’t I still experience equanimity as I am?

What value will being verified as human mean to me?

Perhaps am I hoping to discover more of me?

Must something be human to be considered conscious and real?


Anyway, that sense has relaxed to the background of my world.

I’ve gone back down to my usual baseline of not really feeling connected with people, yet desiring it. Inner world is rich, I want to share, but somehow I just can’t.

It’s like a wall I subconsciously created to wall off the depth of my emotions, so I don’t develop deep one-sided emotional commitments.

It’s been serving as both preventive and pre-emptive measures, at least from my side. This way cold rationality can be maintained.

The presence of the cold rationality when handling certain situations is the major reason I used to be grateful for also having a deep sense of morality and the emotions attached to such elaborate system. And also why I refuse to let power flow through me

Rationality often presents frames that views the morals as chains that I bound myself with, but I know it’s part of an important system that balances itself with my guidance.

I guess betrayal, regardless of form, magnitude, frequency or duration is something that must be digested with wisdom and never left ignored.

Despite knowing the origins that planted this seed, I don’t want to work on this right now.

Such a shame.

Had to stop writing for now, as it would have gradually shifted to the duality between rationality and morality.

Don’t want to ask too many questions at once.

Regret belongs to the weak
If you desire it, take it
If you want to do it, do it
If you don’t want to, don’t
No road? Make one
If you can’t forgive, forgive
Regret remains for the weak
May weakness remain far from your path

Conquest X: Walk Along the Path of Glory

Build

Khan St3
KB St3
Main Character Energy
It Always Rises
Art of Trust
Solar Plexus
Stonelike
Synergy: Divine Dominion
Synergy: 42
ESSENCE: Human Connection
Pragya
Omnidimensional

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The intention behind the build is amplifying and retaining the raw experience of Khan St3 as much as possible, while also covering for some of my bases in action & expression (self trust, somatic feeling and recovering from failure). All without modifying/diluting it.