Survival Instinct Spartan Custom

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I haven’t had the mood boost since the first listen on each of my titles. It’s the second listen now. I did my custom today. I noticed the slightest crankiness but that could also be that the full moon sleep disturbances from the past weekish have kicked in. Like around the full moon I might not get the same amount of sleep as I normally do.

I did see another woman with a kid and a man checking me out, this one was kind of from a distance too. So for me to get singled out and focused on says something is going on. I still attribute it to that Chosen influence and I’d guess when LBFH really starts to shine through, it’ll get even better. Again, I won’t say she was into me but I certainly caught her attention, oh and another runner while driving.

I almost forgot. Like I just looked at a spot, without thinking, and there was this chick running who I caught in time to make eye contact with, right as she was looking away. Again, I’m not sure on the context but definitely getting the female attention sometimes.

There are guys who look at me too but I tend to brush those off, but I think there’s definitely some Chosen influence on men too. I’m not leading anybody besides just being myself so far, but so far that’s all the situations have called for.

I really want to stick with Chosen but it seems like the best idea is for everyone to try out Genesis. lol.

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After a night of nightmares I’m feeling great today. I look in the mirror and I’m seeing a good looking guy again. Self worth is still pretty good. I did go out to a store today and it was kind of busy. I had a lot of that inner resistance that I call anxiety come up. But I transmuted or alchemized it, by just not resisting it. What happens after a few moments is I just suddenly feel good and most times just let out a giggle to myself. Definitely isn’t comfortable but I just faced it as it’s part of the process.

There were a couple ladies that I thought were attractive but they showed zero interest. One was a worker and I definitely got that kind of slightly given up because she was at work type vibe. In the past when I first started finding the happiness within I’d be so high and I’d go try and talk to people from that place but it was so different from most people’s reality that I’d kind of blow myself out. They couldn’t match or be comfortable around that. Now I think it doesn’t matter, I have some empathy for them as far as where they’re coming from and I can just keep on with my life.

Sometimes I am in a mood where I could just talk to random people but not everyone is open to that. But I feel definitely confident in socializing at times, just haven’t met the right people at the right time just yet.

That’s also that thing that we might need to push past when they say just get into action and good things will happen. It’s just a matter of not resisting that feeling and it will transmute or alchemize.

Still feeling a little tired because I’ve been getting like an hour less of sleep. But at this point I will just stick with 15 minute full listens to my titles. I’m tentatively planning to trade out Chosen for Genesis after this cycle so I don’t want to shorten the listening time on that.

Tonight I’ll listen to Ascension Chamber and tomorrow is another listening day with LBFH and Chosen.

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I may have reverse recon, I don’t mean that literally. I just mean that I really don’t want to give up my stack. There’s been a few mentions that I should be on EOG for a year, and that’s always been my plan. Then Genesis came along. But I’m kind of feeling like the best move for me is to stick with my current stack as planned.

My custom is non-negotiable and I really can’t get myself to give up on Chosen because I’m liking the results I’m seeing so far, and I think they’ll only become more profound and ‘permanent’ the longer I go. I just added LBFH back in the mix and I think that’s also a solid title that I can’t talk myself into giving up on.

I don’t want to spend my life working for money, what’s most important to me is freedom. So I’ve been told that that’s why EOG is the best title for me. But I don’t think money is my main issue, it’s more of the inner game of self worth and whatever else. I’m seeing positive results with Chosen, women are responding to me better than when I was trying out Wanted.

Today I’ve also seen quite a few men just look away quickly, and I wasn’t even in a bad mood or anything. I’m not saying that’s what I want, but internally I’m feeling really good and I think it’ll just get better the longer I go. I also got more looks from women, and I do feel confident with it. It’s just that these women seem to already have partners, and I’m not interested in any of that trouble.

So for me and what’s gonna get me where I want to be, I think it is my current stack for awhile. I’m creative, I do have a sense of adventure, I’m lucky, getting more female attention, respect from men and admiration.

At this point I just maybe would have to be paid to switch my stack. I never tried ROM or ROS because I didn’t feel the pull, and being that I’ve always thought my path was spiritual that I’d want to jump on those titles. I think Genesis is deserving of the hype and I just don’t want to give up on the momentum I’ve got at this point on my current stack.

I’ve never been promoted to supervisor or anything and been picked for the jobs I wanted. So I think Chosen is what I need most for now, EOG will certainly enter the picture at a future date.

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I’ve still been getting some more attention than I’m used to and I’m actually confident with it. Sometimes I just don’t understand though. Like yesterday I was at work, taking out some trash and this guy across the parking lot was taking out trash. He was walking back as I was walking to my dumpster. He was just obviously looking at me and I saw it so I decided I’m just going to look at him, not aggressive just going to look. As soon as he noticed my looking he looked away. But he stayed outside to have a smoke or something and he posted up with open relaxed body language. lol. After dark I like to just really mind my business because it’s time for me to get home and relax.

A couple days ago I was driving home because I forgot something. This lady was standing by the street and she saw me and her arms were crossed but it’s like after she saw me she relaxed and let her arms down. I would just say I noticed some people feel safe with me I guess. Definitely also notice some people who might be getting the fearsome effects too though. But yea, I like my stack a lot. I plan to stick with it hopefully the rest of the year.

Today was the crankiest I’ve been, just was feeling that crankiness but kept minding my business this morning. I gave somebody a ride somewhere and so I got to sit in a busy parking lot. I wasn’t enjoying the attention though because I was feeling cranky. It’s 10 days into my 21 day cycle so I guess if that’s recon that’s about on schedule. But I’m feeling good after the day is over and it didn’t last all day. Just kind of got thrown off my plans and schedule for the day, but no big deal. Still got my workout in.

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Today was a listening day. I listened this am to LBFH and Chosen. I was going to report how I’m feeling so positive and good, then those healing notes crept in. Now I’ve been feeling some sadness. About like relationship stuff, on one missed opportunity in the past. There was this chick who was so into me and she was 19 and I thought that was a little young for me. It’s been a few years now and kinda hoping we’d bump into each other again. I won’t ever go back to my old place of work and that’s probably where she still goes to the gym.

There was a lot of unwanted attention and just poor treatment I was getting there and put up with it way too long. It’s crazy because this chick only saw the good in me and was all giggly around me but I also didn’t want to start anything because I was still working through possibly some dark night of the soul at that time.

Plus I wouldn’t even consider it because I was still stuck on the one who I finally had to face the fact that she wasn’t interested in me. As my self worth grew I and knowing what it’s like to have a hot woman who is really into you, made the situation I was holding on to a weight that had to be let go of.

I think this is maybe why I decided to try out Wanted last time I was on LBFH. I was also wanting to try Heartsong just to get through all this healing and be able to move on. This time around I know that it’s just a matter of patience, it’s coming up because LBFH is doing some healing work. I plan to stick with LBFH for sure. I’m also more patient and I’m really not set on jumping back into the dating scene or meeting someone just yet, but open to it.

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LBFH must be tackling some issues around relationships. I’m feeling different around my old oneitis situation. Like maybe there’s some forgiveness happening, but there’s still some anger there. I would never take her back and as I say that there’s still a little pain there. So that’s what I think LBFH is doing for me after just six listens. I tried it for like 4-5 cycles when it first came out but that was last year.

Also I’m noticing some of the good things that I forgot about, like being able to “vibe” more easily with the ladies I like.

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Today was a listening day - My SI/Spartan Custom with a loop of Ascension Chamber.

Felt mostly good. When I started my workout I had some fierceness come up around a situation that I think my custom was working on, something with the Pride Unbroken and/or Code of Loyalty modules. It’s dissolved now.

It was just some memories of my last friend who abandoned me and ghosted me, someone who I thought was kind of like me but ended up falling prey to his own BS and social pressure. I left a job situation and he was somebody I’d kept in contact with but probably because of that distance between us and the gossipers were in his daily circle, he fell prey to that.

He was somebody who I was certainly willing to kind of mentor but again, wasn’t able to overcome himself. I probably would have shared subliminals with him but well I got ghosted and that was that.

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Generally feeling pretty good. LBFH definitely is adding healing moments into the mix. It’s different than CFW healing for me anyway. It seems to be more about relationships, I’d say more of the ‘love’ relationships. But for me CFW was a nice break from that. This time with LBFH I’m not wanting to jump onto Heartsong anymore. Still feel content to let LBFH, as well as my entire stack do it’s thing.

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I just remembered one thing I wanted to report. That feeling of something missing has almost become familiar at times. The last time it came up it felt familiar and it was kind of just a reason to feel good. Nothing to try and figure out just knowing that whatever is missing isn’t important, certainly not in the moment. To me it’s now just a sign of progress.

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This 21 day cycle of listening has gone by really quickly, and I’ll say pretty smoothly especially when compared to the last run.

CFW was definitely at work in my prior cycle and proved to be potent, and LBFH adds a different type of healing at least in my experience, since it is Love focused.

I only have 2 days left in my listening cycle and the only recon thing I’m noting is some slight tiredness. So I might try out a 7-8 day washout. Last time I did a 10 day break between listening cycles. I felt like around 7 or 8 I got I dunno I can’t explain it this sense, but I feel like that’s a good number based on my personal experience.

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I’m laughing because I have one listen left in this 21 day cycle. I’m once again feeling like Heartsong is what I need to really get this love/relationship stuff worked out. I’ll only have 3 cycles of Chosen under my belt and I want to keep going with it. But at the same time in one or two cycles with Heartsong, I could maybe accomplish a lot more inner freedom.

I’m planning on making a custom with Chosen and LBFH geared towards social/sales/flirting modules. So I could afford to gain from any healing and cleaning up that Heartsong will do.

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I did feel some slight crankiness today. So this is a first for me, ending a cycle with a touch of slight recon. Overall recon has been really low and momentary when it happens this cycle.

I will make no changes to my stack because it’s only 1 cycle with LBFH and I definitely want 2 cycles with a stack as is before I would consider any changes.

Oh and I got a cougar checking me out today while driving. By the time my look reflex got to her she was already looking away playing non-chalant!

I also messaged another lady on Facebook but haven’t heard back. I just wonder what it is about driving where I seem to attract the ladies the most. I still think maybe it has something to do with that relaxed mindset and flow of driving. I’ve had zero luck in online dating adventures, at least up until now. So it was a nice little boost to have a cougar interested, though she may not have been single thus no eye contact with the older and wiser type. haha!

I guess I will be considering moving over to Genesis after all. I’ve got another month to decide on my path moving forward with work. I’ll have 3 cycles of Chosen done and even though I’m not looking forward to more recon, it might be just what I need to set my course. I’ve also been desiring to have a fun life again.

LBFH effects probably, I do notice I’m laughing more sometimes. I’m also really dedicated to the spiritual life once again. Like the whole practice of Who or what am I? Even to the point that if there were a subliminal that’s just that, I might try it.

So Genesis seems like the full package and it might be the right time for me to get on board.

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today washout starts after my last listen of Chosen and LBFH.

I had changed my mind to start Genesis next cycle. But today I’m feeling really good, the best I’ve felt in a long time. Now I know Genesis is the talk of the town and could be the best title around right now. But l’m still thinking that I want to stick with my current stack. There’s been very little recon, I’m feeling great and I’d like to continue on that path instead of risking some more recon.

I’d really like to make this a long term stack and I think it’s the best stack I’ve been on so far. it’s been 3 cycles with Chosen and my Survival Instinct/Spartan custom, I think things are definitely still unfolding and I haven’t even reached the best of this stack. In another 3 cycles I think I’ll be much closer to fulfilling all the objectives.

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Today was my last listening day before washout. I’m going to take 7 days off. I listened to LBFH and Chosen.

Today was the hardest day I’ve had the entire cycle. It was the lowest I’ve felt, followed the highest I felt which was yesterday.

So that has me once again leaning towards probably not changing anything for another cycle. That’ll make it an even 4 cycles with Chosen and my custom.

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Now the next day I’m back to feeling what I think is that LBFH influence. There’s some really good feelings in there and I’m also feeling tired. LBFH is definitely still doing work on my last breakup situation. Still have some lack feeling pop up around relationships and even friends at times. So that’s another reason I want to stay on Chosen since I’m already started. Meet people who are more on the same wavelength.

So now I’m set on sticking to my stack for one more cycle then I’ll reevaluate. I think Genesis will be great but I also want to have maximum momentum with my current stack. So day 1 of my 7 days of no listening.

Definitely reading the Genesis thread has it on my radar. Also being what my stack currently is, I don’t have a place for it. To respect the Genesis properly I’d want to run only Genesis and LBFH together at least for that first cycle. My custom might be too much and I don’t want to deal with heavy recon. I’m not saying that will happen but I just want to approach the situation with respect in order to maximize my gains while minimizing any upheavals.

I feel absolutely zero pull to do EOG but I keep seeing people say that that’s something you gotta do. I don’t want to work for a living and at the very least I want maximum time and freedom. So EOG seems more practical for me to run than anything else.

I’m content as is for now. I don’t have the urge to build a custom out of Chosen and LBFH anymore, but I still can’t get myself to give up either title for EOG just yet.

PS. I matched my power prize number on this online lotto thing again yesterday. I also won a very small amount in a lottery, like $8. We don’t have scratch offs where I live and all we have is the big lotteries with the astronomical odds and the huge jackpots.

So I’ve still been considering my best move. I think at this point I’m more willing to step away from Chosen for awhile. Between my custom and LBFH I think I’m covered and I might be considering EOG to get some real world “practical” inner work that will result in outer results through taking action on ideas and opportunities.

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I’m gonna chalk all the back and forth up to recon. It’s not as intense as it has been and I’m not hooked into it this time.

But I still can’t talk myself out of changing anything in my stack just yet. I feel like it’s still the foundational work. I plan on EOG being what I’d do next, and then once I’d get to stage 2 I’d bring on Genesis, I feel like that’s a dynamic duo.

So I’m staying the course. I feel like the social and inner status elevation and being looked at as someone who is valuable and worthy is just why I’ve got to keep going with Chosen. I’ve seen momentum and I know I’m not operating at its full potential just yet.

PS. I had a nightmare last night. I remember I was in this place outside and it was like disney land, fireworks and people around. But for some reason the situation changed and it was still the same scene, or place but now it was like a prison situation. Like there were these guys who wanted to kill me. so it was like we’re in a line and sitting down and I think the fireworks are still happening and i notice that my arm was cut by someone. So I don’t remember what else happened but I woke up. I guess it was just kind of that feeling of dread and still being confined in some way yet, also the recognition that it’s all here now. Like the duality, the light the dark, the good the bad etc.

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I was extra tired today and thus was experiencing some recon in the form of increased negative thoughts. They weren’t sticky though and I don’t get caught up in them, easier to let go.

Either way I feel fine with it because I know after a good night’s sleep I’ll probably feel great again. Also sometimes it just seems to be part of the process.

It’s day 3 of my 7 day break. I think with me having a custom in my stack that definitely requires me to add on to the recommended 5 day break after 21 day listening period. I think 7 is good and once I get into the next cycle I’ll have it pretty much dialed in, if I need to keep it at 10 day breaks or just keep it to 7.

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I woke up feeling much better. Now I have this idea in mind of switching back over to Chosen From Within instead of regular Chosen.

I’m sure there are still some things to iron out and I’d be happy to let that happen. So I’m really leaning towards doing that at least for one cycle depending on how things go.

I think maybe it’s the form of recon that has come up - the negative thoughts. I’d like to really turn that down even more and I think Chosen From Within and Love Bomb For Humanity are the two titles that I have that are best suited for the task.

I think this is the best course of action for me, to go with some more healing before I take on the task of EOG. More time with Chosen From Within is needed for me to be where I want to be with things in myself.

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So yesterday I woke up and decided to go back to CFW. Well it turns out that LBFH was already on the case and my conscious mind took it as I needed MORE healing. When I just needed to sit back and ride out the storm.

That’s what happened. I went to work. I did some breathing meditation twice (5 min breaks), once after an hour of work. Just did my best to let go. By the time I finished work I was laughing again and smiling and I literally hit all the green lights on my drive to the next jobsite.

So today feeling more positive for sure. I switched my playlists yesterday but now I switched them back. I’m sticking with regular Chosen and LBFH. I miss Chosen From Within but there are reports that it can be a rough ride to stack LBFH and CFW together. So I’ll continue with my Chosen momentum and take it into the 4th cycle in a few days.

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So this is new. I’ve kind of been back and forth in terms of highs and lows on this washout. I do think that’s the influence of LBFH doing healing and then at other times I’m like wow I feel great.

So that has me considering just taking a 10 day break again instead of 7. It’s been 5 but because of the back and forth nature I’m thinking it’s a good idea to give it more space to process. That will in my mind give me the best chance of another smooth 21 day listening cycle.