I just remembered one thing I wanted to report. That feeling of something missing has almost become familiar at times. The last time it came up it felt familiar and it was kind of just a reason to feel good. Nothing to try and figure out just knowing that whatever is missing isn’t important, certainly not in the moment. To me it’s now just a sign of progress.
This 21 day cycle of listening has gone by really quickly, and I’ll say pretty smoothly especially when compared to the last run.
CFW was definitely at work in my prior cycle and proved to be potent, and LBFH adds a different type of healing at least in my experience, since it is Love focused.
I only have 2 days left in my listening cycle and the only recon thing I’m noting is some slight tiredness. So I might try out a 7-8 day washout. Last time I did a 10 day break between listening cycles. I felt like around 7 or 8 I got I dunno I can’t explain it this sense, but I feel like that’s a good number based on my personal experience.
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I’m laughing because I have one listen left in this 21 day cycle. I’m once again feeling like Heartsong is what I need to really get this love/relationship stuff worked out. I’ll only have 3 cycles of Chosen under my belt and I want to keep going with it. But at the same time in one or two cycles with Heartsong, I could maybe accomplish a lot more inner freedom.
I’m planning on making a custom with Chosen and LBFH geared towards social/sales/flirting modules. So I could afford to gain from any healing and cleaning up that Heartsong will do.
I did feel some slight crankiness today. So this is a first for me, ending a cycle with a touch of slight recon. Overall recon has been really low and momentary when it happens this cycle.
I will make no changes to my stack because it’s only 1 cycle with LBFH and I definitely want 2 cycles with a stack as is before I would consider any changes.
Oh and I got a cougar checking me out today while driving. By the time my look reflex got to her she was already looking away playing non-chalant!
I also messaged another lady on Facebook but haven’t heard back. I just wonder what it is about driving where I seem to attract the ladies the most. I still think maybe it has something to do with that relaxed mindset and flow of driving. I’ve had zero luck in online dating adventures, at least up until now. So it was a nice little boost to have a cougar interested, though she may not have been single thus no eye contact with the older and wiser type. haha!
I guess I will be considering moving over to Genesis after all. I’ve got another month to decide on my path moving forward with work. I’ll have 3 cycles of Chosen done and even though I’m not looking forward to more recon, it might be just what I need to set my course. I’ve also been desiring to have a fun life again.
LBFH effects probably, I do notice I’m laughing more sometimes. I’m also really dedicated to the spiritual life once again. Like the whole practice of Who or what am I? Even to the point that if there were a subliminal that’s just that, I might try it.
So Genesis seems like the full package and it might be the right time for me to get on board.
today washout starts after my last listen of Chosen and LBFH.
I had changed my mind to start Genesis next cycle. But today I’m feeling really good, the best I’ve felt in a long time. Now I know Genesis is the talk of the town and could be the best title around right now. But l’m still thinking that I want to stick with my current stack. There’s been very little recon, I’m feeling great and I’d like to continue on that path instead of risking some more recon.
I’d really like to make this a long term stack and I think it’s the best stack I’ve been on so far. it’s been 3 cycles with Chosen and my Survival Instinct/Spartan custom, I think things are definitely still unfolding and I haven’t even reached the best of this stack. In another 3 cycles I think I’ll be much closer to fulfilling all the objectives.
Today was my last listening day before washout. I’m going to take 7 days off. I listened to LBFH and Chosen.
Today was the hardest day I’ve had the entire cycle. It was the lowest I’ve felt, followed the highest I felt which was yesterday.
So that has me once again leaning towards probably not changing anything for another cycle. That’ll make it an even 4 cycles with Chosen and my custom.
Now the next day I’m back to feeling what I think is that LBFH influence. There’s some really good feelings in there and I’m also feeling tired. LBFH is definitely still doing work on my last breakup situation. Still have some lack feeling pop up around relationships and even friends at times. So that’s another reason I want to stay on Chosen since I’m already started. Meet people who are more on the same wavelength.
So now I’m set on sticking to my stack for one more cycle then I’ll reevaluate. I think Genesis will be great but I also want to have maximum momentum with my current stack. So day 1 of my 7 days of no listening.
Definitely reading the Genesis thread has it on my radar. Also being what my stack currently is, I don’t have a place for it. To respect the Genesis properly I’d want to run only Genesis and LBFH together at least for that first cycle. My custom might be too much and I don’t want to deal with heavy recon. I’m not saying that will happen but I just want to approach the situation with respect in order to maximize my gains while minimizing any upheavals.
I feel absolutely zero pull to do EOG but I keep seeing people say that that’s something you gotta do. I don’t want to work for a living and at the very least I want maximum time and freedom. So EOG seems more practical for me to run than anything else.
I’m content as is for now. I don’t have the urge to build a custom out of Chosen and LBFH anymore, but I still can’t get myself to give up either title for EOG just yet.
PS. I matched my power prize number on this online lotto thing again yesterday. I also won a very small amount in a lottery, like $8. We don’t have scratch offs where I live and all we have is the big lotteries with the astronomical odds and the huge jackpots.
So I’ve still been considering my best move. I think at this point I’m more willing to step away from Chosen for awhile. Between my custom and LBFH I think I’m covered and I might be considering EOG to get some real world “practical” inner work that will result in outer results through taking action on ideas and opportunities.
I’m gonna chalk all the back and forth up to recon. It’s not as intense as it has been and I’m not hooked into it this time.
But I still can’t talk myself out of changing anything in my stack just yet. I feel like it’s still the foundational work. I plan on EOG being what I’d do next, and then once I’d get to stage 2 I’d bring on Genesis, I feel like that’s a dynamic duo.
So I’m staying the course. I feel like the social and inner status elevation and being looked at as someone who is valuable and worthy is just why I’ve got to keep going with Chosen. I’ve seen momentum and I know I’m not operating at its full potential just yet.
PS. I had a nightmare last night. I remember I was in this place outside and it was like disney land, fireworks and people around. But for some reason the situation changed and it was still the same scene, or place but now it was like a prison situation. Like there were these guys who wanted to kill me. so it was like we’re in a line and sitting down and I think the fireworks are still happening and i notice that my arm was cut by someone. So I don’t remember what else happened but I woke up. I guess it was just kind of that feeling of dread and still being confined in some way yet, also the recognition that it’s all here now. Like the duality, the light the dark, the good the bad etc.
I was extra tired today and thus was experiencing some recon in the form of increased negative thoughts. They weren’t sticky though and I don’t get caught up in them, easier to let go.
Either way I feel fine with it because I know after a good night’s sleep I’ll probably feel great again. Also sometimes it just seems to be part of the process.
It’s day 3 of my 7 day break. I think with me having a custom in my stack that definitely requires me to add on to the recommended 5 day break after 21 day listening period. I think 7 is good and once I get into the next cycle I’ll have it pretty much dialed in, if I need to keep it at 10 day breaks or just keep it to 7.
I woke up feeling much better. Now I have this idea in mind of switching back over to Chosen From Within instead of regular Chosen.
I’m sure there are still some things to iron out and I’d be happy to let that happen. So I’m really leaning towards doing that at least for one cycle depending on how things go.
I think maybe it’s the form of recon that has come up - the negative thoughts. I’d like to really turn that down even more and I think Chosen From Within and Love Bomb For Humanity are the two titles that I have that are best suited for the task.
I think this is the best course of action for me, to go with some more healing before I take on the task of EOG. More time with Chosen From Within is needed for me to be where I want to be with things in myself.
So yesterday I woke up and decided to go back to CFW. Well it turns out that LBFH was already on the case and my conscious mind took it as I needed MORE healing. When I just needed to sit back and ride out the storm.
That’s what happened. I went to work. I did some breathing meditation twice (5 min breaks), once after an hour of work. Just did my best to let go. By the time I finished work I was laughing again and smiling and I literally hit all the green lights on my drive to the next jobsite.
So today feeling more positive for sure. I switched my playlists yesterday but now I switched them back. I’m sticking with regular Chosen and LBFH. I miss Chosen From Within but there are reports that it can be a rough ride to stack LBFH and CFW together. So I’ll continue with my Chosen momentum and take it into the 4th cycle in a few days.
So this is new. I’ve kind of been back and forth in terms of highs and lows on this washout. I do think that’s the influence of LBFH doing healing and then at other times I’m like wow I feel great.
So that has me considering just taking a 10 day break again instead of 7. It’s been 5 but because of the back and forth nature I’m thinking it’s a good idea to give it more space to process. That will in my mind give me the best chance of another smooth 21 day listening cycle.
A couple days back when I was having a rough day. I switched my playlist to Chosen From Within and Lovebomb instead of Chosen. Well after that recon broke and I was laughing and hitting all the green lights, I had more of the people experience. I was driving and in a good mood, at ease. I saw this group of I dunno 6 guys business guys, one was definitely a built guy who probably lives in the gym. So I felt like this intensity there and he was looking at me but I remained at ease and just held his gaze, and he backed off it.
Then a couple blocks later there was a guy and his gf coming out of the bar. I thought he was like the fun party stoner type dude. So I was just looking at him and as soon as he made eye contact he darted his eyes away and kept looking down. I just find it kind of funny and it put in a better mood and I was laughing about it because I literally wasn’t doing anything. I was at ease and have to chalk it up to the status boost of Chosen, the negativity repelling of LBFH, and more of the same repellent effect from my custom.
Still back and forth, this after 3 cycles of my custom and Chosen, first cycle with LBFH in this stack (like 5th cycle all time.)
Yesterday I was driving home and got stared down by some gangster types. The kind who even if there is a zero % chance of them winning a fight, their pride or ego whatever it is will never let them back down. Then I was further on my route and was getting tailgated hard for almost half the drive. I just remained relaxed and calm. Yet I must be dealing with some recon as it was still kind of getting to me.
Today I was supposed to meet with somebody to buy something off a local classified site, and didn’t anticipate traffic so I couldn’t turn where I wanted. I had to go the opposite way and find a way to loop back. So I made it five minutes after our agreed upon time. I got there and the person was just leaving as I was turning around. It was my fault because I took the chance that I’d make it on time, which I was! But I wasn’t expecting the person I was dealing with to have zero patience. So I should have pulled over and texted that I might be a couple minutes late due to traffic. So the person left and I never got to check out this item that I was really excited about. I’ll just buy a brand new one.
A little tired too, sleep hasn’t been as consistent as I’d like. Having lots of dreams yet but I don’t remember them much. Just everytime I wake up it’s from a dream.
So I’m planning on taking 10 day washout. So that’s just a couple more days to get back into it. Things are still being ironed out so that I can maximally express the subliminals and it’ll just take some more patience on my part.
I did notice that yesterday there was a construction worker working near by who seemed to respect me and almost seemed inspired to do his work with that extra something. And I also noticed this cute chick who works at a restaurant seems to have some kind of pleasant attitude toward me. This is probably that submission thing that I’ve seen others talk about. I haven’t been in social situation or seen many attractive women in my day to day life, so it’s something new. So it’s still a mixed bag but enough positives to keep me dedicated to the stack.
Update: a few hours later it’s workout time and I just caught myself feeling cranky and I started laughing. haha. I’m able to roll with the punches pretty easily. I don’t dwell on things like I used to. It’s kind of moment to moment. Just a matter of coming back to realizing oh yea I’m just caught up right now and then I see through it and start laughing.
I’m not big on angel number synchronicities. I see them all the time. Today I’ve probably seen the number 17 17 times haha. No I haven’t been counting but maybe the way it’s been going. I even forgot about it until just now I went to refresh the page and there were 17 new posts. haha.
I’ve started to notice some manifestations coming in. Nothing where it’s like I’m gonna manifest this, just sort of small random things. I’ve never got manifestation or intuition to the point where i’ve got it down to a science. I just know there’s something there but as far as what makes it work, I don’t know. In my experience it’s never been just work hard. It’s always something that when it works, it’s effortless and really does fall into my lap. But I still work hard and do a good job at what I do for a paycheck.
I went to sleep a little later than I wanted and woke up many times from nightmares. Also vaguely remember waking up laughing. So a busy night for me.
I start back up tomorrow. Day 1 coming on the day of the full moon! 10 day washout completes today.
I just did my trip to the grocery. There was a small cart available today! But it looked busy from the parking lot. I got in there and right in front by the fruits and veggies there was a group of people who were just standing there talking, not shopping.
so I wasn’t actually going that way so I went to the side to go around and my cart kind of slammed into one of the bins when i took the detour. I was not phased at all, it knocked my headphone cable out, but I didn’t have any kind of reaction, stayed calm and at ease. Plugged back in and kept right on smooth sailing. But one of the ladies that was there congregating made sure to make a comment about it. I don’t care what she said, was not phased in the least. i think maybe someone needed to see what it’s like to not be phased and not react, maybe it was me! hahaha.
So to me that’s progress, my efforts are once again proving to be paying off. Not where I’d like to be of course, but finally seeing results popping in so that’s just more motivation and inspiration to keep at it.
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I’ve been out at the river all day. Still very much in hermit mode in terms of doing spiritual work. Which is just releasing and listening to my favorite teacher.
My first interaction today was a stop at the petrol station of course. I was going in there was a guy coming out, now my first thought is this guy is like one of those older rough and tough hard edged guys, he kinda has that look. Well he was very accommodating to me. He seemed to have forgot something so he turned around to go back in. I had the sense that I just keep walking he’s gonna hold the door for me and I didn’t. But he was to the door first and looking at me like that’s what was gonna happen too! haha! Must be some of that Chosen royalty kicking in.
But I kind of realize tonight after the day is pretty much over. I realize that some of the nicest people like legit good people don’t always look it. I think they have the look because they know the world’s not always nice and yet they stay nice or good underneath the out appearance.
Just got back from picking up a pizza for dinner. I don’t go to this place anymore, or haven’t in awhile. The food was not up to par and they always had new people working everytime I’d go there. Well it was the same manager lady from last time I was there. As soon as she saw me she rolled her eyes. ahahaha! So my first thought is well I don’t need to come back here anymore. But I didn’t get caught up in that type of thinking. Just stayed calm, relaxed, at ease. By the end of that short interaction I was once again not phased and she really seemed to lighten up as well, so I left feeling like yea I’d go back. Then I was laughing on my drive home.
So on my way back into the city from the river spot, the closer I got to the city the more anxious I felt. So I just kept releasing and instead of talking myself out of pizza I just went and did it. And it turned out great.
Got a full 10 hours of sleep and followed up with day 1 of 21 day cycle. I listened to LBFH and Chosen, in that order.
It’s been like an hour later, I’m definitely feeling some pleasant sensations in my body. Still groggy but definitely feeling like I’ve had a nice injection of positivity and just nice sensations.
I gotta work out today and it’s also a work day. At this point not feeling extra motivated but no less than usual. I’ve upped the intensity of my workouts so I’ve been taking more rest days as my body adjusts. I haven’t found the perfect balance of how to structure yet to maintain the low impact low intensity mobility and cardio stuff yet.
I’ve been able to fit into a belt and shorts I thought I’d never fit in. We’re taking it back to jr. high size as far as waist. I haven’t been strict about a fat loss plan besides just sticking to keto with a one day refeed every week. It’s been that I can eat whatever I want one day a week and it’s been surprising to me that I actually look even better the next day. I definitely think part of it is my job because it is an active working job but I’ve also been able to keep up with working out, just not always as consistent as I want because I want to stay injury free and be able to recover so I’m not always miserable being sore and what not.
My plan is to rest up and keep releasing and see what comes up next for me. I’ve gotten a little break in my work load for a month or two, whenever I decide or find something else to add in. I’m not looking to get back to a work politic place anytime soon though. I’d actually want some time with Khan and PCC if I ever have to do that again. 