Getting some of that humor back. I just had a thought come up from something that probably traumatized me a little bit. So instead of trying to let it go or imagine what I’d like to do. I just said something to the person in my mind in the situation that made me laugh! LBFH on scene, baby!
This am was my first loop of my Spartan/SI Custom this cycle.
I just kept it to light mobility today just kind of a recovery day.
I got to work and Spartan was definitely kicking in. Confidence in my movements, relaxed and smooth, just kind of in the flow and in the zone. Even ended the night and surprised myself with some pinpoint movements the kind where you don’t think about it you just do it. Like having good aim and timing and all that. I don’t train martial arts but a lot of those movements come out just from being in that relaxed body flow place, it’s just really good stuff.
Mentally was really good day as well, I’d say was more into what I was doing than thinking during my workout and at work. I noticed while I was working out at one point I was focused in on the muscles and bracing in the right places just being mindful in my movements having the mind/body/muscle connection.
Confidence was higher as well.
I think I’m getting to the good stuff with my stack on this 4th cycle.
I think 10 days off every 21 days is a good number for me. Especially with my fully loaded custom in the mix.
I feel like I’m getting to the good stuff and also it’s not quite smooth sailing, cool breezes all the time. Going through changes and shifting isn’t always a great time, that’s with anything though. The trick is to remain as graceful as you can and just appreciate the rough moments.
My mindset is definitely on making the most of my fitness and working out. There’s still some desire to meet the right people, friends, lovers, etc. I’m also deep diving into my spiritual/inner work. My work is just taking responsibility for whatever comes up in my experience. I’ve been working within me, not with the stories just the feelings. Letting the feelings be and it’s just energy, it dissolves or changes into something better when not resisted.
There’s some desire to get on to EOG stage 1. But I still think this is my foundation stack and am just being patient and going with it.
I think I’m going through some deeper changes, so not seeing any trailer effects this cycle. Though tomorrow is my third listen, it seems like ages ago! I had to remind myself that yes I definitely had some great moments from my first two listens.
Again, I seem to be undergoing some deeper changes and it’s interesting that this phenomenon is back. I used to notice on previous tech that there’d be times like I could be on the lowest lows and at other times I’d completely have forgotten about it and be on the highest highs. So on my 4th cycle I’m still overcoming things and the payoff seems a little further down the road again.
I haven’t really been noticing any outward results, I will say at least not today, lol. I’m sure there are things that I’ve forgotten about already as I’m tired and perhaps some background battle is still going on. A good night’s sleep and a loop of my custom tomorrow and could be a great day! A good night’s sleep usually turns things around.
noticed more of those status increase hits, like people will notice my energy but when I look at them they would immediately look down and wouldn’t make eye contact.
also noticed some safety vibes, where i could tell people just felt at ease and safe to be themselves in front of me.
I notice that as I release a lot of that old fear and trauma whatever it is, my mind will have a favorite bad thought that’ll be it’s favorite and at some point I’ll have released that and then eventually a new one will come up. So it’s gone through a few now so it’s not so much of a big deal anymore. I just keep releasing the fear and non-love basically any time it comes up. Any non-love or fear comes up I immediately will release it. I won’t get into debate because this is my practice and for me all the non-love and fear is covering up the “true self.” So my practice is to let go and realize that true self which is why I’m surprised that I don’t have any pull to try out Revelation of Mind or Revelation of Spirit at this time.
some wanting to plan ahead came up. I still am considering Heartsong. Though, it’s easy to put it off once I remember that I may have to go through some changes and rearranging in that dept and that title will probably shake things up.
I don’t think I’ve maximized the healing from my custom and certainly not LBFH just yet. So I’m content to let it ride on my same stack for another 2 cycles for sure. The plan was if anything to start on EOG as my next title since that will be something I’d like to stick with for a year.
And then come summer time I might be ready to take a break from my custom and chosen just for a breather to try out this new wanted black and whatever else fancies me for a couple cycles.
I had a thing happen at the store the other day where a lady made a comment. Now it hits me that I’ve had that a few years back. I’d tried out khan stage 1 for a few cycles. Well I had some lady argue with me one time and I wasn’t used to that or something and it kind of knocked me around. The same personality type and all I was doing was walking out when she was walking in. It was during the arrow days where u could only walk this way or that way and i was going out but she wanted to argue with me about how I was being rude to be in HER way! haha!
I didn’t like people treating me poorly and that’s why I tried out Khan in the first place. I didn’t stick with it. So it seems I really am on the right stack for me. Chosen seems to be just the right kind of alpha that I like. It doesn’t ruffle feathers and have random roofers stand up as I drive by because for some reason they think I’m challenging them when I’m cool as a cucumber minding my own business haha!
I had no reaction to that lady this time around, didn’t even phase me one bit. so it seems to be a type of personality in some women and they’re looking for that argument to get their fix. luckily that’s extremely rare for me to encounter.
I bought Wanted Black. So my new plan is to take a breather from Chosen and LBFH.
I will continue my custom and use Wanted Black in my next cycle. I plan on following the suggestion and only using WB for 3 minutes as I gauge its effects on self and other.
What pushed me over the edge was reading some of the reports. Healing, Confidence, Coolness, what I’d call maybe some Flow State, Social benefits.
I think it will be a nice shake up from my current routine and I’d like to test the new tech and maybe this will bring out my social side and heal some issues to get me back to being more fun and social. Regular Wanted did bring out a couple of instances of socialability for me beyond what I’d consider normal. I think that’s an area of my life that would really propel me in all areas really.
So the plan is 1 or 2 cycles and then I will be back to the plan of maybe EOG. I think WB may help me get a clearer picture, I might even come back with Genesis at that time first depending on how WB goes.
I’m at the halfway point in this 4th cycle with my custom and Chosen and 2nd cycle for LBFH.
Was kind of a rough day yesterday. I started the day woke up feeling pretty great, like I finally got a blast of that LBFH goodness. So it was a listening day LBFH and Chosen.
I still have some fear coming through but on the one hand that’s good because that means it’s coming up so it can be seen and released. The more I release it the better life gets. We’re talking the holdbacks and insecurities and mind made junk. So things are definitely being overhauled.
I bought Wanted Black and plan on using it for a cycle or two in place of Chosen. I do think it’d be a good idea to keep riding the LBFH train since I’ll only have 2 cycles of it in this rotation. I still like 4 minimum cycles, but even more is probably better it’s just that all the progress made around here, new titles and tech upgrades make it challenging to stick with 4 cycles per title sometimes.
I think Wanted Black seems to be just what I need after 4 cycles of Chosen. But I also think if I stick with Chosen things would just continue to get better. I’m planning 2 cycles of Wanted Black and then I think it’s time to go to EOG and either keep Wanted Black or bring back one of the Chosen titles. I think Chosen Way of Nature would be interesting to follow up Wanted Black.
Note for myself: ramp up Wanted black. Start at 30 second listens and keep adding 30 seconds every listen.
Today I changed my mind to stick with my stack.
But then I read the Wanted Black thread and once again decided to try it out next cycle.
It just has the potential to unlock a lot of things for me. Then if I come back to Chosen I think the experience would just be enhanced.
I’ve also had some moments where I just feel that positivity and goodness and am like yea as long as I just stick to the stack it’s going to get better and better.
So my plan next cycle with WB is to drop all of my titles down to 30 seconds each and just ramp them up from there. Instead of a prolonged washout, I’ll do that and keep this upcoming break to 10 days as is my new norm.
I’ve dealt with some recon in the past and so I’ve got that healthy respect now and certainly have the discipline to start at 30 seconds and add 30 seconds each listen.
Again, I’m back to sticking with my original stack. I’m going to chalk it up to the modules I have in the custom. I have wayfinder and way of roi, and achille’s heel modules in the custom. I think they are keeping me with this stack because it really is the best stack I’ve been on so far.
I’m not out in social situations enough to really make the most of Wanted Black at this time. But that’s also something I think WB could unlock for me.
I’m at 4 cycles of my stack and because in the past I haven’t been fully satisfied at 4 cycles, I want to go to 6 cycles minimum. Especially with the best stack that I’ve run for me! It could still get a full year but I don’t think LBFH will get a full year. I will probably go to EOG as my next title when the time arrives.
I did make a trip to Walmart today and any of the anxiety is way quieted down. I’m not yet where I want to be and there are so many good signs that I just feel way more at ease. It’s only a matter of time before I’m having a lot more fun. I am loving whatever my stack is doing for me and I just gotta stick with it.
WB will have to wait until next year. Once I realized that the script of WB is double, that for me says I wouldn’t want to try and stack it with my custom. Since my custom is non-negotiable I stick to my current stack. Though I was fully ready to commit to the 30 second listen and add 30 seconds each listen, I think that would be what I’d do with WB in my stack.
So my LBFH slot is the wiggle room for me. I have Sex and Seduction and I could go that route for a couple cycles. I also always have PCC on the back burner. But most practical would really be to get on EOG, at least what I think would be most practical, then there would be no more negotiables in my stack until a year comes for my custom and chosen. We’ll probably have the updated versions by then and it’s just getting too much too think about.
So I’m keeping it simple. Sticking to the plan with possible change out of LBFH for S&S to keep it light and to test the waters in that area of life, or PCC which is something I definitely want in my box of tricks and tools.
Update: Probably just recon. Hasn’t been much in terms of emotional upheaval and if there has been I’ve forgotten about it. The most noticeable form is just this trying to plan and figure out my stack moving forward. So I just read through the objectives for Chosen and LBFH and I’m sticking to my guns. That seems to be the case that I’m sticking through it no matter how much I go back and forth to switching.
I want to fulfill those objectives and I don’t think I’ve gotten anywhere close to meeting all the objectives to my highest potential. I’ve certainly gotten the ball rolling.
So I think I’m just going through some battles in the unconscious. I’m feeling some low anxiety but mostly good.
I definitely don’t think I’ve truly unlocked myself yet to where I’m really living in harmony with the subs. So still overhauling at the last half of my 4th cycle with my custom and Chosen.
If I had friends and people i was around regularly, I think they’d probably see massive changes in me. But I don’t so I have to go on my own experience and awareness.
Generally I’m not in social situations or around people, I get to work alone and generally only see people while I’m driving to work or getting food etc.
Now I’m all but set on making EOG my next title. It’s just I don’t want to give up on Chosen or LBFH to make that happen just yet.
I have noticed only positive or neutral reactions to me from strangers lately. I really haven’t had any negativity from anyone since maybe a cycle or two ago when I was in heavy recon. I caught the attention of one of those trouble maker types who is looking for fights, but I was just driving by in that kind of anger recon but that hasn’t happened since. Other than that, for the past couple weeks nothing but positive or neutral reactions from people.
At times feeling like it’s only a matter of time and the right situation for me to be social again. Like it’s starting to feel much more natural instead of the anxiety around people that I used to deal with massively.
I dunno what it is. But maybe I’m finally getting to the self love from LBFH. Tonight I"m realizing that I don’t think I even want to be in a relationship. For the longest time I only wanted to be with the one and it turns out she just never felt the same for me, at least that’s the story on my side. I’m not even heartbroken anymore. It’s just I always thought I’d get over it and move and meet someone else.
Now I’m to the point where I don’t think I even want to. So maybe it’s temporary but also maybe I’m finally getting to that truer happiness that depends on no circumstance, I dunno. Just wanted to make note before I go to bed. A lot of my previous recon with LBFH was all about that one relationship that I wanted more than anything and I’ve had times where I thought I was over it. But now it’s like I feel like I’m over that need to try and get fulfillment from a relationship. So we’ll see where this goes. Not what I was expecting. I still will try Wanted Black at some point just for the sake of experimentation.
haha! Now I’ve decided that next cycle I will finally get around to Heartsong. I will keep it paired with Chosen and my custom. So I’ll back everything down to 3 minutes for my listening times on my titles.
I just feel like some of the results that have been reported are definitely some things that I could use. So that’s my plan now. I think LBFH finally resolved some things and I think I’ll keep LBFH as a 2 cycle title in the future. It can just clear some things up and be a nice booster.
Yea so it seems pretty clear to me that my next course of action is Heartsong!
I feel like I’ve gotten myself taken care of and I’m ready to tackle relationships in a big way now. Heartsong makes me feel a little scared, but in the good way that you know it’s going to be good for you, so maybe more excitement is the word.
One thing I’m kind of missing is that I’m not always seeing the beauty in life like I used to. So I also took a peek at Alchemist but CWON might be the best choice. I just don’t want to give up on Chosen.
Today I’m realizing that LBFH’s influence is so subtle that it’s definitely doing its “healing” work. I’ve had a healing title in my stack for the last 5 cycles, previously it was CFW which was rough for a cycle or two.
So I purchased CWON and plan to use that for the next two cycles or more. I have always thought I don’t want to use it during Winter as I’m not outside anyway. So my plan is to follow it up with Heartsong but by then that could change once again.
I was reading through the CWON thread and I’m excited to double up the Chosen juice and someone said it was the first title that caused them minimal to no recon. So I think I’m ready for another breather there.
Finally got into some euphoria yesterday. So I think LBFH has been and continues to work but I’m still changing to CWON because I really want to get back into that nature stuff again. 3 listening days left until I take a break. It’s been fairly light and I’d consider a 5 day washout again but 10 is probably best just because I’m switching titles CWON for LBFH.
Last night I had some stuff coming up I thought I was over. Once again it was the stuff around the one I always wanted but will never be with. It had me reconsidering things once again. Made me think maybe I should put Heartsong into the mix to get over this stuff already. But if it’s coming up that makes me think it’s LBFH doing it’s work. I’d even consider doing like a 30 second loop of Heartsong each time these pangs come on, that might actually work.
Well it’s time for my loop of LBFH and Chosen. 
Later:
So there’s definitely some wanting to stick with LBFH since it’s obviously still doing some work. I’m also curious to get to the positive manifestation aspects. I’ve done a total of 6 cycles with it now, the latest 2 consecutively.
But I think CWON is close enough to where I’m not gonna miss LBFH. I really want to get back to appreciating the beauty of nature again. I’m just gonna stay focused on finding out about the good that CWON will add to the mix.
It’ll be nice to have a break from having a full time healing title in my stack. Since none of my titles are considered healing titles once I bring on CWON in place of LBFH.
I’m pretty sure I’m reconning. Just in how I’m going over the decision to switch out LBFH. I just won’t give up my custom or Chosen and LBFH is doing work. Since I’m having recon I normally would be determined to stick it out at least one more cycle. But since there aren’t too many months left before the cold/winter season, I just need to get on CWON so I can make the most these last few months being in nature. I’ll just keep in mind that there is enough similarity that I’m really not missing anything but gaining what I want in nature appreciation, emotional control, intuitive boost and eating more healthy for my body.
Luck has been on the increase and manifestations has definitely been on the increase this past few days. Money luck, nothing major but I kind of set the intention that I wanted to start finding money again. I found a pile of pennies after work in an empty parking spot. Then today I found out I won a very small amount $8 in the lottery, no billion yet.
Yesterday I was having that thing where things you thought about the day before were popping up, had at least 4 of those occurrences. I know the Reticular Activating System I think it’s called where if yellow car is on your mind you see them everywhere. Well these are things I have seen or spoken about nowhere besides my own mind. They’re not part of my daily life, that’s why it was kind of mind blowing. Small things yea, but definitely beat the odds of chance.
So whatever recon I was going through was worth it. It wasn’t bad recon just the kind where I’d have a high then the lows would come back, more sadness type and maybe some anxiety. If I’ve had any anger this cycle is was very momentary.
I’m really considering to micro loop at least my first listen of all my titles next cycle. So I might keep my washout to 5 days since I plan on 30 second to 3 minute listens for a cycle just to experiment.
Alright, Sunday is my last listening day of this cycle.
I have decided that since I still seem to be struggling with something, rather than add a new major title to the mix. It’s best to do a cycle of Rebirth and then reassess. Still seems to be some holdbacks and resistance or recon. So I’d like to give Rebirth a chance to clear things up because I really do want to make the most of my custom and Chosen and am not willing to change them yet. So after 4 cycles I’m going with Rebirth. May have been a smart idea to have used Rebirth to start, but of course I wanted everything all at once! But I’ve gained some wisdom.