Survival Instinct Spartan Custom

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#101

I’m now a proud owner of Dragon Reborn: Limit Destroyer. I plan to take a 12 day washout and then begin it.

I’m only going to use my custom and DRLD for my first cycle with it. I want to lessen the chance of recon and also give it the best chance to really knock away at any limitations around my custom. Then I’ll bring back Chosen for the second cycle with DRLD. I am not too worried about losing anything from Chosen, plus I’ll be curious to see how that bloom, blossoms. lol. So I’m thinking I will attempt the 30 second loops and increase 30 seconds each listen up to 3 minutes if it goes smooth.

Update: Well, now I’m going back and forth, do I keep Chosen? should I just run a cycle with this and LBFH?

All attractive. If I run a cycle with LBFH that’d mean I’d stop my custom and chosen for a month. I do think it would be worth it and DRLD has enough in there that I feel like I’d be okay without my custom and chosen to really tackle the self love. I think self love could be the core issue anyway. I’ve been wanting to not deal with toxic people, i want to blast out of that reality. I want to be in the reality of being around good decent people where I don’t have to maneuver like with PCC and avoid being manipulated and all that.

That’s kind of what my custom was for, mental and physical fortitude and to maybe have a shield against all the unwanted people situations. So I’ll be going over it for the next 12 days I’m sure. But I do like that idea, when else would I have a chance to try and go right at the root or core issue for a cycle? I would definitely bring back my custom after 1 cycle off of it, I’m sure I’d want to get back to Chosen as well.

So I just might be doing LBFH and DRLD for a cycle. Instead of super conservative I think I’ll just stick to the original plan of starting at 30 seconds and increasing by 30 seconds each loop seeing where things end up. Potentially getting to 5 mins to end a 21 day cycle.

Update: I think I’ve finalized my plan for the next 2 cycles potentially. Certainly the next 1. I’m going with 3 titles: Sanguine ZPv2, LBFH, and DRLD. I think that’s what I’m feeling right now. The perfect resetter stack, breather stack just to recuperate and refresh myself.

#102

I’ve again switched back to sticking with my custom, LBFH, and DRLD for my next 2 cycles.

I’m okay with leaving out Chosen because I still keep coming up with stuff around relationships and I guess inner limitations. I feel like I could massively benefit from Heartsong just strictly for the healing.

But my plan now is do some DRLD and then after that the next move would be to get started on EOG since that’s something to stick with for a year. New titles are making it even more difficult to stick to a plan. But at this point I’m going back to basics with DRLD and custom and LBFH, I feel like I still have some stuff to overcome before I’m closer to really making the most of my titles.

#103

So far I’m feeling fine on this washout. So fine that I’m even considering going back to a 5 day break instead of the 10 I’ve taken the last 2 cycles.

So that’s the plan just to stick to 5 days and bring in DRLD at that day 12 of not listening to Chosen.

I’ve been sticking to my releasing/letting go and listening to Lester Levenson every night has me just going for it again.

#104

Luck and manifestations are picking up lately. It’s just like I’m getting more into the flow and not trying to make things happen, but I still go about my life, go to work, and things happen for me.

#105

5 days off and I’m back at it. I did a 3 minute loop of my custom. I didn’t notice any sensations, I think I’d have to do some meditation or focused relaxation to get in the mood for that. At 15 minute loops it just happens that I have time to get settled in to be aware of the subtleties and sensations. But it does take until around the end of 15 minutes when I typically would notice those anyway.

Definitely an experimental cycle for me. I’m going 3 minute loops until I bring in DRLD and then I’ll drop everything down to 30 seconds and add 30 seconds each listen.

#106

So I noticed the effects of some recon after my first loop of my custom at 3 mins. For five days I was feeling pretty good, mind settled mostly.

But after I listened to my loop, my mind was pressing the button on an unwanted fear type thought. I of course never give in to such thoughts. Yet I did notice that it came up.

So there seems to be some limitations to overcome in regards to my custom. I’m not anticipating a fun time on DRLD because of this but I’ll be keeping my loop times so low that I’m not really concerned about it. Just going to ease and power through it.

Also I did notice that warrior type vibe and mentality coming to the forefront already. So at 3 mins I definitely am seeing and noticing effects. I want to be more peaceful and just be left alone for now. I just want to feel at ease in my self and world. So I think LBFH is a nice balancer to my custom. I guess I want to be the peaceful gardener who still has all the tools and know how and ability to handle war, but doesn’t need to, but it’s there should it come to that.

#107

I think I’m looking forward to being back to the basics for awhile. That being my custom and LBFH and now DRLD.

I think after I come off this cycle I might try out Heartsong finally. That seems to be one of my main issues yet, relationships and dealing with whatever junk or baggage may be there. And then I will definitely get around to EOG.

I love Chosen but I think for now I’ll let it bloom and stick with the basics. My custom is my main title, and LBFH is definitely a necessary component for me. DRLD will just level it all up.

I think for me my custom is kind of my own attempt at Genesis. I also wanted that physical health,fitness focus in there as well.

So again it’ll be a toss up for Genesis and Heartsong after this cycle.

#108

I continue to be impressed with how well my physique is holding up. I was strict keto for awhile. I’ve been pretty lax the last few months and I haven’t put on fat. But it is one of those things where I mostly keep to my dinner meal, after work and workout end of the day I’ll have a soda and if there’s something else that’s a bit junky I’ll eat it, not everyday I’m still being sensible. I think it also has to be with being in a calorie deficit on keto, I don’t know how I’d do a maintenance or bulk on keto.

So I read somewhere that that’s kind of the old time kind of diet. Where in the summer and fall you’re eating those carbs because they’re plentiful and in season. But get to the cold winter months and you’re running on that fat burning furnace because all your stored carb sources are depleted so it’s like mainly animal protein and fats until summer.

I’m being patient and have been slowly building myself back into athletic shape. So it’s mostly daily conditioning type basic calistenthics for joint health at higher reps for that conditioning factor. Then every four days I do my high intensity workouts where if I really want to max out to build strength and muscle that’s when I do it. For me it kind of works out because I have a physical job and it lets me recover without being miserable at the end of the work week.

Also have a few aches and pains in the knees and elbows so I stay mindful of that and don’t just push through it. So I’m sure my mind wants to bring out those attributes from my custom, the injury healing recovery, tendon, joint health aspects from Spartan and Survival Instinct. That’s definitely something I’m looking forward to bringing out with DRLD.

#109

I haven’t really noticed anymore recon symptoms since the first listen of this cycle. I have been noticing that I’m more able to get settled in and focus on my task. A lot of that anxious type mind is quieting down more quickly and stays settled longer. So I’m able to get into more of a flow with my physical actions and having a quiet mind. So to me that’s pretty big. If that’s all got I think that would take me much further than anything else.

Tomorrow will be day 1 of bringing DRLD on board. I will begin at 30 seconds and all my titles will go to 30 minutes and I will increase the listening time by 30 seconds on each listen.

I guess I can notice a little healing going on at times, I think that’s LBFH and a couple modules in my custom at work, dealing with relationships and love.

I have been reminiscing lately about when I tried Primal Seduction Iron Throne, I was getting results (attraction from women) but internally wasn’t yet aligned with that reality. But thoughts of wanting to try out Primal Seduction again have been surfacing. I just didn’t notice much from regular Wanted when I tried it out but maybe that title just wasn’t aligned with my natural nature when it comes to the archetypes. Wanted did make me feel like I need that Heartsong healing first. So from my experience Primal Seduction definitely got what I wanted as far as women showing undeniable interest.

At that point it didn’t matter if they talked to me because I already knew it was on. I just had some catching up to do in terms of the inner game so I went back to healing titles. I guess I should have tried Rebirth and Limit Destroyer alongside my one main title.

This is kind of a nice reflection and journal moment for me. I haven’t been trying to figure anything out in terms of what’s happening with the subliminals this cycle. It’s kind of been set it and forget it mode. But now I kind of get some of that reflection and journaling action happening. It wasn’t forced where I said I have to journal or figure things out. It just is happening naturally which is really how I prefer things.

So for me the cycle looks like every 2-3 days where I’ll have some insights and reflection to journal about.

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#110

I woke up noticing that I’m feeling primal as of late. As in just feeling that vibe in myself. Also there was some of that wanting to be on primal seduction, but I wouldn’t call it recon at this point. Just that it would probably synergize nicely with my vibe.

I have been taking one of those natural testosterone supplements. I’m on like bottle 3. I won’t say the brand but it’s one of those multi ingredient things with like tongkat ali, fadogia, boron and other stuff. Seems to be working and it fits right into my custom in terms of supporting the goals.

It’s so early in the cycle and I just feel like having a thinned out stack is the way to go. So just having that tighter focus by having the one main title, my custom, and then having supporting titles rather than another major title.

I think a lot of that healing has helped me feel just more freer in myself. I used to have insecurities around people and now I feel like I’m really stepping into my masculinity. Like I’m not falling prey to the frame of other people so much. I have the module Iron Frame in my custom and I could see and feel how it must be working.

Well maybe it is the title switching recon! I’m planning to see how I can maybe add S&S to the mix. At this rate any changes are 2 cycles away. I want to use my current stack unchanged for at least 2 but by then it’s wintertime and I probably wouldn’t be in dating mode anyway. lol. It’s nothing serious at this point. Just keeping things light.

I just started to buy my next custom in batches. In a couple of months my birthday is coming up so it’s an excuse for me to do a custom. I’m thinking LBFH and S&S. I want to keep it light and straight forward in terms of being a couple light cores and minimal healing. I’ve had a few modules that didn’t make it into my current custom. I’ll be happy to try those out finally. Also want to gear it towards being more social with the ladies and add in a couple of elements that will keep me in a positive light, the kind of thing I liked so much with Chosen.

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#111

I’m not sure what came over me but I’ve already got my next custom ready to go. I just need to finalize it and have it built. I will hold off on that until my birthday.

Why I want the S&S element? I’m not sure. I guess I do want to meet women instead of just going with a social title. I’m not big on socializing and workout and work is kind of my life. I could just use some companionship, someone who fits in to that would be nice.

I’m not pulled toward heartsong like I was before. I think it’s because I see more practical skill building with S&S at this time. When I have those basic skills down then I’d like to move into the heartsong arena at that point.

But for now S&S seems like the next logical step for me. It’ll be more fun along with some more healing with LBFH before I get to the heartsong stuff. I will also add in the true sell module so I can use it in both business and romance as a transition and a foundation.

I’m still looking at it like building the foundation rather than jumping to the most sexy and exciting things. I’ve done that in the past and just know for me it’s best to take it in steps or increments.

I see myself sticking with these 2 customs until summer. For now I’m content with my survival instinct spartan custom and this new custom I think will just be the balancer to that. Where si spartan is geared more towards kind of defensive and squashing any unwanted negativity, this LBFH S&S custom will be more geared towards having the skills and confidence to pursue what I want in terms of relationships with the kinds of people I want.

#112

Today was my first loop of my custom at 30 seconds.

I resisted doing it for only 30 seconds. But I did. It seems like it still had an effect in terms of increasing the load on my mind/energy systems. After I was done listening I felt almost like I could just take a nap. I didn’t because it’s workout time so I reached for the pre-workout instead and am going to work out.

I got ghosted again. At first I was kind of going to go into the lower feelings but I didn’t. I wasn’t too attached anyway. There was literally no reason for it either. I did kind of laugh about it.

It makes me feel like maybe Pride Unbroken is at work, keeping me in good spirits. It also makes me wish that Code of Loyalty module could get turned up more. Pride Unbroken is to deal with and heal having been ghosted or abandoned kind of vibes. Code of Loyalty is for helping you know who you can be loyal to and who you shouldn’t be loyal to. Also supposed to make your close ones more loyal to you and you to them.

Okay, so I got ghosted and now one of my old best friends has been trying to call me the last couple of days. He has a family and stuff now and we haven’t hung out like in easily 10 years or really been in any contact for at least that long as well. So maybe some Code of Loyalty at work there. I kind of moved on from this friend and kind of gave up on it and put it to bed. I gave up on the hope that I’d get my old friends back and I’ve been more geared towards just what’s in front of me and whatever I’m doing now. Also have had in the back of my mind that I do want to meet new people, maybe not a lot but just a few legit people would be nice.

I think the people manifestation for me specifically has been lax in any titles I’ve tried. That’s probably due to a lot of trauma and wounds from the past around people. So I don’t knock SC for that. Maybe things are finally coming around on that aspect, there’s at least movement and non-attachment and those are always positives in my book.

#113

LBFH influence seems to be coming through more. I would even say it’s just the whole combo. Some possible Chosen bloom coming through as well just in terms of positive feelings. joie de vivre- Enjoying life, loving your ambitions, having fun working towards your goals, walking your journey with joy. It is a great gift in life. Joie de Vivre helps you achieve this gift.

I seem to be getting that kind of vibe at times. It’s almost like sanguine type vibes. I don’t exactly have a plan or goals besides to continue on my path of self-realization. For me that’s just basically the self inquiry method of Who or what am I? until realization, but in the meantime I just release and let go of all the feelings and resistance.

Definitely at times some of that healing happening, what I mean by that is just that those lower feelings from the past or situations that didn’t work out. Those thoughts and feelings come up and I just let them go. A lot of the time it’s just well am I this thought or feeling? Well no, i’m not any thought or feeling. But just coming back to that and releasing until joy, or peace etc. It’s getting more simpler and that’s always kind of been my trajectory with things. Not to get more complicated but to get more simple. Instead of doing more it’s just understanding what I’m doing so there’s no wasted effort, no more than is necessary.

I’d even say I’m kind of getting Chosen way of nature vibes from my stack since removing Chosen. I’m really enjoying being on a simpler stack. The main title which is my survival instinct/spartan custom and supporting titles of LBFH and DRLD.

I’m looking forward to the next step where I bring in my LBFH/S&S custom. That will add the social dimension, self love and healing, boosting LBFH for sure, but also starting to be more social and begin to develop those skills of really connecting with people for sales, seduction, life.

On the physique front I was once again surprised by my arm definition and how I seem to have gotten more trim. I think I’m getting to the point where I can dial it in. I used to know this model chick and again, she disappeared, an old pattern. So she was a keto person as well, and she had it all dialed in to the point where she knew that she could get relaxed for a few days and knew how long it would take how long to get back into model shoot shape should she get a call for a job. I think she never stayed more than say 2 weeks out of her model photo shoot shape.

I’m getting to that point finally myself. It used to be all or nothing, I was all in or not in at all. Now I’m like in a place where I can be more intuitive rather than pure discipline.

Afternoon update: I just feel like my unconscious is working on bringing my ideal reality to the forefront. Like I forgot to mention at times I’ve seen glimpses into my mind, like Mind’s Eye coming to life for me. Where it’s almost like at times I could have that amazing visualization almost like a lucid dream but being awake. Starting to be able to direct it a little bit.

Also just feeling like I do want to do something. I don’t know exactly what. Like that motivation or inspiration seems to be bubbling up at times. I still procrastinate at working out, and I feel like that time could probably be used for working on whatever that goal is. I would think it’s some sort of income generating project or something. Like I felt the sense of adventure I got from an old job, and just like sense of adventure without that fear/anxiety/worry bs.

So not all the way there yet, but definitely glimpses and enough discipline to keep me working out. I learned that from work and it’s helped shape how I approach my workouts now. It’s more conditioning rather than maxing out, it’s doing that daily activity to build up the work capacity. Since I’m not wanting to build muscle it’s great, I’m seeing the results of having more definition and just at times I’ll notice how my body does feel more capable and mobile, that whatever I’m doing is working.

#114

There definitely seems to be an uptick into action for me. As in something is brewing and that feeling of wanting to get out and live life is coming on. Like I want to go make that money and maybe find a compatible gf and maybe have like 1 good legit friend. I’m still kind of set on my working out and don’t plan to give that up. Not sure where I could fit friend or gf in if they work and schedules but it’s not a big deal. I’ll just keep focused on me and doing what I need to do and take the rest as it comes.

Evening update: today was first day of 1 minute LBFH and 1 minute of DRLD. It’s been kind of a back and forth thing. Sometimes I’m feeling like I’m ready to get at life in a good way, then other times the healing comes on and I’m feeling down again. I still have that optimism and see it as part of the process, so nothing serious. But that also just might be part of the price we pay for this increased amount of change in such a short amount of time. Just really do gotta ride those waves.

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#115

I had lots of dreams last night. Kind of weird dreams.

I was living in a new house again. That’s always a theme when I start new subliminals. That a house is being remodeled or I’m moving and living in a new place. New sub is DRLD only 2 listens so far. One at 30 seconds and one at 1 minute. Tomorrow is back to my custom for 1 minute.

#116

I really gotta stay out of the Wanted Black thread. There’s no way I would run WB with my custom and my custom is something I’m really going to run for a year straight. So that’s why I’m planning to do an LBFH S&S custom. It’s built around developing the skills with the ladies and sales and just making connections. Then come summer time I think that’s when I’d be ready to do WB and EOG. So I’m still excited to see how DRLD unfolds with my custom and LBFH as is. The wanting to get onto S&S has faded and now I’m set on just being patient and allowing things to unfold rather than feeling like I need to add something or change something. Just let my titles do their work is how I’m feeling now.

#117

I must be having some of those subconscious fears being worked on. Last night I had some heart palpitations that kept me up most of the night. It’s the kind of thing I am not saying subliminals are responsible for at all. It’s just the kind of thing where say you don’t have a fear of heights but you’re standing on a roof that’s kind of high and all of the sudden it gets windy, now in your mind you’re not having conscious thoughts of worry or fear, but your body is having those kinds of reactions.

The new custom module Stonelike is going in my custom for this reason. It’s rare that I’ve gotten the body anxiety or fear, usually it’s more been just that worried anxious mind where at least I can point to this and say yea, anxious mind going on. I think being that it’s kind of a physical reaction of anxiety/fear that might be deeper than the usual anxiety mind stuff.

It was the kind of thing where I wasn’t having the normal anxiety and fear around it. So I didn’t have much to release. But when I went in to release and I’d get relaxed and start opening then I’d get those palpitations again, and I did have this thought that that’s a form of the subconscious probably wanting to keep me from releasing this.

So on the other hand it’s good, that means I’m close to really getting free from it but I’m not gonna push as it I’m just going to stay calm and relaxed and not even try and do any conscious process on it unless it’s the usual mind chatter noise variety. That does remind me when I was doing process on it the basic what did I do to cause this? What am i? could i let it go? would i? when? I was getting some big physical releases from the body. Like if you ever do TRE where your body shakes, I can sometimes get that with releasing the feelings or wants.

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#118

So it seems I was just in need of a good night’s sleep. I plan on taking a week off of caffeine and working out.

I did reach a peak and my training efforts have been paying off. My mindset has been I want to workout in a way that makes me look good and transfers over to my real life. So I did cut 10 minutes off my work/job time without any increased effort. I was surprised that I’m more efficient and just able to do more work in a shorter time without any perceived increase in effort.

I just haven’t dialed in the proper amount of volume and rest days just yet. So I’ll take the week off and get back to it. I have been feeling like I’ve been in need of some time off and rest but I didn’t want to do it at the expense of losing my conditioning.

I have 2 more listening days in this cycle so the week off will correlate well. Physical and mental rest together.

#119

I finally got out do to some city driving and give someone a ride somewhere.

Well I think LBFH is doing great things. Today I listened to 2 minutes of LBFH and DRLD.

I took this person to a salon and so I took a drive since their appt was like 2 hours. So I came back to town after a drive in the country. There was this hot asian chick standing outside talking to a customer and we were vibing! She had a body on her just the right amount of curves and great boobs I must say. I didnt’ go talk to her because parking was far away and it was a busy day for them. Lots of pretty ladies in and out of the place.

Then on the drive back I saw this gorgeous blond athletic type girl walking and I saw her but was talking to my passenger. So at the perfect time I made eye contact with the chick walking and it seemed like she was not wanting to get caught checking me out, but I already saw her so I was looking at her and she smiled when she saw that yea I saw her looking.

So that’s making me excited. I think DRLD has work to do yet for sure, and I’m back into feeling like I need 10 hours of sleep a night again. But I’m sure I’ll adjust and bounce back.

Really has me looking forward to my LBFH/S&S custom. I’m pretty sure a lot of that knowledge at least is in there and I think DRLD is going to be great in helping me to express the things I’ve already learned and know and just go out and naturally apply them in life.

#120

The past few days I’ve had some really great vivid dreams. It started off with intense nightmares, two that I remember. Last night it was more I guess opposite of those. It was my last listening day now on a 5 day break.

A few times I was starting to dream and be in that in between state of falling asleep or waking up. One of those times I had this sense of this light coming in and going up to my I guess crown chakra. The sense is still there with me. I don’t do anything with chakras, possible effect of module Energetic Development XI in my custom. Just how my unconscious interpreted and made use of it. It’s almost like my brain got turned on too in someway. Nothing major I’m still groggy and waking up yet. Still sleeping 10 hours a night.

I was able to get to 2 minute listening times. So I’ll start back up in 5 days at 2:30 and keep increasing listening times. I will say the effects really seem to be there at such short listening times.

2 hrs later: Still groggy and waking up lol. I feel like mostly clear. It’s really nice.