So the update for washout day #2 (today) so far…
Not productive. At. All. 
I feel light, light-hearted, and overall good, but as far as getting into the weeds with some business tasks, it’s been a struggle to find the zone. It feels like I’m moving through molasses trying to make progress in that area.
Part of me wants to get down on myself, but I know that I’m just looking at this issue from the wrong perspective. So, I’m distracting myself right now and catching up on the forum lol
I’ll go back into another work block and see which new angles I can approach it from.
There was one interesting behavior pattern that I’ve noticed today…
When someone showed signs of aggression, or was “pissy” with me, I didn’t get sucked into it and instead moved forward toward whatever result I wanted to achieve without any significant emotional disturbance.
For example, an SUV driving in the opposite direction tried to turn into a parking spot I had my blinker on and was waiting for (a couple pedestrians were in the way). He didn’t get it though …because I pulled in front of him to block him and then parked.
No anger. No hostility. Simple assertiveness (and a little bit of fuck you energy).
I wanted it, so I took it. Plus, my burrito was waiting for me.
In conversation with someone, I sensed a level of “pissyness” in their response, so I kept it respectful and worked to understand a little better. And then I let it go because I realized there was nothing of value in their current state that they could tell me and I’d be wasting my time on them.
I didn’t shut the door on them (mentally) though because I still wouldn’t mind the information.
So, are those situations a big deal? Not on the surface.
But they do reflect an internal shift that’s noticeably different from what I may have done / felt in the past, which led to the different behavior today.
And the most interesting part is it felt congruent and not forced or faked.
I’d call that some growth. And after only three months with Emperor as the foundation. Not bad at all.
Really looking forward to my custom and what the next three months have in store.