Subliminals Season 5

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#3

think less, do more, what does that mean?

Act on feeling and gut. If you feel it, you have to do it. Trying to avoid mistakes has never prevented me from making mistakes, so might as well just do what I want based off my gut and make the mistake anyway. Get out of my head, and into the world.

This doesn’t mean “be a fucking retard”, no. It’s about finding my balance, knowing when to be meticulous and when not to be. Stop being an autist about shit, stop spiking my cortisol for little things like a fucking pussy.

Now for something to actually be an autist about, STACKS!

EoG2 and QL1 are under way. I’ve got my v1 of Souveran which I like, but I feel can be tailored better towards my goals. The new version would look a bit like this:

Cores:
Emperor
Inner Circle (removing ESSENCE: Clear Sight)
Emperor Executive
New Result Enhancing Experience
ZPU Anti-recon

Essence Cores:
ESSENCE: Total War
ESSENCE: A Perfect Unyielding (replacing ESSENCE: Protector’s Authority)

Synergy Modules:
Synergy: Machine Totality
Synergy: Preordained Vitality
Synergy: Glory Incarnate
Synergy: Tale of the Dragon

Modules:
Nomad
Free Pass
AI Whisperer
Job Seeker
Dopaminergic Revival
APS: Head

Executive’s need for a rebalancing explains why I got to a burn out level on it. Now that that’s seemed to be fixed, I’m very open to trying it again with another custom. My only concern is that it will become TOO productivity-focused. The alternative v2 Souveran would remove Executive as a core, replace it with: ESSENCE: Unstoppable Execution, Execution Override, Dopamine Mastery, Dopaminergic Revival. Maybe something to ask support about.

Once Ramadan begins, it’ll be time for my temporary stack change. Paragon, RoS and Souveran v2 seems like the way to go.

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#4

funny how one of the internet personalities who I follow posts a video after I created this thread, talking about how getting out of his head was what allowed him to get out of his own way.

Specifically he cited good intentions, a focus on action over ideas, a balance between identifying/overcoming your ego while having a delusional level of self-belief and the need to remove cowardice from all aspects of life. I must RUN TOWARDS FEAR.

Funny how the guiding principle for my 30th year on this planet will be “what would 10 year old me do?”

#5

This has to be Souveran v2:

Cores:
Emperor
Inner Circle
Emperor Executive

New Result Enhancing Experience
ZPU Anti-recon

Essence Cores:
ESSENCE: Total War
ESSENCE: A Perfect Unyielding

Synergy Modules:
Synergy: Machine Totality
Synergy: Preordained Vitality
Synergy: Glory Incarnate
Synergy: Tale of the Dragon

Modules:
Nomad
Free Pass
AI Whisperer
Job Seeker
APS: Head

With that said, fuck I’m such a degenerate I want to run Wanted Black or Wanted Dream Boy; it’s taking all the fucking self control in the world for me to not want to add Seducer’s Reality Bubble into this custom, but fuck you have no idea how badly I want to.

This fucking degenerate within me just wants to go off completely, but another part of me is just desperately wanting me to double down on my individual path and growth for 2026. Overcome my fear of building a business, potentially get a new job, potentially leave the country and live a bit of a nomadic lifestyle. This is what my deeper self wants for me.

The other side of me, which is the side that broke up with an amazing girl that you could build a life with because I didn’t love her the way she loved me and I didn’t want to waste her time anymore, which is also the same side of me that is redacted (all 2026 moments because WE’RE ACTING AND NOT THINKING THIS YEAR) and it’s the side that just wants to be a fucking degenerate druggie that drinks, does coke, goes to raves and looks for girls to fuck. It’s the dark side within me that I’ve been repressing so much, and it wants to come out but I’m scared I’m gonna ruin everything I’ve built these past 5 years.

It’s all rooted in pain ultimately; I’ve always been so fucking lonely, even with so many people around me. Not having the girl that I want to build a family with, at the age of 30, fucking hurts me to the core, and I’m starting to get so tired of it that I want to just go full send on the hoes.

So I’ve got 2 ways of coping: double down on myself, my individuality, my growth to make me happy with who and what I am and what I’m becoming, experience life more.
Or start partying like a fucking degen, go back to my pre-conversion ways, get fucking crunk all the time, find the girl to fuck, rinse and repeat while I cry myself to sleep every fucking night.

Sigh.

Souveran it is.

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#6

what about EOG2? Are you still running it?

#7

Yup, unfortunately lol

Stack is Souveran, EOG2 and QL1

I’m feeling significantly under motivated to run EOG2 to be quite honest, could be recon, could be fatigue, could be temptation to chase dopamine and a new Wanted being released that fits exactly what I’ve always wanted (no pun intended) doesn’t help whatsoever.

#8

Dear Mr Master Thinker, how are you doing?

I don’t want to be annoying and just say to run X or Y for whatever especially since you probably already tryed it… But I’ve read your first post and I can’t stop thinking : Hero St2 or 3, or GLM would work perfectly for your case.

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#9

Fucker :joy:

Good idea, I decided to update my custom with the GLM ESSENCE module to hopefully get part of the effects you’re referring to.

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#10

It feels weird for me to run EOG2, when more money isn’t a worry for me at the moment. No I’m not close to being rich so financial freedom would be great, but I’m struggling so much emotionally right now.

I feel like I’m damaged emotionally and mentally, couldn’t love a girl that was so good for me and truly loved me with her whole being. I tried my best but I just couldn’t, and it fucking eats at me. I feel broken. So many would be so grateful to have a girl like her, and here I am kicking her to the curb, knowing the value I’ve lost in her.

What is fucking wrong with me? What is wrong with me? How can I continue EOG when I just want to set that money on fire because my of self destructive impulses? I just want to fuck everything up so badly. What is fucking wrong with me?

What the fuck do I need to run? Regeneration? Khan Stage 1? Dragon Reborn? Inflict pain on myself via subliminal with the goal of suffering, guised as growth?

Will Heartsong heal my ability to love?

What do I fucking do?

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#11

Generally, self destructive tendencies take root in either fear/escapism (such as with addictions), or otherwise serve a purpose.
For instance, self harm often serves as a way to externalise internal pain so that it is seen by others.
If we find the root cause of these impulse to self-harm, we may find a safer alternative, a way to treat the root of the issue.

I, similarly to you, couldn’t love a girl that was very much in love with me, and did her best to stay with me and love me as much as she could.
Now she’s in a psychiatric hospital with no place other than the medical apartment they’ll find for her. Since she was on the streets before she got with me.

It was a hard decision for me, and doubtlessly it was difficult for you as well.
I decided in the end that it was more honest to tell her I didn’t love her than to let her believe otherwise, than to let her believe in illusion.

I felt that continuing to play the part of the lover setting her up for disappointment down the road when I inevitably leave her after coming to resent her, and setting myself up for misery trying to love someone I see more as a friend with benefits than an actual partner.

I am certain that you also had reasons to break up with her. Maybe similar ones?
In your case, I am certain that you thought a lot about it and therefore know that it is the best for both parties long term, even if difficult short term.

I also felt like shit when finding gifts and love and thanking letters she prepared for me, after I left her.

But I know that I did my best so we could have fun and good times, I did my best to help her get better than she was before, and although I couldn’t help her reach all the goals, I was a step on her path, I accompanied her for a while and set her in the right direction with a better emotional and mental foundation than she had before, and even a better material base.

Although I couldn’t help her to find a job, or an apartment, or even convince her to ask for welfare, thus breaking up with her having no place to live and no money in the bank, in the end sending her to the psychiatric hospital got her medicated and being help with getting welfare and a place to live while she get on her feet.

Doubtlessly, your circumstances certainly differ, but the fact remains, that it would have been terrible for the both of you to continue in a loveless relationship.
I told her saying that I am very sorry I couldn’t love you anymore, she told me she felt it, and said sorry and that she did her best but couldn’t get me to love her.

It’s just a sad thing isn’t it?
But I really feel that there was no other choice than to be honest with her, both for her dignity and joy or mine, although it hurts us both.

Idk what would be the best subliminal, but I know for sure that forgiving yourself, and thanking yourself, for what you did helps.
And that forgiving her and thanking her for what she did helps.

I am certain you both did your best during the relationship, until the end.
And we can’t ever do more than our best, can we?

And if she’s only even slightly better than she was before, if you bought her good times and good memories, than you can be proud of yourself.
And if you’re even slightly better than you were before and if she bought you good times and good memories, she can be proud of herself.

I wish you to find the happiness and good that this separation brings for the both of you, the wealth of opportunities that arise from not clinging to what’s gone by and to what is no longer.

Peace :relieved:

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#12

If U need to calm down right now, glm is the best.
It also gives U clear head on how to deal wid difficult circumstances. Then u can decide on a sub that hits Ur issue.

Good luck.

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#13

This is a beautiful post, thank you for sharing your experience with me.

I’m not sure if I have a response for you, I want to respond to acknowledge the effort made with your post and provide some sort of engagement to ensure that you understand that I read your post multiple times, but instead of overthinking for the sake of presentation and perception I’ll just say what’s in my head instead.

I can relate, maybe not to the same extremes as you but I can relate.

I am frustrated that this girl in my life, did not give me any reasons to leave whatsoever. She did anything and everything for me, sacrificed as much as she could. Just thinking about it now aches my heart. The foundation she provided to me in all aspects of my life is so clearly felt now that she isn’t here.

I feel lost. I feel like I’m bound to fail with career aspirations, my financial goals, my dreams. I’m struggling so much right now without her, and yet I couldn’t love her.

I couldn’t love her, and yet she was a foundation for everything in my life.

I didn’t think I’d need to rebuild everything like this. I’m the one who ended it, I’m the one that caused this for the both of us.

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#14

I haven’t worked at all on my business ideas in a month, and the recon is fucking me as a result.

With this personal event occurring in my life, it feels like I’m in over my head with everything in my life.

I really truly don’t know how to get out.

I want to abandon EOG2. But I can’t let go of my dreams. And yet I don’t even know what I want to dream about. I’m just fucking here trying to think of how to make money to support myself without wanting to end it all.

#15

This is what I am running in 3 consecutive phases. I’m sure it could help you. I wish you well!

Here’s some posts on how these subs could help:

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#16

Sounds to me like the guilt of your inability to love her back manifesting as potential self sabotage.

I´d stick with EoG till you have that rocksolid financial foundation, that way nothing external will be able to interfer/distract you from going “all in” the next time you experience this level of love.

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#17

I purchased that fucking custom while in pure recon like a [moderator edit], and now I regret it.

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#18

Thank you for your input. I think as long as my mentality stays fucked up, I will always be unable to go “all in”, always looking for something else, something better.

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#19

Thank you for your kind words, and your valuable input and sources of info.

I decided, after making a ticket to support, that I will be starting Regeneration. I haven’t decided on removing EOG or QL, but I’m leaning towards EOG because my custom is very driven towards work.

Support:

At 30, you are in a perfect position to do this deep work. For your specific goal of healing the ability to love romantically and starting a family, we recommend the following sequence:

1. The Foundation: Dragon Reborn: Regeneration

We recommend starting here rather than with a ‘Total Breakdown’ like Khan Stage 1. Fearful avoidance is fundamentally a lack of a ‘safe baseline’ in the nervous system. Regeneration uses a technology we call the Inner Spa. It is designed to create an internal atmosphere of profound warmth, safety, and restoration.

Features like Safe Within and Still Waters help your body learn that it is safe to ‘land’ and release the armor you’ve built up to survive past trauma. By teaching your nervous system that safety is your default state, you remove the biological ‘alarm’ that usually triggers avoidant behavior when someone gets close.

2. The Manifestation: Heartsong

Once you have run Regeneration for a few cycles and feel more grounded, you should transition to Heartsong. While Regeneration heals the ‘scars,’ Heartsong helps you define your Heart Song — the unique melody of what your soul actually needs in a partner.

Heartsong is specifically designed to manifest ‘the one’ and forge the deep, stable bonds required for a healthy family. It will help you discern which partners are actually healthy for you, rather than just repeating old, painful patterns.

A Note on Khan Stage 1:

While Khan Stage 1 is a powerful ‘Total Breakdown’ of limitations, for fearful-avoidant attachment, we find that healing through warmth (Regeneration) is often more effective than healing through force. You want to show your nervous system that vulnerability is safe, not just ‘break’ the walls down.

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#20

I had similar thing when I started EOG2. Was pretty much depressed at that point (even before adding EOG2, just from life overall), no amount of rest days helped. And that’s not my normal state at all!

What helped me is to take a look at my neurotransmitters level with the help of the Braverman test (which is quite accurate from my experiencec), and fix the deficits through lifestyle changes and supplements.

Turned out I was unproductive and unmotivated because my nervous system was overclocked and overstimulated, which drained all the energy. I had a very big deficit in GABA

Once I added calming stuff in my routine to increase inhibitory neurotransmitters which I lacked, my life improved in all areas, recon vanished completely from all subs in my stack, I started having much more energy, better mood, etc.

stuff I added to fix MY situation. While it's safe to copy what I did, look at your own situation and do your own research about it, because you might need a completely different stack of habits and supplements

I added L-theanine 400mg in the morning and 200mg in the evening, chamomile tea with lemon balm 2-3 cups per day, GABA 500mg before bed, adaptogens, decreased all stimulation (no music, greyscale on iphone, no coffee, etc.), breathing exercises, long walks.

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Risky Two Thousand Twenty Six
#21

Really like the idea of doing the Braverman test, I will try that out thanks.

With that being said, it’s very clear to me that I need to pause my EOG journey. This isn’t just recon, this is a revelation of what exists underneath that is preventing me from moving forward with my life.

Regeneration has to be the path that I focus on right now, I need to be born anew.

What is entrepreneurship, if not the complete trust in one’s self and their own self-worth? What is money, if not value as an energy that will always flow to where it must be? What is happiness, if not an expression of confidence in all that can, and will occur?

I’m thankful that I’ve been enlightened so much. My financial life has never been better, never been more stable despite the constant bullshit that comes and goes. I am grateful for EOG, but I have to run a balanced stack in order to maximize the benefit to my life as a whole.

I cannot be running Souveran AND EOG when there’s so much overlap between the two and my life is requiring more stability and balance now more than ever. Souveran must remain as that which allows me to continue to tick forward, and Regeneration is what will allow me to mend the heart and the soul.

For my 3rd subliminal, I’m thinking of Paragon. I understand that it may be having a massive update soon, so perhaps I should run Spartan while I wait. I have some physical ailments that I want addressed soon. Either way, something in that vein could bring some balance into my life.

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#22

It’s real love

Fuck

Now I’ve got some work to do