Woke up early this morning, was piecing together things I’ve experienced lately, and I decided to run Limit Destroyer Ultima. I’m running it again now, almost 7 hours later. Here’s why.
I rented “Coach Carter” yesterday after going out in town yesterday. I remember that movie from 10 years back mostly due to one quote recited in it. One of the team’s players was selling drugs, he came in with a strong ego, and later brought himself into line after realizing he wanted what was offered. The coach wisely challenged him regularly with a simple question: “What is your greatest fear?” The boy answered him one day with a famous poem by author Marianne Williamson.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
"Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
“And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
I’ve noticed that I’ve chosen to be pretty stagnant in emotional growth over the years, even while using self-help tools and programs. Looking back now, I see I didn’t want to be aware of this. I modeled my mom who hid perpetually from any risks of any sort. Sadly, her life never changed. She had old traumas, but hiding from it was her only out. I’ve done the same.
However, my courage and willingness to step out into risky areas (per my understandings) is growing. I don’t want to be in the same spot a year from now. Where am I going? I haven’t got a clue–since me “knowing” in times past meant me clinging to an expected solution, which inevitably changes over time. It was self-sabotage in action.
I see I’ve held to established fears vs. changing something. I don’t want to do this anymore. Action is needed, and I’m glad I listened to LDU in hours past, for me holding onto fearful beliefs has kept me inactive and unchanged.
What do I need to change?
Note–I added “how can I make even little changes today?” after that, and it scared me, so I erased it. I’m seeing the active limiting beliefs much more clearly, and that takes some courage. It’s coming. I have it. I’m challenging my fears of actually using it.
Thank you Sub Club.