Thank you brother! I appreciated it very much. I also look forward to read your journal every day. 
That’s the same thing I thought about your experience. Especially regarding the differences with Khan, which it seems we both feel more or less in the same way.
Day 5
Loops: 8
Versions: Ultrasonic only
“Okay, how can we improve this?”
Career
Today, something odd happened at work.
I’m not going to annoy you with details, I’ll just sum up what happened.
Me and my CEO we were working together on a graphic project, which she approved. So, I shared it and made it public. She said “I think we’re good” and I meant just that: we’re good, let’s proceed.
So I did.
Before, I’d probably double check if the project had a green light.
This time I didn’t. I felt that was the most intelligent thing to do and I just went for it.
Turns out, she wanted to think that through a little more.
As a result, I was called in her office and she went on saying that I, well, screwed up.
Do you know what’s the best part?
Normally, I’d freak out. “Oh my god, what I was thinking!” I would feel embarrassed.
Well, not this time.
She went on explaining that we had a communication problem (although she is never available, even after my several requests).
I was completely unaffected.
I said: “Okay, next time it’s better if we understand each other better. Because by your actions I took that as a green light”.
She started giving up excuses, I just felt her embarrassment.
I didn’t budge. I was completely calmed and relaxed.
Not happy, se decided to show the project to the whole team, asking for the opinion of everyone. I am no graphic designer, but I like to make stuff with Illustrator from time to time. So I offered myself to create this project (even though I told her she’d better hire a professional).
The whole team went on and judged the design. Nobody liked it. Every single one went on explaining what was wrong about it.
In another life, I’d freak out. I’d felt hurt, embarrassed, judged. I’d feel so bad that I’d probably been hurt for days and probably build up extreme resentment.
Instead, this time I just said: “Okay, how can we improve this?”
I was detached.
In the end I said: “See, you should have hired a professional. Like I said.”
Guys, this is incredible. You can’t imagine the liberation I’m experiencing. I feel confident, I feel superior. If THAT didn’t affect me, nothing can’t hurt my confidence. Not anymore. I simply don’t give a shit about people’s opinion and all I care is the final result.
@SaintSovereign and @Fire you did something incredible. It’s just a few days and you fixed years of bullshit that I took with me since forever.
Thank you!
Social
As mentioned, I now feel extremely confident and dominant around people. Yet, I’m respectful, I am not arrogant. I used to be, when I felt hurt. Now, I am fearless, relentless, unforgiving but I do I enjoy leading people forward. This is only the beginning with EmperorQ, and also a test, but I know at this very moment EmperoQ is giving me the tools to achieve my goals as a manager and as a leader.
I feel like I don’t belong to my team. They’re good people but I can’t help but see them as different. We’re playing totally different games.
Have you guys ever felt that?
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Day 6
Loops: 9-10
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Libido and Revenge.
Social
Yesterday I had dinner with my colleagues. I felt relaxed and confident. Overall I enjoyed the night out. At one point however, there’s this wannabe alpha (the funny guy) who starts to mock me as he does with everybody. Normally, I’d just laugh with the jokes and play along. This time I don’t. Every time he makes a joke on me, I mock him back. However, my jokes aren’t that witty and creative. Actually a couple are a little lame. But I always counterattack, now. And yet, I’m holding back. I feel bad about hurting people, because maybe I always been the kid bullies loved to make fun of and I don’t want to do it. I just feel superior to this shit. I don’t feel that need to show how much cool I am. So, I hold back. However, I need to counterattack or people will never know what lines cannot be crossed. Do you guys ever experienced a similar situation?
I feel more compassionate towards others. I’m guessing EmperorQ has a module for that. Specifically, I feel in need to help people grow and accomplish stuff.
Today at work things changed a bit. Time to revenge! I just came up with a joke that was a little mean for the funny guy. I didn’t want to say that at first (see above). This time however I dropped the bomb. He just repeated what I said and laughed. He just couldn’t answer it. It felt good, then I hated it. Is this how insecure-aggressive people feel every time? In constant need to show off? I can’t stand it. It’s just stupid. Still, we interact in a workplace. I can’t just say “enough of your bullshit”. You’ve got to take it with style. To be 100% honest, I don’t feel I belong with this people. I want more responsibility.
Personal Relationships
Surprisingly my libido is low. I feel like I’m not getting the stimuli I’m after. I don’t feel attraction to the majority of women I meet. With Khan, I’d feel sexual attraction even for my female colleagues and my CEO. But now I don’t feel it anymore. Could it be that I’m raising my bar with women? Could it be that EmperorQ is suggesting me that I deserve more?
It’s been almost a week since I last masturbate. Normally I’d masturbate at least every 2-3 days. Interesting.
Career
Today at work, I set aside my tasks for a couple of hours, instead I carried out a couple of personal projects. At first I thought: “Are you crazy? You want to become a manager; how are you supposed to get a promotion if you do personal stuff at work?” Well the answers is: because my efficiency allows me to do so. I’ve always valued efficiency. But now, with EmperorQ, the way I’m experiencing the manifestations and my own thinking, I start to see inefficiency as something that pulls time and energy away from me. So if my current work is about waiting for feedback or doing trivial, supportive tasks which don’t add to the end result of the project, I’d rather use this time to do stuff meaningful for my life. And if my tasks at work end up to pile up because of this, I’m confident I’ll use my energy and efficiency to compensate for this. I don’t know if that makes even sense, I’m just putting down what I’m experiencing, my thoughts and feelings.
Since yesterday I conceded myself a night out, I got home pretty late and I didn’t get much sleep. Surprisingly, this morning I had the same energy as every other day.
I just realized I suddenly stopped doing negative self-talk. And I think it’s been a couple of days now. Amazing. Even when I try to do negative self-talk—the kind I always used to do—I think to myself: “thats bullshit”.
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Outstanding report. I can’t say too much, but you’re definitely executing the script as intended.
Thanks @SaintSovereign! Well, all I’m doing is sharing what’s happening to me during the day, as well as my thoughts and feelings
Day 7
Loops: 6
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Dominance, Fear and Tears
Personal Relationships
Last night, something sad happened.
Every time I get home, my wife jumps into my arms. I love it. It’s the best moment in my entire day. Last night, was no exception.
So I get home, my wife hugs me and kisses me. I have to workout, but I’m tired. The night before I hadn’t much sleep. I decide to skip my day, so I can stay with my wife a bit more.
The night goes beautifully. We laugh. We’re having a great time together.
At one moment, however, things take a bad turn. We talk about something we hear at the TV. We share opinions. We confront. The conversation heats up. We argue. We fight for the dumbest thing in the world. She’s angry.
I approach her. I had a couple of glass of wine.
She says: “leave me alone!” and goes away from me. I take her arm. I’m in the heat of the moment and I’m not thinking straight. But one thing I know.
All I want in this moment is to DOMINATE her.
I grab both of her arms. My grip is so tight that she can barely move. She punches me on my chest. She’s screaming. “I’m gonna kick you in your balls”, she says and so she does.
But I don’t move. I let her go. She goes in the corner. She cries. “You hurt me”, she says in tears.
I come back to myself. I say: “I’m sorry… I’m so sorry… I just wanted to calm you down. I wanted you to feel my strength so you’d calm down”. “All you did was scare me”.
At firsts, I didn’t want to tell you this. I’m so embarrassed. I feel shame for myself for what happened. But in the end I decided I’d write about this because there’s one thing I must share with you.
Which is that EmperorQ is very powerful. And with power comes responsibility, like Uncle Ben used to say.
Understand: I am NOT saying that EmperorQ will make you want to beat women. It didn’t in my case. Yet, I felt the need to dominate very clearly. So happens that I was a little drunk and my conscious mind couldn’t see the difference between positive dominance and aggressive dominance. The line was a little blurred.
I’m not sure but, I think EmperorQ is neutral. It doesn’t know what is good, and what is bad.
YOU have to know that.
Sometimes this isn’t easy. But imagine what you could do knowing that you have this power already within you. All you need to do is set a direction, a good one, unleash it and see reality bending before you.
I shall learn from this experience and use it to enhance my awareness.
By the way, me and my wife we made peace. Usually, she would still be angry now. I don’t know. Today she’s been as loving as she can be. We’re having fun as usual. I’m not completely excluding that she liked that dominance, a little bit.
Career
Today I studied for my upcoming exam. I’ve found no problem concentrating and had a productive morning. No work today so I don’t have much news in this regard. I’ll get back to the office on Monday.
I think my spending habits are improving. This morning I made a saving plan for the year.
Social
This morning we went shopping, my wife and I. I am definitely more confident around people I don’t know, now.
Swagger walk! 
Extreme eye contact. I have a feeling people are almost intimidated by my look?
I slept very well this night. I don’t sleep more, but I sleep more deeply.
Except a dream about my CEO a few days go, I haven’t had any dreams in the last couple of days. That’s a pity, I’d really like to remember them.
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Thank you so much for sharing this. This forum should be a safe place where you can express all your feelings, results and also concerns without any judgements.
There are no relationships without fights. You should not be ashamed of what happened. You did not beat your wife and it sounds like you actually are really in love with her.
I admire that you expressed yourself, made sure there is no miscommunication by sharing your thoughts and by being vulnerable. That’s a great quality to have. Be proud of that. Also, you seemed to calm your wife down with that openness leading to her expressing her thoughts. That’s some genuine communication between you two.
Yes, EmperorQ is very powerful, it makes you question yourself, your actions and at the same time, it tells you the boldest powerful guy on this planet. This is an emotionally irritable cocktail which can easily lead to such events. While the newer version has support scripting that makes you experience less reconciliation, reconciliation is still happening even if it is subtle. On my first day of listening to EmperorQ, I had a major fight. I ended up shouting and at the end crying like a baby. EmperorQ is no easy subliminal to run, we cannot forget that.
Beautiful action taking and very detailed journal, great job man!
Thank you for being honest and sharing that. It’s helpful to see both sides of the subliminal
For this very reason I’m so grateful of being here, sharing my journey with you guys and also learning from your experiences.
Thank you for your kind words and understanding.
Yes, absolutely.
Thank you for sharing that. It seems that EmperorQ made a powerful impact on your emotions as well. I’d love to hear more about it, if you’re comfortable with sharing it.
Thank you @Flake_And_Milk I appreciate it
Thank you @ALoveSupreme. I agree. That originally the reason why in the end I decided to share the story with you,
I posted it in my journal but wasn’t so detailed as you.
Oh, sure. I remember I read about it in your journal. I didn’t remember that was the same event, which happened on the fist day.
I’m glad everything is ok now. It happens to me as well. I believe that we react emotionally to events that matters greatly to us. The fact that you opened yourself to her and you were honest only shows your maturity, your courage and that you love her very much. Also you expressed your reasons clearly, which is also a great sign of how much you value yourself and that you’re shaping your reality.
Thank you 
Day 8
Loops: 9 (also run while sleeping)
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Serenity, Power Games and Cookies
Personal Relationships
Today I did something unexpected of me. I made cookies! Now, I won’t lie to you, I’m not that good at cooking. I’d call my cooking skills “essentials”, and that’s a compliment! Still, it was fun and I had a good laugh with my wife with all that flower and chocolate.
I spent the whole afternoon with my wife and our dog. We had a walk and watch a TV shows. Usually, I’d feel a generalized sense of personal power. Today, I had the opposite feelings. I felt warmth, bond and serenity.
This morning I woke up feeling very well rested. I used to sleep a bit more and yet felt sleepy. Today, my stress levels are really low and I feel alert, yet calm.
Career
Today wasn’t work day. Still, I worked the entire morning here at home. There was something I had to do at the office but forgot, so I did it today. Normally I would just wait until tomorrow and do it at the office. This time I decided to do it anyway, even if it wasn’t a work day. On Friday I used the time at the office to do some personal work. At home today I did work I’m supposed to do at the office. Could it be that I just manifested my confidence to catch up with work? I had some issues with some tools; normally I’d feel irritated by it. This time, all I felt was focus, flow, no emotions. Very interesting. I wonder how cool it would be, if my work days and my days off would make no difference. Being at work wouldn’t be so frustrating because I could carry on other projects during dead times, and being at home could ignite inspiration for meaningful work. Interesting!
Overall, I feel a subtle sense of possibility and discovery. I love this feeling!
I’d love to make a speech! I feel the need to lead and inspire people and this feeling is getting stronger and stronger as the days pass.
Interestingly, I’m inspired by stories of sacrifice, war and honor. I’ve found myself surfing online in the last couple of days, looking for war stories, diplomacy, strategy both at court and in the battlefield, and so on. Especially from the Roman Empire. Can’t tell you why. I’m more attracted to intrigues, social ability as well as pure violence. I seek info about it and also in entertainment (I started watching shows like The Last Kingdom , Vikings and Rome). Now that I think about this, I think I just realized I’m very much attracted to POWER.
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Wow @Tarmicle… thank you very much for your journal entries, very detailed, raw and unfiltered. EmperorQ looks like an absolute beast of a subliminal.
Thanks @Michel! To be honest, all I’m doing is describe my day Your journal on the other hand, is extremely insightful. I love to read your entries
Day 9
Loops: 6
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Creativity, Books I Don’t Need and MEH People
Career
Today I helped the same colleague with her stuff with LinkedIn. As I mentioned in a previous entry, I don’t like her attitude towards work. She’s sloppy and superficial. Today, I was trying to help her, but was being lazy. She wanted me to do it. I refused. And when she started complaining about how difficult it was, no matter my directions, I walked away and told her that I’d help her again, when she’d stop behaving like that.
I felt a little woozy at work. I felt like my brain was locked in a tight box. For a period, I’ve been extremely focused and I literally couldn’t do anything except taking care of the task at hand. I had to close the loop before moving on.
I dream about being a great problem solver. I love watching managers and leaders use their creative thinking to create new paths and opportunities. Unfortunately, I wasn’t born with this talent. I’ve always been very structured in my thought process. Very linear. This sometimes can be a good thing. It makes me efficient and reliable. However, sometimes it hinders my ability to find new possibilities. I’ve been running EmperorQ for a few days now and I’m already noticing great improvements on my creativity and lateral thinking has improved.
Since I’ve been listening to EmperorQ I started developing a great desire to lead. It’s been only a couple of months since I’ve been working here and my days as a manager are still far away. Still, I bought two books on management and a book about public speaking. “The Five Dysfunctions of a Team”, “The 21 Irrefutable Law of Leadership” and “Resonate”. I just can’t help but feel this is my destiny.
I always wanted to be able to “enjoy the process”, like they said. I’ve never been able to. Since I was a kid, I was always worried about the end result. My eyes were always on the prize. Worrying, fretting. “I want to get there, I need to get there”. That attitude didn’t help me as much as I’d love to, in achieving my goals. Still, it has always been my default attitude. Interestingly now, I don’t seem too much worried about the outcome of my actions/work. I somehow “presume” it will turn out just right. I’m still very much intense about my goals and I feel VERY bad when I feel I’m not progressing towards them. Understand: I feel bad when I’m not doing actions which I believe are helping me making progress, NOT when I don’t SEE improvements. Overall, I’m more focused on the approach, the process, the step ahead.
Social
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Day 9
Loops: 5
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Coronavirus, Quarantine and Secret Agendas
Career
Today, our CEO decided that the whole team would carry on the activities from home, through smartworking. As you may know Covid-19 is spreading all over the world. As a result of recent events, our Government adopted a radical measure according to which every citizen must remain at home, to avoid the virus to spread. Our CEO decided that we could keep working from home. I feel relieved. I imagine my days being more productive. In fact, today has been a very productive day.
Yesterday at the office I got called in the CEO office, because I took an initiative that I should have shared with my peers first. She lectured me how much communication is vital, that I had put the image of the company at risk. That’s a turning point for me. I still think I made the right decision, but this is Emperor working. I bypassed the others because, well, I thought it’s not their concern as it’s my expertise, but got a slap on the wrist. I must be careful. Interestingly, I was torn before taking that initiative. A part of me knew that my solo undertaking would collide with the team, still I took the action accepting the consequences. To be honest, I don’t feel bad for what I did. I still think that was the right thing to do. I think I’m not exaggerating if I say that my insecurities are totally gone.
Social
Breaking news. Apparently, the fun guy stopped making fun of me. The reverse is now true. I mock him whenever I can. Before, I wouldn’t have dared. “What if I hurt his feelings?” Now I don’t care. I enjoy playing with him. I feel like he stopped so I’d eventually stop. It feels so good.
Now that I think about it, my social anxiety is completely faded. That’s amazing, if we consider that 10 days ago I couldn’t even stand around people without feel great discomfort. I now feel dominant. Actually, I feel like people secretly want to be like me! I know it’s crazy to think that and being so full of oneself, but what can I say, I’m being 100% honest 
I feel a secret admiration from colleagues.
When I’m out, shopping or walking down the street, I feel stares of random people on me. Normally, I’d feel anxious about it, now I like it.
I’m totally OK calling out people about their agenda. I can feel their embarrassment when I do. I’m not sure if someone ever did that to them. I love it.
Being strategic, about life, about relationships, about work is one of the most dominant feeling I get and the one that’s most persistent during my day.
I’m being more ruthless with superficial relationships (like my colleagues). I think I’m starting to get a sense of their agenda and their subtle social moves. I think EmperorQ is making me aware of this and instructing me to take advantage of them, and introducing me to the art of courtiership. Does it make sense?
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Day 10
Loops: 8
Versions: Ultrasonic only
A Band of Brothers, through Humiliation and Identity Crisis
Career
So today, I’ve been humiliated by the whole team. Let me explain. I’m working on our marketing project for one division of the business. The CEO thought that’d be a good idea to ask EVERYBODY for feedback. Did you ever find a boss who asked workers about his engineer’s work? What a fuck is wrong with her? Of course, the whole team made stupid comments based on freaking OPINIONS. I explained my decisions, trying to be as candid as possible. Yet, I felt like I was the center of a lapidation. Is it how a leader is supposed to behave? I’m building resentment. Before, I’d just freak out. Today however I was strangely calm. I mean, I was dying inside, yet I think I didn’t show it, or at least not as much as I’d usually do. I’m torn between been honest with myself, with my values, with my consideration of me, and the necessity to play along, to be smart about it and play the “social game”. I have a feeling that the rest of the world is not strong or smart enough to handle what it takes.
I’m more detached with what I do now. I’m more aware, less worried about my ego and more focused on my objectives. This I noticed was particularly true if you take in consideration my reaction towards the “feedback” from the team. It’s still a transition, though. And it hurts. We’ll see.
I felt reconciliation today. It has been the first day I felt a hint of negative self talk creeping in. As I said I’m feeling torn about my behaviour, I don’t know what attitude is the old me, and what is the new me.
Personal Relationships
My wife has been very supportive.
I slept very well tonight. I felt very well rested this morning. Definitely one of the best quality sleep I had in the last couple of months.
What a great workout I had today! I truly pushed myself and made a new personal record. I gave all I got.
Social
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.
Day 11
Loops: 5
Versions: Ultrasonic only
Porn, Courtship and We Are Back in The Biz
Career
This morning I had a strategic call with the CEO. This time, her tone was waaaay down. I noticed that’s been the case recently. That people, especially at work, address to me differently, if it’s just the two of us. I’m not sure though. It might just be I’m biased due to recent events. All said, I getting more and more socially skilled as the days pass. I feel my temperament is cooler and, I’m handling social interactions better, in stressful situations—for me, that is.
Today I had my greatest manifestation so far. Let me explain. I ran a consulting business before being an employee. I ran the business with my wife. Eventually, things went south and the business was no longer sustainable. In short, we failed. My wife never really accepted this. She took it as a personal failure. We always feel bad when we talk about it. Today however an idea, manifested to me. I woke up with an incredible realization. Which is that we’re living just a transition. That we will, in the future, run another venture together. We will probably fail, multiple times, but I believe a business together is our destiny. And this work here, although I do appreciate it and I do want to move up the ladder (because I’m ambitious), it is not a SIGN that we failed. Rather, an OPPORTUNITY to play with business ideas, while still being able to live decently. It’s an enabler to do something great. It’s just the way it is. I can’t explain how much happy I am now! I was so excited I told my wife about this. I was surprised when she lit up. Se was inspired by the idea. I’ve never been able to make her see our failure as a good thing. I actually inspired her and I could see it in her eyes. What a great power to have! Is it that EmperorQ is suggesting me that I can inspire people and convince them to embrace my vision of the future? I think it just did!
Personal Relationships
As a result, my wife and I worked together on the marketing project my CEO assigned to me! It was so good. Just like the old days. I guess this is proof that it worked! Of course, being able to count on her help meant an exponential increase in productivity. I can’t help but think EmperorQ helped me with this. This kind of results it’s just too far from what I usually experience. I’m so curious to know what suggestions did this!
After a period of apparent calm, my libido exploded all at once this evening! I had to watch some porn to release it a bit.
Social
We’ll see what tomorrow brings.