Day 6
Thanks to CWoN I’ve gone back to practicing yoga and stopped overeating. My level of self-discipline has improved as well. I’ve started considering food our medicine that we need to dose properly and I’m seriously thinking about changing the quality of food I eat. I’m really glad about those changes since my convalescence on DR made me really neglect that vital area of my life that is health since I stopped exercising and started overeating. Now it’s over. Good.
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Day 9
I’ve been experiencing some negativity towards humans perceiving them as corrupted and fucked up beings which reminded me of @bujin’s opinion on humankind. It’s not like I want to avoid them but I can judge people negatively without even feeling it and it’s like excluding them, detaching from them in my mind. I thought I was over our “human” (common) habit of judging people some time ago thanks to running Wanted and DR later on but CWoN has brought it back yet in a totally different form since I’m emotionally detached from the (negative) judgment and it doesn’t hit me at all.
CWoN has occurred to be digging deep inside me bringing up a lot of healing related to my mine life issue that is addressed in this objective:
- Generate a sense of deep gratitude for simply being able to experience nature and existence. Fall in love with your life and the experience of living.
I started questioning the whole point of living a bit. Nothing too intense it’s just a slightly sad mood putting me into the questioning. It may be something close to “the cry of the soul” that usually indicates a significant shift in my perception and thinking/behavioral patterns. It may be just the fact that I hated myself and my life when I was a kid and CWoN tackling it. I guess it’s a slight recon related to that issue.
Yet, I can tell that this issue is being tackled magnificently:
- Remove all mental limitations preventing you from expressing your true, natural self to the world.
I feel way more natural and express myself with ease and gladly. It started changing a couple of months ago when on Wanted but now it was taken to a whole new level.
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Day 10
I spent the whole day outdoors enjoying the beauty of nature although there was a lot of people around swimming, riding a bike etc. I noticed that the sense of power within me was much much stronger than usually and I attribute it to being in nature. My senses were sharper as well.
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Hang in there, mate. You got this. Anything we can do to help?
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Thank you. 
No worries, that’s nothing I couldn’t handle. The sense that there are people striving to better themselves on the forums is really empowering. That’s a really powerful impulse on my journey as well.
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Day 11
I’m experiencing a strange kind of recon since it’s not diminishing my results or making me feel unstable but as if I felt almost physical pain in my psyche as if my psyche was being stabbed with a blade. I experienced something like that around one month ago. The only way to cope with that efficiently is overeating. So I am. 
I’m not surprised it’s happening since when I read the objectives of CWoN I instantly knew it would be tackling my core issues like love for life and myself and unbridled self-expression.
Again, it’s nothing I couldn’t manage.
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Day 12
Recon is hitting me hard although I can control it when it comes to outbursts of anger. It feels as if my psyche was an onion and the recon was peeling off its layers one by one.
Day 13
The cry of the soul has got really intense and I started questioning my relationships and even the way I am. It occurred to me, and I’ve been thinking about that for the last couple of days, that not being selfish may be detrimental not only to ourselves but also to our relationships and the people involved. It looks like living in society requires of us to be selfish since if we’re not our relationships may easily get toxic and abusive. In other words, people (in general) are not worthy of being kind and generous to them and they tend to use those qualities of yours to their own advantage and at the same time, it spoils them in some way since they eagerly follow that route to the detriment of their character (if they have any, meaning a good, social part of it). I’m old but still, I have to go back to that truth yet again.
I feel kinda trapped in my “old self” and as if my subconscious was desperately looking for a way out. I can handle that “pain” and maybe even it’s necessary to make the transgression happen.
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Day 14
My senses (sight and smell) have got much sharper thanks to CWoN. Apart from that, there’s a lot of negativity (towards “toxic” people) emerging from my depths that I attribute to CWoN as well since when I was running Dragon Flight along with GLM I didn’t experience that. It’s a part of the healing (=recon) I’m getting on CWoN but at the same time CWoN is making me solid and relaxed.
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Day 15
The recon had been kicking the shit out of me and at some point, I was so down like I hadn’t been for years. My stack is hitting me hard and especially CWoN which is addressing my main issues: the sense of isolation, the fear of expressing myself to the world, the lack of hope for a better life and being someone more than I am, being disconnected from my “soul and body”, being a victim that is at fate’s will, hating myself…
The recon is pretty intense yet short-lived. Taking a nap, and going out into the sun helps resolve it pretty fast.
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You got this, man!
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Thanks. I took a walk in the sun and did the shopping and now I’m enjoying a nice evening.
I knew CWoN would be pretty demanding once I learned about its main objectives. It’s not a healing title sensu stricto yet its objectives are related to my deepest issues (I mentioned in the previous post) that need to get resolved and I believe, I’m sure, they will.
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Day 16
My dreams have got really intense and dramatic when it comes to their content. It’s still about reframing my past relationships that were rather toxic than favorable.
I have an impression that CWoN has improved growing my hair back but I’m not sure about that and I need to keep watching the process to make sure.
The amount of negativity that is surfacing is huge. It may be the recon or just releasing it from my depths. I just need to stay mindful to not throw that shit at anyone. I’m learning more about myself and it seems to me there are more things that need to get resolved than I thought when I was starting my DR journey. Fortunately, there are two more cycles on DR and CWoN ahead and I’m going to see how it goes.
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Day 18
The stream of my consciousness and self-awareness has gotten really broad. I notice much more “things” around me than I ever did. My introspection ability has improved a lot as well and I never thought it was even possible since I was sure I could read myself like an open book. There’s way less distortion when looking into my “abyss”. Also, I’m much better connected with my emotions and feeling. I got a better understanding of my feelings for my woman as well. Now since I see more I see how much more mental alchemy I need to apply to my transmutation process. But the alchemy formula is clearer… way clearer.
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The recon has gone and it feels like my sailing got pretty smooth.
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Day 19
I’m done with the recon for now and it feels as if I was filled with fire. My whole body and mind seem to be saturated with some ancient and powerful force. I wonder if it’s CWoN only or if that sub has helped DR shine so profoundly and powerfully and there’s a great synergy of those subs flowing throughout my core.
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Day 21
Oh well, the recon is back but it’s not as severe as it was when it hit me for the first time. I wonder whether it’s not more about not going into nature and enjoying its beauty instead of sitting at home and trying to wait out the healing I’m getting on DR.
I ran one loop of the upgraded version of CWoN in the morning and I can definitely say it feels more “energetic”, more potent. I felt those energies coursing throughout my body, and calm and bliss as well when I was listening to the track.
I’m going into a five-day washout. I’m strongly tempted to play Ascension afterwards. The only title I’ve used to ignore assuming the old “alpha” programming I got for some years was enough. It’s not even about becoming more “alpha” (confident and dominant) but working on the basics like self-discipline, setting goals, motivation, planning, and taking action. CWoN seems to guide me in some way and it definitely broadens my perspective or I should rather say it evokes a very broad “introspective” perspective or it may be the synergy CWoN and DR create.
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I probably had a bit of recon on CWON as well, but granted I’m already dealing with external stress when I ran it. A single loop and after a day or two, I noticed I am enjoying music again as I previously did. There’s something to this tile, for sure.
Take it easy buddy.
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I just don’t know how to interpret the fact I got pretty negative (thinking) since it seemed to me I had dealt with it a couple of months ago when running DR (St1) or even a bit earlier when running Wanted. I don’t know if it’s a part of the recon or just a negative result of using CWoN. I didn’t notice that when running GLM along with Dragon Flight or when I was at the beginning of this cycle. Or it may be that staying at home for a couple of months did it to me. I got irascible as well but I’m sure it’s a part of the recon.
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I think we both are dealing with some heavy external stresses and that could affect our interpretation of a new title.
I recently bought CWON and I’m excited to use it but I’m postponing my venture and sticking with titles that gelled with me until I’m fresh and rejuvenated.
I’m intrigued by CWON and I like the results I’ve been reading about it.
This is just me, and I’m being less guarded with my thoughts here but the halo effects and freebies I’m reading about tells me this title probably harmonizes your mental landscape, for the lack of a better term it reminded me of the premise of Feng Shui, where you’re in harmony with your surroundings and the Earth, thus making positive and pleasant manifestations more conducive.
I like the city and city life, but good Feng Shui of the mind, sign me up.
P.S.
My third day of rest and I still have a bit of a brain fog.
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Are you running the subs seperately each other day or are you doing 2 titles a day and then take a restday? Especially with healing titles the last one can be difficult