Day 9
I’ve been experiencing some negativity towards humans perceiving them as corrupted and fucked up beings which reminded me of @bujin’s opinion on humankind. It’s not like I want to avoid them but I can judge people negatively without even feeling it and it’s like excluding them, detaching from them in my mind. I thought I was over our “human” (common) habit of judging people some time ago thanks to running Wanted and DR later on but CWoN has brought it back yet in a totally different form since I’m emotionally detached from the (negative) judgment and it doesn’t hit me at all.
CWoN has occurred to be digging deep inside me bringing up a lot of healing related to my mine life issue that is addressed in this objective:
- Generate a sense of deep gratitude for simply being able to experience nature and existence. Fall in love with your life and the experience of living.
I started questioning the whole point of living a bit. Nothing too intense it’s just a slightly sad mood putting me into the questioning. It may be something close to “the cry of the soul” that usually indicates a significant shift in my perception and thinking/behavioral patterns. It may be just the fact that I hated myself and my life when I was a kid and CWoN tackling it. I guess it’s a slight recon related to that issue.
Yet, I can tell that this issue is being tackled magnificently:
- Remove all mental limitations preventing you from expressing your true, natural self to the world.
I feel way more natural and express myself with ease and gladly. It started changing a couple of months ago when on Wanted but now it was taken to a whole new level.