Your sun sign must be at its highest now, its tough being a Cancer-Leo, especially in the realms of the heart. Nevertheless: You’re rhythmic and You’ll bounce right back up!
Happy birthday! 
Thank you my sweet @Apollo.
I ended up having a great birthday.
The morning/afternoon was incredibly sad. I was upset about that guy and my ex but now I’m good.
I had a great evening full of friends and went out. I don’t normally drink but we played games and went to the nightclub, I loved it! Danced full out and had a great time!
Appreciate the well wishes bro!
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I’ve looked into this previously but never really understood it.
I’m trying this now actually.
You mentioned about the guy playing hot and cold with me. I’m going to try this with him instead.
I don’t normally like to play games but being honest tends to lead me to being needy and with what happened on Thursday, where he cut stuff off, happening.
I truly think he is gay/bi and does like me. It’s time for me to be hot and cold with him. I’ve been looking into this and it’s what I intend to do. It’s my turn.
Thank you so much!
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Like I said about above, it’s my turn to have the fun and keep him keen instead.
During lockdown I would barely talk to this boy and he would message me to check if I was okay and have a conversation.
When we came back to the studio and I started liking him it would be me that would reach out. I want it to be back like it was. Him asking me to do my fetish, him talking and reaching out to me.
I’ve been researching about ignoring him to get his attention.
He actually texted me yesterday to say happy birthday, I replied and so did he but I didn’t reply to his last text.
Is there any courses or anything I should look into? Maybe it’ll work maybe it won’t but I need to try something. This is one guy I don’t want to give up on.
Basically the things he did to me are what I want to do to him, where he’d ignore my messages and keep me interested by acting hot and cold consistently.
Sounds simple right?
I’m also going to be at the studio less. I’ll be taking classes online instead of taking classes in person so that I don’t see him and he can actually miss me as I’d see him nearly every day normally.
I know he’ll miss me, he admitted it after we had the physical alteration on Tuesday.
Does anyone have any tips on what I can do to keep his interest at a high without coming across needed again?
Bare in mind I gave him a lot of attention and was needy, he still wanted to be friends so the chase was there, now I want him to reach out to me instead.
Started listening to LBQv2 to break my washout.
Listening via my speaker whilst I play CoD (I notice that I can definitely feel how listening to subs during my game play affects how I play - Saint mentioned this for the gaming sub too.)
Anyway, solace version and I’m 40 minutes in already getting a slight tension in my head and some anger (mainly from the game to be honest) but the tension is definitely from the sub. Wasn’t there before.
I’m going to be trying 1 sub per day with a week rest I think.
So LBQv2 will only be played now, and then again next week.
I’ll have 4 days on and 3 off like normal but only one loop per sub each week.
I was going to do 3 subs x 1 loop 3 days on and 4 days off and alternate one Ultima every Wednesday but I hate playing so many subs in one day. Maximum I prefer is 2 different subs per day for one loop.
Definitely think 1 sub per day (kind of like a gym split) will aid me better as I seem to be super sensitive to subs at the moment.
Updating my custom:
Heartsong Q Core
WANTED Q Core
Long-Range Seduction
Love Without Attachment
Charisma & Flirting Automatic Mentor/Improver
Transcendental Connection
Chosen of Venus
Yggdrasil
Omnidimensional
Dragon Tongue
Dominion
Temptation
Earthshaker - Sexuality
Depths of Love
Mosaic
ADDED:
Khan Stage 4 - After been treated like shit by that guy, I want to make sure I’m more dominant, more alpha, powerful, sexual and whatever else. Plus I’ve used Stage 1-3, and 4 slightly, before.
Pride Unbroken - Same as above in regards to people leaving, or using me or whatever.
Sanguine
Inner Gasoline
Stop Porn and Masturbation
What do we think of this?
EDIT: I’ve updated and bought the custom.
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Honestly I think it looks great! You’ve really covered all of your bases and I think Khan is a great addition for that personal power aspect.
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Thank you man! All bought and ready to receive soon!
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Okay, so since my birthday I’ve been trying to do the no contact with this guy. It’s been 3 days since I contacted him and haven’t seen him since Thursday.
I’m doing the No Contact thing to see if he actually gives a shit.
It’s a win-win situation regardless, if he isn’t interested he won’t give a shit and I’ll eventually get over him, or he’ll end up sending me a message.
I’ve just been having a feeling that he’s going to end up messaging me.
I don’t know why but I just have a feeling.
The other week I had a feeling he wasn’t going to turn up to company training and he didn’t, I’ve had so many gut feelings about this guy that turned out true. I don’t know, but I just keep getting a feeling that he’s going to text me.
Has this been happening to anyone else on any subs?
Bare in mind I was on a wash out but for some reason I’ve been getting more feelings that things were going to happen and then they happened.
I don’t understand tho.
I do want this guy, at least I think I do right now, but I need to be treated with respect and I was one of those people who were super needy (I mean, he did make promises he didn’t keep) and ended up de-valuing myself, but now it’s time to get that back.
Considering updating my MSQv2 custom again and removing Inner Circle, since Stark has it already, to include RM. I think it would make perfect sense.
Plus I want it in Solace since I’ve started sleeping to my subs.
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Happy Birthday!
I like the thinking!
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Thank you dude.
My apologies you’ve received abuse on the forum. You know I love you!
And thanks in regards to the thinking!
Thank you, and thank you!
As for Khan and Pride Unbroken, you deserve to be treated better, and I’m glad you took some constructive, productive measures.
Sometimes what appears to be or might feel like rejection, in reality the person is nervous. Maybe they just need reassurance, or time to think about it, or to know that you can banter with them (as in you have social skills), or they feel like “things are moving too fast”, or they are trying to get control of the situation to get control of their feelings.
Remember you are listening to Heartsong. Some one good is bound to show up.
Right now, I’m having women offering me their phone numbers and insisting I call them. This was not happening 1 month ago.
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Yeah I felt like Khan and Pride Unbroken were definitely necessary. I was very needy during the time I was with this guy. I wasn’t overly needy but I did pressure for doing my fetish - but only because he was constantly saying he would do it and then not do it. That’s why I wanted Khan, because I felt like I became a person I don’t want to be - which is someone who allows a guy to manipulate and take control of me and have power. Never again is that happening.
Pride Unbroken will aid in the possibility that he might leave or break my heart again like he already has. I keep getting weird feelings and images in my head happening tho. I meditated on something today and I got a weird image in my head occur that I never thought of…don’t know if it’s something that’s going to happen but I don’t know where we are at in the situation.
I do believe Heartsong is working and will manifest that it will work OR that something better is coming. However the situation is truly confusing. I don’t understand what’s happening.
That’s totally awesome that you’re getting those results. I’m sure that’ll happen for me too if things don’t work out with this guy.
Hey, I don’t know if you’ve read this in the other journal so I wanted to give you a heads up, might give ya a clue or something like that
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I never saw that! Thank you for sharing. It makes complete sense reading it back now.
Heartsong is definitely guiding me.
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So…
Heartsong is definitely guiding me, even if it’s through heartbreak at the moment, it might not be but also could be. I hope it isn’t because whilst I’m still on no contact with this guy, I do want to be with him. Not necessarily in a relationship or dates but I know I like him. I thought Heartsong would have helped me get over him but I don’t think that’s actually the case for it now.
Anyway, due to the rough times and stress I’ve been having I’ve lost a bunch of weight - the heartbreak diet - whilst this isn’t a thing for me to be glamourising nor do I want to, it has helped me feel better with the way I look - I am eating, just no where near the amount I used to - I can barely eat any junk food anymore…
WANTED must also be helping in general, because people have been telling me how good I look. I’ve even dyed my hair today, rose gold, to match a friend and I freakin’ love it. It needs a wash to get the colour a little more light but I think I look hot - even with pink hair. I can see my cheekbones for the first time. I need to start working out again and focusing on me but I’m super excited for my journey. I’m still cautious of what’s happening with my situation but I am excited.
My new updated customs are gonna fit even more perfectly and I feel like both of them are going to aid me in totally new levels that I didn’t even think of, whilst aiding me in accomplishing so much. I’m excited!
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Y’all.
I swear Heartsong has manifested the shit I’ve been through for a reason because I’m starting to come through on the other end.
I didn’t text that guy since last Sunday, I didn’t go to the studio to take classes because I knew he’d be there, and whatever else I could to avoid seeing him - I took away my access and everything else. Friday night he texted me. For the first time in a long ass while he reached out to me. I’ve not been replying straight away like I normally would because I don’t want to come across as needy, I’m giving him the distance he actually deserves from me and taking away my access. I realise now that I was giving him too much love and access to me before and he was taking advantage of that. No more is that happening. No way.
I’ve only ever had one serious relationship, been with a couple girls in the past, and had a little fun with guys so this is all new to me. I’m not being horrible or anything but I’m taking my time and focusing on me. I genuinely feel as if Heartsong has been leading me here - the heartbreak was necessary and things seem to be looking up and that’s freaking awesome.
I’ve been doing a course to aid my thinking in regards to men/love and all that kinds of stuff and what I’ve been applying has been working which is amazing. I’m learning so much. It may work out with him, it may not. I hope it does but at the same time I’m not addicted like I was, being needy or whatever else. It’ll either work it won’t but I’m not going to be the chaser any longer, it’s just simply not happening and I’m glad to be back in that position.
Just thought I needed to put this in there because I really do feel like Heartsong lead me through that break up and heartbreak so I know how to be treated in relationships, and what to do and not to do. I also feel like it’s lead me to this course so I know what to do in the future and take the action I need to. I’m freakin’ grateful as heck.
I’m still waiting for my updated 2 customs to come, and I’m so excited for them. I’m currently listening to LoveBirdQv2 right now and will move onto MSQv2 later today in the hopes I’ll get the updated versions soon to listen to because I’m that excited but I just know how much these subs have been helping - even when I’m not realising it.
Edit:
I keep reading the sales pages to Renaissance Man and Khan and I think they’re going to be incredible things to have in my updated versions.
Khan will truly give me the power to be alpha, dominant, sexual and social (trust me, I’m totally ready to be the bad ass I deserve to be) and Renaissance Man will help with the empathy but also creativity I want for my career.
I’d consider MSQv2 to be my career sub and LBQv2 to be my love life sub however they both blend beautifully and will hit other areas of my life and even help each other in their respected paths. Can you feel my excitement?
Second edit:
I’ll be dropping my second Ultima unless I’m using it as a booster. I’ll be using R.I.C.H as my third slot as a title since my other focus has to be on money. Therefore it won’t be 4 titles, but 3.
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Meh.
I was doing so well.
My ex just told me the guy has hinted at having feelings for him.
That could be a confusion of signal but I’m not sure.
The guy told me last week he didn’t have any sexual feelings for him, and I asked him if he had emotional feelings for him - he said he didn’t think so.
I’m not sure what to believe but after this point probably what my ex is saying.
I just want this to end now.
I hope you dont mind me saying this… Couldnt it be possible that your ex has reasons to believe that to be true or to simply be lying.
hinted how exactly?? I would be suspicious of your ex intentions in telling you that, but thats just me… who knows really.