Thanks dude, and Stark helps me with popularity, being creative, making new choreography, getting ideas etc. People love me and I think it’s because of Stark honestly.
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This looks like what I would call a “reasonable schedule with Qv2”.
I think you deserve to be treated better than how others seem to be treating you. I hope Heartsong helps with that, too.
@Lion Thank you for your compassion and encouragement here!
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Yeah I didn’t think it would be too much on Qv2.
Do you think my stack is too much tho?
I think Heartsong is giving me recon. I haven’t used any subs this week. I plan on not using them for minimum is of next week too so I can see how I’m feeling.
Today has definitely felt better in the end.
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Okay so I’m really starting to get annoyed, upset and frustrated.
I’m on my wash out. I’m thinking of taking a longer period of time to wash out with the minimum being after my birthday which is on Saturday so that would be two weeks.
This guy who did my fetish, he hasn’t for weeks, gives me so many mixed signals. One minute he cares, the next he doesn’t give a shit. One minute he’ll ignore me, the next he doesn’t and I really don’t get it. I’m getting upset and frustrated because it’s becoming trouble some for me. He’s on my mind 24/7. I can’t eat properly and I can’t sleep because it’s affecting me so freaking much.
I would have thought the Heartsong custom would have aided in helping me get him off my mind - especially the Love Without Attachment module but no, he’s on my mind 24/7 and it’s tearing me apart mentally and emotionally.
I still think he’s bisexual and so do other people, there’s something off and I’m so done with it now like if you are that’s okay and I understand if you don’t want to say but like why are you treating me like shit for no reason.
Why am I not over you if you’re not meant for me? I’ve been trying to meditate to clear my mind but this is one of the legit worse I’ve ever felt because I just can’t stop thinking about him and I’m going through hell right now. I’m getting so angry and frustrated.
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This guy is treating me so differently today and actually admitted some faults…like what?
My ex boyfriend was a bit of a doucheball earlier and I stood up to him. I ended up apologising because I did have an over reaction but he was still a doucheball.
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Maybe the guy just likes the attention that he’s getting? Its usually the case by those that play the ice and fire game. Cold when you’re warming them with attention, and hot when you’re being cool. As if they are recycling your energy to feed it back to them. On other hands, these high-school games seem to make them feel like when they were young and dumb or something. Just me thoughts.
You stood up nevertheless and owned up to your reactions. Well done in my eyes 
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As far as productivity/intelligence goes have you got any results from that?
I do believe I’ve got productivity and intelligence more from Stark for sure, especially in my field. I feel like it’s increased more now I’ve split up with my boyfriend too.
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Craziest thing happened today, not necessarily in a good way.
That guy has been treating me like shit consistently, has been letting me down, acting a certain towards me and today I had enough of it, I stood up for myself and confronted him…
That confrontation lead to a physical alteration with him where he was pinning me up to a wall. I had many occasions where I could have hurt him but I just wanted to stop him from doing anything stupid or hurting me. I knew he was angry as a person, but this was literally next level.
My friend ended up finding him in a choke hold and getting him off me, and my ex boyfriend (who has a crush on him) is fuming with him. I have CCTV footage and a recording of him doing it so we’ll see where this goes. He needed to do that but he instantly regretted doing it the way he did. He’s apologised but that isn’t okay.
We’ll have to see where it goes from here.
Time to cash out, huh?
In all seriousness, are you alright? You’re quite a fit guy, I am certain that you could’ve done something about it if you chose to.
We’re talking about it today, but I’m consistently watching the CCTV footage back and seeing the anger in his eyes.
I already forgave him for his apology but I don’t think I can actually forgive him. What he did was truly unacceptable.
I chose not to try and fight back because I knew it would make things worse. I also really didn’t want to hurt him.
I truly feel this could actually make things better for us, but I don’t know if things could change.
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You’re the best judge of this: He got physical with you, driven by one of the strongest emotions - Anger; Could HeartSong be working in a very unexpected way?
Nonetheless, I am glad you’re well
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Same here Brandon am glad you well and it didn’t go to a much worst outcome
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I wouldn’t want to get my hopes up that it is Heartsong. I’m still on my wash out. I was actually planning on buying Sanguine to deal with the situation before we speak because I don’t know if I can or want to meet him. Normally I would but all I can think about is what happened and how things haven’t changed before - even though he has apologised several times.
Whilst I’d love for our relationship to blossom from here I’m not sure if it will. I don’t know if this is what would make things change or not.
Thank you, I appreciate it. I’m definitely sore (yesterday was rough anyway on my body as I had dance training) but jheez.
Thank you honestly, it could have easily been worse.
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After what happened yesterday and what has been happening in my life for the past month or so I’ve decided to purchase Sanguine.
I feel like I need the positive and optimisim in my life, especially right now. I wanted to use it before my talk with this guy too, especially considering its much later than I expected it to be.
I feel good. Better than I have for a while to be honest. I listened to one loop whilst watching Gossip Girl this morning and it’s definitely helping already.
That means I broke my wash out but I don’t think I’m gonna use it again until I feel ready to use subs again. Qv2 effects definitely seem to linger for sure.
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So I’m a little confused at the moment.
Me and the guy met up yesterday but literally had 10-15 minutes to talk so we’re supposed to be meeting up to talk today, hopefully that happens.
I’ve been thinking a lot and I’ve now got a lot to ask and do. I won’t write it on here for personal reasons but I have been thinking a lot.
What I will let you guys know is that I genuinely felt like Heartsong would stop my feelings for this guy, and that they’d diminish completely, and they haven’t. Regardless of him treating me like crap, regardless of him physically assaulting me and whatever else. They haven’t gone. Love Without Attachment is definitely working and I’ve not been as attached in regards to texting him as much and whatever else but my feelings haven’t gone, and I wonder why?
I really think I’ve figured part of the situation out and hopefully he can shed some light on that.
But there must be a reason I’m not over this guy. I bought Heartsong the week it came out, or just after, and I’m not over him - it’s even in my custom (obviously). I’m thinking about him more and more every day, or so I believe I am - rather than dropping him even though I’ve tried to drop him….Something is going on… Maybe he is supposed to be someone to me. Just maybe. I do hope so, maybe…
It’s over with that guy.
At least for now.
He told me he’s not doing my fetish again and it feels wrong.
I cried, a lot.
He wants to be my friend, but without the fetish attached, which sucks. I actually feel better now, with some kind of closure and after the crying, but I guess I gotta use Heartsong to find my next person.
I’m pretty sure Heartsong bought this heartbreak on too, because I’ve had this issue since, and broke up with my boyfriend, the week I used Heartsong. Hopefully now it can mend my heart and let me have a good birthday on Saturday. Maybe I can use it to attract someone Saturday night aha.
Let’s hope they manifest super quickly please.
Gah.
Today’s my birthday and it’s probably one of the saddest one I’ve started off with in a long while.
I now have an ex-boyfriend and I don’t know where I stand with that guy right now. Neither of these I thought would happen. I know they’re happening for the right reasons but it still sucks.
I’m excited to go out tonight and drink but my heart is broken and I don’t feel wanted/needed - by anyone. I know that isn’t the case and the people I’m going out with tonight love me but I want someone who I can be intimate with and spend time with and finally feel love/give love with the way it’s supposed to be.
My ex loves me to pieces and I love him but we just didn’t work sexually and so it didn’t feel the same as what I know love should feel like.
I’m so sad.
I’m broken.
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Stay strong Brandon.
For what it’s worth, I usually don’t like my birthdays, my mind seems to drift to things I should have already accomplished or enjoyed, but I haven’t.
Some of these regrets doesn’t make much sense but shadows brought about by the occasion, and some of them are very real. Both intensified nonetheless.
With that said, we only get one birthday per year, try to enjoy it. Let go of the sad thoughts if you can, after all it is your day, nothing else should matter. It’s what I would remind myself when I celebrate mine. To take it easy.
Happy birthday, I hope you find what you’re looking for amigo. You’re young and you have your whole life ahead of you. Things will get better than ever.
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JCAST is correct stay away from the clowns stay away from Macdonalds. I was watching a documentary where staff were spitting in customers burgers. Plus there are alot of horrible ingredients in the burgers.
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