Reclaiming my power - A Journal by MatAlexander305

[Matalexander305]

Today, as I get out of my car and begin walking to the gym. Two guys get out of a truck. I heard one of them say “Hey, it’s that guy”.

I was the only other guy walking into the gym… so they were clearly talking about me. I’m just curious what I’m famous for now? Hmm

Now, whenever I’m working out. I get so much attention. Men stare, women stare. I’m always the hottest guy in the gym. I feel like a model honestly, I was looking in the mirror in between sets and I was just looking at myself in complete admiration of the beauty staring back at me.

I spent so much of my life hating how I looked, hating the skin I was in, and now I love it. I may not be tall, but I was blessed with good looks. And Wanted is amplifying it too new heights every day. Combined with the modules in my custom (Invincible presence, Ethereal Presence, Entranced and Elegance)… ghaaad if I was 6ft +…

Let’s just say, I wouldn’t want to bring my girl around that man.

[Plutus]

Now imagine if I hadn’t persuaded you to use Wanted. What would of happened. See this is why you listen to the wise

[Matalexander305]

@Plutus

Now imagine if I hadn’t persuaded you to use Wanted. What would of happened. See this is why you listen to the wise

Luv U (platonically)

[Plutus]

Love you too platonically

[Matalexander305]

With all the stories I keep telling, its definitely a result of the story teller module in my custom.

I’ve never felt so inspired to tell this many stories. Especially publicly, I’ve actually always had trouble telling stories for some reason. It’s like I used to be so obsessive over unnecessary details that I’d get caught up in think and trying to remember what happened as I was telling the story. This always made it awkward and people would just stop listening to me speak.

That always rubbed me the wrong way. Because I’m a great listener, so I always found it disrespectful when they wouldn’t show me the same interest and attention.

But I think I’m getting better now, I smile, I make more eye contact now. I actively engage in group convos and now even find myself starting them. I rarely ever think “I don’t know what to say, so I’ll just stay quiet”. And that’s all I used to do. Made me feel like an compete outsider.

I’m glad this custom is working so well

[Matalexander305]

I should mention, I got a raise today. For like $4. Not too shabby for a young man like me.

Usually the supervisor handles the raises, but for some reason… the main manager wanted to see me.

So I walk over to his office, and he greets me with a huge smile. Such a kind man. And he tells me he’s heard great things about me, that I’m one of the best workers he has, and that they don’t usually give raises during this time of year… but he felt that I deserved it and they want to keep me. He also said that the changes to my wage were effective one month ago. So I’ll be getting a phat pay check this week

What was even cooler was, he let me in on some inside information. He said we’d be increasing our hours again in the coming weeks (which means even more $$$). And he also asked me for a favour…

[Matalexander305]

See, we’ve been having quality control issues in the truss plant I work in. I’ve seen it first hand, our builders on site have been complaining a lot, and it’s caused a lot of trouble lately. Me personally, I’ve always been attentive to detail, if you have a roof truss built by me, consider yourself lucky because I don’t slack.

However, a lot of my co workers aren’t as attentive as me. And now, due to their laziness we’ve had to tear through piles and piles of trusses, some from as far back as 6 months ago… and repair them.

So he asked me personally to really crack down on this. “You’re a lead head now, if you see sloppiness, please say something. I’m not telling you to snitch, but point it out to them and make sure they do it right”.

[Matalexander305]

It’s kind of cool that I got this VIP treatment. I know everyone always talks negatively about external validation. But in my experience, it’s been a very important catalyst of growth. One 10 minute conversation can change your entire life, just like it did with mine:

@Matalexander305

“Mat, you’re so good looking, you could have any girl you want, not only that but just your demeanour. Body language, facial expressions etc., are very seductive. Then even my brother, sister and all the young ones pitched in and were like, “Ya man, it’s not just your face and body, but the way you carry yourself, the way you look at people, pose etc. You’re like a natural model.

Everyone was gassing me up; it was very flattering

Then she took it even further. She was like, “Mat; you’re one of those people who can have it all. You’re super intelligent, you’re confident, you’re funny… blah blah blah

“You can have anything you want.”

[Houdini]

@Matalexander305

• StarkQ
• True Social
• Lion IV
• Dominion
• Submodel alpha
• Manipulus
• Dragons tongue
• Story teller
• Song of joy
• Emperor’s voice
• Voice Master
• Furious accent
• Natural winner
• Invincible presence
• Ethereal presence
• Entranced
• Elegance
• Sanguine
• Stress displacement
• Yggdrasil
• Mosaic

What are your results from Invincible Presence, Lion IV and Dominion you think and feel?

[Matalexander305]

Currently reconnning hard. I have no drive, I’m angry and I feel drained physically, emotionally and spiritually.

I’ve been having very emotionally turbulent dreams lately that I can’t recall, and I think it has a major role to play in how I’m feeling.

I’m going to do what i always do, return to nature. Whenever I get like this, I take a walk into the wilderness and restore my powers.

[Matalexander305]

@Houdini

What are your results from Invincible Presence, Lion IV and Dominion you think and feel?

I’ll get to this, just hold on

[Plutus]

@Matalexander305

I’ve been having very emotionally turbulent dreams lately that I can’t recall, and I think it has a major role to play in how I’m feeling.

H E A L I N G and I’m 100% is because of Wanted because I use to have the exact same thing. Survive, thrive and you will win

Healing is an important component of Wanted once it’s done, welp I will let you be the judge of that

[Plutus]

To further my point reminds me of a time I try Wanted + Emperor and was talking to this girl that liked me and I liked. I felt so emotional about it because I couldn’t see her yet exactly as your feeling right now. What I learned is listen from the wise and keep going and remember why you started.

[Matalexander305]

@Plutus

What I learned is listen from the wise and keep going and remember why you started.

Oh I don’t plan on stopping

[Matalexander305]

Though I’m getting some of the most mind blowing results ever, theirs a darker side to this story.

Excess. Now it’s great that I’ve been going out and socializing, but it’s taking a toll on me physically. My job is physical labour ( I work 9 hour shifts), . I train 6 days a week, (2x upper body, 1x legs). I’m up at 5 everyday and don’t get home until 6:30 - 7:00. By the time I’ve eaten I have got 1-2 hours until I’m in bed.

I usually don’t drink on week days, but when the weekend comes, (especially when I go out) I’ll drink a decent amount. And because I’ve been going out more and more, not only am I staying up later, but I’m spending lots of money. Everytime I go out it’s at least $100 minimum.

Friday night, I stayed up till like 6am and woke up at 11 am… best believe I didn’t train that day. F*ck I even smoked a cigarette when I was drunk . I only smoke cigars (I’ve also been doing a lot of that lately too )

Anyways, that’s a full 24 hours I was up from Friday to Saturday. Just yesterday, I had a very long day at work, and I skipped training AGAIN. I never skip training, but I was falling asleep as I was driving home. (And I never do that. Their was no way I was training. Then I get home and somehow get this genius idea that I should have a drink to celebrate my raise. I end up having 2 which is relatively harmless but…

I woke up this morning and I had slept in 10 minutes, and I never sleep in… and ofc now I feel like sh!t. All this to say that I think I’m over working my body, with the drinking, with the staying up late. My appetite has also been lack luster. I used to eat 3 meals and 2 shakes a day, now it’s 3 meals and a snack.

I need to chill tf out

[Plutus]

You need something called S E L F C O N T R O L.

For example, I go out as much as you do but the most detrimental thing to your health is cigar and cigs. Alcohol too but if you do that in moderation you should be fine. I don’t know how you go out till 6am tho😂 I go out from 10 to 2am max and best believe I’m sleeping by 3am (And these types of going out happen every 2 weeks max even tho once that week on Stark.

Maybe you could try my routine Monday to Friday dedicate to workout / hobbies / work and no matter what don’t deviate from that (Except the occasional going out on Friday if it’s possible to do it on weekends). Then Saturday make it your party day you can do whatever you want eat whatever you want (This is if your bulking of course) and stay up till whatever time you want (Tho I highly recommend not staying up past 3am). And keep this type of thing at max 1 time every two weeks not once a week. Keep in mind you can still go out on weekends just not getting drunk and staying up late going out (There’s a lot of fun things you can do on the weekend that doesn’t need alcohol and where you can be asleep by 11pm). Then on Sunday consider those either your chill going out day where you don’t drink and stay up late or recovery day where you make sure your body is taking care of from the night before. This can be achieved by having a good nutrition diet that day, electrolytes (Gatorade sugar free is the best one), hydration (Minimum 2L of water) and that’s it.

To some this might seem like an excessive amount of going out but you have to understand that at @Matalexander305 age that’s part of the definition of his fun while also working towards his goals and wealth goals.

[Plutus]

And guys don’t pull an Andrew Tate with me, cigars are horrible for your health ain’t no way Tate changes that

As a wise man once says, science is science and you can’t argue with it unless you have the facts.

[millyx]

Crying

[Matalexander305]

@Plutus

And guys don’t pull an Andrew Tate with me, cigars are horrible for your health ain’t no way Tate changes that

They’re not nearly as bad as they’re portrayed to be. No doubt it’s not healthy for you, but you cannot compare them to cigarettes.

How Unhealthy Is Cigar Smoking?

[Matalexander305]

On average, I smoke 1 cigar every 2-3 weeks. I’ll sometimes go 3-4 months without smoking at all.