Hmm.
Khan sounds so very, very appealing to me right now, but is it just more recon, another illusion, more mind games?
Don’t know, only way to find out is to fuck around first.
Stack TB with SB? Could be done, but not now. Can’t be done now. Too risky.
ASBR & PS Cycle 1 - Day 2 - Rest
Full Loops ASBR & PS Yesterday
The journey with Stark Black has been harrowing to say the least. So much in the outside world has changed, but I’ve been met with so much internal resistance every single step of the way. I’ve nearly quit, pretty much every day since I started running Stark Black, but there has been a voice within pushing me along whenever it gets dark and difficult, reminding me that to give up would be to invalidate all the pain that I’ve experienced just to get to this point that I’m at.
It hasn’t been easy, well some things have. Money has been coming easier than ever before and there seems to be only the limitation of my mind and focus that prevents more from coming in.
SB is different for me, it’s different than any other subliminal I’ve ever run, and that’s why I’ve stuck with it, no matter how dark it’s gotten, no matter how many times I’ve cried and begged for the pain to end, because under that pain, there is a deep knowing that I’m becoming free, truly free, free in a way that I’ve only ever tasted once before, on Wanted Black.
Once again, I must admit that I was wrong, so very, very wrong about so many things. I really had thought that I had it all figured out, that I knew what was happening and why it was happening, but I was wrong. It’s as simple as that, I was wrong. What a wonderful feeling to be so wrong and for reality to be so much more beautiful than you imagined it could have been.
It’s one thing to be told, it’s a wholly different thing to see it.
You see, this subliminal has gotten me in closer and closer contact with reality, and that’s where most of the pain has come from.
I’ve often reflected that I feel like Siddhartha when he ventured out of the palace for the first time. How great his suffering must have been, to be suddenly confronted with all the horrors of life: death, starvation, poverty, sickness, sadness, hopelessness. It was enough to drive him mad, so he cast off his robes and wandered the earth in search of answers to how this life could produce so much suffering.
In very real ways, I’ve been Siddhartha on this journey, seeing the truth of it all, seeing the pain, the suffering, and the horrors of the world around us.
There is suffering and there is pleasure. Unlike Siddhartha, I do not see life as suffering, though there is much suffering to be seen. Life, is a playground, and it’s the lucky few that by mere chance are blessed with the insight to see the game and begin to work out the rules for themselves. And the rules must be worked out for ourselves, I do think I believe that now.
When the student is ready, the master appears. That isn’t to say that we can’t help one another, but it is to say that you cannot “learn” someone, you can only guide, and for as much guidance as I’ve been given, my ears have remained closed to most of it.
I tired of my self now, let’s get more concrete.
It’s been a long and often difficult road, but the difficulty is only within, it’s simply resistance to the changes that I asked for.
Today I realized something that should have been obvious. That’s how these things always happen, when you finally see it, it was so obvious all along. Even that is another illusion though, because if it were truly so obvious, you would have seen it in the first place. Catch my drift.
Today I could see clearly that the “negative thoughts” that I’ve been fighting so hard for so long and have caused me so much recon, were always there under the surface and were simply expressing themselves in my subconscious mind. I saw that fighting them is stupid because now that I can see them on the surface, I can challenge them and change them.
Today I also saw that it really is only me and it’s only ever been me.
I’ve tortured myself with comparisons for so long, for so many years I’ve wondered how people that are “inferior” to me can have more.
I was only partially seeing through the illusion. The truth that I was seeing is that it’s all an illusion: hard work is meaningless and doesn’t equate to anything, status is just energy, attraction is a state of mind. I was seeing these things, but I was unable to realize that the only reason why people had things that I lacked was because of my own internal limits. That’s all it’s ever been, and that’s why comparisons are foolish and delusional.
Go on, try and work out to me logically how the less attractive man has better luck with women.
Go on, try and work out to me logically how the “idiot” is richer and more talented than you.
Go on, try your logic. It all falls apart under the microscope because it was always, has always, and will always be a lie and illusion.
External appearances mean nothing, almost nothing at all. It’s all in the mind and it’s only ever been in the mind.
Okay, back to work and processing the subliminals.
Results
Great financial manifestations last night.
Been convinced about that since a couple of cycles. But I can’t use that knowledge yet: my mind doesn’t know how to make good use of it yet.
Last but not least 
Feel that, feel that.
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 3 - PS & RotnW Full Loops
After day two, I decided I’d give Rotnw another shot because it bloomed and that was just too much fun.
Listening schedule is:
Monday: SB & PS
Wednesday: PS & Rotnw
Friday: PS & Rotnw
Full loops on all listening days unless recon says otherwise.
I recently cleared some massive recon with SB but more came up last night and still around the same topic.
Today, though I acted out slightly last night, I feel like I have a better perspective on why I’ve been getting recon in these particular life areas.
It’s painful to look at, but it’s all past trauma, are you shocked? I’m not.
You see, I’m starting to realize that I’ve never really released many of my traumas, I’ve just transmuted them as a survival mechanism.
Instead of releasing my fear of abandonment for example, I just became the one who abandons.
It’s really interesting how cliché the human psyche is.
Seems like we either release it, do what was done to us to others, or keep allowing it to happen to us.
That really seems to be how it works, lol.
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 4 - Rest
Exposure was a little high yesterday, felt mostly okay, but it kicked up some irritating recon that’s led to some clarity today. Just built a wealth custom, so excited for that, but it’ll be worth the wait for it to come in.
In the last couple days, I firmly resolved that my SB journey had ended for now. It’s just too much for me, for where I am, and for where I’m going. Beyond that, I don’t think I actually want most of what it’s offering.
It’s a great program, don’t get me wrong, but it’s become clear to me that only some aspects of the script are working for me and much of it is causing severe recon, so I’m off the sauce for now and will probably revisit it in the future when things are a little more kosher in other areas of my life.
The biggest take away that I have from SB is that it removed a lot of the bullshit about my character. Like layers of an onion, it just kept stripping and stripping things away and ultimately it’s made me better, however I feel as though I’ve gotten what I needed from Stark Black and I’m ready to move on.
My relationship to subliminals has changed as a result of my experiences with SB and it’s made it clear to me that though running a subliminal for the long haul is the best way to get the best results, there is (for me) a needed level of sub hopping.
I picked Stark Black because of an intuitive ping, I ran it despite considerable discomfort until now, and then the other night it just became clear to me that I had gotten what I needed from it.
What did I need from it?
I needed it to remove all the bullshit, all the self-deception, all the trash that’s been holding me back from getting what I really want in life. That’s what I needed and that’s what I got.
It was never about the fame, it was never about the money, it was never about any of the objectives. What I needed was to get real with myself and to see myself for who I really am in all my good and bad qualities. I needed to see the darkness, the light, the delusions, the lies, and the profound stubbornness that existed within me. I also needed to see that I can make money and I can reverse my financial situation. That’s what I needed.
Maybe what I needed was to put my money with my mouth is. I claimed to wanted what it had to offer, so I needed to explore that part of myself and allow it to remove all the trash that was holding me back, to see that all these things I thought I wanted, weren’t really what I wanted and never really were what I wanted.
I don’t want to run a company.
I don’t want to lead the world.
I don’t want to lead anyone except maybe my social circle.
I want fame, but I don’t want it that way.
To put it another way, I thought I wanted to be Elon, I don’t want to be Elon. I don’t want to be Tony Stark, I want to be Robert Downey Jr. Big difference.
I was mistaking the screen for the man standing behind it
So, in a roundabout way, SB has been a healing title for me, go figure.
I’m going to continue the cycle on PS and RotnW and after 12 days I’m gonna throw my new custom in and keep up the good fight
Have you tried the New Primal? By running it myself and intuitively looking at these things you listed here, maybe it could be a great fit?
I’m sold, it’s been on the list for a while. I’ll consider you my sign
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 5 - PS & RotnW Full Loops
Indecision, fear, impatience, insecurity. All things to root out and irradicate. A lesson that I’ve been ignoring from SB has been the lesson of patience. So many times on this journey I’ve gotten massively impatient, but patience is key. How can I manifest a long-term goal if I’m always so damn impatient? I mean…I guess I can because I’ve done it, but what good does it do to cause myself so much suffering in the short term for something that I know is going to happen in the long term, you know? Kinda silly ehh?
I don’t take enough action, I don’t work hard enough, this is something that I’ve known deep down for a very long time, and yet I’ve found ways to ignore it, to avoid facing it.
I’m a busybody, I’m always moving, and always doing things, but how many of those things are worth my time? How many things am I doing that I actually should be doing to further my growth and to make my dreams come true.
How much of my movement is just wasted energy? More than I would like to admit. We all have 24 hours in a day, we all only have about 16 useful hours in a day, and yet how many of those hours am I spending well in a way which brings what I desire into fruition?
Hmm, so much to say.
Of all that I said yesterday, I’m unsure how much of it I believe anymore, with less recon from SB there is a certain clarity but also a certain doubt, am I just dipping my hand into the fire again because I like the burn, or is something higher chiding me on for my own benefit? Both, I would say.
SB has taught me that there is an aspect of me that enjoys pain. I’ve written so many posts on this forum advocating slowness, safety, patience, and focus with subliminal use. Yet, I never follow that advice myself, only rarely do I listen to myself.
I give the advice because I know the pain that I’ve inflicted on myself and wish to spare others, yet I continue to push the envelope, to walk as close to the razor’s edge as I can, because there is something in me that enjoys being a step away from ruin…
It makes me feel alive. It makes me feel alive to be so close to catastrophe and to avoid it by the skin of my ass, and I’ve done it multiple times, complaining every time I’ve done it. But now I can see that this part of me exists, that part that’s been hiding in the shadows for so long, and what do I do about it? Kill it.
Eradicate that aspect of myself now that I can see it for what it is. There are many ways to feel alive, but taking foolish risks to test fate–something I routinely do–is a stupid thing to do. It’s just stupid.
There is a story in the bible, New Testament Matthew 4:5-11, the devil tells Jesus to jump off a cliff arguing that if Jesus really were the son of God, then Jesus would be protected by angels and would survive. Jesus reply’s that it’s written that we should not test God.
The deeper symbolic meaning of the story, was that we should not test fate for the subconscious cannot protect us if we are deliberately and consciously trying to test it. Though Jesus may have said God, his experience and his wisdom was true of the subconscious also.
You see, the subconscious kicks in to protect people in moments of extreme distress and danger, but this protection comes about because the conscious mind shuts down, it turns off, and the subconscious takes over. It happens only in times of extreme distress and is common in athletes. However, when we deliberately and consciously put ourselves in danger, the subconscious often cannot take over, because the conscious mind can override the subconscious.
In short, don’t test God is the lesson I’ve learned today. Stop testing God, trust God.
My journey with Stark Black isn’t over, that much I know, it’s not truly over, but I also know that it’s time for a break from Stark Black. After all, that’s how the program was intended to be used, in short bursts, not as a long term effort.
There is wisdom is using this program in short bursts.
What I’m thinking now is that I will run SB for 2 cycles on and two cycles off.
I’ve run it since launch, but my cycles haven’t been exact. I’ve exposed myself to it weekly since launch (with a 12 day washout in between) but I haven’t run full normal cycles due to the intensity.
I’m feeling a bit scattered, but I’ll try and zero in and pull focus.
Stark Black IS good for me, but it’s not good for me to run it for too long at a time. I need time away from the program, I need to allow it to settle. I can feel that I need to return to it, but I can also feel that now isn’t the time to keep running it, it’s time for a long washout from SB.
2 cycles off SB, that’s what I’m feeling. Take 2 cycles off SB, use my wealth custom, PS/WB, and make Primal the new main program for now. Do that for 2-3 cycles, and see what happens, rest and relax, and then get back on the grind at some point.
Even just saying the above, I’m over thinking it massively, I’m worried about direction, I’m worried about this, that and the other thing.
This reflects yet another problem that SB has been hammering me about, I lack self-trust.
Near daily I have experiences of profound intuitive guidance and ESP type experiences, and yet I’m still so damn skeptical and have so little self-trust.
So why lack trust in myself. Maybe it’s for the same reason that I often lack faith in what we could call God.
For you see, it’s the God within me that I often lack trust in, not the man.
So many thoughts and so much to say, always so much to say.
The Plan
Well, things are ultimately unfolding exactly how I want, not in the right order, not all at once, but everything is coming in, in a timing that makes sense to me, and it’s really thanks to SB and God, never thought those words would come from me, but it’s true.
So, I rest, I relax, I journal a lot, and I do my very best for the time being, knowing that I will be back in the hands of SB soon enough and that everything will come about exactly as I need it and exactly as I want it, so long as I just give it the good time to allow things to happen and I remain patient.
I’m looking forward for a short period of easier growth, which I believe the new stack will bring me, and I’m looking forward to a lot really.
The words are running thin, so I’ll cut this off here.
Your experience with ASBR looks like mine with KST4 somehow, because you have good results yet the road is hard. How is the resilience scripting?
With Khan ST4 there is a greater focus on a dominion spirit, that is everything is in your hand, not that much external faith.
I feel you, looks like an holiday stack 
. Yet I can’t go down to Primal. I am craving Khan power. I will run mine long term maybe in another form. I thought about including WB because it is so good but I will use modules to mimic its flavour.
I agree, look at what I posted like 2 weeks ago about the SB journey, it actually feels a lot like Khan for me. Not sure why and I won’t speculate…
I also made a post about how SB was making me drawn to people running Khan…like 3 weeks ago or something, but I can’t find it. So there is something there.
It’s been strong enough to keep me on the path since launch despite all those fate testing experiences that I’ve mentioned. I’ve come close to ruin (or so it feels) so many times in the last few months that it’s bonkers.
With SB, I have a deep knowing that everything is in my hand, within my control, and so when I face resistance from the 3d world, which I have so many times I could put my head through a wall, it causes intense anger and frustration. But I think that’s because of my lack of patience that I spoke of, and also my tendency to test fate. I get easily distracted by the surface of things, then feel like an idiot when things actually DO go my way, I was just too damn impatient to allow them to happen my way without an emotional outburst, lol.
Actually, on this point…I’ve felt pretty immature and childish on SB, not SB’s fault, it’s my own shit that it’s trying to clear, but I’ve thrown so many tantrums, it’s not even funny…Feel a bit like Napolean, a dude who pretty much got everything he wanted (until he lost faith and was betrayed) but was a notorious tantrum thrower, lol.
Look at primordial aura, I’m 90% sure that it’s very similar to the WB aura, but I haven’t tried it yet because priorities. Over the last few days of building my wealth custom, I found that:
Synergy: Primordial Aura
Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
Synergy: At the Top
Together in a custom should give it some pretty intense WB flavor, given my experiences with WB and feeling out the energy and how people respond to me.
You gonna be alright. Your income is good so maybe you can afford to let go the hustle for a couple of month.
Thanks I read it. Sounds like great stuff.
Exposure too high and now I’m up trying to talk myself back into Stark Black, but why?
The Following is an Honest Admission of my inability to figure out what in me is so utterly resistant to Stark Black, none of the following is meant to imply that the program is bad or wrong, it’s simply a reflection on my own incompatibility with the program and my confusion about what within myself is fighting it and causing these things
It’s been 4 months of utter discomfort. I’ve been ostracized, I’ve been bullied, I’ve been mocked, my sex life has been about as bad as its been since before I started running subliminals, I’ve been isolated by most people in my life with the exception of my GF, yet even she is outwardly hostle toward me whenever I expose myself to it and remains that way for a few days, and yet I keep running it, but why?
I really don’t know anymore. Even here, on the forums, a place that used to feel safe, I notice the same trend. When I expose myself to SB, people are harsh with me (generally speaking) or simply ignore me.
It’s the same pattern in all aspects of my life. Yet when some time passes, a few days or so, suddenly people start liking my posts and people in my real life mirror this also, they start acting nicer toward me, treating me a little better. Then I expose myself, and it all starts over again.
It keeps happening again and again. There is something in me that’s fighting Stark Black and fighting it hard. I won’t allow myself to break through, I won’t allow myself it so strange.
On the one hand, the money and manifestation scripting is amazing, and that’s the real motivator to continue running it. I’ve manifested things that should be impossible…perhaps not things that I would have manifested had I more awareness at the time, but things that should be (according to the online gurus) impossible. I’ve manifested things that technically should be impossible with what I thought I understood about reality.
This has been enough to keep me running it. For example, one night at work, I decided to manifest 300 bucks. It should have been impossible, the time clock, the world around me, nothing AT ALL suggested that me earning that much money should have been possible. Actually, the odds were stacked heavily against me, yet, stubbornly, I determined to do it.
What happened? I stumbled across a drunk guy in severe distress. He gave me 100 bucks on the spot in exchange for a favor. Boom. The seemingly impossible happened, and that’s only an example that I feel comfortable sharing and it’s pretty minor compared to what else I’ve seen.
So, to those reading, understand that this program has the potential to do everything it promises, and yet, I just can’t run it.
I can’t run it because I cannot face the reason why I fight it so deeply and on such a primal level.
Truly, I have no idea why I fight this program and manifest such hell for myself.
Is it guilt, shame, fear? I don’t know, probably not. The worst things I’ve done in my life are pretty bland and not even worthy of saying because people would probably just laugh at me and pat me on the head.
Shame? Ehh, don’t have too much when I’m not in recon. I’m a loving guy with a shadow, and I make an effort to be kind and avoid causing pain, so I don’t really feel much Shame.
Fear? Maybe, maybe it’s fear of unleashing my potential. I’m sacred of losing my girlfriend. Sure, I’ve lost many, always because I’ve done something silly, and there are millions of girls out there, so it could be her.
But even that is a mystery to me, that I could love her so much that I would completely knee cap myself in this way. Call me Mr. Naiveté but I assumed that the subliminals would kinda prevent that…but now that I write it, it is her, isn’t it.
She’s why I fight this program. It’s always been her.
Shit.
Now what? Really, now what?
What does this mean?
There’s something about this girl that I’ve never said here, because why would I? But I think she’s a little different guys.
Look, shes…hell, I hope she never finds this. She’s not that special, okay. On the surface. She’s pretty, but she’s far from physical perfection. She’s a little awkward, a little strange. She’s not really that funny. She’s not particularly great in bed. She’s not rich. She’s. Well, she’s just not that special on pen and paper.
But for some reason (and it’s only when I’m on SB) I’m powerless and weak about her. Like truly weak. And this only comes out when I’m on Stark Black, but I literally feel like her slave, and I just don’t understand it. I really don’t understand it. When I’m running SB, I lose all power, all authority, and I’m weak, pathetic, whiney, and just…just fucking weird, and I don’t know what it is or how it’s possible or what caused it.
Mark my words it’s odd.
Meanwhile, when I’m on WB or even my recent experiments with PS, I hold all the cards with her.
I don’t get it, I don’t understand what SB is trying to show me, and I’m a million miles away from understanding how to fix it.
I think it’s because SHE fights SB in me, or something. Idk, I really don’t know and I really don’t understand. But I’m not going to run SB long enough to find out, I recon.
You see, it’s just plain strange and I’m sure there’s an answer to be found, but it’s high time I take my advice and just stop.
I like how introspective and forward you are in solving this block you’re facing. I can sense your frustration and I understand. However, I have a suggestion, instead of dropping SB, how about one more cycle but this time add Sanguine. Just both of them and then switch to something lighter like Genesis to give it room to process and execute.
I used Sanguine with Emperor for three cycles in a custom and it got me very clear and level headed to actually see and then deal with the issue. Coupled with the optimism, it was very smooth and that was the old sanguine, talk more of how effective the new one will be.
Or you can go the Love Bomb route to directly forgive yourself of the reason for the block, at the expense of more possible recon. Just to note, I haven’t used LB before.
Just my two cents. You’ve got this bro.
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 7- Rest
This journal entry represents personal, subjective experience and opinion both of which are subject to change.
Still pretty damn rough. Feel a little better, but still generally in turmoil. I’ve pretty much spent every spare moment in reflection about SB and these blockages. It feels like a thorned crown. When I reach the space between the thorns I feel alright, then I hit another thorn and the turmoil begins again.
It’s never ending, or so it feels. Where is my confidence, where is my self trust, where is my power, where are my social skills? Where has it all gone?
Who even am I and what, if anything, can I even trust anymore? Can I trust myself? Can I trust myself? Why such pain?
These subliminals spiral around me. It’s like a revolving door. An aspect of the script will come up, then it fades and another arises. On and on it spins until processing ends.
It’s like an ego death, it’s just all being torn away but what’s going in its place? Is anything going in it’s place?
Where is the stable ground for me to stand, and can I even stand on anything.
Why won’t the conflict end? How is it possible that I still want to continue after all this pain?
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 8- Rest
The Following is an unedited journal entry that represents my own personal thoughts and feelings and is in no way objective or reflective of the company or their products.
More rest and more recon and processing.
Subliminals are a carousel in the mind, the twist round and round, spiraling, the topics that they cover coming into focus for a moment, then vanishing around the bend.
Suppose I owe it to SB for this enhanced insight into myself, but it changes nothing, the journey has ended.
It makes me wonder why, still wondering why there is part of me that still wants to run this program given what I’ve been through.
Frankly, I just don’t feel like I can trust myself running it. Which comes to something else that’s become very clear, it’s just me, it’s always me, and has only ever been me.
All this pain is just me, SB is a catalyst, but all the pain is mine, so are all of my actions, reactions, etc. It’s just me.
Even that insight, I don’t fully understand what to do with it because these things that are brought out of me are so difficult for me to control, and I fight them like my life depends on it. Maybe it does, maybe my ego does depend on these things to stay intact as it is.
I feel half baked, I feel as though I’m ending the journey too soon, as if I’m on the precipice of a break through, but I’m not sure that I want to break through with SB because I don’t know what that means or what it will entail.
It’s like, if I keep running it, it feels like it might be a mistake, but if I stop running it, that might be a mistake too.
But who decides? Who decides what’s a mistake and what’s a good idea?
Blaming the subliminal may make me feel “better” for a moment, as I project my garbage onto the world outside myself.
I feel like I’m looking for someone to tell me what to do, but who could? Even if someone gives me the “right answer” that’s just further a reflection of myself.
The “opposite results” that’s something else that’s really been messing with my head because on the surface, SB has given me the opposite of what I want and has continued to do so.
Confidence? How about crushing low self esteem. Women wine and dine you? How about feeling like a piggy bank and being treated like one.
Cognitive enhancement? How about being reminded on the daily that you’re stupid.
Dominance? How about people talking over you in conversation, ignoring you.
Fame? How about people that you see multiple times a week pretending you don’t exist or completely forgetting about you.
Really, what does it mean when a subliminal seemingly does the exact opposite of what it’s intended to do? How do we make sense of that? What does it mean? For this question, I’m going to ask openly because this one just completely confounds me beyond belief. Like, I truly do not understand how this one is even possible because for pretty much all of the objectives with the exception of money and manifestation, I’ve gotten direct opposite results of what the program intends…
I don’t understand this one, I really don’t understand this one.
I remember reading a post where you journalled for months on Wanted before it kicked in, could it be something like that?
Although it seems better to drop if the opposite is actively happening
Totally could be. In those days, what I did was take a long washout and journal for hours everyday until I cleared the block. Then it activated and I pulled two girls, in two cities in the same day. Those were the days.
I heard you. For this moment, I’m pretty much doing that. I’m Journaling, reflecting and washing out, seeing if I can clear it.
ASBR & PS & RofNW Cycle 1 - Day 9- WB 30 second breakthrough loop
Ran a 30 second breakthrough loop of WB, and no suprise, it worked. Still had a small amount of residual SB insecurity lurking about, but was able to easily over come it in the moment and just slept with my GF.
Saw an instant change in her energy from bored and uninterested to rapt attention. Truly amazing how quickly WB takes hold of me.
Perhaps this is where I come to a point of self acceptance. WB and PS just work for me, they just work. Other people get mad recon, other people probably feel how I felt on SB. I feel like I’m home when I run WB and PS. WB is the strongest fit for me, but even PS feels good, really good.
Idk what it says about me, but seduction subs just fit me like a glove. I feel good, I’m happy on them, I’m balanced, and it radiates out to other areas of my life.
Earlier today I posted a long thing about a recent SB result…but the result was hollow compared to the ease and freedom I feel in this moment.
Idk.
The shoe just fits.
From now on, I’m probably only going to run customs.
Soon I’ll build a WB/PS custom.
Idk, feels absurd to blame the program when I’m the problem.