I’m back, and this time I’m back. I’ve been away for a while, but I’ve been working hard, digging into the deepest parts of myself, and doing everything I could to unlock the blockages that exist deep, deep, within my core that have been holding me back from taking my next steps toward greatness.
For those that don’t know me, I’m praisetheurdtree. I started my journey here a few years ago, and it started off with a bang. When I bought my first subliminal, I was a depressed young man with no friends, social skills, or romantic prospects who had just ended the longest relationship of his life. I was broke, in debt, and failing college. I packed up my shit and moved back in with my parents with no idea how I was going to pull myself out of the mess that I was in.
Within 6 weeks of buying my first subliminal, I had a circle of girls courting me, had recovered my grades, gotten a better job, and was feeling stronger than I had in my life.
Over the next year, I would experience some ups and downs, but all in all, I only got better and better and better. The first leg of my journey–despite my best intentions, focused almost exclusively on seduction, and to that end. I accomplished my goal. But it didn’t come without a cost, there is something to be said for power and responsibility, I had gained power, but I lacked nuance, and I lacked the responsibility to use it properly. As a result of my lack of other skills, I eventually caused a few problems for myself.
I was overspending, putting everything on credit cards, and allowing myself to be impulsive. It was around this time that I also developed a bit of a god-complex, believing that I was immune to subliminal recon, so I started subliminal hopping. I was still changing, still growing, but as a result of the massive amount of subliminal hopping 20 titles to date, my results began to diminish, and I started to result to even more subliminal hopping. This only added to my confusion.
What I had done, is make a mistake that I’ve seen many people make. They get a tastes of success, and they forget what they did to make them successful in the first place, they then start to attribute their success to things that had nothing to do with their success.
You see this pattern often with successful people. What the person actually did to become successful was everything they could do, yet they will tell you with a straight face that their success is all owing to their daily routine or meditation habit.
So, instead of doing what worked for me in the past, following what I knew worked, I decided that what I needed to do, was to hop between subs until I found what I was looking for.
At the end of last year, I put an end to the subliminal hopping. I jumped back on Emperor with Mind’s Eye and within a week I quit my job, met my current girlfriend, and started making more money than I had made so far working for myself as a gig-worker.
My life is still a little chaotic, but sometimes you need a little slap on the back of the head in order to get you to do what you already know you need to do
In the nearly 3 months since I made those choices, I’ve expanded socially (again), paid off some debts, and generally improved every area of my life.
Now, I keep moving forward.
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