25.07.2025
Friday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 3
RoS+SRA 2:00 + 2:03 in Ultra Sonic
Today I felt bulldozed after waking up.
Though I can’t tell for sure if it was a result from RoS or still a consequence of drinking to much and sleeping to less the night before at our annual church choir summer party.
But it felt like back on KB1 just without the aching.
But a definite results from RoS is Bonerpain.
Since starting RoS I wake up a couple of times every night when I turn around and my boner gets bend to the side.
I have morning wood regularly (a couple of days every week), since I started my SC journey and dropped PMO, but I never noticed it during night.
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27.07.2025
Sunday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 4
GB 7:30 EE 4:00
Started writing some erotica set in a monastery.
@CurlyGirl suggested it might be connected to RoS, since there’s a strong connection between sexuality and spirituality. Especially in my case. Not only the boner pain since starting RoS but also my strict Catholic past where I was taught sexual impulses are evil.
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29.07.2025
Tuesday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 5
RoS 2:00 RoS-US 2:00
Using stereo mode again.
Last two days were much more active than the weeks before. I think this might be a good sign that EE is still very, very necessary to overcome my ADHD sluggishness.
Started to plan a short trip with @Curlygirl. If this works out, we have our first trip, staying overnight, since we moved to my family, besides educational trips.
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31.07.2025
Thursday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 6
GB 3:40 EE 3:01
I’m asking myself if I’m cutting myself short by limiting myself to loops so short, or if it’s the best for my development?
Though I have to say since reintroducing EE my productivity is back up again.
Mornings are still slow, but gaining traction.
Also AI Whisperer starts to shine again. I’m using ChatGPt with a text production ai in tandem and the results are simply great.
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Shorter loops are really great, you’re not missing anything.
I’m running RoS and LB and I used to run anywhere between 5min to 15min but since I dropped each to 2-3min loops, recon happens much faster and results show up quicker and are more seamless.
I used to enjoy heavier recon and deeper work with subs but I recently chose to settle for experiencing more positive momentum and softer integration and the results are actually much greater.
The sweet spot I discovered is where there is the least difference in the feeling of processing input between listening days and non listening days.
Listening just enough that I almost don’t feel the processing of the sub in my head and nervous system, where the input is just enough to create a gentle nudge that ends up integrating more naturally.
More gentleness with less input load tightens the gap between what I already am and what I can become, so the jump in growth is easier, smoother, more natural and the new expanded sense of self settles in faster and deeper.
PS: props to @Sub.Zero for insisting on the sweet spot and low recon subject 
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02.08.2025
Sarurday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 7
RoS 2:16 RoSUS 2:00
As I mentioned above, I’m using two AIs for text production. Erotica to be specific.
Only this time it’s not smut or pornography.
It’s rather a deep reflection on sensuality, on sexual stigma and shedding these layers of trauma built around sexuality.
I’ve wrote 4 chapters and only one erotic scene happened so far. The rest was just building the inner world of the protagonist. The struggle with the self image, with taboo, desire, love.
At the same time I’m still working through my sexual Phantasies. Getting to know them, acknowledging them, understanding them and their origins.
Can this be the doing of Revelation of Spirit?
@SaintSovereign
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04.08.2025
Monday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 3
GB 3:00 EE 4:00
06.08.2025
Wednesday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 9
RoS 5:22 RoS US 3:00
Totally forgot the time while listening.
Let’s see how it plays out.
But I was planning to add a longer loop anyways every cycle or so. If I don’t feel major recon, maybe I’ll add an even longer loop at day 11.
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08.08.2025
Friday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 10
GB 15:00 EE 15:00
Time for full loops. I think I did some before.
I noticed some strange fears creeping in while listening.
The last couple of days were intense. Called 911 again for my mom. Brought her to the hospital the next day. Now we hope they manage to manage her blood pressure.
After all she’s now in a nephrologic wing and the chief physician is specialized on hypertonia.
On the bright side, whenever I drove my mom to a doctor or to the hospital we saw Angel numbers so frequently that it felt like the universe is bullshitting me.
Usually I see a couple of 777,111 or 444 on license plates whenever I’m driving for some time. Seeing 4-5 numbers is average.
But these times, I’ve seen up to 4 plates in a row.
More than 40 in 40 minutes on the road.
When we arrived at the hospital, next to my car was a 666, on the other side of my car as well. Walking to the entrance, there were 777,888,333 next to each other.
This isn’t normal.
Though I still don’t understand the message.
Is this RoS in action?
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I wish the best for your mom, that sounds intense.
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It’s Lion’s gate + full moon.
The veil between worlds is extra thin and everything is magnified
You’re definitely protected and supported.
Welcome to a truly magical reality.
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10.08.2025
Sunday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 11
RoS 8:28
First things first. My mom’s finally a bit better. Let’s see how the next couple of days will unfold.
This night was shit. I felt like I overdosed on KB3 or K4 again. Hot, Cold, Problems falling asleep, woke early, woke up often.
But despite this, I was rather energetic today.
And I don’t know if it was the subs. There’s nothing energetic in my stack. EoG1, EE, RoS.
Might have been a combination of subs, a temperature increase and me worrying about my mom. Perhaps a sub triggered something in this combination.
Some part of me would love to run KB immediately, instead of RoS. To solve this energetic issues. Probably recon. RoS is working in something. I know it.
I somehow managed to forget that I usually only listen to 2 minutes of RoS normal plus ultrasound. I planned to double my listening time today. So four minutes of masked. Instead I doubled my total listening time…
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No recon so far.
Yay.
I’ve watched an interesting video on German New Medicine today.
It delivered a solid explanation for my sweaty night the night before yesternight.
I experienced a severe shock when the doctors couldn’t help my mother at first and feared for her life. (And we all know how such a shock can lead to illness) And the good news on Sunday solved this issue and my body reacted with cold sweats.
A far better explanation than EoG1 or EE working on my sexual energetic system like KB or Khan.
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I haven’t read through all your journal just yet but I am toying with the idea with a love bomb and glm custom
Partly inspired by the one you did with ascension
Might prove to be a brilliant foundational title
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Yes.
I consider Ascension and GLM as two sides of the same medal. One focused on the interior, the other on the outside. Of course there are overlaps.
A part of me want to build a new Version of Ascendet Love once the update drops, another part says, take GLM instead…
We’ll see.
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I don’t know if it’s RoS doing, or EoG1 or something not related to subs.
But these last couple of days my thoughts drift more often towards my future. Something I’ve never considered so intensely before.
I’m questioning everything in my life.
How will it turn out?
What do I really want?
What am I willing to sacrifice?
What do I need to do if I don’t want to sacrifice it?
Am I to comfortable to really take action?
Am I to stressed to really change things?
And @curlygirl has the tendency to notice these unexpressed thoughts, perhaps unconsciously, and… What is it,… at times it feels like rubbing salt in a wound. But it’s good. Unpleasant but necessary.
I’m torn. Having to choose between past and future, origin and telos.
Am I willing to sacrifice our future to take care of my grandmother and mother because I’m stuck without finding a job?
Certainly not!
Am I willing to abandon my family to start my own? That sounds cruel as well.
I need to find a solution to this paradox.
My fiancee often remarks that my family would be lost without me. They are totally overstrained with technology. Phones, Internet, computers…
My mom would be the typical example of believing she deleted the Internet. My uncle on the other hand wouldn’t even be able to do that.
But while they can afford a holiday, we’re usually stuck at home because we don’t have the money for a trip, not to speak of a serious vacation.
Then there’s the house. Estate might be more fitting. Big house, big garden, remodeled barn.
I don’t see us taking care of all of this.
Do I even want to?
But what would be the alternative?
Selling it?
Problematic. At least as long as anyone lives in it. It’s one huge complex and it’s impossible to sell a part, or even rent a part of it.
But I know I need to find a solution.
Before it’s to late.
For me, my fiancee, for our future.
I’ll guess I’ll have to add Singularities Paradox to my upcoming EE custom.
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That’s definitely RoS. I had the same thoughts back then. It’s not easy to deal with.
It has helped me and still helps me to try to accept things that are beyond my control as they are. And on closer reflection, most things are beyond my control.
If my thoughts stray too much into the future or the past, I try to focus on the here and now as quickly as possible. I try to deal with problems in the here and now and not in advance with anxious thoughts. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes less so.
I also had to learn that there are problems that cannot be solved in the moment. They are beyond one’s control, and it does not seem to be the right time to solve them. In retrospect, many such problems resolved themselves, or circumstances arose in which a solution was suddenly possible. It is an art to recognize what one has control over in the moment and what one does not.
In any case, I wish you all much success and, above all, good health.
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Day 3 of washout.
A few minutes ago I felt a deep sadness with a pinch of fear. I couldn’t tell what it was about.
But I decided to just feel it, notice and acknowledge it.
Then I felt a strong pressure in my solar plexus.
Suddenly I had to burp for a minute. Almost painfully.
Then it was over.
No I feel well again.
This burping often appears after doing some deep work, releasing trauma with hypnosis or other techniques. It’s rare with just subliminals.
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