I have a tendency to get caught up in inspiring or future-focused ideals, and I was just guided to cultivate grounded engagement with the day-to-day responsibilities and realities of my current life.
I’m grateful to have access to practices and processes that can help me to find effective direction and orientation.
Regret is a concern about the present, disguising itself as a concern about the past.
Resolve the underlying need in the present moment, and the “regret over the past” magically diminishes and dissipates.
One more expression of ego-bound projection.
The fact that you do not currently have a place to be at your best, does not mean that you do not have “a best” to be.
The fact that you do not yet have a context within which your potential can truly unfold and extend, does not negate the existence of your potential.
(It’s not lost on me that I’m having these thoughts on Day 2 of Dragon Reborn)
If you’re building a skyscraper or a monument, or if you’re developing a city; you need to pay as much (or more) attention to the parts beneath the ground as you do to the parts that are above the ground.
Healing Programs are BUILDING the parts beneath the ground.
They are not passive. They are not delays. They are actively building. They’re just pointing in the other direction. Beneath the ground. Within yourself.
True. There are bits of others we want to be.
Yes
Interesting.
Woke up at 6:15. Bathroom. Briefly considered meditating, but felt tiredness, and decided to lie down and see if I’d get more sleep.
Did get more sleep.
Also, had a dream of genuine flight. I shone bright with flame and flew in a controlled manner (Johnny Storm, the Human Torch). I passed through the canopy of a tree, but, despite my concern, the tree appeared unharmed. Landing was slightly more challenging. But happened okay. All of this was part of a more extensive situation and context. That element however–flame-powered flight–is one I want to note, considering the primary subliminal program that I’m currently running. (And I’m still not a person with a very active dream recall or dream life.) There were problematic people who needed help/needed to be dealt with. They were possibly getting a bit dangerous.
Woke up again at 9:30 or 9:40 AM. Meditated from 9:50 AM to 10:50 AM.
I’m currently using a playlist in AudioShare.
If you stay at that level (in other words, don’t ‘click into’ the file), you can press the play arrow next to the first track and AudioShare will automatically proceed to the next tracks in the folder. So this set-up allows me to have a 60 minute meditation in which I hear both of my programs, separated by 15 minutes of silence.
And that, on 2 May, was my 2nd playthrough of the Dragon Reborn stack.
Am likely to use Ascension Chamber later in the day.
[ends] 
Got little to no work done today.
Son’s off to school.
Time for meditation with embedded Dragon Reborn ZP and Paragon ZP.
Then work.
Interesting.
Seem to be experiencing the low-grade reconciliation effect associated with active processing.
Meditation just now was…interesting.
Dragon Reborn is doing just what it says. Memories of past experiences are appearing in awareness and presenting themselves for processing and reintegration.
This feels like just the beginning. I can sense a broad vista before and around me.
I just remembered people who I met when I was 6 years old. And situations. But I’ve only just begun to re-experience and process them.
I had the thought which I’ll place in the following post.
The human mind has the capacity to attain self-awareness
most never fulfill it
opting instead to spend our lives, in a mental hall of mirrors, chasing poorly understood shadows and reflections; wandering our days pursuing (or fleeing) projections of vaguely recognized underlying instinctual impulses.
The human mind has the capacity to attain self-awareness
most never use it
how about you?
Okay, Dragon Reborn.
I see what you did (are doing) there.
The same is true with Alchemist.
As soon as I played it I felt this jolt of ‘rightness’.
I have no subliminal choices to make until July or so. But when that time comes, I’m going to have to really think about whether to include Emperor or Stark in my SAPIENS ZP custom.
This is partly just fear-fueled doubt talking: Will Emperor work for me? I think that’s the underlying concern.
I really don’t know where this Dragon Reborn journey is going to lead.
But I’m feeling that it’s working on what needs to be worked on.
It’s mysterious and pretty amazing.
Yesterday it hit me that Dragon Reborn was really the right program for this time.
I’ve coped with certain things by mentally pushing them to a distance. Then when I’ve tried to focus on my aspirations, values, and goals, I find that (surprise, surprise) things seemed to be “mysteriously” slowed down by something.
I was doing the best I could. If there’s some situation that I can’t fix or solve right now, I try to adjust internally. I try to roll with it, and keep pushing in my chosen direction. And I think that’s correct. But, even if I don’t let them break me, those situations still have undeniable effects. (Slower to focus, less enthusiasm and determination, etc.)
And I saw that Dragon Reborn is actually working on those intractable issues and matters.
That was eye-opening.
I am realizing that my mind has gotten stronger and better able to handle subliminal input,
but…
when it comes to Dragon Reborn, that just means I’m strong enough to be smacked around as opposed to completely flattened and laid out.
So the 6-mile walk that has been helping me to process subliminals for the past 2 years is just as beneficial now as it ever was.
Walk and process…walk and process…
Actually, Dragon Reborn is more powerful and I think it would benefit more from a Run than a Walk. I’ll get back to working on that.
Last night, as I walked (and processed), I let myself add up the days.
I’m looking at an approximately 10-week run of Dragon Reborn (stage 4). 10 weeks and 3 days to be precise.
I found it somewhat helpful and grounding to think of it that way.
I thought about how much can happen in 10 weeks.
Got me thinking of Gestation Periods: the complete amount of time for a new life to develop, from fertilization to birth.
Human gestation period is approximately 40 weeks. 10 weeks is close to 1 trimester. A lot happens in that time.
On the other hand, 10 weeks is more than enough time for an entire dog or cat to be created and born.
10 weeks and 3 days is actually the exact amount of average time for Nature to make a brand-new otter.
What I did not know until just now is just how many beings have longer pregnancies than humans. I’d naively put us at the top of that list, but we’re not even close.
Dolphins take about a year. Elephants? Their pregnancies last over a year and a half. Holy Macoley.
Big-ass lions? Only about 15 weeks. But alpacas and llamas? Up to 49.
Well that was a rabbit hole. (They only take 4 weeks by the way. A rabbit could get pregnant and give birth twice during the rest of my Dragon Reborn run. 
)
And finally, my entire run of Dragon Reborn will have covered 366 days (including a 2 month dormancy period - during the initial ZP trial).
So I guess in my case it takes about a year and a day for a Dragon to be born.
Just experienced a major unfolding around this one.
So, since Saturday 30 April, my stack has been Dragon Reborn stage 4 and Paragon Complete.
In the end, I selected 3 Play Periods as my planned run time for this stack. (Hence the 10 weeks and 3 days.)
and I realized that I’m currently doing my first defacto Healing Retreat.
Originally, I had conceptualized these healing retreats as involving a Dragon Reborn custom (called Drakari TRANSCEND) and a Paragon Complete custom (called Pools of Healing: THRIVE; yup, me likes me titles).
But, on this first time with Dragon Reborn ZP, I’m sticking with the pure version for now.
On the other hand,
I just chose to build an enhanced Paragon custom. This is my first ZP custom. Next ones ought to come in July.
I built this one in Terminus2. Should be a good first feel of that build strength. I’m planning to build my future ZP Customs in Terminus2 as well. I like that there are just two programs in my stack now. I think it should allow me to get a sense of the feel of this build strength.
Both programs devoted to Healing. Both being run 1 loop every other day. We shall see.
Here are the modules of POOLS.
Paragon Complete Ultima Core
SPS: Endocrine System
SPS: Reproductive System
A/SPS: Organs
SPS: Respiratory System
SPS: Nervous System
SPS: Skeletal System
Health Codex
Fusion Optimized
Stop Porn and Masturbation
Inner Gasoline
Deep Sleep
A/SPS: Eyesight
SPS: Fat Burn
SPS: Muscular System
Male Enhancement
Prevent Premature Ejaculation
Diamond Ultima Core
SPS: Digestive System
SPS: Integumentary System
Hi @Malkuth !
I thought there was a recommended 3 APS or SPS limit. You have 11. What are your thoughts?
