Confusion.
The combination of RoS, EOG4 and RM is profound, but also tough to run I must admit.
However, I recently gained a lot of insight.
When you are dealing with anything that can’t be explained simply, you will end up confused (reconciliation is imo the same).
The problem is, we’re trained in this society to always have an answer, or seek a guru that does.
An external solution.
Which never really works since it cannot be fully applied to our personal circumstances.
So the solution really is to be FINE with confusion.
With NOT knowing.
An example, if you have life purpose A and B to choose from, you don’t know which one is the right one.
You can’t know. And maybe both suck. Or both are great.
Most people then go to external means, asking some guru or influencer what to do.
Because the Ego always NEEDS TO KNOW.
But this is neurosis. A drive of insecurity.
Not knowing takes real bravery.
Heading into the unknown, pioneering.
Taking risks.
Plus, the best insights come from a higher source. Whatever label you choose.
But if you embrace to NOT know. Accept it, and move forward with this, it does 2 things:
- You can live MUCH more relaxed
- Eventually (maybe years later) you’ll get deep insight from a source you didn’t know
Accept you don’t know.
All of this was of course written towards me, even though I used “you.”
Or my soul was talking to my Icon there.
Either way, I recently also got better at detaching the body from my consciousness. More and more I realize I am just driving this flesh vehicle. It is not me.
Then again, it also sends you on the journey to ask yourself “Who am I?”
Which can be a tough task.
Luckily, not knowing is a blessing.
Oh yeah, sex is also much better with RoS 
On this topic, I had this insight:
Non-Duality.
As man and woman we are duals. Polarity. Split.
But through sex, we can finally reconnect with our other part yet again.
Become whole.
Non-Dual.
For a short period of time.
Tread cautiously though, just sticking it in there has nothing to do with this.
You need to connect with the soul. One consciousness with its counterpart.
Otherwise, just the bodies you two are driving are connecting.
Nothing crazy about that.
Connect the consciousness and experience the feeling of true bliss.
These minutes.
Where nothing matters.
No worries. No problems.
All at once.
Presence.
I feel like RoS/RM was speaking there.
Which leaves me with a different problem. I was planning on stacking RoS/Diamond for a divine experience, but RM is just too nice. Maybe I need to postpone this.
Third musing.
Money.
Been running EOG4 for quite a while, and 6ish months of EOG1 before that.
I get this nudge to drop EOG for a month and step back a bit to see what I learned and did.
I need to give it more time to figure out if it is recon or truly subconscious wisdom.
Outside of that, not knowing applies here as well.
I removed all metrics from Youtube and all that. So I just don’t KNOW which video does well or how people are liking it.
But maybe this is good?
Because then I focus more on the content itself, and not how well it does.
So I can create content I enjoy.
Instead of creating content the algorithm gods enjoy.
Not knowing can truly be a blessing.
