MALKUTH The Phenomenaut

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#61

Lots of questions in my mind as I prepare to truly start my current stack.

My updated POOLS Black custom arrived today. I think I’ll edit post #1 in this journal thread to accurately reflect the updated modules.

It’s funny.

I played one loop of my core custom, PHENOMENAUT Genesis. I played it on the same day that I started this journal 10 days ago. And I have not played it again since. I felt that I had gone too long without taking processing days or a washout. So, I thought it would be a good time to do that.

I feel like, during these processing days, I’ve gotten a gentle, steady flow of response from just that one loop.

Two days after that (Thursday 17 August), I played 3 minutes of the original POOLS custom, but realized later that it was still in Terminus2 build strength. The updated POOLS Black is in Standard build strength.

I found that I was feeling a kind of intense excitement that was feeling a little bit rabid. So, I said, let me take a 4 day break. That became a 5-day, 6-day, and then a week-long break. With each day, I felt calmer and more settled. By 23 August, the grounded feeling had maxed-out. By that time, I’d already decided that Saturday would be the day to resume.

And funnily enough, the POOLS Black custom arrived on Friday.

I plan to play full-loops now. In a meditation session as always.

I guess this is a dense stack, since each custom has three program cores.

On the other hand, I’ve logged a few years of exposure with Terminus2 build strength programs. So, I’m not sure what ‘density’ means right now. I’ll simply observe and adjust.

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#62

Excellent quote from the great @RVconsultant:

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#63

You get to (try to) make this life into whatever you want it to be.

But you’re limited by your imagination and your intelligence (the powers of your Consciousness)

So work to cultivate Consciousness

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#64

Okay

There we go

Did my first post-washout loops today with my dream stack.

1 loop Phenomenaut Genesis
1 loop POOLS Black

Both were interspersed in my daily meditation hour. Then showered and had the 1 meeting that was scheduled for today. Meeting was scheduled for an hour, but it went a little over 90 minutes.

Now, the next step is probably to align ongoing projects and activities with my stack.

Will give myself some time to think about that.

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#65

Day 1

I was not productive today.

One thing I did notice was an immediate strengthened feeling in my body. Paragon.

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#67

How to interact with and relate to the shifting conditions in the most skillful ways.

Gradually expanding and developng one’s repertoire of possible responses.

Grounding Devices

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#68

8 billion humans here.

Most of the time you’re focused primarily on the experiences and points of view of just one.

Do you call that facing reality?

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#70

6:35 am to 7:35 am

Meditation with my two customs.

Using full loops for now.

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#71

you can love this life

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#72

Nothing specific to say right now. I just want to journal my mindstates and emotional/cognitive contents relatively routinely as I go through these next few months.

Woke up a little bit later today. 8 something. No meetings scheduled until this evening, so I took the opportunity to call my sis and catch up. Morning here is evening where she is, so it was convenient for an end of the day chat. We usually share our experiences and reflections on navigating life, making sense of things, and so on. It’s something I value highly; and I am grateful to have her in my life.

Showered afterwards. And just had a brief, impromptu meeting with someone. Only 10 minutes or so. Seemed to go fairly smoothly.

Grateful that Invictus is back and seems to be okay.

Let’s see, what else.

Dealing with some potential medical issues. But my first priority is to make sure that my insurance issue is set up solidly. Last week, I made an appointment with a new insurance agent. We’ll meet in two days. I hope that can get resolved relatively quickly. Once it is, I’ll begin consulting with medical professionals, and seeing what is actually going on.

Interestingly though, from the first day that I played my new Paragon custom, I’ve noticed a marked decrease in physical discomfort. That’s pretty great; especially considering that it’s only been 3-4 days. I’m hoping for deepening and compounding benefits from that.

I have not yet done today’s meditation. I think I’ll have lunch first and work a bit, and then do it at some point before going out for the evening meeting.

It’s funny how the different time real estate of the day can feel so different. 1 hour at 6 am, for example, has a smaller footprint than 1 hour at 4 pm.

Another thing is that I’ve been feeling a kind of internal resistance with regard to my job tasks. That is not unusual. There is about 40% or even 50% of my work that I’d rather not be doing at all. Shifting that is on me. And we shall see how I make headway with that.

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#73

Evening Meditation

5:45 to 6:45

Nothing specific to report. This is the daily meditation. A lot on my mind with this the beginning of a new cycle at work. Started making some headway today with focusing on jobs and tasks. On my way to attend an evening meeting for a little over an hour. Working with my mind to handle life.

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#74

Woke up at 2:55 am and chose to do meditation from 3 am to 4 am and to then go back to sleep.

I think it took almost an hour to get back to sleep after the meditation. Eventually I did. And then slept for a couple more hours.

And now here we are.

No meetings scheduled for today, but I may go to work in-office anyway. Just to take advantage of the space.

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#75

How long have you been meditating for? One hour sessions is pretty impressive. I’ve done it on and off over the years but 10-15 minutes at a time.

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#76

One of my favorite quotes comes to mind.

By Tracey Thorn (of Everything But The Girl):

And years may go by.
But I think the heart remains a child.
And the mind may grow wise.
But the heart just sulks and it whines and remains a child

So, yeah. With meditation…years have gone by…

And the rest of it is true as well…

:rofl:

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#77

I’ll just pretend I understand that one :joy:

Good for you though, that’s great discipline and I’m sure you gain many benefits from the meditations.

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#78

I guess technically it counts as discipline.

But I don’t really think of it like that.

Imagine that there’s a friend who you really value talking with. Whenever you talk to them, you get good advice, good food. They tell the best stories. Sometimes they’re even a friend with benefits and you might even f**k; but there’s never any pressure or weirdness even around that. More often, they just remind you of who you are and how you want to be.

But…this friend refuses to get a phone or a smartphone or the Internet.

So if you want to see them, you have to take a 25 minute walk. The walk itself is pretty cool. There’s a hill, a pasture with some horses in it. It rains sometimes but never too badly. Overall, it’s a nice walk. And you know that the walk is taking you to see this great person.

You’d probably walk there a lot. 25 minutes isn’t that long. A little less than 4 miles to go there and come back.

You might not say, “I am so disciplined to go and see this friend so regularly.” hahaha.

I’m not saying it’s exactly like that. But, maybe kind of…

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#79

One other point I noticed about today’s meditation.

It was not one of those times when the session just sped by. 1 minute felt exactly like “1 minute”. Not slow, not fast. That was interesting.

It made me think about Time Dilation.

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#80

A book was manifested that is invigorating, refreshing, and affirming of my spiritual path.

This is a result from The Revelation of Spirit and maybe also The Revelation of Mind and Genesis. But definitely RoS.

The timing of the manifestation was funny too. I woke up from sleep (unusually) at 2:45 or so. Checked my e-mail briefly and saw that, at around midnight, I’d received a notification about the book. Said, ‘Interesting’ and then went to meditate. And went back to sleep.

When I got out of bed the next morning, I purchased the book, and then took time to read through it today. And am really grateful that I bought it.

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