I thought I would provide an update after one cycle. Apologies, I had not intended for this post to reach the length it did, and I have (possibly a lot) more to say about Sanguine than I had even penned down here - hopefully this is not unduly verbose.
Per the suggested schedule, I’ve finished 21 days of solo Sanguine, running one loop on alternate days. I was largely consistent, although I did not really deliberately insist on any kind of rigid adherence to the suggested schedule. I was just pretty excited to maximise the results as far as I could. There was one loop of Ascension Chamber in the middle of it. After the 21, I took a five day break.
On Ascension Chamber, I’d say it did help me get more out of Sanguine than I would otherwise. It led me to consolidate my thoughts in a previous post on this thread. The purpose was both to: (i) sharpen my insights and gain further clarity on the way forward, which it did; and (ii) if it did in any way help any reader, that would be great - after all, I’ve done some reading on the forum and found it useful. The exchange of ideas on this medium (or the associated vibes, or energy, etc.) itself, could be something that makes this whole endeavour more effective.
On Sanguine, the effects have been frankly unreal. I’d say my general capabilities are decent, but I’ve just been stuck in a mental rut for ages. I was just wracked with insane anxiety for no reason - and I can say that now. In contrast, in the midst of it, if you asked me “are you anxious?” I’d reply, “yeah quite, though I don’t think it’s abnormal”. At times, my heart rate would exceed 100 bpm on the way to work, upon which my fitbit would alert me that I was in the “active zone”. At times after work, my heart rate would be at 90, upon which I’d try to meditate or relax for a few moments to bring it to 75-80, and sometimes I’d repeat the process 30 minutes later when it was back at 90. I tried a bunch of things apart from just relaxation, including talking to superiors, colleagues, peers, friends, a therapist and various other things of varying effectiveness.
I have simply just made more, and vast, progress on this in those 21 days than in the months before that (which was not much at all). Apart from the raw anti-anxiety effects of Sanguine, which were pretty immediate, after a while, I stopped giving a shit at work. That doesn’t mean giving up - if you were in that deep in the first place, not giving a shit actually only takes you closer to the standard of what everyone considers normal. In fact, my performance increased (and I’ve had compliments on such performance) because I wasn’t needlessly crushing myself with pressure. It is just as the saying goes, “don’t sweat the small stuff”’. Except, if you were an anxious person, being told not to sweat the small stuff is as foreign as a fish being told “maybe you should try getting out of the water”, what does that even mean? Anyway, Sanguine was the catalyst towards making that happen.
Right now, I still have some things to improve with self-regulation. Such as staying up way too late on the weekends, thinking - how can I achieve more, how do I get more enjoyment and accomplishments in my life? In that respect, I think, healing isn’t just on the emotional front. Part of my healing needs to include experiencing power, for real, on a solid foundation; in a balanced manner and within the framework Sanguine has set for me. I have researched, looked around and thought of what to do next. Now, perhaps a bold claim to make but, at my core, when I am not bogged down by some kind of obstacle or impediment, my natural vibe most closely matches that of New Limitless. That’s what I’ve chosen for myself next, and in fact I’ve already started that and begun seeing results.
There is more that I had not fit in here, but if I were to appraise or value the benefit I’ve gotten from Sanguine, I would say that it is in the ballpark of $2000.
