I started Sanguine (solo) two weeks ago as my first sub, running a full loop every other day.
I was, in fact, searching for a power / focus / capability enhancer. I don’t regret choosing this over a more aggressive title. I already have the capability to achieve what I want, though not the balance required to channel it. I don’t profess to speak for others, but I suspect that could be the case for most people.
Quite quickly, anxiety was dropped by ~20%. Perhaps it’s -45% after two weeks. I have a demanding job, so this helps. There’s a slight void where that negativity used to be, which is peaceful.
Sanguine does what I was searching for - in a broader, more expansive sense. It feels like a bottleneck in my whole process of - you know, doing things, leading a “good” life - has been partially lifted. I’m a generally focused person, but my old form of focus was single-minded, neurotic, perhaps simplistic and not fit for purpose. Focused in the way - a person bashing their head against a brick wall hoping to break through it - may be considered focused. I was needlessly putting myself through a pressure cooker. Sanguine’s balance (and calm) certainly changes the dynamic - whereas previously I felt like I’d put in 50 units of effort and get 10 units of results (“A”), it feels now that I put in 25 units of effort and get 13 units of results (“B”).
Yes, I care more than other people about things that aren’t really a huge deal. That includes, for instance, how a post like this would be perceived. This leads to inefficiencies - writing something like this probably takes me longer than it does most people here. Sanguine seems to help with this, which is appreciated. Two weeks ago, I would not have had the headspace to bother (thinking about or) writing this.
I’m optimistic as to how this is going. If I only have 100 units of effort a day, and wish for 100 units of results a day (“Target”), this is clearly impossible under “A” (as defined above). It’s less, but still, impossible under “B”, which I attribute to Sanguine. But this opens up the potential existence of “C” where the Target is met, or even “D” where the Target is exceeded.
Perhaps a sub could take you from zero to one, and then it’s on you to turn that 1 into a 1000. But I can see that the momentum from even a slight advantage can, if you are resourceful enough to exploit it to its fullest, lead to wildly different trajectories and end-points. I suppose that’s why everyone is here. So I am grateful for any edge I can get.
