For the last loop of LB on my last cycle, I thought I would try out a full 15m loop(I mainly stuck to 3-5m loops during the cycle).
Three days into the washout, I am still reeling from the recon. It hits HARD. Feel a level of grief in my chest that is comparable to just hearing about the passing of a loved one. Granted, I also ran 15m of Khan Black on that day, but LB really is no joke.
I feel like if one can run LB at full loops with no recon, one is probably close to what many people think an alpha person is like: someone who is incredibly secure in him/herself and who feels unconditional love for him/herself and those in his/her circle.
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What about sigma?
It’s definitely something I’ve had to learn to account for. Jobs can be rough. Even moreso when you’re trying to build yourself up in a certain direction and the job tugs at you the other way because people want your time and energy.
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I’m actually quite critical of simplistic notions that often get misused like ‘alpha’, ‘beta’ or ‘sigma’, or the accompanying ‘sigma grindset’.
I just use it because I am on an alpha sub myself and understand it to be a useful shorthand for a whole range of ideas- for me the most important characteristic that I associate with ‘alphaness’ is to completely let go of the need for external validation and to become fully self-determined. A true inner freedom that is reflected in everything one does ‘out there’. That does not seem possible to me unless one has unconditional love for oneself/fully accepts one’s self and past.
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I just noticed we’re on a similar stack. On Friday I had full loops of KB2 and LB.
Now I’m on my second rest day.
I’m surprised at the absence of heavy recon. I’m tired and a bit sleepy but no headache, no irritation, nothing.
I was even able to keep my calm much better in an argument with my mother than when it happened the last time a few months back.
At the same time, I’m everything else but a pinnacle of selflove and whatever other goal LB has.
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The response is individual and one can never know what gets uncovered next and how it will feel. Something that has resisted change is maybe getting booted out or let go of- and my recon reflects that. I’m also very sensitive to what goes on in both my mind and in terms of the energetics of my body because of my practice, so that factors in.
Then you have sub users like Hoppla, who say that they get all the results without feeling any recon whatsoever. If recon is defined as something that happens when our notions of ourselves are confronted with a provocative opposite idea, the ensuing process towards synthesis has to be somewhat painful or uncomfortable. So I think we all must necessarily go through recon when we assimilate new ideas- but how it manifests, what we notice in our awareness can wildly differ.
I’m truly inspired by this thread; it’s great to see such active participation. I also need to learn self-love, so I’ll be addfing the Love bomb to my stack.
Nice to see both Saint and Fire back on the forum.
@James remember if you cannot love yourself how can you possibly love thos around you.
@GoldenBird talks in a previous thread how LB should be an essential product for many members. I am taking a page out of his book.
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Would this be a great idea, since most people appear to get heavy recon from the new LB. Could it just make all titles harder to run?
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I’m so curious as to your results stacking GM with LB.
Are you running GM for career growth? How has it been treating you
Running a thirty second loop every other day. Not feeling a whole lot so far. Not frustrated . Just being patient. I dropped the loop down from a minute because I was getting crazy recon with a minute. I also started playing the thirty second loop at normal volume rather than way higher volume.
Like I said in my journal earlier today I’m running LB solo and not running anything that might interfere with results such as Holosync.
I have to keep reminding myself that I have years or decades of things to work through. Sort of sucks being almost 56 and feeling like I’m just starting working on the life I always wanted. I can’t do anything about the past though.
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I’m looking forward to running EOG eventually. Waiting right now as to clear the path as I have been advised to do by others on the forum. I don’t want to sabotage myself anymore
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Idk if you have the eyes to see this in yourself yet, but this post is showing amazing progress bro. Really fucking happy for you 
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Now that you’ve said that, go ahead and think of the people who never even had the opportunity to write their own destiny.
You can actually do something about the past: be grateful for it because it led you to this moment and to the opportunity to better yourself! Be grateful for every lesson, even the most painful ones.
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I’m running GM since December last year, LB shortly after it got released.
For me it felt like LB activated GM. I didn’t get any results from GM before I started LB.
But two weeks after I started LB, I was able to apply for my first minijob. Before I didn’t feel worthy enough to do something for the community that’s worth being paid for.
Now I’m starting to plan out, how I want to get serious Job.
For me this worthiness/ self-esteem was the lever LB pulled.
Edit
I actually got the minijob and the feedback is increasing my self-esteem on a dual basis.
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This is a really good sign you got massive recon from 1 minute. It’s basically showing you the high exposure amount you’ve run in the past was probably queuing up like crazy and you didn’t even realize it.
For me LB really dug into that feeling of not being able to live my life until now too. There was a lot of pain and still is that needed attention. Try to validate that as much as possible. True the past is the past, but sometimes you need to properly grieve to move beyond that.
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Know you are loved
Rest in peace
Dream your sweet dreams
'Til your soul is released
I only had 4 loops on G:M, two full and two round 4min.
I’m running to discover a career that i feel fulfilled and it’s able to provide me financial independence, abundance and stability.
For now, I’m feeling the effects of LB more. It’s more “tangible” for me to perceive it on every day life and interactions.
G:M its making me question a lot of things about myself, but i feel that the path that it guides its unfolding slower for me.
Still, with G:M I was able to:
- receive a tax refund of around 5K.
- a freelance job that will pay me 200 for one day (not close to what i want, but still, money coming in)
- friends buying me lots of coffees.
- my father giving me money without me asking.
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So not worry about it at all? Even if you never get the entire script? Just asking for clarification.
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I did this morning but I know it’s only the beginning. Thank you so much for what you said. It means a lot to me.
Believe me I am. It’s so easy to see the painful lessons than anything else. I guess if it hurts a lot maybe that makes it more profound . Feels that way .
I know exactly what you mean. For so long I feel like I haven’t been able to just let go everything and just live my life.
I will admit it’s a bit frustrating that I get crazy recon from a one minute loop. It feels like the process will take much longer to get through everything. I’m feeling like this will be a huge lesson in patience.
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