…which can also be a dangerous thought. The ego thinking “I can do it all alone without others”.
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Those were thoughts that came from a self that was finally developing under Emperor’s influence and no longer feeling helpless in the universe. Right now the mindset is: “I can be great and the right people will show up at the right time if I do my part”. Which makes me think that I have to find a way to run Inner Circle at some point.
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I like it. This is a motivational call to action, urging individuals to step up, take charge, and move directly towards their goals without waiting for assistance or approval from others. So emperor like!
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That’s another reason why Love Bomb is such an important title. To have that belief in yourself and not fall into a victim or " poor me" mentality
If I’m correct Khan also helps cultivate self reliance.
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Total Breakdown was an easy ride for the first six-seven weeks, and then it started kicking the shit out of me, and that lasted for two weeks. I experienced bouts of apathy and grief, and especially after running the loop. Yet now everything seems to have got back to normal in terms of my mood.
However, during those two intense weeks, a really profound stuff got revealed and worked on, like my being defensive at default, usually perceiving people as being hostile towards me, and mental auto-aggression/torturing myself. This needs a bit more work. However, my realizing that is a big step towards resolving those issues.
I’m going to push through Total Breakdown further as it does a lot of good to me and I’m sure I can get even more out of it just by giving it more time to work its magic.
To give you a clearer context: For the first 30 years of my life, I suffered from apathy and got bullied by my father on a daily basis. I suffered from derealization and depersonification for pretty much whole my life. My little brother stabbed himself to death when I was 20 (20 years ago) and then (when I was 28-32 y.o.) I experienced some cognitive issues that put me into 4 years of being almost a walking dead, when I struggled to stay alive, just by not killing myself, on a daily basis.
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Stay strong, al tho im younger i been through very similar conditions and experiences u described.
Just finishing kb st1 first cycle i feel more in resonance with higher value of my time and which actions give me value back.
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Has khan been updated again? When i got it, it said 2024jan version just confused about thread title.
That’s it… not updated twice this year
My experience so far with first cycle of khan st1 it does get dark in recon.
How long have you been running it?
What’s your listening schedule?
About a cycle, my schedule is dynamic depending how much i process and can take if i listen 15min kb1 and khan1 15min then i take several days to process, so i adapt to my intuition of how much i can handle wothout too much overwhelm.
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Did you try following the recommended pattern?
If so, was it too overwhelming?
Oh yes too much to process
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I’ve been listening to one sub (a full loop-a stack of three subs) a day for a couple of months (off on Sundays) and now, two months into Total Breakdown, I’ve been feeling slight recon lingering in the back of my head for a couple of days (in the form of slight social discomfort). I will be doing a washout starting in two days. We’re going to see how it goes. I haven’t done any for around one year and a half. lol
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I’m doing my last day of Khan st2, jumping straigth to Khan st3 in a few days.
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Lool my recon cleared and now i feel like like the biggest dumbass
To me it seems like one should run Khan Black first to learn how to deal and use his sexual energy and THEN Khan Love and War to utilize it even more, or am I mistaken?
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Any other results than that? 
i just realized that my post was just recon rants
But results wise my intuition is sharp as heck , I feel more comfortable around attractive women , my workouts are a lot better and I want to seek out things that grow me more . I’ve also taken more initiative socially and feel like people are responding to me better . I feel like i can actually comprehend things a lot better than I used to but I don’t feel like i am any smarter more so I’m using my intellect better .I can break down advice through many filters and see what works for me and what is useless .
a financial opportunity that fell through a month ago has reared its head again and in general there has been a lot more luck on my side . At my work place I’ve been getting a lot more favorable shifts and lots of them even though the company i work for is on a budget .
Now with women I haven’t noticed anything crazy so far but I’ve been mostly going to work and going home after but hopefully ill have more to report on this when i start going out more. But when i see an attractive girl i make sure i let her know (not in a creepy way tho)
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This is so Khan (and maybe Emperor also, but I haven’t run it in a while so can’t really say).
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