I forgot about private journaling. It is fully unfiltered and can fully express myself, seems I was holding back some parts of the reconciliation process that somehow lifted when I wrote that private entry.
It felt like while I was processing the program at some level, not a single part of it was being expressed either in thought, actions, feeling, sensation, manifestation anywhere in my reality both internal or external, as if it was “lost in the void” somewhere but nowhere to be seen. Hence why I said I am probably ignoring some parts. This morning as I consciously tried to engage with it through journaling, I do not even know how, why or where in the journaling but instantly something clicked back into place where my flow with the script came back.
Perhaps my recurring affirming that I am not processing, or that I am not seeing results is actually just making me ignore it as some form of conscious guidance.
Since I know the subs are affecting me but not showing results. Whenever this happens even if I should consciously align myself with it by reading the salespage they always comeback. But this time I felt a big resistance for reading the salespage. Actually this has been my feeling for the past few weeks.
Is that a sign that I have had enough of that processint or what lol? My subconscious trying to direct me everywhere but to look at what is going on there either through pondering on it when journaling or directing my attention on the program and the salespage?
I feel at certain points in my process for some reason, I am rejecting, resisting etc the actual script for some reason. I think once I resolve this internal conflict with the new anti-recon tech (which may actually be happening now) then I will be in full flow again. Not seeing results for entire days and weeks is a big sign for me that I am at some level ignoring the whole barrage of information and hampering my own growth.
Now it clicked back it seems. Feeling great! But when I am dissociating from the whole program it just feels like a weight! It feels like the program gets stuck somewhere or my mind gets stuck in it.
Just sharing all this as part of my own process and it could be helpful for resolving some reconciliation conflicts. This new anti-recon tech really is magical! As I can really feeling it at play right now! Amazing