I am my reality, I create my own reality, I am an extension of life, God and consciousness of which essence all is made. Life is fully in my hands. My creation is mine!
So much heart openings lately and I am not even using any love related programs. Just godlike masculinity which I am not feeling much of right now. It feels more like the anti-recon scripting in that program is unlocking a lot of the past programs I ran.
I am having a soft, loving and empathic vibe about me lol… nothing like glm. More like love bomb vibe.
Not sure what to report right now. I feel certain periods I don’t notice much from the programs or there is just not much flow in general. I wonder if for some unknown reason the subliminal is just being ignored from time to time.
Might go back to 30 seconds just to see if it is better. Since with 7 mins recon is gone but results also …
Now I am gonna try to just do less
Had some difficult moments over the past week or so, not much emotionally besides one day, more so mentally and in terms of mental reconciliation.
However, today I realise I may have grown so much but have not fully processed and internalised the growth. These are some drastic shifts that have happened. I have become to calm and stable. Things have greatly improved in my balance. I am always an harmonious individual and do not feel any ill feelings towards anybody, can easily merge with groups of people and keep the atmosphere peaceful, never feel any sudden feelings of negativity or chaos. This is how I have always been. Keeping everything peaceful around me.
The one thing that was missing for me was both balance and stability in my mind, the direction I am going and taking, my energy levels and my desire to achieve something. I used to turn at every corner and get nowhere for a long time, this time has now passed. A new time has come where I eagerly observe all my flaws, accept them in the now and correct them. Knowing that certain parts of me if left untransformed with inevitably lead to not succeeding, and success is one of my no negotiables in life. I will see the full potential of myself in this lifetime, no matter the difficulties or the obstacles to be surpassed.
More to come…
Doing some private journaling where I can fully express myself without filters. This feels very different. I feel hold myself back a lot here and cannot fully process the reconciliation process into writing because of that.
Even though I do not care much about and image as I have long let go of my attachment to identity I still filter to conform to the social structures and dynamics of this forum and for other private reasons.
Private journaling for that reason is much better as it is solely for me!
Suddenly completely new aspects have shown themselves.
Very much so, mate—it’s subconscious guidance at work. I’ve written about it recently here.
Well, it may be something specific to me, as our systems are different. However, since they operate according to the same rules, it might be relevant to report on this.
I ran my stack twice two days ago and experienced something I call ‘neuromuscular reconciliation,’ relating to neuromuscular sensations and effects within the body. Its basis, however, is psychosomatic, since our whole system is psychosomatic in nature.
The thing is, after running my stack twice, this neuromuscular reconciliation became quite prominent and somewhat uncomfortable—so much so that my body seemed to recoil inwardly in response to the discomfort.
This somatic recoiling used to be my physiological reaction whenever my whole system was overloaded with stimuli, producing a kind of psychosomatic discomfort similar to what we all feel in stressful situations or when our system is on high alert due to a sense of danger.
I felt that reconciliation as if my nerve endings in my chest—and slightly in the back of my head—were burning, and it lasted for around two hours. I also felt piercing pain in the same areas, but it was more muscular than neural.
I asked you because I knew you’ve had reconciliation experiences of this sort in the past.
What does it feel like?
I am having it all the time, but it is more electrical for me and it does not hurt but perhaps I have gotten used to it. It is neurological.
I’m just reading that this is what happens when your peripheral nervous system is regenerating. In my case, it’s happening quite intensely now due to working through my somatic trauma response (which has got neutralized almost utterly) and being super calm and relaxed all the time—especially now that I’ve just added Earth to my stack.
For some reason, I’m experiencing this again now, at the same time I did yesterday—that is, between 2 and 4 p.m. (it’s almost 3 p.m. here now).
Yes, it feels “electrical”.
For me it’s pretty much there all the time lol. Interesting how you have this suddenly as well!
Nerve regeneration can feel a little strange at times, but mild discomfort is good news and a sign that your nerve is regenerating and starting to work again. This may include hot or cold sensations and some sensitivity, little zings or zaps, or an aching or tingling feeling at the level of the growing nerve fibers. The location of this sensation should move as the nerve heals or grows. Over time these feelings should subside and the areas will begin to feel more normal.
It looks like we’re experiencing the same phenomenon. The whole system is repairing and bridging the missing links within itself in order to function in alignment with the data we’re providing it with—the scripting, in this case.
I don’t personally think this is nerve healing, but maybe who knows.
I think it is more like an overload of the electrical conduit within the nerves. But who knows I am not a doctor. I am not too bothered with it either.
In my case, it certainly is. The progress is happening quite rapidly now—I’m transforming in ways that feel incredible.
Yes, I don’t think you should be either.
However, this:
usually happens when nerves are damaged.
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I cannot confirm nor deny any of this speculation.
All I know is something is indeed happening inside of the nervous system as I observe and experience it within my body. All my functioning is perfectly normal however.
Lately so many unconscious memories have resurfaced I think because of the anti-recon scripting and these memories seem to relate to some periods in the past that may have led to some significant blockages.
One of my goals as well is to attain to the deepest states of relaxation humanly possible and this can only be done through shadow work and releasing this psychological and psychosomatic blockages from every cell in our body.
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Perhaps Daoyin would be the way to go, mate.
Ancient peoples used a specific set of healing exercises to clear energetic blocks out of their bodies.
These healing exercises “target” energetic blocks and “erases” them with simple stretches, easy exercises, and specific breathing techniques.
What was the name of this ancient practice?
Tao Yin. (pronounced “dao yin”)
Tao Yin has more “flow” than yoga, but more “stretch” than Qi Gong.
Interesting thank you for sharing. I have A LOT of energy in my system. So when this energy is pressuring against specific points (minor chakras) where it is blocked certain pressures can build up and this can manifest in the body through improper nerve and blood flow, this is well known among people versed in energy work.
So blood circulation, nerve circulation can be affected which are essentially the magnetic and electric systems of your body. Then also the cells carry energy and charges that is stored. I am quite confident as my stack unfolds more here over the next few months and especially next year all the blockages will be broken through on an subconscious level and then the flow of energy will be fully freed resulting in me awakening to an entirely different experience within myself.
Also sometimes it is not about finding that “special practice” many roads can lead to the same destination it is more a matter of dedication and consistency until finally you reach your destination. If you tried 3,4 different roads and gave up before arriving then another road is not going to get you there. Then you simply have to finish walking the chosen path until you reach the destination.
You know all Spirituality comes from one source and it is well known that Yoga is the source of ALL Spirituality in the east. Just like how all martial arts are a derivative of Kalaripayattu , which also is rooted in the yogic tradition. As the knowledge was spread to different continents by the saptarishis or the 7 sages and then as time unfolded all this wisdom and knowledge was applied and utilised in different ways creating different streams of Spirituality within different cultures.
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Feeling very drawn to New Wanted lately, not sure how it would fit into my stack and probably it would be a huge distraction since I do not really have the basic foundations together yet in my life as far as materialistic independence and the such is concerned. Still a huge freedom seeker, plans have been in place for a long time to generate a form of freedom that youths like me seldom experience. Most people work away there entire life and never enjoy. I love to enjoy but I also am capable of huge sacrifice and life is not all about enjoyment for me.
Wanted is more so interesting to me for the mysteriousness and attractiveness which can be used for basically making you interesting in any field. And because I love mystery.
But it doesn’t really fit my stack right not sure how it would interact with Alchemist and Godlike Masculinity.
It probably is a huge distraction. But human beings love mystery, it is so so so attractive and interesting. People get captivated by what they do not know and ache to find out what the mystery is behind a person, a so long you keep that mystery going the interest is kept high. This is a simple fact about human nature. A mystery keeps you constantly searching and figuring out what it is, once solved it loses its potency. So to remain always mysterious is to keep the attractiveness going as interest will never wane.
In Spirituality actually mystery is a huge thing because life and the processes of life, birth and death, nature itself is a mystery. The search for Truth in itself is a mystery. Mystery is part of me and the mysteries of the western esoteric tradition have always drawn me in. So I do see a form of overlap there. With mystery and with spirituality.
But my focus is on Godlike masculinity right now the importance of building a foundation with that is too big for me to dilute the effects. Interesting though how my desire to run Wanted has kind of given me presults of that program. These kind of results are usually better than running the program itself for me. Maybe I can just tap into the energy of the program here and there and use it!
Im going back to 30s I want the results I feel
And get when I have just presults. I know it is possible but something just gets stuck on the higher listening amounts or the results fade out because of focus on recon and overcoming some mental barriers.
Trying to see if 30s can consistently give me those results. I have not run Wanted and this energy has been flowing with me since yesterday now. I just woke up an hour ago and its still there in full swing.
Once I started listening to programs I just get stuck somewhere and only get results here and there for short moments and then get back into some unusual resistance or blockage. I mean
Since anti recon stuff it has greatly improved but I still think this is due to a overexposure or something.
So which is why Im going back to 30s even though I haven’t had any bad emotional reaction for a while mostly it is just mentally not fully allowing the script to manifest through me somehow when I run 7 mins. Could be due to various reasons I don’t want to speculate on it too much.
All of this theorising and speculation I would never even do if the results where high and in full flow all the time but those moments are very sporadic. If this was the case I’d just enjoy results and report the successes. Mostly I’m just fully feeling the sub is there present in my subconscious, there is no denying that, but the more I use it the less results I see. Almost as if a resistance builds up while listening. I think because of too much info.
I know how effective these programs are since I had many experiences just how to keep this at its peak is still in question to me. Definitely doing something wrong with balancing exposure still (probably).
5th washout out day today, everything going smooth… no reconciliation so far 
Still feeling so sexual and flirty today… like what… seems like I am running New Wanted but have not run it at all.
My problem with washout is I never feel like starting listening again because whenever I listen the turmoil sets in. Now it just peace, results and flow with everything. Actually the reverse was true before when washouts gave me worse recon than listening. Now it is where I do not feel like listening at all and feel quite good all the time, no turmoil.
No unnecessary mental processes. I notice whenever I run even a small loop I instantly to through some mental process setting my goals, expectations, plans, trying to figure certain things out etc
I just want to live in the moment and not feel like any of this is coming to me without my conscious will and desire…
I am experiencing something very unusual since about 3-4 days. New Wanted, which I have not added to my stack. I feel I am execution every day now. Even today I had some situation where someone made some remarks which made me feel a desire to look more handsome and improve my looks.
It is almost like New Wanted is constantly at the back of my mind and that I am deeply tapped into it without even running it. This phenomena is not new to me but usually it only lasts for a little while, then I either decide to run the program and a different process starts after listening or I decide to go a different direction and move on. Usually it passes away within a day or so. Now it’s almost been feeling like constant presults.
I am also manifesting such stunning beauties everywhere suddenly and striking conversations has become so natural and easy. It is almost as if I am in a different reality suddenly?!