Alchemical Odysseys: A Journal of Inner Transmutation

What does it feel like?

I am having it all the time, but it is more electrical for me and it does not hurt but perhaps I have gotten used to it. It is neurological.

I’m just reading that this is what happens when your peripheral nervous system is regenerating. In my case, it’s happening quite intensely now due to working through my somatic trauma response (which has got neutralized almost utterly) and being super calm and relaxed all the time—especially now that I’ve just added Earth to my stack.

For some reason, I’m experiencing this again now, at the same time I did yesterday—that is, between 2 and 4 p.m. (it’s almost 3 p.m. here now).

Yes, it feels “electrical”.

For me it’s pretty much there all the time lol. Interesting how you have this suddenly as well!

Nerve regeneration can feel a little strange at times, but mild discomfort is good news and a sign that your nerve is regenerating and starting to work again. This may include hot or cold sensations and some sensitivity, little zings or zaps, or an aching or tingling feeling at the level of the growing nerve fibers. The location of this sensation should move as the nerve heals or grows. Over time these feelings should subside and the areas will begin to feel more normal.

Source

It looks like we’re experiencing the same phenomenon. The whole system is repairing and bridging the missing links within itself in order to function in alignment with the data we’re providing it with—the scripting, in this case.

I don’t personally think this is nerve healing, but maybe who knows.

I think it is more like an overload of the electrical conduit within the nerves. But who knows I am not a doctor. I am not too bothered with it either.

In my case, it certainly is. The progress is happening quite rapidly now—I’m transforming in ways that feel incredible.

Yes, I don’t think you should be either.

However, this:

usually happens when nerves are damaged.

1 Like

I cannot confirm nor deny any of this speculation.

All I know is something is indeed happening inside of the nervous system as I observe and experience it within my body. All my functioning is perfectly normal however.

Lately so many unconscious memories have resurfaced I think because of the anti-recon scripting and these memories seem to relate to some periods in the past that may have led to some significant blockages.

One of my goals as well is to attain to the deepest states of relaxation humanly possible and this can only be done through shadow work and releasing this psychological and psychosomatic blockages from every cell in our body.

2 Likes

Perhaps Daoyin would be the way to go, mate.

Ancient peoples used a specific set of healing exercises to clear energetic blocks out of their bodies.

These healing exercises “target” energetic blocks and “erases” them with simple stretches, easy exercises, and specific breathing techniques.

What was the name of this ancient practice?

Tao Yin. (pronounced “dao yin”)

Tao Yin has more “flow” than yoga, but more “stretch” than Qi Gong.

Interesting thank you for sharing. I have A LOT of energy in my system. So when this energy is pressuring against specific points (minor chakras) where it is blocked certain pressures can build up and this can manifest in the body through improper nerve and blood flow, this is well known among people versed in energy work.

So blood circulation, nerve circulation can be affected which are essentially the magnetic and electric systems of your body. Then also the cells carry energy and charges that is stored. I am quite confident as my stack unfolds more here over the next few months and especially next year all the blockages will be broken through on an subconscious level and then the flow of energy will be fully freed resulting in me awakening to an entirely different experience within myself.

Also sometimes it is not about finding that “special practice” many roads can lead to the same destination it is more a matter of dedication and consistency until finally you reach your destination. If you tried 3,4 different roads and gave up before arriving then another road is not going to get you there. Then you simply have to finish walking the chosen path until you reach the destination.

You know all Spirituality comes from one source and it is well known that Yoga is the source of ALL Spirituality in the east. Just like how all martial arts are a derivative of Kalaripayattu , which also is rooted in the yogic tradition. As the knowledge was spread to different continents by the saptarishis or the 7 sages and then as time unfolded all this wisdom and knowledge was applied and utilised in different ways creating different streams of Spirituality within different cultures.

1 Like

Feeling very drawn to New Wanted lately, not sure how it would fit into my stack and probably it would be a huge distraction since I do not really have the basic foundations together yet in my life as far as materialistic independence and the such is concerned. Still a huge freedom seeker, plans have been in place for a long time to generate a form of freedom that youths like me seldom experience. Most people work away there entire life and never enjoy. I love to enjoy but I also am capable of huge sacrifice and life is not all about enjoyment for me.

Wanted is more so interesting to me for the mysteriousness and attractiveness which can be used for basically making you interesting in any field. And because I love mystery.

But it doesn’t really fit my stack right not sure how it would interact with Alchemist and Godlike Masculinity.

It probably is a huge distraction. But human beings love mystery, it is so so so attractive and interesting. People get captivated by what they do not know and ache to find out what the mystery is behind a person, a so long you keep that mystery going the interest is kept high. This is a simple fact about human nature. A mystery keeps you constantly searching and figuring out what it is, once solved it loses its potency. So to remain always mysterious is to keep the attractiveness going as interest will never wane.

In Spirituality actually mystery is a huge thing because life and the processes of life, birth and death, nature itself is a mystery. The search for Truth in itself is a mystery. Mystery is part of me and the mysteries of the western esoteric tradition have always drawn me in. So I do see a form of overlap there. With mystery and with spirituality.

But my focus is on Godlike masculinity right now the importance of building a foundation with that is too big for me to dilute the effects. Interesting though how my desire to run Wanted has kind of given me presults of that program. These kind of results are usually better than running the program itself for me. Maybe I can just tap into the energy of the program here and there and use it!

Im going back to 30s I want the results I feel
And get when I have just presults. I know it is possible but something just gets stuck on the higher listening amounts or the results fade out because of focus on recon and overcoming some mental barriers.

Trying to see if 30s can consistently give me those results. I have not run Wanted and this energy has been flowing with me since yesterday now. I just woke up an hour ago and its still there in full swing.

Once I started listening to programs I just get stuck somewhere and only get results here and there for short moments and then get back into some unusual resistance or blockage. I mean
Since anti recon stuff it has greatly improved but I still think this is due to a overexposure or something.

So which is why Im going back to 30s even though I haven’t had any bad emotional reaction for a while mostly it is just mentally not fully allowing the script to manifest through me somehow when I run 7 mins. Could be due to various reasons I don’t want to speculate on it too much.

All of this theorising and speculation I would never even do if the results where high and in full flow all the time but those moments are very sporadic. If this was the case I’d just enjoy results and report the successes. Mostly I’m just fully feeling the sub is there present in my subconscious, there is no denying that, but the more I use it the less results I see. Almost as if a resistance builds up while listening. I think because of too much info.

I know how effective these programs are since I had many experiences just how to keep this at its peak is still in question to me. Definitely doing something wrong with balancing exposure still (probably).

5th washout out day today, everything going smooth… no reconciliation so far :slight_smile:

Still feeling so sexual and flirty today… like what… seems like I am running New Wanted but have not run it at all.

My problem with washout is I never feel like starting listening again because whenever I listen the turmoil sets in. Now it just peace, results and flow with everything. Actually the reverse was true before when washouts gave me worse recon than listening. Now it is where I do not feel like listening at all and feel quite good all the time, no turmoil.

No unnecessary mental processes. I notice whenever I run even a small loop I instantly to through some mental process setting my goals, expectations, plans, trying to figure certain things out etc

I just want to live in the moment and not feel like any of this is coming to me without my conscious will and desire…

I am experiencing something very unusual since about 3-4 days. New Wanted, which I have not added to my stack. I feel I am execution every day now. Even today I had some situation where someone made some remarks which made me feel a desire to look more handsome and improve my looks.

It is almost like New Wanted is constantly at the back of my mind and that I am deeply tapped into it without even running it. This phenomena is not new to me but usually it only lasts for a little while, then I either decide to run the program and a different process starts after listening or I decide to go a different direction and move on. Usually it passes away within a day or so. Now it’s almost been feeling like constant presults.

I am also manifesting such stunning beauties everywhere suddenly and striking conversations has become so natural and easy. It is almost as if I am in a different reality suddenly?!

Did not journal for awhile. Looking to close this journal soon or evolve it into chapter two as whatever problems and goals I had when starting this journal have been mostly resolved and achieved.

Been super active and busy did not take a lot of time to work with my stack just allowing life to flow through me day by day.

The entire goal of my life is the expansion of consciousness. To become more conscious and to hold more consciousness. This all that human beings seek for.

Revelation of Spirit is one program that I feel very drawn towards. But even all the current programs don’t feel like they are hitting me the way I like. What am I truly searching for is the question? I don’t feel like these programs are providing me with anything worthwhile right now. I don’t see the results much.

The only time I start to see profound results is when I tap into the program descriptions. Otherwise, when just running the subliminal programs it almost feels like I am just ignoring the scripts. It is not just a waste of time then but it also puts an unnecessary strain on my system.

Few results since a few days or a week or so, not sure as to the timeline of all of this haven’t kept track properly as I did not want to overwhelm my mind with even more thinking.

Feels like I was going through some deep processing. Since earlier today my feeling has completely shifted. Can’t describe exactly how I feel but it feels quite unusual while at the same comes with a very subtle nostalgic feeling. Some deep growth is sprouting. I feel very different then I do usually. A completely different world almost.

Had some painful recon today as well, my recon always seems to come about the same exact thing the believe that the subliminals are not doing anything and keeping me stuck which is obviously a false belief that needs to be overcome.

I want to transcend all my limitations. I want to transcend all the chains that hold me back from my full potential. I want complete inner freedom. I want to transcend the little mental box I am living in and expand into a boundless existence with limitless possibilities an existence where literally anything is possible.

Most of the time for the past few days I did not feel like doing anything. Even though I went and bathed in rivers, explored nature, rode around on a chopper bike which a friend has lend me and had a somewhat adventurous time; inside of myself I was going through a very difficult time. Outside everything was perfect but I was not fully enjoying it. Some deep inner process was ongoing trying to take me somewhere. It only now feels like I noticing an opening. This opening creates a direct link with my “self” the part of me I felt completely disconnected from since the past few weeks if not longer. It is all that I have been seeking for. Connection with myself and life within and around me. Connection with the cosmos. Connection to the earth. Connection to my Soul. Connection to everything and anything. Union with everything and anything.

I want to expand into a greater existence and not feel constricted by any limitations. I want to expand my psyche and consciousness. Last few years have been a bit of a walking through a maze. Very clouded. The moments where I have some very interesting experiences is what has made the journey more fun and takes away the difficulties. It is almost as if you are trying to hold onto an invisible cord that you have not idea if it will take you to life or death. The spiritual path is like that. You have to grab onto a rope you don’t even know where it will take you. You can’t know for sure. It requires absolute trust beyond any proportion.

This is the journey that leads to all forms of satisfaction and happiness, joy, peace, love and bliss, but the road is not easy and needs a lot of acceptance and surrender. Life takes you for an incredible ride. Just be with it. You can’t control the current. The more you surrender the easier it becomes!

1 Like

Feeling generally unimpressed by the programs, the effects are very mild and barely noticeable while the exposure on the mind is too overwhelming. Results come very inconsistently with the results being short lived.

Most, if not all of the time I feel a strange sense of unhappiness or background depression even during moments of joy. Something feels blocked inside of me. I feel disconnected from myself because of the programs. I feel like there is a whole bunch of unprocessed information loaded into my mind and that it is fully blocked and not getting released. I feel disconnected from life and my life energies.

If I allow all of this to frustrate me I don’t see the point of using these programs. I feel everything is left to choice with these programs. If I want I will have zero results, I really focus on it consciously a lot of results can come but that I can do even without the programs if I required my constant participation then what is the point, I want things to be done for me in the background and for real shifts in my perception and subconscious to start happening but since beginning this journal I feel like I am in the same place with just small moderate changes here and there that I don’t know if they are even helpful considering the side effects that come with it.

Every loop of the programs reminds me of how unimpressed I am with the results while feeling just loaded at some level that causes a certain drag. Instead of feeling blown away and overwhelmed by positive results which I expect from programs that are in the works for so many years. The very opposite is true. Almost a constant sense of thinking and trying to figure things out while nothing real is happening. This is my reconciliation almost most of the time!

I feel I am wasting my time and if anything just setting myself back. And the frustration is that I know these programs have so much potential but I don’t see them affecting me in that way right now. Every new update I hope it get resolved but nothing really changes. I feel at the core something does not click for me that no upgrade or update can resolve for me.

The power is not there behind the programs. Its just very subtle and most of the time I seem to be ignoring the whole thing and get very few and subtle results while the charges on my inner life are very great. There is an almost constant mental disturbance and imbalance that comes from never ending mental processes that I don’t feel like fulfill me in anyway. If it was not for the programs they would probably not even ever be there or get any attention.

After so many months of these programs why should I still have to feel and type anything like this? I should be a few levels up by now but instead it feels like the reconciliation process is a constant while results do not move forward to a higher degree at all. Just the same old same old!

When I run a program I can feel the program and clearly see the amount of information that my mind is put through, only a very little fraction of that information is being used, applied and acted on. Most of it is simply being ignored and mental processes are started to reconcile all of it. I literally feel like if I take a washout and read the program descriptions without running the programs I get more results than actually running the programs.

Whenever I actually run the programs I get brain and mental tensions and start resisting the information and get very few results. My entire beings gets blocked. I know there is some frustration but I don’t even feel it. I don’t feel anything most of the time. I don’t know what it is. It does not feel like numbness but it is a certain sense of dissonance or dissociation from my subconscious mind and my actual feelings. My feelings don’t get felt and embodied.

Also not sure what to do with all of this to be honest.

Then also the descriptions of the programs sound very promising but then in reality the results are simply not there. I don’t notice none of it. Just bits and pieces of very moderate, inconsistent and subtle results of parts of the program but never the whole and never the same thing every day. I literally feeling not even my time is getting wasted but that I am building blockages inside my system and unnecessarily overwhelming my mental process. I feel tensions in my brain every day constantly from the programs even at 30s loops. And I don’t feel like it is progressing at all. I feel like I am literally wasting my time and ignoring my true feelings just because I feel at some point I will achieve whatever is written on the sales page lol!

1 Like

The overload these subliminals bring is the biggest weakness,i dont mind listening everyday or 30 minutes or 1 hour like the previous technologies as long as i can get results and avoid overload,some of these programs can cause overload at just 1 minute,even the creators only listen to 30s lol at that pont why not make it less overwhelming on the mind and get consistent results

I totally agree with you its not conducive at all…

It is creating constant blocks in my mind as well.

1 Like