Is this what you want or what’s happened?
If I remember correctly…
1st cycle st1 with LB
2nd cycle st1 alone
1st cycle st2 PS
Tomorrow Im starting st3 and Im not sure whats gonna be the side dish. Im thinking Heartsong or KB st4.
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Consider Ive run DR in all of it versions, Q, ZP and now Red… So yes its hard, but with dedication, meaning having the time to properly run it and the right context, its totally worth it.
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In my washout after a cycle of DRR3. These are my results on ST3:
- While stage one dealt with feelings of sadness and the second stage dealt with my fears, this stage largely focused on my anger.
- There were rage filled days which fortunately didn’t spill into any social interactions. Maybe a bit of detachment to help me not spill over my anger to others.
- Funnily enough, going outside and interacting with others helped me better deal with my mood swings. It helped me forget the recon that I was going through. But since am visually challenged, it isn’t often I get the opportunity to do so.
- I keep thinking of ways to be more independent but haven’t found the answer to it yet. Maybe it will come when I run DRR4 or in my next stack. All answers are within but the door is still locked.
- I realize that a lot of my sadness, fear and anger comes from a feeling of helplessness. Not able to overcome my health issues is overwhelming but DRR is releasing a lot of these things so that I will able to deal with my circumstances by looking at it as a problem to be solved. To look at it from a logical perspective rather than be drowned in emotions.
- @Joa23 is right when he says that DRR is a hard ride. All the more harder if you have a hard life. Cause the recon hits you stronger and deeper with the things that get you down in order to release them.
- Maybe RED isn’t about answers. Maybe it is just about being more authentic and more yourself that you don’t have to doubt and question yourself. At least not as much as before.
- A surprising side-effect of DRR is to be able to accept the darkness in others. I struggled a bit with this but ended up accepting that it takes all sorts of people to make this world. It isn’t even about judging or not judging cause we are human and we will judge some while being biased for others. It is just that acceptance of humanity as it is. Hmm. Maybe it’s the way DRR interacted with my custom which had LBFH in it. Yeah, that makes sense.
- Talking about my custom, the same one had ARES in it. That could have made things a bit harder. Might make it look like am a sucker for punishment but to be frank I just wanted to get rid of my hang ups faster.
These are the customs I ran with DRR2 (from halfway through its run) and DRR3.
PALADIN:
- Love Bomb for Humanity Core
- Survival Instinct Core
- Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
- Synergy: Divine Dominion
- Lineage
- ARES
- Aphrodite
- Chosen of Venus
- Path of Forgiveness
- Joie de Vivre
- Enchanting Smile
- Ethereal Presence
- Fortune’s Favorite
- Free Pass
- Courage Reclaimed
- Untouchable
- Fearsome
- Codename: Umbra
- Limiting People Remover
- Ebon Maneuver
PRIMARCH:
- Paragon Complete Core
- Legacy of the Spartan Core
- Synergy: Preordained Vitality
- Synergy APS: Head/Face
- Synergy: Apollon Unbound
- Synergy: Energetic Transcendence
- Synergy: Divine Dominion
- Deep State
- Deep Sleep
- Radiating Health
- Auric Overdriver
- A/SPS: Eyesight
- A/SPS: Hearing
- A/SPS: Organs
- SPS: Cardiovascular System
- The Aligner
- Emperor Fitness Height Inducer
- Male Enhancement
- Epigenetics & DNA Modulator
- Mosaic
Not light customs but have been running main store title equivalents of the Cores in them for a pretty long time (on and off again). And have had most of their modules in several customs too.
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Just what I want. I haven’t run the stack yet.
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DRR St 1 is just beating the shit out of my subconscious. It’s actually a bit hilarious
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I found ST1 the toughest, followed closely by ST2. ST3 is tough too but it’s distancing me from the “problems”, helping to give more perspective.
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This is my favorite comment I’ve ever seen, because it’s a massive perspective check.
Gaming, something that most people don’t see as “serious” gave you intense recon.
What’s that say to me?
Our problems are big to us. And even “small things” can be magnified by the subconscious and cause us immense pain.
This post reminds us all to take ourselves a little more and less seriously at the same time.
Zoom out, and all problems and blockages are just stuck energies and misunderstandings.
Bleh, I want to yeet myself to Andromeda.
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A friend told me before we are playing the main role in a partially self imposed dark comedy of our own life
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Stage 3 could not have a better name, it literally feels like taking off on a jet plane and leaving whats not useful behind, while gaining a new perspective from above.
Im stacking with HS which adds a very profound sense of joy and happiness, the desire to explore life and have fun.
I was fully engaged a couple of hours ago in the act of discovering the magic and beauty in a particular moment of time, moments that are absolutely mechanical and invisible for most people.
Im sure theres gonna be some challenges in stage 3, but after experiencing st1 and 2, Im pretty much unafraid.
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Now that I think about it, I stopped thinking about cycles a while ago and started thinking in breakthroughs. What I mean is I have an objective or a purpose for using a product and I use it till I accomplish that goal. Until I break through whatever limitation or problem Im experiencing at the moment, until I reach higher grounds.
Stage 1 purpose was to heal my heart from a nasty break up.
I did 2 cycles of st 1, because thats what it took me to heal the wounds of the break up, the pain, the sadness, the anger, etc.
Stage 2 purpose was to be at peace with being alone.
I did 1 cycle of st2, because thats what it took me to heal from the anxiety and be at peace with the idea of being alone.
Stage 3 purpose, is to be free of the past and learn to love life, to be open to higher quality love.
About loop duration, I wish I had a rationale to explain, but I dont think I have one, I could avoid an answer by saying is a purely intuitive decision, but Im not sure about it either.
I start at 1 minute loops and I increase the timing as Im going deeper into the issue at hand, usually I stop when I reach 3:30 minutes at some point of the process, IIRC 4 minutes is the maximum Ive done in a long time.
Basically theres a process, a strategy, but Im unaware of the why’s, I trust results and the strategy works, so I roll with it.
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Today was the last day of my DRR3 washout and I had this breakthrough in my mind which I would like to share.
I always knew that everyone was selfish (or at least that everyone was looking out for their own self-interest). But I didn’t realise the significance of it in my day to day life.
For so long I was carrying this guilt of being selfish and wondering why I couldn’t be more selfless. And doing things which benefited others but at the cost of my own time and success.
Something happened today when I suddenly realized that what I was getting from a particular benefactor (a certain relative of mine) had little to do with what I wanted but what it made them feel. To add to that, I understood that what others give will almost never be upto your satisfaction because the gifts they give you isn’t usually what you desire for yourself but what they think you need.
This immediately made me lose my feelings of guilt. My eyes were opened to the world of people not really giving a damn about me. I mean, they do. But not upto the point of them having the responsibility of building my dream life for me. Something only I can do for myself.
Now you might think this is commonsense but commonsense don’t work when your body is captive to your subconcious feelings that are trapped in you. And the release of such feelings (in this case guilt) is what helped me be free.
Freedom. Freedom from the programming of society. The programming that puts a veil over your eyes to make you a slave with emotions like anger, fear, guilt, etc that keep us trapped in our lives. If you ever wanted to rebel against your chains, choose RED.
It’s a nice calm feeling in my mind now. DRR4 left to go and then Lion gonna be promoted to a full blown rebelLion lol.
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Embrace selfishness… Enjoy your FREEDOM!!
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I just realised reading this, that this is the exact emotional intent i put out about two years ago and the result of that has been slowly manifesting
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Last i played khan st1 and drred st3 and short ascension chamber loop, there was an interesting synchronicity same signs as before.
A couple of butterflies around me when i went out and one in particular on my window for the whole day which is very unsual.(pic below)
They are a universal symbol of transformation, metamorphosis and liberation which reflects my intent and direction of movement, the inner and outer reality mirror each other.
Also made me realize to focus less on outer as it reminds me of allegory of platos cave, staring into shadows on a wall thinking its the ‘real’ thing… Likewise the inner world casts a shadow on outer, thus true change of outer comes from within.
We tend to lose focus from this by overfocusing on whats infront of us.
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Arrived to drred st4 the promised land, khan st1 drred st4 beginning tonight
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I’m completing DRRED Stage 3 this week, this is how far I got in the original DR, so it’s my first time going to ST 4
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