Let me put this worry to rest, the journey of self discovery we call life is an upward spinning spiral, until the journey gets far enough that you are discovering yourself past your human identity and are learning in a conscious state, some of the difficulties you’ve experienced in the past will be revisited but the spiral keeps going up either way because even though some lessons need lots of repetitions to be learned fully, you are evolving in so many subtle ways at every moment.
And one day when certain core lessons are learned and enough pieces of the puzzle are put together and the picture of your self start to make more sense and become clearer it becomes very exciting, enjoyable and easy to find the missing pieces and finish the puzzle.
Any negativity/suffering left becomes a clear guide to the missing pieces, the voice of your true self in disguise, and then you realise there was never any darkness and it was all a play of light.
I’m at a point in my life where I am enjoying deeply every negative feeling, every depressive thought, because the light at the end of the tunnel is so bright that I am getting nostalgic at the darkness that still surrounds me but that I know will soon be gone for good.
As my true power awakens, my inner Emperor looks at my small little conditioned self with tenderness and nostalgia.
I still have a lot of stuff to clear but boy I’ve never been so happy in my life, and I can already feel a constant state of happiness and joy is the least exciting thing I’m about to experience!!