Typed this yesterday but never got the chance to finish it.
I was running stark and HOM only till I came across this. I need to love myself again cause I haven’t been myself for quite some time. Anywho, did my 3 min loop. I felt tingles in my body, then I was energized. Afterwards it wasn’t immediate but I started getting more positive responses to the people I’ve been trying to get to come over.
I got flu, toothache and earache which was caused by the tooth. Long story short, I started taking good care of myself… not 100% healed yet, till the medication wears off.
My girl started wanting badly to come over but since I got my eyes on new people I delayed it. I now got new people I can play with. I didn’t pull the trigger cause my medication wore off and I felt like shit for some time.
During that time, a girl that basically blueticked me and responded with a good question, and I happen to have a good answer for it but I’ll response tomorrow.
Took my meds and now I feel good.
I’m so bubble, full of energy. I find myself enjoying moments more than usual. My laughs have reached a deep level, they’re more vibrant.
Right now I just got back from the pub. When I got there, eyes were on me, I was about to leave since the place was dead to me till I noticed my friend. Went to them, and got offered free alcohol. And this other dude was hyping me up basically, saying how much I added to their fun last time we saw each other and was very persistent with getting me to save his numbers lols.
One of my close friend was with a girl I’m flirting with, me and the girl noticed each other and there was a bit of awkwardness till I put my focus elsewhere. And since then whenever our eyes met, she looked at me in ways I just can’t explain it. My site elevated her mood in a positive way, looking into my eyes while dancing. I decided to break rapport cause she’s with my friend for the night and I’m looking for someone else.
I wanted to change my shoes so I went home, when I got back…
There’s this other woman, I saw right through her tactics. Trying to get me to buy her drinks but I wasn’t having it. Told her no… I felt very proud,
During this whole time I’m texting with my girl… woman straight up asked me to marry her. She wants to take good care of me cause she sees that I’m not fully healed emotionally and that in most cases I just avoid my emotions for the reason of not wanting to be slowed down by them.
Typing the above paragraph eases some tension, at the same time I notice more about my trauma. It’s like cleaning a very dusty attic, one section looks clean and I realize how much more work needs to be done.
I had a good time, made the most out of an okay situation.
Even thou I was buying, I was being offered more alcohol. It’s a good thing we all knew our limit so no one was out of control.
Went back home alone, then slept. Overall, this is a magnificent sub, getting good results with just a 3 min loop. Bravo @SaintSovereign and @Fire, I’m loving how you always improving our lives.
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