Lion and the Crucible Dragon [Khan Black, Dragon Reborn, Paragon]

[Lion]

After a 38 day washout, am ready to run subliminals. The stack will be Khan Black, Dragon Reborn and Paragon.

Objectives:

• Release trauma whether spiritual, emotional, mental, physical or sexual.
• Freedom from limiting habits.
• Inner and outer energy development.
• Burn the past away.
• Remove blockages whether they be induced by nature or nurture.
• Forgive the self.
• Forgive the other.
• Health and vitality.
• Destroy fear.
• Ramp up manifestations when running future subliminals.
• Be the man I desire to be.

(Just some cool retro-styled AI generated art)

[Palpatine]

@Lion

Dragon Reborn

Starting at ST1?

[Lion]

Have run Dragon Reborn a long time ago. Journal for that here.

Khan Black I did run every stage for one cycle each but it was a surface level run which I want to rectify with a deeper and more introspective dive into the Crucible in this journey.

[Lion]

@Palpatine

@Lion

Dragon Reborn

Starting at ST1?

Yes. From Stage 1.

[Lion]

There is no point waiting for updates to these titles. When they get upgraded, I run them. Until then, the current versions are powerful in themselves.

And what can beat the power of our own mind? Remember that.

[ouroboros]

that’s going to be an amazing stack and i love that you actually stick to stacks, this is gonna be my new favorite journal to read

[Lion]

@ouroboros

that’s going to be an amazing stack

I think it will be. A bit heavy with two multistages but am using the excuse of “I have run them both before” lol.

@ouroboros

love that you actually stick to stacks

These words made me introspect a bit. There have been times when I was able to stick to a stack for longer and times when I felt like a rudderless ship moving from one title or custom to the next based on how attractive the thought of running those titles or customs looked.

Aside from working on my shiny object syndrome, I had to really think about the circumstances of my life and push myself to choose subliminals accordingly.

For example, I can’t go outside as much as I want to. I won’t explain why but consider it a health reason. If that’s the case, running a social title like Godlike Masculinity: The Commander or a seduction title like Wanted Black won’t work in my favor.

So what can I work on? Healing. Productivity. Turning my life around so I can be more social. Etc.

Productivity will need to take a backseat for now. Am in a long fasting phase that will have me reseting my body, losing weight and being more introspective than usual. Which is the perfect time for a healing stack with titles like Khan Black and Dragon Reborn.

Utltize my current circumstance to choose my stack and turn things around. And when things have changed, will re-evaluate and go from there.

I have loads of sexy ideas for customs and custom names lol. But they are in my text files for now.

Now I prepare myself to be better. Better in the way I handle myself, others and the events in my life.

@ouroboros

this is gonna be my new favorite journal to read

Appreciate you, bro. Thank you

[Lion]

2023-12-08T18:30:00Z

Day 1
Dragon Reborn ST1, Khan Black ST1

1. Yesterday, I tried purchasing Dragon Reborn: Phoenix but my credit card started acting up. “The Phoenix called but the Credit Card got declined”. Haha! 3 times! Yay! The same card works in the Q Store. Tried it by purchasing 2 modules. Sent a DM to Saint. But after thinking about it for a while, I took it as a sign to choose a stack from the titles I already have purchased before. And hence the titles you see in this journal title.

2. After playing ST1 of Dragon Reborn, I felt great. Then ran ST1 of Khan Black. Uff that felt heavy on my head. Fortunately I was going to bed right after that. Let sleep process my heavy head lol.

3. Woke up to a warm body (Khan Black) and a head that still felt heavy (running two multistages can do that to you). I had the immediate thought to bring down the heaviness into my body. As if to distribute the “weight” and make it feel more bearable. Hmm. It will take time I thought and went about my morning routine. Brush my teeth. Trim my beard. Nose trimmer for my nose. Take a cold shower. Interesting. Didn’t hesitate much to get under the shower today. Have been taking cold showers for a couple of years now but winter does have me hesitate to open the tap and bring down the wrath of the cold water on my skin. But today there was none of that hesitation. That’s good.

4. Have decided that I will write more in this journal. Instead of waiting until the end of each day to reflect and journal, I will write whenever the thought strikes me. Need to get a lot of things out there. Talking about writing, it has brought down the heaviness in my head. The cold shower has helped too.

[Lion]

Some more objectives for this journey:

• Be free of societal programming in religion and politics. I have detached from a lot of this but I need to be even more free. Not get sucked into the delicious drama of us vs them which religion and politics love to encourage.

• Be more relaxed about healing taking time. We can do a lot to speed up the process but it still will take time.

• Be more patient with ourselves and others. And I can already feel this. Must be Dragon Reborn.

• Require less validation from others. I can feel this already happening.

Will add more objectives when I think of them. This feels good. This feels right.

[Lion]

5. Feeling loads of anger due to having to depend on others for my survival. Disability is a MFer and I will take personal responsibility for not focusing on finances when I was younger which would have freed me from having to depend on my family.

6. But what is done is done and for now I will release the anger and find another way to overcome current obstacles instead of being in regret and anger.

7. I realize that some of the anger is due to lack of control over my own life. A lack of independence. Realisations and release in points 5, 6 and 7 are due to Dragon Fire.

8. More energy today thanks to Khan Black. Feeling more healthier than yesterday in comparison.

Some more objectives and goals. We could call them Khan Black goals:

• Be free of the urge for porn. I don’t use it as much as when I was younger but there are lingering traces of the habit in my mind which manifest in watching it once in a while.

• Same as above with masturbation.

• Need healing for sexual repression which led to such habits since the act of sex outside marriage is frowned upon in the Indian culture.

• Have a healthy view of sex. To not view the need for sex as degeneracy or something evil.

• Regain sexual energy and higher levels of testosterone as I become more and more healthier with this stack.

• Find creative uses of sexual energy outside of just sex. Channel sexual energy in the way that most suits me whether it be through productivity or through spirituality.

[Kyuss]

Wow, that’s a stack!
Success with it!

[Lion]

@Kyuss

Wow, that’s a stack!
Success with it!

Much thanks, brother . After the first day, I don’t regret this.

[Joa23]

@Lion

Yesterday, I tried purchasing Dragon Reborn: Phoenix but my credit card started acting up. “The Phoenix called but the Credit Card got declined”. Haha! 3 times! Yay! The same card works in the Q Store.

The same thing happened to me once… ended up buying with paypal. The problem was on the banks end, not the card itself, neither SC.

@Lion

I took it as a sign to choose a stack from the titles I already have purchased before

See that you reframe it quite well.

@Lion

The stack will be Khan Black, Dragon Reborn and Paragon.

You are a brave man!! May this journey bless you with many gifts!!

[Lion]

@Joa23

@Lion

Yesterday, I tried purchasing Dragon Reborn: Phoenix but my credit card started acting up. “The Phoenix called but the Credit Card got declined”. Haha! 3 times! Yay! The same card works in the Q Store.

The same thing happened to me once… ended up buying wity paypal. The problem was on the banks end, not the card itself, neither SC

That’s highly probable. If i try today it might work but I am postponing the purchase for another day.

@Joa23

@Lion

The stack will be Khan Black, Dragon Reborn and Paragon.

You are a brave man!! May this journey bless you with many gifts!!

Thanks a ton, brother! It’s gonna be a long hard ride but no pain, no gain.

[Lion]

9. Felt pulsing in my legs when I woke up in the morning. It lasted half the day. Physical shifting subliminals also have the same effect on me. Must be sensing the energy in the body due to the subliminals in my stack

10. Some times I do wonder whether anything in my early years made me prefer security rather than independence and hence the physical ailment and dependence on others. It’s an interesting theory but I am not sure whether wondering about the past will resolve my issues. Will release what I feel and go to sleep.

And there was evening and there was morning, the first day
-Genesis 1:5

[Lichtenauer]

@Lion

Some times I do wonder whether anything in my early years made me prefer security rather than independence and hence the physical ailment and dependence on others

Our subconscious is strange at times. On journey of mental healing I discovered that I chose to stay dependent on my family so my mother and my grandmother had a reason to stay alive.

[Lion]

@Lichtenauer

Our subconscious is strange at times. On journey of mental healing I discovered that I chose to stay dependent on my family so my mother and my grandmother had a reason to stay alive.

Thank you for sharing this, my friend. There is truth to this.

A powerful tool like our subconcious mind needs only a small error in belief to cause major havoc in our lives. And that too something we think is good for us but in fact only makes us less and afterwards leads to anger, resentment, etc.

Gotta be free.

[Lion]

2023-12-09T18:30:00Z

Day 2
Rest Day

1. Losing interest in watching podcasts and interviews about religion, politics and intersexual dynamics. More curious about story telling and game design. When I was in college, I used to want to be a game designer due to how much I loved gaming. Especially real time strategy games.

2. Am also interested in how masculinity is portrayed in fiction, movies and video games. Take Conan the Barbarian and Kratos for example. Excellent examples of how men influence the world with their (Godlike) Masculinity.

3. Right now am watching an interview of Eric Williams on the Easy Allies podcast. Eric is the director of God of War: Ragnarok. It got a great story about being a father and raising his son to be better than him. Breaking down the mechanics of the story and game is very interesting so will watch a few more of these.

4. Will have to somehow translate this into a creative endeavor of my own. What that will be is something I will find out along the way.

[Lion]

5. I will have to admit my laziness in taking action so that I can overcome it and end up being a the person who takes a ton of action.

6. Taking action like doing eye exercises is something I feel sucks. I do if for a couple of months, get bored of it and stop. I have to reintroduce it back into my life and continue doing it regardless of how I feel.

7. A man got to do what a man got to do regardless of how he feels. What use is patience, perseverance and the other virtues if it was easy to do? Nothing notable is achieved in life by it being fun and easy.

[Lichtenauer]

@Lion

Taking action like doing eye exercises is something I feel sucks. I do if for a couple of months, get bored of it and stop. I have to reintroduce it back into my life and continue doing it regardless of how I feel.

This seems very familiar. Not that I have terrible sight, but it used to be much better and crashed when I was binging a phone game a few years back.

Have you ever heard of Leo Angert?
I have one of his books and my sight improved in a few days. Astigmatism was gone after 2 days, and the other problems vanished over 3 weeks.
I had 2.25 and 2.75 diopter.