I had a demon dream when I was running DR earlier this year. I listen at the lowest possible volume and get results. I’m thinking you are processing the subliminals.
I’m sorry to hear this. Do you have support systems such as trusted loved ones or health care providers?
Definitely some processing for sure. What’s the lowest possible volume for you out of curiosity? Something like whisper level? That’s usually where I’m setting it nowadays. It feels less aggressive to me so I internalize it better.
Thanks. I have people I can reach out to yeah. I’ll be ok. It’s a recurring thing in my life I’ve learned to get better with. I just have certain triggers that set me off. One of them is when my job gets too demanding and I can’t keep up, makes me question everything in my life.
I just set my for the lowest possible level. So if my volume goes from 1 to 30, I set it at 1.
Good news that you’re not just blinding going along with what you did yesterday. 
Very interesting. Maybe I should try again with the volume experimenting. This episode of pretty bad reconciliation came about after adjusting the volume again. I need to remind myself it’s better to not feel anything and make subtle changes vs get hit over the head with reconciliation and power through it
I’m really conflicted. If I were to wait until I’m 100% ready to run another loop after listening to Qv2 I feel like it could be up to a week or two.
But I’m going to try more extended rest days and only listening if I’m ready. I’m dealing with a lot of stress besides the reconciliation brought on by my custom, so maybe I can’t handle more than a loop a week right now.
Just don’t want to end up in a position where I’m avoiding the sub because of fear. It’s not always clear what’s avoidance vs a genuine need to lay off
I can relate.
Trust yourself.
I think this goes back to self care which I’m terrible at. I push myself a lot in hopes of breaking through but I don’t balance it enough with taking care of myself. I need to work on that more and stop pushing myself beyond my limits.
Taking an extended break from all subs. I don’t like what this has turned into for me. It’s entirely my fault, but I keep playing out the same insecurities without getting to the root.
Point being, and I’ve brought this up before, this journey of improvement should be for me. To make my life better, to feel better about myself, to find freedom for myself.
What it has turned into. A competition of outrunning all the fear, guilt, and shame due to being behind everyone else in my life. My primary drive seems to always have been fueled by fear of being perceived as a failure. Sometimes I can’t even tell what decisions I make are for me, it’s that bad.
I probably should have taken a break or eased up on my listening months ago, but I didn’t. Why? Because I was less concerned with feeling better and more concerned with being better. The insecurities fueled my behavior that weren’t good for me or productive.
I don’t know how long this break will last. Maybe a week, two, maybe a month who knows. But I’m just taking the pressure off of myself to get back on a listening schedule as fast as possible to see what my mind really has to reconcile with.
Im just really tired of this anxiety I create for myself trying to prove to other people around me all the time I’m not some screw up in life.
I may have posted this already, but I’m wondering if you’re in an ongoing reconciliation. Would you please send a support ticket to inquire about what might be the reason for your ongoing reconciliation and what you might do about it?
I don’t believe you’ve mentioned it before. But I will do that. Thanks for the suggestion.
Thank you. And would you please post the reply here, as well as the thread for support ticket responses, because I’m thinking others might benefit.
@Meng123 Would you please watch this thread to post what might be done to help people who seem to have ongoing reconciliation? Although I think this is a minority of people, for that minority it seems very uncomfortable.
Been feeling better. Going to continue my break. Not sure if I’m coming back to this custom or not. If I weigh the amount of reconciliation I’ve been through with the amount of growth I’ve experienced it’s way too unbalanced. Speaking honestly I’m tired of doing this. Even before subclub this was the routine. Bust my ass, feel like crap, and then hope at some point in the future it all gets better. But what really matters to me nowadays is the present moment. If I can’t enjoy that because I’m going through deep psychological distress in hopes of being better, it’s not worth it.
It’s just always an underlying feeling of needing to prove myself so I subject myself to this pain to I prove how much I can handle I guess. It’s dumb, it’s harmful, and it’s just full of ego and insecurity. I’d be better off choosing a strategy for growth that works better for me. Whatever that is I’m not sure at this point.
@RVconsultant I’m not sure which thread you were referring to, but here’s the response I got back from support.
Hey,
Thanks for reaching out to us. Checking out your stack, it appears to be pretty well balanced. How many loops are you running and what is your listening pattern? Sometimes we can be listening to too much or even high volume can make reconciliation difficult. Here is a link to our new listening pattern: https://support.subliminalclub.com/knowledge-base/new-listening-pattern-how-many-loops-needed/. This may help reduce the affects of recon. Also here is a link to an article from our support page with some tips on how to deal with recon: https://support.subliminalclub.com/knowledge-base/what-is-subliminal-resistance-and-how-do-i-deal-with-it/.
You may want to cut back on the amount of loops you’re listening to or a complete subliminal washout for at least 30 days. This will allow you to continue to process without overloading yourself. When you choose to reintroduce subliminal’s, use the new listening pattern. If you experience the same results, then go back to major titles and continue to work on your subliminal foundation. I hope I was able to answer your questions today and provide some insight. Please feel free to reach out to us again if anything else is needed.
Thank you,
SubClub
For reference here’s my initial ticket. I don’t know if this was too in depth for a support ticket or a tricky issue, but aside from advising me to complete a washout and go back to a major title a lot of it stuff I’m already very familiar with. I’m just hoping a washout is enough and I’m not dealing with a fundamental issue that makes all subliminal input more difficult for me.
Hi, I was advised to put in a ticket for a potential issue I’m having with ongoing reconciliation. I’m currently running a custom with a focus on supportive and healing modules with ascension as the base. I thought I’d be able to handle it, but it seems like even that I’m struggling with. With QV2 it seems I can handle about a loop a week and sometimes even that can be too much at times. I’ve recently decided to take an extended break to see just how much I need to process. My biggest concern here is that I’m pushing myself too hard and my current strategy is both ineffective and incredibly stressful on me. There have been a few realization I’ve had recently that made me realize I’m stuck in a kind of loop of not getting to core issues that I need to address.
With that being said, I’m looking for help to figure out a better plan of action to help me improve my life without leading me into intense reconciliation episodes that almost render me unable to function. If a custom might be too much for me and I’d be better off with one of the main store titles. Or if I need to spend more time healing. I’ve been using subclubs subs for a while now and while I’ve had growth I’ve had to fight very hard for it. Something seems off to me, but I’m not quite certain what it is.
Did the reply address your concerns?
Did it give you a plan you can try with the hope of finding some relief?
Ok,archived
A little. I’m going to try a washout for 30 days and see what happens. Depending how that goes after I might be going back to a major title if the custom still isn’t doable.
What didn’t get answered for you?
It’s not really something anyone can answer at this point I think. The washout is good advice, but I’ve never done that so I don’t know how it’ll actually effect me.
I think following through with that and then reassessing things is the gameplan for me. I am under heavy reconciliation right now and not in the right state of mind to address what will or won’t work for me.
I don’t like being “that guy” when it comes to difficulty with change from subliminals, but it’s a common theme in my life. I’m not blaming anyone or saying I haven’t changed, it’s just been pretty frustrating for me. I’m trying but I can’t help but feel sometimes I’m not trying hard enough. Just more upset with myself than anything.
You’re not that guy. If you are criticizing yourself, please stop. We are here to help. Subliminals are here to help, and so is customer service. And if I can, then I do my best to help as well.
Is there anything else at this point we might be able to help with or clarify?