Ugh so very wrong. I kept decreasing the volume on the sub until I could barely hear it thinking that was a better way. It wasn’t. At least I know it now 2 days into experimenting. But overthinking got the best of me. New rule of thumb, pleasant conversation level. That’s it. Not too loud, not too quiet. Basically set it to a level that feels comfortable and friggin leave it there.
I’m not gonna hack subliminal volume level to skyrocket my results, that’s wishful thinking on my part. My brain just needs to chill. Guess my mind found a great new avenue for reconciliation and used my obsessive tendencies and disposition to over analyze the crap out of everything against me.
I should have really known. Prior to deciding to lower the volume I was having those thoughts like “this is never going to work for you”. Just the really defeatist “this is all a lie and you’re delusional if you think this is helping”. And I continued to feel worse and worse. But I felt worse because I was still working through changes. I started researching where I was going to move, what kind of jobs, visualizing my future, getting further from NY, etc. Then my brain hit the panic switch.