I might be not staying on these subs a great deal of cycles yet. I’m remembering why I made some of the recent life changes I did and seduction may just not be my truly highest priority.
Might be noticing some effects on personality/voice/intention. Note to self to continue using ultrasonic on music. (Today I tested ultra after a couple months masked)
Incorporating something with PS soon. P/PS/S&S is to my goal of approaching and maybe combining with boosters will assist in my goal. I think I should be able to talk to women with sexual intent regardless of the outcome. I want to connect with the primal aspect of masculinity (though I’m not convinced either way that Primal will do what I’m trying better than S&S, which is why I’m going with PS [I don’t know if I need P or S&S so I’m using the combination of both]). I see the primal aspect of man as being natural and unapologetic about its barbaric appearance. We are taught to suppress it by various sources but it is often mothers. I want to talk to women for the purpose of my true intention without concern of the outcome or reaction.
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Slept deeply and woke up late today. Probably partly from exercising in the heat but also, the reason I’m writing, maybe this is from the subs I ran (Wanted+PS). If there is a stronger effect now, I attribute it to my switching to ultrasonic on music. Last night I had a dream where a girl at a store was into me, I chatted her a small bit but was mostly aloof, and in the dream I thought to myself, “Okay, get her name next” like I was getting mentored by PS in the dream. Today it occurred that maybe before going straight for quick action I should focus on getting a lot of dates first (or better yet, hangouts) and before that I would want to just talk to people. So maybe after this cycle I should use DD+TS or just TS because I mostly resist talking to strangers but if I could do that it would be great toward my seduction goal.
I want to expect or picture positive experiences in my interactions. That is to see myself having a good time with the girl throughout the process rather than just merely achieving the carnal endpoint. I currently do not have this. I want to spot chicks and know they’re “my type” (or one of them) and feel optimistic to hit it off. Lol, maybe the PS+Elixir I ran before bed is kicking in now. Think of something you came across or saw and were excited to try or participate in, and didn’t have hesitation to jump in. That’s how I want to engage my seduction targets, a fun game/journey (“adventure” as most would say, but so cliche geez) rather than to a mountain to climb (or prey to catch as some guys might say).
Side note. I have taken on Wanted because people praise it so highly and speak as if it’s a must-have for seduction. I don’t really understand its purpose that much. I’ve often been called mysterious already. I think for my style I should probably focus on the more outgoing aspects because talking too much is probably not a problem of mine. So maybe I should drop Wanted.
I feel like this PS+Elixir is making me go back into the past and rethink my inborn seductive style before I lost my mojo. A few thoughts:
Greene Type: The Natural (I think). Since I was not trying to seduce, there was probably a bit of unintended coquette.
“Dating style”: freeform, spontaneous, fun, offensive (says whatever I judge even if too blunt), walking, exploring, talking, not deep talking but making fun of people and being freely raunchy
Approach style: In the past I never needed to approach (though I would like to for more opportunities) and would find girls pursuing me in social or performance situations. I think if I were to have approached back then, I would probably not have shown any seduction intention; I would go up and be goofy, make fun of something the girl was doing, perhaps as if I was an annoyance. None of it would be for the intention of impressing, making laugh, or seducing her, like I was purely Trickster-motivated. But perhaps I could use that Trickster ability to get action fast as well since it means not caring about many traditional rules.
This is a thread with a lot of suggestions. A couple people mentioned that DD is good to include for beating approach anxiety. I personally find it hard to initiate and ride random conversations with people so maybe I really should use DD. Only thing is the question of whether to use PS with it right away or just focus on the social stuff. In theory I think it would be better to work on the social basis first but I also know I can get impatient sexually when I get going well with people but I guess I will have to be careful and work on that.
As I approach the end of my first full cycle of PS, I have finally noticed the strong sexual feeling I had felt much sooner when I tested Primal a while back. One aspect of it is that a lot more girls look, and feel, energetically, sexually enjoyable to me. Likewise, myself in the mirror looks like a legitimate sexual being and that’s even when I’ve fallen out of shape. That means my limit of “I need to be ripped to get laid” can fall away just by using Primal. Hey body dysmorphia ppl, wink wink Primal, wink.
What I assume is coming from S&S is that I seem to have received a vision of what I would act like as a competent seducer; though, I think I should first achieve the social skill of fun-chatting with strangers so I have a conversation started where I can perform the seduction. I still plan on using Rebirth+Daredevil in my next cycle, with Daredevil continuing multiple cycles. Once I get my chit chat going I’ll reintroduce PS.
As for Elixir with PS, it indeed seems to be insightful and healing of problems that block my utilizing of PS. I would definitely pair Elixir again in the future with any title where I want extensive healing for it.
And yeah I’m pretty sure Wanted isn’t something I need now. It is low priority and maybe I’ll use it to enhance myself later.
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My strategy is: I can hypothesize about all the sub combos I want as long as I continue to use the ones selected for the current cycle. Plus, I’ve already bought enough subs 
. It works well.
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Had an epiphany about sexual shame. Makes me think twice about not having any Primal (& Elixir) in my stack. With that being said, I do think I should see how my social ability improves with Daredevil. I’ll see what happens with it while keeping the other epiphanies in mind.
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Exactly 12 hours after the end of my loops I may have noticed a subtle drop of anxiety in my brain, similar in character to a small amount of testing True Social ZP I did a few months ago. No supplements taken.
Now 17 hours after the loops. Noticing a pleasant, calm, merry energy that would probably be beneficial were I out and about.
Yesterday evening had an epiphany about rejecting people. I found that I did not want to socially interact with certain people. But, I don’t think it’s recon, I think I had pushed rejecting others into my shadow. Rejecting wastes of energy is a necessary fact.
Also today I had an epiphany about adrenaline. The notion of eliminating social or approach anxiety before taking action is a crock. Being able to tolerate adrenaline makes one a warrior. If you feel fear yet interact, you are showing that you can tolerate fearful situations which is attractive. I had previously thought being fearful would make one unattractive but now I’m thinking otherwise.
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I realize I’ve been stuck in an introverted loop. I’m always thinking and mulling over, not using my time to take action. I need to get to utilizing the time of my day. Not just toward the social goals of my stack, but in general. There are many hours and much could be accomplished if so much time was utilized. I’ve noticed for a long time my lack of time utilization but haven’t been entirely clear on how or if I should fix the problem. I think it goes back to my upbringing, where my action and will were separated. I felt coerced to take action I did not agree with and prevented from taking action that I did agree with. One of the activities I did agree with was socializing, which is why I have chosen a social stack now–because I felt I should have socialized at a young age and have continued a pattern of not. I was prevented from doing it, and back then I thought to myself there is not much point to achieving if I can’t spend the fruits of my labor on anything fun.
It’s questionable if I am on the ideal stack. I suppose I should stick with it and make my day as productive as possible regardless of whether the stack fits perfectly. The way I will fill my day includes: exercise, healthy eating, taking care of my house and personal care, back in business eventually, social events if they are available and I feel like it. Alpha, wealth, and productivity subs most fit the direction I am going but I will just keep on the current stack because switching would mean (1) trying to rely on subs as a substitute for executing my own will and (2) contributing to the overthinking process by leaving open the possibility of changing plans. I just need to take constant action and not think.
A few years ago, upon reading and considering The Power of Now, I decided to stop thinking and just keep busy constantly busy and focused on the present. I sustained it for a couple days and felt calmer than I ever had before. However, I did not maintain it and it was quite a challenge while I did. In more recent years I’ve feared the idea of becoming a workaholic who escapes from thinking by over-working, but, given the insight I’ve discussed, I think for me my constant action would not be workaholism and actually would be exactly what I personally need to do. Plus, I wouldn’t be doing all “work” work, it would be any non-solitary or non-sitting-around activity which could be some leisure.
Part of me fears that taking a lot of action will not solve certain problems, such as the desire for a fun lifestyle. But part of me also thinks I am just going to be stuck in thought forever and that I must have gone wrong somewhere in my thought process when I decided I need to mull over things endlessly. Maybe learning to fill my day with action would not be as unsatisfying as I imagine and maybe it would unlock some blocked capabilities, perhaps because of increasing self-esteem or something.
Dang that was the most I’ve written. I guess something really hit me. Or maybe it’s because I’ve been low on sleep. Would be glad to hear if you have any thoughts.
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At one point today I started wondering what is the sub to stop positive thinking because I feel like positive thinking screws me over. Anyway…
I feel really called upon to clean up my routine, which is strange for a social stack. Maybe it’s the Rebirth’s taskmaster. Or maybe it’s a situation where I’m resisting acting out the title and can feel better about myself by doing other positive things, like when I was in college and would clean my room when I didn’t want to study. There might be some really good stuff going on here.
In order to feel social I need to keep a clean house because I need to have a place that I would not be embarrassed for people to see. Also, living in a mess is not good for self-esteem because it’s not valuing one’s own experience nor utilizing time wisely. After cleaning up some of my house, I had the strange perception that the clean areas have a social feel to them, even though there is nothing obviously social about them. I think a clean area brings to my mind a public area where things are kept clean. By keeping my house as such, I am connecting with my own natural instincts toward socialization. It is doing myself a favor and giving me a good experience, which I myself receive, similar to how I would receive such were a social interaction to give it to me, as if myself is literally another person. My thought up to this point has been that there is no point in creating a good home experience only for myself. "If no one else is involved there is no point in creating a satisfying environment because I don’t care about my home experience. " I feel like something is in the shadow there because I do appreciate my own home being clean.
I need to have a consistent routine where I have ~3 quality meals per day, which will keep me in a consistently good mood. Of note is blood sugar, required for mood, which is related to Saint’s bounty thread about eating a sweet. But instead of eating a sweet at the time recon is noticed, I will just maintain blood sugar and nutrients throughout the day which will fuel my transformation powerfully. That will especially serve the objective of “Minimize socialization exhaustion.” I can further motivate this schedule by including strength training, which will help (1) motivate my diet adherence because it creates a more obvious need for quality nutrition and more comfort about eating all those calories, and (2) increase mood and self-esteem from the sense of self-efficacy of not sitting around.
My sleep schedule may be flipping to that of a night owl.
While I had said earlier that anti-anxiety was noticed at 12 hours, the peak may be closer to 17 hours.
As I continue to embrace improving my lifestyle, I’ve been noticing some kind of subtle positive energy. I’ve noticed such thing before with other subs, such as the buildup of Primal energy on Primal. Perhaps what now is building is a self-esteem and social positivity.
Letting go of fear and anxiety. Moving into the moment.
A few notes and realizations
- I’ve had an underlying assumption that I should be worried going to social events, but that’s really always been a hallucination with no basis in reality. I can just drop it
- My social anxiety can decrease significantly by visualizing myself in third-person how I come off real-time. Taking videos of myself practicing public speaking also helps similarly. It’s like I’ve been trying to be completely in first-person, carelessly “living in the moment”, forgetting about making any impression or good presentation, but those things are actually important to me and ignoring them is an example of the good ole strategy of trying to solve a problem by ignoring it, plus denying useful self-awareness. My tendency in life is to assume the negative when information is not present. So if I don’t pay attention to my presentation then I’m assuming my presentation is negative by default.
- I got my house cleaning almost finished and feel a lot better because of it.
- I had one of those moments where you think you’re done with the ZP stack because they make it feel like you’re transitioning fast; plus, there is the fear of doing what it takes to continue advancing to new levels. I am writing to say I am going to stick to the plan and not switch stacks despite temptation. I still have a lot of challenges to conquer, and I shall finish what I set forth. The plan is a minimum of 3 cycles of Daredevil.
- People see you how you put yourself out; they don’t know if you thought a negative thought.
- I also should state my goals explicitly. They are
- Develop a profound sense of social freedom. (I go where I want, interact with who I want. I will make a note that going out alone often may not be something I want to feel forced to do since it may not be my style)
- Rapidly improve your confidence and how comfortable you are around other people.
- Eliminate approach anxiety, enhance your ability to let go and have fun.
- Learn to truly enjoy and love talking with others.
- Be in the moment
(I am not highly interested in manifesting a massive, ongoing social circle at the moment)
I may actually have legitimate reason to break off from DD. It’s a long story and I don’t think anyone will stop me whether I tell it or not. But, I’ve been working on the betterment of self and life for a long time so I have a good sense what got me to my current step, and I have a sense of current problems. I’ll explain if requested for info. For now I’m going to keep thinking, not suddenly jump, but I may have good reason (wisdom) that even the consensus philosophy within Sub Club would support such change. One stack leads to another stack and each time one gets closer to their optimal for their current step in life. The unconscious and Higher Self are always leading us somewhere, even though we may take tangents which can make the path look jagged. Some of the stacks I ran you (and I) will agree with, others were tangents. But the overall direction was constant. DD may have been a tangent. Or possibly it provided an opportunity to see how I felt putting effort into its goals which gives me further information about my true will which I can utilize. Much I do is a process of elimination. The stack I would be changing to would not be taking me down a path that was decided in only the last 6 months. It would be a stack congruent with decisions made years ago–I’ve been contemplating my life strategy for years, long before I found subliminals. It would not be silly to change my path to do what my extensive self-knowledge gathering indicated before subs. There are precise reasons for it.
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Finally got good sleep. Yeah I don’t need to switch just yet. But I do need to be careful how I put pressure on myself to take action. Gotta ease into it
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