ngl, I fell off the stack I showed above, trying Primal Seduction + Sanguine. Anyway, today, my anger has awakened. I’m gonna guess it was the Rebirth in combination with some psychological practices and books I’ve been studying. I have avoided expressing anger including in current relationships, which instead turns into drawn out resentment and sulking. I considered the action I want to take, whether verbal communication and attempt at conflict resolution, or something else. I am confident I already understand why people have acted as such. Throughout my life I’ve had the habit of choosing to be around people who were not the best for me be involved with; and I’ve taken on roles which avoid levels of responsibility requiring high self-discipline. It is the “easy way out” and stems all the way back to childhood. As I have experienced from Rebirth before, I am called to take on medium and longer challenges requiring action I haven’t done before. I won’t go into detail now about all what that is; it’s best to take action rather than talk about taking action. I shall transmute the anger into the achievement of these new challenges. I will welcome negative feelings, especially anger and withdrawal from my addictions, and take it as the call to action of higher character. I don’t need to drop negative situations immediately, but will rationally develop alternatives before exiting. While I may be frustrated with these situations, the anger can be used for fuel and acting out by abandoning them could lead to going back to similar ones since no change in character has occurred and thus will attract the same.
I plan on resuming the stack, shown in the previous entry, tomorrow. It would be nice to incorporate some subs to give me wealth ideas; however, I am inclined to not drop the current stack.
Update: Yeah, I’m not going to do that wealth stuff just yet. And I may drop Rebirth (“Hang up when you get the message”). I’ve been in a groove the last week and I think it’s because of the practices I’ve been doing. I gotta keep that going, probably for 6 months. I’m still in the healing process despite that I’m not running healing subs anymore. I’ve gained insight into the value of some techniques. Once I heal significantly, productivity toward business and whatever I wish will come easily.