The wife has that book. I wrote “Always agree with COWolfe, THE END” on the title page.
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Posting this entry from my EoG test I’m doing. Will likely repost it at the end of the test, to keep it all in order.
Sub Day #4
3/17/2022
EoG2, EoG2, EoG2Lied down in bed. Ran this mid-day while doing my hypnotic trance self induction I do. @Malkuth knows what I mean
I found myself imagining sex with this lucid dreaming coach I follow online. She’s quite gorgeous. That lasted a few minutes, then I still felt “sexual” but it was more like I was perceiving the ripeness/fertileness of possibility. Not sexual possibility. More like the power of Creation itself.
Not even sure what that means, but it fits.
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Clearing out old emails (Thanks to EoG3’s “action” push but limited at the moment in what I can do productivity-wise) and came across this gem:
which led me to another gem on the same website.
It's OK To Want Sex (This is the goal of Primal, n’est-ce pas?)
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You know what I want from NZT the most?
That clarity Eddie got while swimming after he jumped into the water. “I knew what I needed to do, and I knew how to do it”
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I just finished up my Eog-only megastack test.
I have a first/preliminary interview tomorrow for a local clinic. They call it a fancy name like “Mobile somethingorother”. From what I gather so far from the job description, it’s one of those mobile van things that takes old people to their appointments and back home.
Might even be that I take a doctor to people’s houses. Not entire sure. They seem to talk about both.
Now that the stack test just happens to be over right as this is happening tomorrow, before I go to sleep, I’ll run:
- Chosen
- Ascended Mogul
- Primal Seduction
AscMogul + Primal Seduction is so I get Primal Ascension (shoutout to @Davisnwc), Mogul and S&S. S&S/PS is to also help me as far as talking to the lady I’m interviewing with.
I briefly thought about Libertine, but that’s likely overkill 
Ascension Chamber as I’m drifting off to sleep. or RIGHT before sleep. As in, I’ll be in bed, run that, then have a few songs after.
EDIT: I doubt it’s “coincidence” that this interview landed the day after my last EoG sub day. Gotta credit EoG with this. Even though I didn’t set the interview up until this past Saturday. That was a rest day from having run EoG3, EoG3, EoG4 the day before.
I think a custom of EoG3 and EoG4 might just be awesome.
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Pretty sure you’ll kill it man, good luck with the interview. Let us know how it goes.
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I didn’t kill it. It seemed like a decent interview. But I already got the email. “The fact you were called for an interview speaks highly to your background. Unfortunately…”
At least they let me know.
I applied for a “Field Technician” job with Comcast in April of 2007. “We’ll either call you to let you know you’re in, or send a letter within 10 days knowing that you aren’t being selected.”
I still don’t know if I got the Comcast gig or not 
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It’s all good, I’m sure they’ll be more opportunities
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No SubClub subs for the past 3 days now (this is the 3rd day). Unofficial washout from the EoG test. I’m running some other stuff right now. It’s nothing like ZP of course.
But some of it has got me thinking about life. And I’m sure this is partially from EoG still processing as well.
My thoughts today: I am tired of certain family members telling me I need to stop being “picky” with my job search. As if that’s a bad thing. I know there are certain types of jobs I’ve done in the past that burn me out faster than others.
There’s only one job I’ve had where I never burned out on it. Just not finding anything here like that one, at least nothing close enough I wouldn’t be dumping 30%-50% of my income back into travel costs.
It is less about being “picky” in the popular sense of the word and more about knowing if I take just any old shit job hat comes along, like these family members are always willing to do, I will burn out and be miserable all over again. And I’ll be expected to “stick with it.”
The worst part of it is nobody of them says shit to the wife about needing to find a job. Not to say she’s lazy, she just has the belief that she can’t do must things because of her issues.
I’m expected to just do whatever so others can benefit from my misery. No thanks. My standards are non-negotiable. What’s wrong with wanting to enjoy something, especially given I’d be devoting nearly 25% of my time to it, and that’s only factoring in on-the-clock hours. Doesn’t count travel time.
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There is absolutely nothing wrong with taking a job and immediately looking for another one that suits you better.
Expected by who? Screw em.
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I know that feeling, I used to never wanting to commit to a job because of all the contracts and deals, felt suffocating in a way.
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It isn’t even about not wanting a job. I’m fine with that part for the time being. Just bugs me that my own daughter rags on me about it but doesn’t say shit to the wife.
Today’s just been a blah day. Could be recon, or could just be that I’m mentally tired all the time with stuff. Or both.
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Today is day 8 of no SC subs. Been doing other stuff the past few days. Starting to feel a slight pull to run EoG4.
I’ll sit with it a few more days to make sure I’m ready again before I do anything.
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Shift Happens.
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Been about 2.5 weeks now since any SC stuff. I’ve been testing a few other things in the meantime.
I just ordered a money custom finally. the cores were down to either EoG3+EoG4 or Emperor+EoG4.
Decided on Emperor+EoG4…may as well play for keeps.
The core/module setup
- Emperor Core
- Ecstasy of Gold ST4 Core
- Debt Annihilator
- Sultan
- Deus
- Informaticon
- Instant Business Tactician
- Financial Success Reality Shifter
- Submodel Alpha
- Omnidimensional
- Yggdrasil
- RAIKOV
- Furious Ascent
- Machine: Action
- Unrelenting Wealth Motivation and Energy
- Marketweaver
- Merger of Worlds
- Mosaic
- Wealth Limit Destroyer
- Rebirth
I went with the solace mask…only because the ZP preview titles are solace already. The legacy mask is kinda jarring if it comes after a ZP/Solace mask in a stack.
Since I did the $30 for Solace, I decided to just stick with “regular” ZP build strength.
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today (Tuesday) marks 3 weeks now of no SubClub subs. Longest ever. I’ve been running some stuff from a different source for the past week at least. To address some specific stuff I won’t talk about much here, as I don’t want to draw attention away from SubClub.
I will say that the stuff is hitting me on some level I can’t identify, and I’m questioning a lot about life right now.
I’m not even sure why I ordered my money custom I did…as I have no idea when I’ll get back on the sub train. I know I will eventually.
Anyone who followed my private journal for the original ZPPF/ZPS test runs knows I don’t cry. ZP got me there twice or three times during private testing.
Between the 3-week washout and the other stuff I was doing, I was lying in bed listening to a few songs which I’ve always liked. but they hit different last night. I nearly cried before going to sleep.
Then today, those songs hit me again.
I’m feeling a lot more emotional lately, and I feel like I’m being broken down from the inside out. I’m becoming someone “else”. Or the real me is emerging. not sure yet. Too soon to tell.
I’m feeling more “loving” and less “negative” as before. the best way I can describe it is, imagine if you had a low-intensity version of Love Bomb always running in your mind. Low-level love aura…not too intense…always there. ready go.
Dr. Banner is always angry, that’s his secret. right now I feel like I’m always loving.
Today I did an Uber Eats delivery. had to pick up some stuff from Starbucks. I went through the drivethru, and this girl named Caitlyn or something was on the speaker.
I loved her voice.
Got to the window, and this older lady was at the window, older as in white hair, someone’s grandma, etc. I said “Was that you on the speaker?” she laughed and said “No, that was Caitlyn”
I said “Caitlyn has a lovely and great drive-thru voice”
Caitlyn heard me saying that, and craned her neck around a corner…saw me through the window, laughed and blushed and said “Shut UP!” and they both laughed.
I then did the same “Shut UP!” so we all laughed again. Caitlyn was quite cute too. If I’d been single… but my thoughts didn’t even go there in that moment. It was just all around a fun experience for us 3 I think.
I think since I’m going on 3 weeks, I’ll hold off any SubClubs subs until my custom is here.
I may need to wash out from ALL mind improvement modalities for the time being if I can’t get a handle on this. Whatever THIS is. It feels alternatively great and overwhelming.
I love life but still find that I’m afraid to live it.
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Yes. I think this is my challenge too.
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Today will be day 30 of no SC subs. I’m considering ideas of what to run to break the fast.
I ordered a custom a couple Saturdays ago, thinking it’d be ready by last Friday. It’s on hold for some reason, I’ve got a ticket in to find out what else I might need to do. Still considering just waiting for the custom to use to break the sub fast.
Ideas I was briefly considering to run today were:
Emperor + Godlike Masculinity + Chosen From Within
Emperor + Mogul
EoG3 + EoG4
And a few others. It seems a month off it hasn’t fixed me of all the ideas of what I COULD run.
Might just wait for the custom. Which is Emperor + EoG4…so that should stack well with GLM and Commander.
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