Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2022)

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#325

today (Tuesday) marks 3 weeks now of no SubClub subs. Longest ever. I’ve been running some stuff from a different source for the past week at least. To address some specific stuff I won’t talk about much here, as I don’t want to draw attention away from SubClub.

I will say that the stuff is hitting me on some level I can’t identify, and I’m questioning a lot about life right now.

I’m not even sure why I ordered my money custom I did…as I have no idea when I’ll get back on the sub train. I know I will eventually.

Anyone who followed my private journal for the original ZPPF/ZPS test runs knows I don’t cry. ZP got me there twice or three times during private testing.

Between the 3-week washout and the other stuff I was doing, I was lying in bed listening to a few songs which I’ve always liked. but they hit different last night. I nearly cried before going to sleep.

Then today, those songs hit me again.

I’m feeling a lot more emotional lately, and I feel like I’m being broken down from the inside out. I’m becoming someone “else”. Or the real me is emerging. not sure yet. Too soon to tell.
I’m feeling more “loving” and less “negative” as before. the best way I can describe it is, imagine if you had a low-intensity version of Love Bomb always running in your mind. Low-level love aura…not too intense…always there. ready go.

Dr. Banner is always angry, that’s his secret. right now I feel like I’m always loving.

Today I did an Uber Eats delivery. had to pick up some stuff from Starbucks. I went through the drivethru, and this girl named Caitlyn or something was on the speaker.

I loved her voice.

Got to the window, and this older lady was at the window, older as in white hair, someone’s grandma, etc. I said “Was that you on the speaker?” she laughed and said “No, that was Caitlyn”

I said “Caitlyn has a lovely and great drive-thru voice”

Caitlyn heard me saying that, and craned her neck around a corner…saw me through the window, laughed and blushed and said “Shut UP!” and they both laughed.

I then did the same “Shut UP!” so we all laughed again. Caitlyn was quite cute too. If I’d been single… but my thoughts didn’t even go there in that moment. It was just all around a fun experience for us 3 I think.

I think since I’m going on 3 weeks, I’ll hold off any SubClubs subs until my custom is here.
I may need to wash out from ALL mind improvement modalities for the time being if I can’t get a handle on this. Whatever THIS is. It feels alternatively great and overwhelming.

I love life but still find that I’m afraid to live it.

6 Likes
#326

Yes. I think this is my challenge too.

2 Likes
#327

Today will be day 30 of no SC subs. I’m considering ideas of what to run to break the fast.

I ordered a custom a couple Saturdays ago, thinking it’d be ready by last Friday. It’s on hold for some reason, I’ve got a ticket in to find out what else I might need to do. Still considering just waiting for the custom to use to break the sub fast.

Ideas I was briefly considering to run today were:

Emperor + Godlike Masculinity + Chosen From Within
Emperor + Mogul
EoG3 + EoG4

And a few others. It seems a month off it hasn’t fixed me of all the ideas of what I COULD run.

Might just wait for the custom. Which is Emperor + EoG4…so that should stack well with GLM and Commander.

4 Likes
#328

what have you put in your custom?

#329
2 Likes
#330

That’s about as solid as it gets.

1 Like
#331

My custom is still on hold. My ticket still shows “new”. I guess they must be swamped.

Decided to break my SC fast today

That’s in progress right now.

image
image828×1792 122 KB

4 Likes
#332

Got libertine and LB done so far. Wife was faster in the store than I expected.

Hitting Emperor and AscMogul now.

Already feeling libertine and LB hit. Feeling a bit more spry. Not a lot. I wasn’t expecting the heavens to just shine down on me after a 31-day washout or anything.

3 Likes
#333

I definitely felt all the subs from today’s stack taking hold throughout the day. Checking out women’s butts more. The past month, I’ve been thinking mostly about money, wealth and prosperity.

I felt a bit more “driven” today. Took some Uber orders I might not otherwise have taken, but also the other side of that is the ones today were on the “better” side. These subs seem to make better orders come up.

EDIT: Another money manifestation happened today I just remembered about. I have a friend who lives in a different country from me (I’m in the US).

Said friend had a weird situation occur today where he ended up buying an amazon gift code for himself for $5 but got it in the US Amazon Store.

So he couldn’t redeem it in his country. Gave me the code, basically just showed up for me out of the blue along with an explanation of what happened.

5 Likes
#334

Woke up this morning to the wife wanting a quickie. Libertine/LoveBomb for the win.

7 Likes
#335

Holy shit. Just watched the first 2 episodes of “Billions.”
Having seen clips on YouTube, I figured I’d be rooting for Axe the whole time. But Chuck has his qualities too.

Just saw the end of Ep2 and what Axe did to that one family. Whoa.

1 Like
#336

A few more eps in to “Billions”. Fascinating so far.

I’ve been undertaking a sort of “Raikov Effect” experiment, without any specific exemplars/models in mind. Mostly just training my mind to take the best parts of different people.

“Trying on” people’s mindsets and keeping what I like and adding it to my repertoire.

I’ve noticed as I watch the show that Bobby Axelrod is on his iPhone a LOT.
Part of what they set up with him character-wise is he seems able to predict market moves like nobody else can.

The guy takes in as much information as he can hold, from current events, news articles, company news, etc.

He’s always exposed to all this info and his pattern recognition and extrapolation is off the charts.

Back to the iPhone. It struck me that this guy is a billionaire hedge fund manager, and he doesn’t even have any kind of case on his phone!

At first, I was like “If I had THAT much money, I’d get a case for my phone. My time would be too valuable to waste even getting online to shop for or even just order a new phone or take my phone to fix the screen.”

Then my new mindset that I’m absorbing gently showed me that this is actually a symbolic thing for Bobby. (Not sure if the producers intended it this way or just coincidence)

The insight is this: The phone having no case just shows how much “in control” Bobby is. He is careful as hell with that phone. He doesn’t let it drop, fall, etc. He’s also very much in control of his life. He knows where all the pieces are on the board, he knows who he’s dealing with at all times.

And if he doesn’t know, he takes massive action to find the information. If something isn’t in his control, he does what needs to be done to make it so it is.

A lot of insight to glean from not having a phone case I guess.

4 Likes
Palpatine in 2024
#337

Nice insight!

I tried beach head from winwenger once with a project renaissance trainer and had similar insights with putting on Einstein. Your post reminds me of it, have you tried it out?

1 Like
#338

No. I did the borrowed genius thing by Wenger years ago. He’s how I first learned of the Raikov Effect.

#339

For years now, I’ve been kinda fascinated by Robert McKee. The guy behind the “Story” seminars.

I finally grabbed a copy of his book “Story” from the library to read.
The VERY first sentences of the very first paragraph in the introduction just hit me in a good way.

A rule says “You must do it this this way.” A principle says “This way works…and has through all remembered time.” The difference is crucial.

WOW

3 Likes
#340

Intriguing. Please keep us updated on this book.

1 Like
#341

I know this is an old entry, but it caught my eye. Not even family members but people who perpetuate this follow common themes.

  1. Their job’s drama consumes them. You’ll only ever hear them talk about what so and so did or how much the job sucks.

  2. They escape into netflix, media, smarphone apps, all stuff that just serves as a placeholder to offset the crappy job.

  3. They want YOU to also take shitty jobs because for god knows what reason they feel like you’re required to deal with the same miserable existence.

  4. Unless they have a really strong backbone and don’t tolerate crap, they’re probably in an abusive relationship with their job.

So good on you for being picky. Picky means you’ve got options, you’ve got standards, and that you care about yourself. I’ll never understand how some people are encouraged to take any old job, especially if you know that job has a history of abusing its workers. True sometimes we don’t have a choice, but it should be a last resort.

1 Like
#342
  1. They live for the weekend, drinking booze.

I notice that a lot in my circle of people. Probably why I stay home so much. I am largely antisocial. or just highly selective with my socialization.

A guy I know from a previous job here in my city is in a band. When they play gigs, it’s a GIVEN they will drink and get drunk. I stopped going to them so much, he asked why.

I just said “You guys are drunk all the time, and that just isn’t my scene. I think your playing would be even better off booze for a while”

6 Likes
#343

Oh man how could I forget that one, that’s a HUGE one.

I’ve noticed drinking problems are casually celebrated, it’s the strangest thing to me.

1 Like
#344

I’m sitting in my car between deliveries.

There’s some dude wandering around the goodwill parking lot.

I can tell I’ve been running Emperor.

He walked toward my car the way homeless people do when they’re bumming around for money or smokes.

He got close and saw me staring at him.

And I was thinking “I don’t have any handouts for you”

He just kept walking.

6 Likes