I decided to just start posting this here. Definitely getting some weird results. Not a lot positively money-wise yet.
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This is a 20-day sub cycle of Ecstasy of Gold ZP.
The pattern is as follows:
| Friday, March 11, 2022 | ST1 ST1 ST1 |
|---|---|
| Saturday, March 12, 2022 | Rest |
| Sunday, March 13, 2022 | ST1 ST1 ST2 |
| Monday, March 14, 2022 | Rest |
| Tuesday, March 15, 2022 | ST1 ST2 ST2 |
| Wednesday, March 16, 2022 | Rest |
| Thursday, March 17, 2022 | ST2 ST2 ST2 |
| Friday, March 18, 2022 | Rest |
| Saturday, March 19, 2022 | ST2 ST2 ST3 |
| Sunday, March 20, 2022 | Rest |
| Monday, March 21, 2022 | ST2 ST3 ST3 |
| Tuesday, March 22, 2022 | Rest |
| Wednesday, March 23, 2022 | ST3 ST3 ST3 |
| Thursday, March 24, 2022 | Rest |
| Friday, March 25, 2022 | ST3 ST3 ST4 |
| Saturday, March 26, 2022 | Rest |
| Sunday, March 27, 2022 | ST3 ST4 ST4 |
| Monday, March 28, 2022 | Rest |
| Tuesday, March 29, 2022 | ST4 ST4 ST4 |
| Wednesday, March 30, 2022 | Rest |
The point of this is basically just to see what happens with this pattern. If the subs have a chance to kickstart results or not.
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Sub Day #1 (before bed)
Friday 3/11/2022
EoG1+EoG1+EoG1
Felt anger stirring within me as I ran this. Less âangryâ I guessâŚmore annoyance.
I am playing level 455 in Bricks N BallsâŚand itâs like no matter which way I put the angle of the ball launch, it isnât going the way I want.
So I keep angrily just restarting the level.
Stack over. Went to bed.
Woke up ready to do stuff. Since I had no subs in bed, I slept less time. Usually happens that way since Iâm not pushing more subs into my head.
Money is still a HUGE issueâŚbut I feel like I might be at least more calmâŚlike instead of worrying, Iâm thinking more in terms of just doing what needs done to get past it and then thrive.
My net worth will be positive by the end of this year. rawr.
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Saturday 3/12/2022
Rest day Definitely feeling tired today. No energy to be productive. More just âWanna go to bedâ
I will read some though. No point just going to sleep too early.
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Sub Day #2
Sunday 3/13/2022
EoG1+EoG1+EoG2
Was reading more in âHow Not to Be Wrongâ for the first 2 subs and part of the 3rd.
Made the mistake of looking on forum and saw they are giving (REDACTED) yet another âsecond chanceâ and weâre expected to keep letting it slide.
It irks me a bit, not gonna lie. Weâre supposed to keep being the bigger person here?
Definite anger from that. Hope it doesnât affect how I take in and absorb ST2.
I had âHoist the Coloursâ queued up for after the sub stack. That just amplified the anger.
Guess Iâll see how today and tomorrow (rest day) go.
EDIT: Slight headache/pressure. Not a lot. Not even sure Iâd attribute it to anything if I werenât on the mental lookout for this kind of stuff.
This is later in the evening. My brain is doing a bit of the âThis stack is too much. Run something else!â kind of recon. Not gonna do it though.
I worked out a rotation where I could do what this test is but with just 2 EoGs per day. 15 days total or so for the entire programâŚthen could easily keep doing that.
It could be my usual âintellectual distractionâ type of recon though. If thatâs still a thing with ZP.
Iâll keep it in mind for the next run of this. Maybe the smaller one will work after this first bigger one is over.
Then Iâd free up that 3rd slot in case I wanna put Mogul or Rich or something in.
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Monday 3/14/2022
Rest day
Slept 8+ hours today. Usually itâs less when I donât run subs at night.
Must be processing from yesterdayâs subs. Makes sense.
I only woke up even then because the wife turned on the bedroom light to wake me up so I didnât sleep so late. Good thing. I was still groggy waking up.
Lot of stuff being processed.
I went to bed early for me. 10:30pm.
not sleep. just reading on the kindleâŚdidnât feel like being up.
so read for a while then got where I couldnât read any more. at about midnight. slept until 9 something
this stack must be using up a lot of my energy.
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Sub Day #3
3/15/2022
EoG1+EoG2+EoG2
Actually running subs today felt a bit lighter, I guess to be expected, with only a single loop of EoG1.
I first went through a âjob interviewâ via the Telegram app. That alone was weird. All these little red flags came up during this âinterviewââŚMost of which wouldnât mean much alone, but taken in aggregate, scam central.
But a part of me wanted to make sure I wasnât turning away something legit, too.
So I did this âinterview,â and sent screenshots of it to my business partner/friend to see. I think we were both unsure if it was legit or not at first.
One of the first red flags was the guy saying in the chat âMy name is Michael Jeffrey. Please refer to me as Jeffrey.â
After this âinterviewâ was over, âJeffreyâ says he needs to pass the interview data to his âsuperiorsâ and it could up up to about an hour for me to hear back.
This was at 11:23 AMâŚI told my biz partner âIt sounds like this guy is invoking the âhigher authorityâ gambit sometimes used in negotiations or salesâ
Then I predicted 2 options:
- âJeffreyâ would come back right before the hour is up. Artificial scarcity/higher gambit combo.
- âJeffreyâ would be fashionably late and would tell me he had to âfightâ to get me in.
Sure enough, he got back to me 59 minutes later (12:22PM) and said âThey are impressed blah blahâ
Another red flag is one of the interview questions was âWhat financial institution do you use?â
I merely answered âA credit unionâ. This is because, having been in OPSEC-heavy roles in the Navy, I know that one approach to identity theft is getting all the little bits of info you can to piece together an attack later. I was already very suspicious by this point.
Then he asked for what email address Iâd like to use to have my offer letter sent to meâŚI gave them a one-off numbered email forwarder to use. Nobody else will ever get that email address. Think something like [email protected]
The offer letter looked legit, and Iâd already looked up to see the contact number for the company who was allegedly hiring.
The email I got was the offer letter and a W4 and I9 (IRS Tax stuff).
I called the actual companyâs HR dept at this point to ask if this was legit. This lady sighed audibly. âMy gawddddd you are the 6th person these people have tried scamming and itâs PISSING ME OFF. Theyâre using MY name in these lettersâ
Dodged a bullet there for sure. I am not sure if I just picked up on this being fake because of my experience with scammers while working at the last job. Or EoG maybeâŚbut probably a bit of both.
I forwarded the fake email to her as sheâs filing a police report on these people.
Even knowing I dodged a bullet, I felt myself getting angrier and angrier once it was over. I donât fully know whyâŚThe best I can come up with is I wasted probably 2 hours on this shit today. I told the wife about this as it was unfoldingâŚI feel smart that I caught them outâŚbut I shouldâve just called the lady from the start and saved myself 2 hours.
On a different note, I put the Uber Eats app back on my phone today. Well earlier this evening. I realized my stupid $30 phone payment was due today.
Wife got a Instacart order that we did, brought in enough to work toward it. It took about 7 sit offers on Uber eats before I got pissed off and deleted the app again.
As I deleted it I said âI donât know why I even try with that thing anymore. Such a waste of time.â THAT must be EoG1 and/or EoG2 talkingâŚsomething regarding placing more value on my time than I had before.
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Rest day
3/16/2022
I went on to my carrierâs website to pay my cell bill. I had set it up for autorenew last night, so itâd roll over today. but no. it didnât work. So I tried again today. âError. call support.â
I call support. THEY tried running the payment over the phone, âYour bank is REJECTED.â
I call the bank, âNewp, we show it went through and it pending. Wait 10 days for it to post then weâll fill a dispute.â
Me: âHow can it post if you REJECTED THE THING?â
Them: âBank policy blah blahdy fucking blahâ
Me: âI canât wait 10 days. That damn phone account is the only way I make money.â
Them: âSorry for the inconvenience.â
If I had my finances sorted, I wouldnât worry about waiting 10 days for $64 to find its way âBackâ to me.
Hell, if I had my finances sorted, I wouldnât be delivering peopleâs food for meager amounts of money.
Also find out my friendâs oldest daughter died Christmas Morning. Some fucking friend I am. I never once found out in almost 3 months. Iâm shit for a friend.
I just wiped out at least half my Facebook friends list. Most people who wonât realize Iâve done so Iâm sure.
Thinking of just shutting it all off.
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Sub Day #4
3/17/2022
EoG2, EoG2, EoG2
Lied down in bed. Ran this mid-day while doing my hypnotic trance self induction I do. @malkuth knows what I mean
I found myself imagining sex with this lucid dreaming coach I follow online. Sheâs quite gorgeous. That lasted a few minutes, then I still felt âsexualâ but it was more like I was perceiving the ripeness/fertileness of possibility. Not sexual possibility. More like the power of Creation itself.
Not even sure what that means, but it fits.
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Rest
3/18/2022
Iâve been sick today. Woke up around 5am feeling weird âgasâ pain in my lower abdominal region. right above my manhood basically.
Went to the bathroom to see if I needed to crap. No dice. Almost felt like I was gonna throw up. That didnât happen either.
At first I thought maybe it was a physical recon symptom.
Ended up with blood in my stool a bit later in the day, so that rules out recon I think(?)
Slept most of the day, whether in my recliner or back in the bed.
I took some psyllium fiber to give everything a rest on the inside. On the chance that maybe I just ripped something on the inside by pushing too hard while going to the bathroom, and it needs time to heal up.
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Sub day #5
3/19/2022
I have yet to run subs today. Just slept another 12 hours in bed or so. The fiber at least helped calm my inner rumblings.
Iâll run the stack later today and edit the post if need be.
EDIT: Not run the stack yet. I remembered just now that when I was half-awake this morning, having a hard time getting all the way back to sleep, I did something.
I went to my mental âbeachâ I set up when I was doing the âDaytime Lucid Dreamingâ course from Amir Khadr. On my beach is a green wooden door that goes to a sort of green hilly landscape.
Thereâs a house on the landscape that I usually go sit on the front porch and just listen to some sheep in the distance (they were there the first time I did this and just never go away haha).
Iâve tried going into the house, to see whatâs there, but itâs always void and nondescript.
Today, I just decided itâll be someplace I am familiar with. So it ended up being the house I lived in when I was 15. I went to the hot tub and conjured up a girl I liked in 9th grade. Iâll call her FAIL because I failed with her (by giving up after a very weak attempt. whole different story)
She and I were cuddling and making out in the hot tub. Then I had an idea, I said âBe right back. Gonna go fix something.â
Went into my bedroom, and thereâs 15-year old me sleeping in bed. I pulled out a portabe tape player that was labeled âEmperor, Wanted, Libertine, Primal SeductionââŚ15-year-old me woke up halfway and I said âRelax dude. Just listen to these and your life will be so much better than mine wasâ
I hit play, he fell asleepâŚI assume it was ZP since it was solace mask haha.
I went back to the hot tub and nailed her right in the hot tub. Fun times. Then I fell asleep fully.
EDIT: Later at night. 11:30PM is or so. I feel much more ânormalâ. Not sick. Most of my energy is back.
Still stuck on Bricks n Balls Level 455. As I toyed with that level some more, I found my thoughts going back to times I felt disrespected. Mostly in my Navy days.
One time in particular was a chief on my submarine standing there yelling âDINK!â* at me in a long drawn out voice.
I remember just standing there wishing this guy were dead. But heâs a chief so canât say shit like that out loud. In my mind, I revised the memory so this time, I say âI donât know who you think you are talking to ME like that. Donât do it again.â
I also found myself daydreaming about being so rich I could send my own military-trained people to Russia and/or Ukraine to end this shit for good. Creative ways to get Putin to back down.**
Another daydream I had was speaking before NATO. I was the President of the United States of America, and I basically told NATO âYou claim to be about peace and democracy, and Ukraine needs our help. Youâre only staying âNeutralâ because they havenât yet signed on the line that is dotted. I am deploying my troops to give them the help they need, with or without NATO support.â
Interesting to get this kind of stuff from EoG? Assuming thatâs whatâs happening.
*DINK
*DINK is a term on submarines (US Navy subs at least) for âdelinquentâ. When working to get qualified in submarine warfare (the Dolphin pin) we are required to get a minimum of 2 signatures per week on our qualification card. The signatures are for different systems and subsystems.
We get interviewed by qualified personnel who are experts in a given system, and they sign off on that line item if theyâre satisfied we did OK.
**Similar to how Ross Perot did when 2 of his EDS employees were imprisoned in Turkey.
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Rest
3/20/2022
Slept a total of 6-ish hours from 3am-9:10 am. No subs in bed since this test has me doing them during the day.
The dream I had felt like it was days and days worth of subjective time.
Dreamed I was in a large building. It was some sort of business that was the big company in town. Nobody messed with the owners because the company did so much for the town.
Iâm seated in a big area of seats with others. Zelda is there. I am showing her an Apple Watch without a band. Just the case. I donât recall if anything was on the display.
I get this is some sort of gathering for pre-admittance into the company. Like either a huge group job interview or some other type of thing. Not fully sure at this point.
She whispers âBetter put that away before (One of ownerâs sons) comes in. They donât like us having technology and devices.â
As soon as she says that, the guy walks in, looks at me, âWhat are you doing with that???â and I just calmly say âPutting it away.â and I put it in my pocket. He goes into an office, and sits down facing us through a window like youâd see in a doctorâs office waiting room.
I feel like Iâm there because Zelda is and I want to be with her.
The guy says stuff, not sure what. I realize over time that this is basically a cult type situation. They control what people do/say.
At one point, Iâm trying to tell Zelda I love her and want to be with her, and I suddenly realize sheâs now married to Tom Cruise, and heâs one of the leaders of this cult.
I remember thinking âMan, he gets to fuck her every damn day, and Iâm stuck in here now with nothing.â
She seems like she doesnât like being with the guy, but sheâs too afraid to go off and be with me.
Fade to black.
No telling how EoG2, EoG2, EoG3 from yesterday led to this. And itâs weird given how sex has been the furthest thing from my mind since running only EoG, other than occasionally trying to entice the wife.
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Serious deja vu with these posts. 
Some were originally from another journal, right?
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Aye. I only posted the other one in my main journal. Figured this could have its own since it wonât last forever.
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One thing I forgot. Yesterday I repeated the imaginal thing of playing subs for younger me. This time I went to 8- or 9-year-old me and played him all 4 tracks of EoG ZP while he slept.
So itâs possible THAT may have somehow contributed to the weird dream.
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I have noticed so far that processing EoG1 seems to make me sleep much longer, regardless if I listen in bed (I have done so before) or only during the day as with this test.
Once EoG1 wasnât in the mix, itâs much easier to stay awake in the mornings when the wife turns on the lights to put in her contacts.
I usually default to running stuff in bed, even with the longer sleep times that come with running subs during sleep.
But the fact I was sleeping like that even with nothing in bed, thatâs what tells me ZP is working some magic on me.
The hardest part of this test so far is ignoring the urge to run Mogul or RICH to help with manifesting a job lol. Iâm determined to stick this one out, though. I want to see what EoG4 does for me.
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The tester mindset has persisted 
Itâs made me wonder if I should do some more testing tooâŚ
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Sub Day 6
3/21/2022
EoG2/EoG3/EoG3
Previewed and PhotoRead The Genius Habit by Laura Garnett while running this. Did the Preview and PhotoReading during the 2nd and 3rd sub. I think the first one is when I got the idea to do this.
Just finished the PRing, and got half the last sub to go still. so about 20ish minutes total to Preview and Photoread the book.
Letting the book incubate for this last few minutes.
Iâll edit the entry if anything else comes up today that seems related.
EDIT 1: Went to the library to grab a bunch of books to PhotoRead since I canât do anything else productive right at the moment. And the post office to send a damn dispute letter to my bank.
And the store to get something for the wife.
I feel definite recon. The action push of ST3, but Iâm literally out of options for today anyway, and Iâm not feeling creative enough to come up with another option yet. So I got 9 different books, each about a different aspect of life and success. Iâll be PRing those today to rattle my cage more than I ever have.
I know Iâll pull through all this shit and prosper, itâs just one of those days where Iâm staring at that mountain in the distance, instead of looking down to see the next step.
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Questions about PR. How long have you been photoreading and is it difficult to learn?
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Off and on (mostly off) since 2000 or so. I learned it from the 3rd edition of the âPhotoReading Whole Mind Systemâ book. I think theyâre at least up to the 4th edition now. Not read that one, though.
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