Le Journal de Palpatine™ (2022)

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#285

Ran my sexduction stack today. Followed by my weekly hit of Ascension Chamber.

Went to the grocery store to get some stuff. As I walked up to the door. Some old lady came out with a younger one in tow. 30s maybe. Gorgeous eyes. I locked eyes with her. Didn’t break contract once. She was returning the gaze.

She seemed amused. Like she was acknowledging my acknowledgment of her.

Nothing else to report really. Kandy was working today so I went to her checkout line to check her out.

She’s always fun to talk to.

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#286

I haven’t touched my C programming book over the past 5+ days…right prior to starting this retention thing.

At some point today, I thought about it, thought “I don’t feel like it.”

Then I heard one of those “Admiral” voices…just one this time. “If you don’t do it, nobody else will do it for you.”

So fine. I opened the book, started reading the next section (which seems to be about using pointers as part of the conditionals in loops, if you’re interested lol).

Basically just as soon as I started, I got horny. Not horny from C, but more that sexual energy is still building up and building up and trying to find an outlet.

“Let me out!”

The more I read, the stronger that became…at a certain point, the information just started making sense faster than it would have before.

Also, I’m feeling the energy hit a lot faster when I see a beautiful woman. Like BAM…I’m ready. It almost feels a sense of aggressive desire.

Feels like what I imagine stacking Commander and GLM might be like if I added in Libertine.

That is all for now.

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#287

Got a voice going in my head right now. Not literally…but thought process.

“A PRIMAL man doesn’t care if he actually has sex or not. You’re only depriving yourself. If he doesn’t find a woman, he can just as easily take care of himself and get back to doing his thing.”

Crazy how this stuff tries like hell to subvert the goal.

Day 5/30 sigh

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#288

Day 0/6: lol. Decided to just start the clock over. I feel much better for the time being.
Instead of 30 days (which isn’t Kaizen enough), I’ll shoot for a PR each time.
Going from one extreme to another isn’t good I guess.

so the new goal will be 6 days minimum.

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#289

I’ve been running HOM for a few nights now as part of the “wealth” stack
I was telling a friend I’m not noticing anything internally yet.

Then I said:

“Well, maybe.
I woke up with an interesting thought.
Thinking about which subs might help me to build a lifestyle my daughter is proud of me for.”

That definitely seems like something HOM would poke and prod me about!

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#290

I just successfully made a C function to parse text commands for the zork-like text adventure game I’m making.

Can handle sentences of up to four words right now.

I am fucking powerful.

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#291

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#292

I just deleted the Uber Eats and Instacart apps from my phone.
Done with that stuff.
Wife does well enough with IC to at least cover the gas she uses and get our groceries. So we won’t go hungry.
Other than driving her to the store and carrying the deliveries up to people’s houses (which is what we’re doing already anyway), I’ll put all my time into finding a job and continuing to beef up my programming skills. On the off-chance I find hypnosis clients, I’ll do that as it comes. Not gonna pursue it, though.

Work from home job. Found a listing for a Data Entry position. Doesn’t pay a lot, but it pays. Every Emperor has to start somewhere, amirite?

I WILL do another customer service job if I must, but I’m gonna flex the hell out of my willpower, so it doesn’t come to that.

I just deleted the Uber and IC apps a few minutes ago, but my phone feels so much lighter :wink:

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#293

One upside to being “unemployed,” or at least not beholden to someone else’s idea of the best use of my time (aka a set work schedule) is I have all this time to better myself.

I might finally figure out polyphasic sleep and give that a go.

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#294

Man that sounds stressful!
How did you get stuck in this customer service world for so long?

In my country there are a lot of traineeships/junior level vacancies for programming, but you have to take a lot of tests showing your good at analytical thinking (deductive and inductive) and pass programming tests(depending on level of experience). They even have traineeships for people with no prior experience at all.

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#295

You might qualify to get assistance from the local food banks. I’m sure it would help.

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#296

Nah. That’s for people that truly need it. If we can go work a few hours in a day to get our food, that’s what we’ll do.

We did the state assistance thing before, and there a fine line on that between getting help to get back on your feet and taking advantage.

I’m going to do all I can now to be a creator and not just a consumer.

EDIT: What I mean about that is, the state assistance (formerly “food stams”) does indeed help if one truly needs it. But at the same time, it has a way of making you feel like shit about yourself if you let it.

It’s a very humbling experience.

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#297

My daily stack is just about finished. Emp+AscMogul+Limitless. about halfway through Limitless.

I feel mentally jacked and focused.

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#298

and now that the stack is over, I feel horny. a LOT horny. wtf?
Could it the loop of Love Bomb from yesterday?

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#299

I poured root beer into a square glass. Now I just have beer.

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#300

I ran 3 loops of my custom last night before bed. No subs in bed. So naturally I slept less hours.
Woke up ready to take on the day.
Ran my daytime stack. Emperor+AscMogul+Limitless

Did 5 more job applications.
Now I feel powerful as fuck.

Get some

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#301

Took the wife to drop off a grocery delivery she got in the Instacart app today.
After that, we were on the way back to that grocery store to get fuel for the car.

Got about halfway to the store, looked across the street out the driver door window (as I’m driving lol) and see this goth-skater-emo looking girl with red hair. Not natural. The kind you know is a dye job.

Was kinda side-eyeing me 3-4 times in the 5 seconds I saw her. Like she was looking at me looking at her.

She wasn’t super hot, but was damn cute in the way Avril Lavigne used to be in her sk8r boi days. I was definitely feeling the aura flow.

It was just weird, because I didn’t look at her first. I looked out the window and saw her looking at me.

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#302

so imagine this. I’m in bed still. sitting there. on the phone looking up stuff.
Wife is at the closet…getting her shirt and pants
asks me to go get her underpants from the dryer.
I said “I’m not even outta bed yet. You’re standing up. YOU do it”
she said “You’re being mean”
I said “How’s it being mean for me to tell someone they can get their own stuff? Especially when they’re perfectly capable of doing it?”

is EoG Alpha? lol

More likely bloom from my Emperor runs from last week

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#303

I’m running EoG solo for the next 20 days. It’s not the recommended pattern. I’m keeping a journal for this off-forum for now. I’ll copy/paste stuff in once this run is over.

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#304

One of the women in my life

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