I try to avoid such thoughts haha. It just reminds me I’m running out of time to figure out what my “it” is.
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My first computer:
Time goes by… 
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Assume it also ran BASIC? (Imma start a thread for this stuff haha)
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Good idea. Yes Basic.
I love BASIC. It’s kid’s play for the most part now…and if I try stuff in BASIC, I’m like “BASIC can’t do this? JavaScript can!” haha
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Time for me to get real with myself I think.
On one hand, I’ve held off running Stark because I don’t want the “fame” aspect it brings. Kinda wanna be more of a “behind-the-scenes” type of Emperor. At least that’s what I tell myself.
On the other hand, I want the “fame” that would come from being the best lover I can be, sex with (maybe) multiple partners, and so on.
So do I want “fame” or not?
I guess the real issue isn’t IF I want it, the real issue is more likely what KIND of fame do I want?
If I had bought QL already, I’d likely be running it with Stark as my stack going forward.
The past few days of doing this C language learning actually made me feel like that 9-year-old kid again. Sitting in his room with the TRS-80 CoCo (was a model 2 by that point haha. My first CoCo I put pics of…I was 5 when I got it).
Sitting in his room, typing in program code from books, shit not working, scratching his head “WTF?”, then reviewing the code in the computer to see what the issue was.
It was FUN. I didn’t have much of a social life as a kid because I was balls-deep in the computer.
I love(d) computers because they don’t talk back. They may spit out some confusing stuff at you, but that’s the GIGO concept. It irks me when people blame stuff on “computer error.” Computers only do what they’re told. Period.
Anyway, this all is back to what @SaintSovereign said. You can’t lie to Zero Point.
I eventually wanna run QL and Stark at least. a cognitive/geek stack.
I’ve held back for years from reaching whatever my greatness is.
My dad used to hate that I’d spend hours in my room as a teen creating a Tic-Tac-Toe program that eventually became UNBEATABLE…basically by remembering all the board configurations led to it losing before.
He’s been a geek his whole life basically, got into radio in his kidhood…made a living out of it. Two-Way Radio sales and service. Building small towers for customers.
He used to pull me away from the computer stuff to help him with the radio stuff.
He wasn’t into computers at ALL until I got into my adult years.
He didn’t understand why I was so into the computer. I still am, but not been as focused on anything of substance, except the Empire Project I sometimes mention (mostly software-based).
This stuff with C has reignited it though. Fanning the flame to make it bigger.
When my dad said what he said a while back about how he’s basically disappointed I seem to have forgot all the “values” he tried to instill in me, something snapped.
I’ve been a bit more vocal with him about things. Because I no longer cares if he approves of me. Just don’t care. If he loves me as much as he says he does, he’ll stop trying to tell me how to live my life.
If he wants to support me, great. If not, it was nice knowing ya, and I’m not gonna call you every day anymore just so you have someone to talk to.
He actually has said to me several times over the past few years how he regrets getting me a computer at 5 years old, because I missed out on “being a kid.” Basically, though, he’s pissed that I am trying to forge my own path, and didn’t jump into the “family business” and do that for the rest of my life.
He’s also pissed I love so far away and that MUST mean I don’t care 
I think I’m rambling at this point. Just know that I am getting QL when I can.
I may run BV3 so that that frees up a slot on ZP days, since BV3 is EoG in its entirety along with supporting modules.
The idea I’m considering is something like:
ZP DAY:
QL
Stark
Inner Circle (though this one may change by the time I get QL)
QV2 Day:
BILLionaire V3
I think I’m definitely feeling drawn back into programming because I should’ve never quit programming in the first place.
I honestly wish I could take Emperor back to when I was about 13 or 14 and give Young Palpatine that to listen to. But since I haven’t cracked time travel quite yet, I’ll focus on the “future” instead.
insert Mic Drop
EDIT: The original point of this post may be hard to discern haha. Basically, I’ll be famous if that’s what it takes to be the man I’m meant to be. If fame starts to bug me, I’ll just iterate from there.
insert second Mic Drop
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So I’ve found a pattern on forum while reading back over some people’s older journals…like pre-ZP
some even pre-Q
in regards to Emperor specifically.
guys manifesting hot women, hot sex with them, and the women then seem to have network contacts they introduce the guy to.
- meet hot woman…
- fuck hot woman…
- Hot woman “just happens” to know someone who’s able to help move the needle on his own empire-building.
like wtf. that’s awesome
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Hmmmnm…., hoping for this effect to kick in soon. 
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Can you provide links to those journals?
Search Emperor and network
My subs today:
My next listening day will be my custom BILLionaire V2. That has cores of QL4, EoG4, Renaissance Man
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Was this journal one of the older journals you were referring to? This one inspired me to join Subclub and this forum lol.
It was a guy who did Emperor and Executive Ulitma in Q version. The guy gets it on with the female sales associate from the men’s suit store. This associate links the guy to her brother for a business opportunity or something.
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That’s one yep
What’s the most recent one
Dunno. didn’t look at dates/times.
Darn, well right now I’ll look into it, since I’m going to need a harem, this concept sounds too good to be true, and incredibly useful. If ya have any links that come to mind pls share
So I’m currently running a stack of Wanted+S&S+PCC.
First loop was Friday night. 2nd loop was last night in bed.
After the first run on Friday, I was out doing deliveries yesterday.
I went to Goodwill, and the girl there was so hot I legit forgot forgot for a couple minutes what I went there for!
Here’s a more detailed report:
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Bedtime:
Wanted
Sex & Seduction
Power Can Corrupt
Ascension Chamber
I tried like hell staying awake long enough to be awake-ish when AC came on.
#FAIL
Fell asleep in Wanted. Was too much in my head I guess. It’s easy for me to fall asleep fast. Always has been. And THEN I was on submarines for a few years. THAT will teach most people how to sleep anywhere all by itself.
2 dreams I remember
Dream #1
More of a snippet than anything.
Some guy is starting a charity. Has a video/ad/commercial type thing he’s using to get people to donate.
At some point, MacGyver (from the newer Lucas Till version) takes a look at the video, and says “This charity is fake!” He spotted something nobody else did.
The logo for the charity, as shown in the video, had a large circle as part of it.
Turns out the circle part was made with a bunch of Froot Loops glued to the sign haha.
They confront the guy, he says "It isn’t fake. I just didn’t want to spend a ton of money on a sign yet. The money is better used by the people we help. He was bootstrapping.
They helped him get a proper sign made to help him along.
*****
Dream #2
This one is more of a doozie.
I’m on the campus of some college/university.
Some mysterious guy hands me one of those fogger things like beekeepers use.
He tells me that Rittenhouse (the evil bad guy organization from the show “Timeless”) has allegedly buried a cache of gold on the campus somewhere. He and his people want it found to be able to use it, since Rittenhouse “won’t need it.”
He tells me this fogger’s smoke will appear purple wherever the gold is buried. Due to some interaction with methane(?).
I walk around just trying to inconspicuously spray this fog over the ground.
It shows up purple in one spot, so I decide in my head I’m gonna start digging before the guy sees me digging. Like see if I can get gold for myself.
I dig and dig. nothing…finally I hit what looks like a gold coin, but it’s just aluminum coin and gold-plated it seems like. very flimsy.
I dig through the dirt more, not even taking it out of the hole. find tons of these fake gold coins, and what seems to be a rea silver one. I pocket that.
Suddenly some new guy is there. He seems to have been played by Tiny Lister. big dude.
scary. He says "Looks like you found the location. Where’s the gold? I show him the fake coins. He then says “What about the one in your pocket? I saw you take it.”
Damn.
I pull that out, and now it’s fake silver anyway lol.
suddenly all the dirt is out of the hole, and I realize they just put an entire car in the hole.
There’s a sort of intercom speaker where the dome light would be. It has tape over it holding the buttons down.
I realize Rittenhouse must have buried someone alive in the car (no bodies, though. Thank you, dream).
They had the tape down so they could hear the person pleading to be let go as s/he died. That realization hit me pretty hard.
Now, the wife is in the car/hole with me trying to find the gold in the car. Tiny Lister is above the hole with a rifle, basically keeping us in the hole at gunpoint.
I tell him I need (forgot what) to keep digging. So he gives me an armed escort and lets me out of the hole. I remember I’m walking around trying to find X.
At some point I’m in the school kitchen, and see a hologram of the wife. It’s showing her in the car. I tell her I’m trying to find X as quick as I can so we can figure a way out of here, knowing Tiny and his goons will probably kill us anyway. Since the hole’s already dug.
I had a brief thought that I could just leave. I reasoned that if I leave, they’d likely just keep her in the car and rebury it. I woke up as I was trying to decide what to do.
Talk about disturbing on that last part. Even as I woke up, I felt bad.
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I think I’ll run AC solo during the day next time. This bit of having my conscious faculties shut down (sleep) when running subs isn’t always fun.
You have such detailed dreams. Sounds like PCC is doing something.
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