Time for me to get real with myself I think.
On one hand, I’ve held off running Stark because I don’t want the “fame” aspect it brings. Kinda wanna be more of a “behind-the-scenes” type of Emperor. At least that’s what I tell myself.
On the other hand, I want the “fame” that would come from being the best lover I can be, sex with (maybe) multiple partners, and so on.
So do I want “fame” or not?
I guess the real issue isn’t IF I want it, the real issue is more likely what KIND of fame do I want?
If I had bought QL already, I’d likely be running it with Stark as my stack going forward.
The past few days of doing this C language learning actually made me feel like that 9-year-old kid again. Sitting in his room with the TRS-80 CoCo (was a model 2 by that point haha. My first CoCo I put pics of…I was 5 when I got it).
Sitting in his room, typing in program code from books, shit not working, scratching his head “WTF?”, then reviewing the code in the computer to see what the issue was.
It was FUN. I didn’t have much of a social life as a kid because I was balls-deep in the computer.
I love(d) computers because they don’t talk back. They may spit out some confusing stuff at you, but that’s the GIGO concept. It irks me when people blame stuff on “computer error.” Computers only do what they’re told. Period.
Anyway, this all is back to what @SaintSovereign said. You can’t lie to Zero Point.
I eventually wanna run QL and Stark at least. a cognitive/geek stack.
I’ve held back for years from reaching whatever my greatness is.
My dad used to hate that I’d spend hours in my room as a teen creating a Tic-Tac-Toe program that eventually became UNBEATABLE…basically by remembering all the board configurations led to it losing before.
He’s been a geek his whole life basically, got into radio in his kidhood…made a living out of it. Two-Way Radio sales and service. Building small towers for customers.
He used to pull me away from the computer stuff to help him with the radio stuff.
He wasn’t into computers at ALL until I got into my adult years.
He didn’t understand why I was so into the computer. I still am, but not been as focused on anything of substance, except the Empire Project I sometimes mention (mostly software-based).
This stuff with C has reignited it though. Fanning the flame to make it bigger.
When my dad said what he said a while back about how he’s basically disappointed I seem to have forgot all the “values” he tried to instill in me, something snapped.
I’ve been a bit more vocal with him about things. Because I no longer cares if he approves of me. Just don’t care. If he loves me as much as he says he does, he’ll stop trying to tell me how to live my life.
If he wants to support me, great. If not, it was nice knowing ya, and I’m not gonna call you every day anymore just so you have someone to talk to.
He actually has said to me several times over the past few years how he regrets getting me a computer at 5 years old, because I missed out on “being a kid.” Basically, though, he’s pissed that I am trying to forge my own path, and didn’t jump into the “family business” and do that for the rest of my life.
He’s also pissed I love so far away and that MUST mean I don’t care 
I think I’m rambling at this point. Just know that I am getting QL when I can.
I may run BV3 so that that frees up a slot on ZP days, since BV3 is EoG in its entirety along with supporting modules.
The idea I’m considering is something like:
ZP DAY:
QL
Stark
Inner Circle (though this one may change by the time I get QL)
QV2 Day:
BILLionaire V3
I think I’m definitely feeling drawn back into programming because I should’ve never quit programming in the first place.
I honestly wish I could take Emperor back to when I was about 13 or 14 and give Young Palpatine that to listen to. But since I haven’t cracked time travel quite yet, I’ll focus on the “future” instead.
insert Mic Drop
EDIT: The original point of this post may be hard to discern haha. Basically, I’ll be famous if that’s what it takes to be the man I’m meant to be. If fame starts to bug me, I’ll just iterate from there.
insert second Mic Drop