A Northern Power (Not Nice)

[Elme]

I do agree with your messge but living in reality its an entire different thing.

If no one faced Hitler how was our world today? I have a guess enslaved and 90% of population at that time killed.

So i do agree that we should always aim to be the best selvs we can be, but unless we are an hermit or live in a cave in a more aschetic life style we need to face this type of situations.

We should never pay with the same coin but the fastest way to learn a lesson is to eat your own poison.

The laws of karma exist but we should never be complacent with evil deeds nor should we turn heads whistling to the other side…cowards do that.

Masculine energy is action, is assertivness, is power, is facing any kind of threat coming your way, its protecting the weak…its also facing bullies and give them a lesson they should never forget, so they never do that do no one else.

We should walk the middle path, living in harmony with our enviroment but never be a carpet for ppl to step on just bcs you need to be good, you can be a good person and remain in your power.

[Michel]

@Elme

Masculine energy is action, is assertivness, is power, is facing any kind of threat coming your way, its protecting the weak…its also facing bullies and give them a lesson they should never forget, so they never do that do no one else.

110% this all day long. Love and light but nobody should ever accept crap. Speak softly but carry an Uzi.

[Michel]

Emperor core custom highlights:

The challenging

• At my second work, was given a solo pitch outside, pretty soon a long line of customers formed, I’m panicking inside thinking what the actual fuck have they dropped me in? Usually I have a team around me if I need help… However most of the customers were women and I could always charm the pants off them… Everything was fine at the end, but still… thrown in the deep end, stood upright for 6 hours, no toilet break, confusing directions from supervisors and told to get on with it? Damn that’s a test for dat ass.

The bad

• I now know why I am far too hyperactive on the job, it’s a stress response from my past childhood trauma. When stressed out and overloaded my brain responses causes me to switch off logic and go into flight/fawn mode. I need to calm down and ground myself for my own sanity.

The good

• I no longer see myself as a wreck, letting others fill in the blanks on how lowly I think of myself. Now I just don’t care, I don’t even think about trying to plead/beg/cajole for approval! My self container has content in it and outside prods and projections has little effect on me.

The courageous

• Decided to leave the first workplace! It happened so quickly. I’ve filed for a transfer, I’ve had enough. I got that job in my previous non-custom state where I was still a junior Emperor, subject to nonsensical jabs and back gossip for just being there. Now, I took action and made the jump myself - felt the fear and did it anyway and found out the universe is giving a helping hand.

Lesson learnt. People are cruel and will take from you, but only if I let them. Boundaries, less tolerance for crap and a much better self definition helps a lot in overcoming and thriving in life.

[Geoff]

@Michel

Lesson learnt. People are cruel and will take from you, but only if I let them. Boundaries, less tolerance for crap and a much better self definition helps a lot in overcoming and thriving in life.

Definitely understanding this, the boundaries theme is hitting me hard, going through my past.

I realize yours is experiential though, Awesome update Michel. I enjoyed reading it very much. Keep up the great work bro!

[Michel]

The good:

• Standing up for myself took a new turn where I went nuclear by emailing several senior managers in regards to how much I get screwed over in this job – and got a response! Still not as vocal and strong in my opinions as I would like, though.

The bad:

• Got let down heavy by my place of work. Tried to get a transfer to another city where staff say they need people, then got let down by management.

The ugly:

• Morale at the shop I’m working in is getting lower by the day – a manager who lashes out when they get squeezed from above by their supervisor. I received some strange fire for having the temerity to take less of my allotted lunch break. Not more, LESS.

What the fuck?

Now several people want to quit, including myself, however I believe this same person has smeared me to other supervisors to stop me from moving away. There’s a reason Ebon Maneuver got selected for my custom.

I realise it takes time to strengthen, so baby steps with speaking out against the bullshit, planning for the future and concentrating on my own talents and how to make the most of it.

[Michel]

@Lion

Regarding the issues your man is facing, a lot of it is coming from a place of not being masculine and dominant. Because trust me, if he had his shit together, there would be no reason to complain. But your complaints of him are valid. His money situation is bad (debt sucks) and his all too pleasing nature is working against him. He needs to learn how to regain his masculinity and a stack of Godlike Masculinity + Emperor + WANTED (all in ZP too) would work wonders for him.

Wonder why it’s difficult to get a hold on life because:

@lrw

His mother hoped that he would be a girl and was deeply disappointed that he was a boy. The only thing about him that he ever felt that she liked about him was his hair, because it was her favorite hair color and texture, and she could let it grow long.

Adding Godlike Masculinity to the custom.

[Michel]

Finding the positive

• Losing a ton of weight around the middle. Prompted to buy some keto powder as I keep hearing radio commercials about it. Well, as an adult I’ve never been this slim and trim.

• Letting the work situation not crush my spirit, in fact working with a colleague who is very professional was a complete blessing. My boss is unprofessional… But I now have the modules to deal with the situation, which is to run.

• Also learning how to stand up for myself. Yes there are numerous thieves who steal my peace but those “good” times will come back to bite them threefold. No need to search for justice, it happens eventually.

• I’m further along in how much more secure in myself “I AM”. I usually feel a sting of insecurity, when in the company of strangers and women, now my self never ever questions if I deserve to be on earth. Courage Rcclaimed made me take the leap to another city.

• I don’t feel much reconciliation from the self identity modules (I AM, ARES, Februus). Was expecting a ST1-type breakdown but nope, it is smooth.

• I don’t like being constantly challenged, but can’t deny I’ve sharpened up. That’s the Emperor Effect.

• I’ve looked in the mirror. Damn! Masculine, lean, looking like I mean business, taking up space, feeling centred enough not to be affected by hater narcissists, not flinching at the job anymore. Even I caught a fiery female coworker occasionally flipping her hair (she’s already coupled).

Sometimes the drama of work does blind me to the good things happening.

[Houdini]

@Michel

I don’t feel much reconciliation from the self identity modules (I AM, ARES, Februus). Was expecting a ST1-type breakdown but nope, it is smooth.

Told you so they are powerful!

[Michel]

The good

• Whilst on the train an Essex boy (US: jock, Chad) with his kid sat opposite me. Before sitting down, he already imposed himself on someone I sat next to. I vowed he was NOT going to do the same shit on me.
  I fucking hate bullies with a passion and had a flashback of all the times I got taken advantage of in the past. I conjured up an energy of “do not even think about fucking with me” and a look that could have killed. He shifted uncomfortably in between wanting to flex at me.

The bad

• I’ve allowed a (very dominant) work colleague to push me around and bark orders at me for the whole shift. I tried to give a little push back on his antics but felt utterly destroyed and stressed out. After speaking about it to another colleague, I recognize that it is disrespectful to treat anyone like a slave. I still have trouble recognising when to say no to bad treatment (as I’m well conditioned to accept it)

The reason

• The goal of this Emperor custom ultimately boils down to building what @Malkuth calls ego strength: having strong walls, a fully formed identity, taking care of my health, speaking up, recognising when someone oversteps the mark and taking action against it. My ego strength has always been weak, hence others feeling they could easily push me around, shame, guilt trip and command me with impunity. “He’s too soft, he doesn’t speak up”, like my father said.

Do I have ego strength now? Is it strong enough to keep all the wolves at bay? Not yet, but it is growing each and every day.

[Skadoosh]

@Michel

Before sitting down, he already imposed himself on someone I sat next to.

What does that mean? How did he “impose himself” on someone?

[subliminalguy]

I love reading your posts @Michel. You don’t pretend and BS yourself or others here, and I honestly take example at times.

I’m not there myself. But your choices give me choices I had not considered.

[Michel]

@Skadoosh

What does that mean? How did he “impose himself” on someone?

Behaving in an obnoxious manner that caused another person to sit elsewhere. Like I said, I do not like bullies.

@subliminalguy thank you, being honest with oneself isn’t pleasant and the truth isn’t nice, but its half of the solution.

[subliminalguy]

@Michel

being honest with oneself isn’t pleasant and the truth isn’t nice, but its half of the solution.

I agree!

[Michel]

• Going back to my lack of masculine confidence and the fact that women take advantage of my kind nature, it sounds like I am a Nice Guy who had no strong father presence. So I’ve made an adjustment to the custom with Godlike Masculinity and Ascended Mogul. Emperor is far too much at this time. A downgrade? Maybe but it’s easier.

• First play – GLM touched upon something upsetting from the past, then healed quickly and then felt happy. Lots of positive energy flowing through my system.

• However I’m suffering from workplace bullying from my boss, however far from reacting in a panicky mode, GLM has me calm and collected knowing this person has already changed! They picked the wrong person to fuck with. One email to their boss is all it takes. Looking like I may have to jump off the crazy train.

• Grounded, settled, relaxed, present – love it. Already a female coworker who is very fiery felt a little uncomfortable with the extra attraction I brought. Promising.

[Kyuss]

Downgrading?
Sometimes you have to shift a gear down so you can quicker gain traction. Highest gear is not always useful.

[Michel]

The power to command, the quiet confidence to know for sure that he will prevail, and the daring to go for it and take what he wants.
A commanding presence even if he doesn’t know it.
Fearlessness–or daring or courage even in the face of fear.
He who dares, wins.
Calm assurance.
The absence of any hint of asking for a favour or appealing to pity.
Directness. Activeness. Effectiveness.
Not hiding behind a flirty exterior never daring to risk being direct.

Classic Henry Makow describing masculinity

[Michel]

Realisations and laments

• My thoughts are adjusting from feeling like a victim of everything to “I run shit”. I’m not powerless to change my circumstances, I’m not so weak that I must lean on others to help me up. I must help my own ass up, no one else.

• At the same time I must be careful not to tear myself down. It took a palm reader to pinpoint my issue. I didn’t know better at the time.

• Discovering why my behaviour at work has been so erratic - stress from being new, just not having a core identity, fearing others are out to get me, being too open with my life, taking banter personally, running away from problems, defaulting to submissive/receptive against a stronger person (usually women).

• Tough to admit that I’ve been cheated out of a father figure and him just accepting me rather than unfairly comparing me to his first children. He did make a small effort to try and relate to me, but I was just too soft. Not standing up to a persistent school bully probably confirmed that he thought I was a disappointment.

• Reason I get picked on is that I look like a strong guy, but sound and act quite weak. That type of incongruence seems to anger others. When I finally spoke up at work, it felt good to finally get in touch with my core. 30 years of being the “better person and taking it”…

All of this just from adding to the AM/GLM custom.

[Michel]

@Skadoosh

It sometimes takes a while for men to really figure out that 99% of their problems come from being a beta male with no masculinity whatsoever lol. They kind of have to go around in circles trying to figure things out and then it finally hits them. Lol

Sounds like my whole self improvement journey so far!

Currently:

• Regular base job barely coping at
• Still living with parents
• Can’t drive
• Need cosmetics done
• No girlfriend for a very long time, longest dry spell ever
• Women and peers have friendzone me in the past
• Lost in direction, low drive, scared to want more.

Sounds like typical beta to me. Oh well…

Going back to basics with my name embedded then building out.

@Monarch

If everyone on this forum dedicated at least 6 cycles to running Ascension and Godlike Masculinity.

6 cycles?
New target acquired.

[Michel]

King of the North custom
Week 3, cycle 2

• Confidence in myself is steadily improving, absolutely no doubt, no second guessing, no nervous stressing. I still need to apply to work elsewhere due to the boss’ regular attitude of lashing out when things go wrong. Nothing goes off inside that says – “…wait that treatment isn’t right, hit back”. Instead it’s more like “this is fine”. No it fucking is not. I need to recognise that sometimes other people are just arseholes and it is not my responsibility to fix and pacify them.

• Early AM results on rest day: some dude on the train platform kept floating around me quite closely - I could feel my anger rising – this dude is encroaching on my space. Fucking move, dude.

• I’m in a shirt and tie, which I hate as it makes me look like a subservient wage slave, but my attitude is different. I also look a lot leaner and a bit more muscle. Must be that physical shifting.

• Enjoying life at the moment, even though I still work, the second job is a lot more relaxed, I missed my train but didn’t lose my shit, got back home very smoothly and into a crowd of 90,000 girls leaving Wembley Stadium. Better display all that alpha masculinity!

• Caught a chick riding with her mother in the window looking at me in the mirror, she then lifted her arms and exposed most of her neck…

[Michel]

• Why are women staring me out on the streets? With hungry eyes. One chick was eyeballing me hard whilst licking her I’ve cream. A little creepy. Am I that sexually attractive? Lol.

• Uncharacteristically I shut myself off from a difficult co-worker. Normally I’d try to engage him in friendly talk, and have done so for the past three months with little success. However, this time I decided, fuck him and sat with my back to him saying nothing.

I’m done trying to pour into a black hole, chasing approval to someone who regards me as nothing. I am protecting myself and recognising that I don’t need to be besties with anyone. I am worthy whatever anyone says it does.

• This cycle is now digging into past emotional stuff, releasing a lot of old trauma and upsets, it was so bad I considered not going into work today. I suspect it is either ARES getting to work on the toxic shame or I AM.

• Ascension ZP is pointing me again towards art – I’m excited to also receive the art custom (Ultimate Artist, Rembrandt, etc) and see what brand new skills I can uncover. Also got an appointment with an art store regarding showing my work in 2023. Watch this space!