J-2 until the Regen-AoH-LBFH cycle, starting with LBFH and Regen 
Today along with my mom we took care of sorting all the admin I had accumulated, truly she’s a gem <3
And tomorrow Cin wanna come to my place in the afternoon to talk??! 
Well well well, that’ll be quite an adventure again

We’ll see what happens 
Edit:
Ok, so she was supposed to come to my place at 11am, I’m thinking that’s a mark of trust, really that’s good isn’t it? So I start cooking for lunch,
then she ask me if I wanna go to the bar instead… like duuude, I’m already cooking and you want me to spend 9 hours in the bars, like I don’t have that kind of money, and even if I did have it, I know how she’s gonna be by the end and I don’t wanna live that, so I tell her nah, then 11am come and goes she tell me she’ll be there around 2pm, so ok
then I nap a bit cuddling my cat and reading a book while the sausage and rougail sauce are slowly cooking
Then 2pm come and goes, she asks me if a friend in common Mil can come as he’ll drive her there, I understand then that yeah she’s scared of coming alone and having a deep discussion or scared of me potentially being weird with her or something like it, idk.
In any case, I accept, I like the guy so it’s fine, he invited me for couscous last time so I can repay him too
I call to tell em it’s ok and he insist that he’s sorry, like he doesn’t wanna bother and know it was supposed to be Cin and I in the beginning + they’re late, I tell him that it’s totally fine, I like talking to him and that way he’ll get a taste of how I cook too
So like around 3h30 pm they arrive, we laugh a bit, put on music, eat and chill.
As I guessed, Cin is extremely sensitive and defensive, on any and all matter, well no wonder she’s prob been drinking for a good 6 hours at that point, and she’s thinking a lot about her ex/no-ex whom she can’t forgive but still exchange a lot of texts…
Mil know it as well as I that she’s torn between wanting to go back and have the reassurance of not being alone with herself, and wanting to be free. He’s guessing she’s gonna go back to him, personally I bet on her getting with this guy’s best friend (who like to party, take videos, keep soft-blackmail, much like a guy she knew last summer who let people who come to his bar watch a video of a foursome he had with her and two other guys on the bar counter, but hey she likes living dangerously I guess, since she keep ignoring the advice I give her that if she keep falling for the same guys, the same thing is gonna repeat.)
Anyway, soon enough around 6h30pm they leave, she ask me if I wanna come to the bar of the place where her “ex” and “ex”'s best friend work, I say nah I’m good.
She do this whole shebang as to how I must not contact him again by respect for her, how I should delete his number, how if I asked her to delete my ex’s number she’d do it, how if I was a real friend I wouldn’t contact him.
I hadn’t even send a good year text to the poor sod since she insisted I don’t.
What is she afraid of? That I’m gonna get with him? That he’ll learn things about her? I’m guessing the later more than the former.
She loves him after all, despite him cheating on her and lying.
So I tell her I never delete numbers, which is true, and if she wanna know whether I stayed in contact with him she can just ask him, she respond “yeah he could lie about that, like he lied about other things”
well, good luck for you in that case I guess.
Later, after yet more drinks she call me again telling me to stay far from her “ex”, that I’m not a real friend if I contact him again, blah blah blah.
So, despite her initially being against me telling a story/parable and prefering to get angry and aggressive at me, I tell her the zen story of the empty boat
Of the monk who was meditating on a boat when it was hit by another, he got angry, open his eyes, and realise the other boat is empty
So yeah, there’s nothing. the boat you get angry at is empty.
She calms down, thank me for the parable and go on her way.
But yeah, I somehow doubt with all the alcohol in her blood she’s gonna go to the core of that story, but I know her subconscious got it. hopefully this seed of wisdom will fruit someday in the proper environment, like it did with me once.
I was brazen and fiery like that too when I was young, I was blessed with countless humbling lessons from life. Still am.
Anyway, today’s monday 5th, back to work and I listened to 1 minute each of LBFH and Regen,
next listening day will be wednesday 7th with AoH + Regen, 1m each
I wanted to listen more, but I stopped at 1m, let’s start slowly.
(though masked LBFH kept playing in my bag for like 8 more minutes, I hadn’t consciously heard, I hope I didn’t unconsciously heard. and if I did I hope it won’t be too heavy.)
and yeah, searching through the messages to get the schedule I realise, it’d be way easier to have a calendar with what to listen and when, like either physical or both physical and digital