Journal: The Emperor's Relentless Pursuit

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#79

Today I had my first relapse in old behavior. Luckily I could take action after a while and restore the no-procrastination mode. I can not only count on the subs, my will to change the current situation also has to be enforced on my life with action.

That was a good idea out of the desire to incorporate the Executive back in my stack, but I thought about it and I’m not happy with the long months of only 60 seconds of listening time. I think I will go forward with a three title stack, starting on the next cycle.
So it will look like:

  • 2nd cycle GLM, DRR2, Exec (max 60 seconds)
  • 3rd cycle GLM, DRR3, Exec (mac 60 seconds)
  • 4rd cycle GLM, DRR4, Exec (mac 60 seconds)

Hope this plan survives the next days and the washout :grinning:

#80

9th listening day
12.2.26: GLM (60sec)
12.2.26: DRR Stg. 1 (60sec)

#81

10th listening day
14.2.26: GLM (60sec)
14.2.26: DRR Stg. 1 (60sec)

Got back on track after slipping into procrastination mode two days before. It’s interesting: not only am I able to concentrate on work and start doing things that caused tremendous anxiety beforehand, I now also see more clearly the big picture. I also see when I’m just knocking off items from my list or when these items contribute to the bigger picture. I’m not right there, where I can prioritize ruthlessly, but I think I’ll get there.

#82

DRR at work: Random thoughts pop up where my avoidant attachment style is shining through. I constantly search for justifications why I can’t do things (because of my partner, my parents, etc., etc.) and why I could do them if I just left the current situation. The aha moment on DRR came when I recognized that the circumstances aren’t the problem—I am the problem. The circumstances, my partner, etc. may be difficult (not giving me enough room for myself, etc.), but that’s not my partner—that’s me, projecting my own inner state onto the outer world.

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#83

11th listening day
16.2.26: GLM (60sec)
16.2.26: DRR Stg. 1 (60sec)

Last listening day before washout.

#84

Thanks, @PizzaShaman. Great quote.

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#85

Started a new cycle. I decided to go with this modality: GLM and Emperor: The Executive (rebalance) and DRR1. I start with 60 seconds each. I try to advance listening time for all of the titles. Maybe advance more with DRR Stage 1. The other two title will be in the stack for longer.

1st day
22.2.26: GLM (60sec)
22.2.26: The Executive (60sec)

#86

Next Goal: Improve discipline, integrity, and self responsibility

#87

3rd day
24.2.26: DRR1 (60sec)

#88

5th day
26.2.26: GLM (3min)
26.2.26: The Executive (3min)

The Dragon Fire stears up a lot. Yesterday I was overly emotional, searched the aproximity to my wife a lot.
Today I’m angry, a feeling of not being respected and to be valued arose.

#89

7th day
28.2.26: DRR1 (5min)

Wanted to run it for 3mins but forgot the timer and ended up listening to it for 5mins.

Could hardly wait for the listen of DRR1. It feels good, like a breath of fresh air. Today saw the release of new R.I.C.H. In the last days thoughts of wealth arose often. It could be a good one in my stack.
Also thought about to replace GLM and The Executive with a custom. So I would have a long term title that also allows me to incorporate a third title, because the Dragon will keep it’s place for the coming months.

#90

5min was hardcore. Had a feeling like agitated waves in my chest.

#91

With Dragon Rebon Red I feel the need to rebuild my life from the ground up. A lot has changed inside me through working with subliminals the last 2 and a halfe year, but the outside world doesn’t reflect that yet. Career, money, social life: not much has moved there. That gap is starting to bother me.

The one area where I do see real change is my relationship with my wife. She started her own subliminal journey in fall 2024, and a lot has happened since then. In the beginning she focused on beauty and health (Helena and Paragon), and not much seemed to change in our relationship besides my own growth from Emperor and Phoenix. But from last spring on, as she added programs focused on love and emotional depth (Love Bomb, Love Bomb for Humanity, Phoenix, Seductres), things started to shift. And lately, with Sanguine the Elixir, a lot has changed for the better. With my own work on Dragon Reborn, we have a lot to talk about and work through traumas together.

Dragon Reborn is also opening my eyes about my career. I did a career assessment recently and was honestly shocked. Not because I stopped learning — quite the opposite. But I’ve been missing a clear direction, and because of that I never built a sharp, focused profile for myself. I have ideas, often very clear ones, but I don’t back them up with action. That hit me hard.

Now I really need to think seriously about my career future and back it up with action. It’s time that my outside life starts to reflect who I’ve become on the inside.

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#92

9th day
2.3.26: GLM (5min)
2.3.26: The Executive (5min)

#93

11th day
4.3.26: DRR1 (5min)

#94

13th day
6.3.26: GLM (3min)
6.3.26: The Executive (3min)

I reduce it to 3 mins. I realized that sometimes less is more. It could need a long time to reach the full 15min.

#95

15th day
8.3.26: DRR1 (7min)

#96

17th day
10.3.26: GLM (5min)
10.3.26: The Executive (5min)

Today, anger pulses through my veins like boiling blood. The dragon stoked the fire inside me. Glowing coals caught fire…

#97

19th day
12.3.26: DRR1 (15min)
Today is the last day for DDR1. So I allowed myself a full loop. I’m prepared to get punched in the face.
The next cycle will start with DDR2.

#98

20th day
13.3.26: True Sell (3min)
This one is a bit punk and out of order. But I have a date night with my wife this evening, and I want to be a little more entertaining as normal :grinning: