A New Beginning
The time has come for a new journal. The old one was created a long time ago and lately I felt like it was all over the place, so now I’m starting over fresh.
Here is some brief backstory of my subliminal journey here on Subliminal Club. Just around 2 years ago I started listening to Khan Total Breakdown in the Q-format. After that there has been three whole playthroughs of Khan 1-4, one full playthrough of Dragon Reborn 1-4, and half a playthrough of Alchemist stage 1 and 2.
Between those a lot of other programs has been played with Love Bomb and Wanted being at the top of that list. All in all I have played most programs here and tested them out but not for an extended period, and I have also plunged into custom a fair bit but never really stuck to them and being overwhelmed with making new ones, and also upgrading existing ones through all the updated technologies.
But for the time being I want to do regular store programs for a bit before delving deep into customs again. It has been a learning process with building customs, and I’m more than happy to support this company even though I won’t probably ever use my old customs again.
So my new stack from here on is going to be:
- Khan St4 ZP
- Chosen ZP
- Love Bomb fH ZP
My goals to begin with are the following:
- Find a new place to live on my own again
- Find a job and stabalize my economy
- Start seeing new women again regularly
These are just early goals and very basic for me to get going with my life again in society. I will update with bigger goals and aspirations later, but for the time being I must start somewhere.
Below are my thoughts about why I’m choosing these programs going forward.
Ever since Zero Point landed, there has been a lot of talk on the forum about how ZP is guiding us subconsciously to what programs are best suited for us. This is true for me as well, and I do admit it has taken a while for me personally. But, ZP has really made me dig deep lately with how my natural leader and masculine qualities should be cultivated and practiced.
Why Khan Complete?
The one thing that has stuck out to me, and this is even before the new ZP came out, is that Khan tickles me on a deep level, and it was actually the first program I started playing seriously. I have a lot of hours and loops on it, and what has been missing in my life is going out there re-affirming all the inner changes that has been going on, so that has hampered my my progress a bit. But it’s hard to deny that this beast of a program has rocked my very foundation and made me grow up fast.
This is why Khan is going to be the staple of my subliminal usage for a long time going forward. There is just something about the calm and zen feeling I get from it combined with that maculine edge that I have been searching for so long in my personal development journey. The road has been long in my search going through everything from status and PUA communities over the years, and then later spiritual quests and heart based practices and meditations.
And the last two years where I literally just let go of everything and lost almost everything that I thought was dear or important to me before.
But here’s the twist…
I feel that Khan alone has never really felt complete for me, and maybe it is because I’m a Libra, and my way of leadership is tied in a bit different from let’s say a Leo. But here on Subliminal Club we have the opportunity to form and mould our own archetypes through conscious guidance and mixing of different programs. Not all of us have the idea of a riding overlord on a white horse on a dessert plain in deep Mongolia conquering village after village.
I have always been a leader that leads by example and that is very in tune with the whole group and all its different dynamics, and with a very social aspect to it, and that’s why I love the social side of Khan so much.
- To me dominance is having emotional impact over others, plain and simple. Logic is not moving people, but rocking people emotionally set the gears in motion, and this can be done in different ways ofc…
Khan for me has always been about growing up, to become a man so full of love that his mere presence inspires and brings peace to those around him. Love is not a weakness, that is just a belief of adolesence and an immature man, someone that has not yet grown up. This is most certaintly why me and others has found Khan being such a ruthless taskmaster to master, and why we face so much resistance at first.
But make no mistake, love can also be knowing when someone needs to know that they crossed a line or needs to hear a thing or two.
- I must mention as well the importance of relaxation as a man, and the more things you solve such as traumas and such, the more relaxed you become. No one wants to follow a fidgety and tensed up man.
So Khan is going to be the center of my stack as a fun and powerful man that wears his heart on his sleeve. Love is the greatest force in the universe, it is the glue that keeps everything together. Anyone that claims that love is a weakness in a man I will strongly disagree with. Love is the adhesive that glues eveything together in this universe, and to me a strong masculine man is grounded, calm, and full of love, and not the Hollywood fake view of a co-dependant and needy love.
- We give because we are full of something that never runs out.
The only reason why some men are afraid of love is because they felt a lack of love and support growing up sombined with weak male role models, which was true for me as well as most other men on this planet. The way of the heart is the fastest way to indepence and true freedom, because in the end, a full heart never runs out and that’s why these men can give freely without expecting anything in return.
I’m done swimming around in the baby pool searching for more respect, more love, more attraction etc, when actually I possess all these qualities inside of me already, which is the place where most men never dare to venture into and explore more of.
Why Chosen?
I honestly don’t know why I have not gone back to Chosen sooner? But everytime I have played it and I smile, it feels like I smile with my whole face up to my ears and my forehead. It is almost like my smile comes a full circle around my face, it’s actually pretty ridiculous.
Maybe something like this… Just re-reading the sales page of Chosen makes me excited. Also, smiling is a big part of my 6R’s meditation practice and it also pulls you out of negative states easily.
And in these times where humanity seem to temporarily have lost it’s connection to source, it’s just impossible for me to chut my eyes and block off my compassion for what is really going on in the world right now. I don’t want to recide only in my immature ego personality and thinking the problem is out there. Great changes are coming for those with an with eyes to see and an open heart.
- The one staple that has rung true for me since I started personal development a decade ago, is to always assume personal responsibility for every little thing in my life regardless.
Here is where the synergy of Khan’s archetype would benefit me greatly when merged with the positivity of Chosen. I would rather engage more with other people’s energy even if it sometimes is negative and down. This is because even that negative energy is a source of potential wealth and is easily transmuted by someone with the skills of a wizard. Whether I like it or not, it is still there all around me every single day, and blocking it off will ensure my own downfall in the process.
This is where that strong and loving man that wears his heart on a sleeve has such strength, because he possesses a protective shield of an unperturbed and impenetrable aura that is not easily swayed by the mundane bitterness and loneliness of modern society. and instead leaves a trail in his wake of positivity that actually inspires other’s to change.
Develop your mental fortitude, become impervious to negative attacks from others.
The best protection against someone or something perceived out there, is when you don’t need any protection, because you know that you are already protected…
Furthermore, an earthshaking courage and fearlessness will start manifesting deep in your heart, helping you be the sword that cuts the path through the dark for yourself and others.
But let’s face it, we all have bad days, but that doesn’t mean it has to bring us down, but instead it is a sign of opportunity to grow stronger in the process. Souls come into corporal bodies to learn something.
- As within so without, as above so below. A higher vibration always trumps a lower vibration, and physical reality is just a more gross condesation of energy to that of the soul, but it is all the same in the end.
Chosen almost sounds to good to be true, beacuse to be that beacon of hope and inspiration to others, you must have cultivated it inside of yourself first. A win win in my book…
A Gift That Got Delayed At The Post Office
I have all my life had this gift of making even the most negative and stubborn individuals crack open. I was actually quite shocked when I first started seeing this years back and it made me ponder why that is? Today this is just normal to me, but I will have to learn how to put down clear boudaries, because sometimes I have a tendancy to get stuck in it when I rather would like to move on and talk to other people instead.
Having Chosen in my stack I know will multiply this effect a thousand times over, and that’s why I think Khan’s no BS attitude will help me here. And honestly it is not hard to set these boundaries if I have clear intentions that are easily expressed through my body language and facial expressions, but it has to be pure and simple.
Why Love Bomb for Humanity?
Anyone that has tried going out clubbing on Ecstasy knows what I’m going to refer to. It is just ridiculous easy attracting and talking to all people with zero anxiety and complete relaxation and presence, which makes everyone just magnetically drawn to you. You do whatever you want and everyone just accepts it beacuse your are fully congruent and without resistance to anything.
This was a leaning tool for me, but I now know through experience that this is cheating, because what matters is doing the work without stimulants. Geting caught in that bubble is just another addiction, but what it can do is shoving you what is possible… I could not believe just how relaxed I could be, and I used to be as stiff as a frozen fish finger.
Chosen combined with Love Bomb for Humanity is a crazy good combo with the overflowing of positive emotions from the latter boosting everything to crazy levels. To me they are the perfect fit right now.
Just looking at the amount of insights and growth from LBfH here on the forum from other users speaks volume on just how good this program is. On the regular Love Bomb it might be hard for a closed person to radiate that loving and kind aura, but LBfH has really filled that gap in the catalogue of programs here.
A Love Bomb For Humanity attempts to achieve one mission: To instill an incredible sense of self-love within every fiber of your being, and then energetically radiate that love out to everyone you encounter. It will transform you into a reservoir of positivity, hope and universal love — the kind that respects everyone’s intrinsic high value as a unique being — which you can then choose to share with others simply by being around them. Love Bomb For Humanity’s potent aura also encourages those affected by it — if they consent — to spread love and positivity wherever they go.
This above is what I’m talking about, and just reading it makes me remember those nights years ago under the influence of a certain stimulant.
- It takes tremendous courage to love freely. It’s the easiest thing in the world but also the hardest. Being angry is easy, being afraid is easy… but being loving no matter what takes real cohones…
The healing scripting in Love Bomb For Humanity takes a drastically different approach than other titles — this time, the catalyst for change is solely “love flooding,” in which the script encourages you to flood your emotions with a profound sense of self-love, self-care and self-nurturing, allowing you to heal past emotional traumas with the most powerful restorative force in existence.
Again, this is profoundly awesome. Just imagine this together with Chosen and all it’s benefits in the happiness department!
Because, what is the one thing that all people desire the most? What is the first thing a baby wants after being born? Feeling loved and comforted. But most people are too afraid to even start exploring and finding inner peace through rediscovering self-love.
Then, just imagine if you are that person that is so in love with yourself and life, and you have a massive aura of healing energy in form of love surrounding you… you will become so electrifying and so sought after because you embody the highest gift we humans have been given.
- This is the true superpower of love…
One masculine trait that I strive to embody is that of a fatherly figure and energy, and to do that I have to grow up myself first. That kind of fatherly energy is very healing to the feminine, just as the nurturing warmth of the mother in the feminine is healing to the masculine. It doesn’t take much, a smile from someone you pass on the street is enough to fuel you for hours.
These three programs together I feel has all the potential to turn me into this person I mentioned just above.
A More In Depth Journal
Lastly, going forward I intend to put more effort into my online journal here and write more in depth and from the heart. I sincerely enjoy writing about deep stuff and I need to set aside more time for it.
I’m looking forward to this new journey…