Foundation V2 - A Boundary Pushing Journal -- Genesis, The Revelation of Mind, The Ecstasy of Gold, Physical Shifting, Romance, and Adventure

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#115

Day 3 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Listening Day

This stack is hitting very, very well, and running it alongside the masterclass is the perfect case scenario. It’s just helpful to be reminded of the process. In the thick of reconciliation, it can be tough to think straight.

That’s what makes reconciliation kinda fun, it’s like a test, a pressure test. It’s an opportunity to stay as calm as possible, and to work as hard as possible knowing that once the recon clears, it’s gonna “click” and you’ll pass through an invisible gate and be stronger and better on the other side.

Results

Had a huge result last night. I was suffering some pretty intense emotions, so I doubled down all day. I went to the gym, made some money, meditated, took a cold shower. I did everything that I wanted to do, and then more. The emotions were still intense and tough, and they were all related to a friendship. Finally, I stood very still and just asked myself for guidance. “I know that I’m missing something, I know it. Help me, guide me, just help show me what I’m missing in this situation.”

I got an urge to text the person in question, and it lead to a 2-hour long text conversation where we healed pretty much all the bullshit between us.

It was probably one of the biggest and most dramatic interpersonal things that I’ve navigated. After it was done, I realized that all the intense emotions were gone. I felt light as a feather, better than I’ve felt in weeks.

It instilled in me a lesson about facing life head-on, about not running from emotions but looking them square in the eye.

It taught me that beauty is often on the other side of pain.

I’ve tried to run from pain, seeking only pleasure, but the truth is ya’ll, pain is part of life, and beauty being on the other side of pain, I think that’s just a fact about reality. Why else would all successful people talk about it? Talk about pushing through the pain and growing as a result. I think it’s just how our brain works.

I’m not gonna run from pain anymore.

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#116

Day 4 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Rest

Well, it’s been quite the day. This stack is challenging, very challenging. But the challenges are good. The challenges are me. It’s just me. It’s just me facing myself. So I need to ask myself, again and again, do I really want to be better? Do I really want to be excellent? What do I really want now?

I see myself falling into old behavioral patterns, and I see the reason why. I’m being asked a question, “Am I going to go down the same old roads again, or am I going to rise to the challenge and embrace the changes.”

Here’s the good news. This pain is all pain I’ve felt before, and if I’ve felt this pain before, then there is simply a lesson that I haven’t learned yet. There is something more yet to discover, there is another path, there is another way forward.

There is simply nothing that can’t be done by dedicating your heart to it with full capacity.

I’ve also learned yet again, that I frequently ignore my intuition. You see, my subconcious simply knows things that my conscious mind cannot understand. Therefore, I go forward and I trust in myself. I trust that when the mind fails, the subconcious prevails.

Right this moment, I’m experiencing pain. However, I’m also experiencing growth, and change, and I will continue forward.

I will irradicate the weakness inside me until all that remains is a boundless love.

#117

There is nothing to fear, only a path to forge ahead into self-mastery. I will move forward with an open heart.

#118

Day 4 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Rest

Even though I’m feeling pain right now, I also figured that I should make a note about the positive results that I’ve gotten in the last few days. Gotta keep myself focused on the positive changes, not just dwell on the negatives.

Results

Last night I was working. Met a couple at random. We talk a little, and the dude is like “hang out with us, I’ll buy you all the drinks you want.”

At first I was like…“Okay…” but then I got a strong urge to just go along with it, so I did, and sure enough, they bought me drinks all night, we hung out, talked. It was honestly pretty freaking cool.

I’ve never had such an intense and bizarre spontaneous occurrence.

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#119

Day 5 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Listening Day - Micro Looped All Titles

I’m returning to my old strategy, where I keep my journal results focused. Though it’s fun for me to just free-write, and though that’s sometimes what’s called for, in general, my free-writing can be done in my offline journal. If I keep my public journal results focused (almost all of the time) it helps me focus and search for results that might be difficult to find. SO…

Results

Physical Shifting

Down 5 lbs of solid fat. Looking much leaner, and feeling tighter, the face is looking much more chiseled.

Penis is bigger than it’s ever been. Today I was doing my growth routine, and my penis measured at 18cm. This was a solid 18cm measurement, like no way at all to trick myself. This is the biggest I’ve ever been in my life, and it’s also broken me through a plateau. I had plateaued at 7 inches, but no more. I’m officially in the above 7-inch crowd. I think that makes me officially BIG, not just high average, but BIG. Hell yeah, walking on air right now.

Feeling taller again. I went through a phase where I felt shorter than I’ve felt in my life, but now that the recon has cleared, I feel taller which is a great feeling.

Hair has been on point recently.

I’ve reinvented my style into something more authentic to my heart, and less an imitation of others. I think I can now say that more often than not, I dress truly uniquely. Can’t wait to go clothes shopping.

Money

Manifested $10 from nowhere. I checked one of my apps and someone sent me a tenner, which is dope and a great sign.

I’ve worked really hard the last few days and have paid off about 30% of a $1000 debt that’s been screwing with my life the last few weeks.

Got a new job, and unless I’m mistaken, I’ve already been promoted ahead of schedule. This ends my little unemployment dark age.

Personal Business

I spent a sold week building a strong foundation for my little online business, and I’ve taken a break from that venture but I will be revisiting it in the future. The break was caused by a very stark and striking realization that I have a list of goals that I simply MUST accomplish by the New Year, and these goals will be taking up pretty much all of my non-working time. And on that note…

Reinvigoration of Focus

I’ve been doing a lot, I’ve spent a while now building a solid foundation for myself with these subliminals, however, the foundation has been built. It’s now time for me to zero in on hyper-specific areas of my life, and start knocking goals down like bottles in a shooting gallery.

This is where I shift from a large, broad, unfocused approach to improving all areas of my life simultaneously (something I’ve done with remarkable success if I do say so) to narrowing in on specific areas.

This is because I’ve reached a level of skill in all the basic areas of interest to me, and in order to advance, I would benefit most greatly from focusing and prioritizing certain areas.

A Path Forward

The path has been revealed to me. My path is to focus on specific areas of my life in phases over the next 17 months before I return to a more broad and general approach. The idea is to gain mastery in hyper-specific areas so I can quickly “punch through” certain internal limitations that are preventing me from being the man of my dreams.

The man of my dreams is a very tall order, so, time to master the required skills.

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#120

Day 6 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Rest

Results

Money and Productivity

Manifested some cash last night from gig work. I had come home to charge my phone and rest, I was exhausted, running on no sleep, then I saw this post

And I was like, well shit, bring it on. So I got my shit and hit the road and doubled my money by 2a.m. While working, I had some weird customer interactions that made me rethink my…

Physical Shifting Goals Changed

This is a fact. Last night this dude made a joke about jelqing his girl started oversharing. She started talking about penis enlargement. She was talking about how her ex figured out how to grow his penis using jelqing, and he became so big that it scared her and she ghosted him. She then railed on about how stupid penis enlargement is because the shit just hurts once it gets too big. These are all things I’ve heard from women before…but…

It was such an odd coincidence to happen on the same day that I broke my plateau that I had to stop and think about it. My goal has always been 8 inches, but do I really want that? Sure, I’ll feel like a king, but will that really make me a better lover? The answer is no, not unless I’m exclusively dating women in the 6ft and above crowd…not that I would be opposed to that.

So, I’ve changed my penis enlargement goals. I’m gonna back off on the exercises and shift into relaxed maintenance mode, and simply ask that my subconcious make me the perfect size to be the perfect lover.

I’ve always been a great lover, I’ve never left a woman unsatisfied, and I’m not about to throw that away by growing my dick on a silly ego trip.

I don’t need to gratify my ego like that. I’ve now proven to myself beyond a shadow of a doubt that with a mixture of subs and manual exercise, you can grow your John Handcock, the fact that it’s possible is enough for me.

The real point is to be the ultimate lover, the ultimate seducer. What women want, is really all that matters to me.

Physical Shifting Results

I’m getting lean and mean. Down 8lbs total from when I started this stack. Clothes fitting better, skin looking nice, feeling sharp. An empty belly leads to a sharp mind.

Desire to Break the Comfort Zone

As I was falling asleep last night, I got a strong intuitive ping to start hanging out in the local hipster coffee shops. The call was simple: “Go read your books in coffee shops, you’ll meet someone.”

This is a big result for me because I’ve always shied away from that lifestyle. Now I’m like, fuck it, all the pretty girls do it, why shouldn’t I give it a shot.

Reinvigorating the Social Life

Yesterday I called up a friend and made plans to go on a little adventure with her.

A Stark Warning

There is this dude that I’ve ran into two nights in a row. The guy is pathetic. I feel for my fallen brother, but make no bones about it, he’s pathetic. He’s about 35-40, good-looking, going out and hitting the bars every night, trying to pick up chicks, failing, and then getting so shit-faced drunk that he can hardly keep his eyes open and he starts mumbling to himself about how “It’s a women’s world, how am I suppose to get tail if they aren’t down,” and how he “can’t afford to take women on dates, he’s too broke.” As if that’s why he’s failing to get women.

The poor guy is delusional, depressed, and a victim of shit programming. The dude is flat wrong and doesn’t know what he’s talking about.

Women don’t actually give a damn about money. The only women who “care about money” are women who are looking for a sugar daddy to provide them financial security so they can do their thing without having to work. The truth is, those women will be happily seduced away from their rich husbands by a broke dude who makes them feel alive. It’s just a fact of reality. Not only is it a fact of reality, it’s one of the deepest female fantasies to ever exist, the starving artist that comes along and sweeps the housewife off her feet.

I manifested this guy as a warning. I see him on a road that any man could travel down, even me. A road where you give up, resign yourself to fate and give your power over to women.

Seeing this dude has pushed me even harder to become the ultimate me.

People are being really cool to me

Yeah, people have been really kind to me. It’s nice, I like it when people are kind to me because then I get to be kind to them. I do love spreading love, it’s a special feeling that too many people don’t have nearly enough of.

Edit: title

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#121

Day 6 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Rest

More Results

I went to the exact coffee shop that my intuition told me to visit, saw two old friends, and planted the seeds of reconciliation with both of them, one of them gave me a free latte.

Saw an old lover at a random time and in a random place. It was awkward, but I gave her a hug and went on my merry way.

Made some more money and paid off some more debt. Tick tock, let’s make some more, baby.

Customers were very, very friendly toward me today. In general, I seemed to make a good impression on many of them.

Discovered that I want to be popular and that staying on good terms with the people around me is a vital part of making that happen.

The action steps for the above are to reconcile with those that I can reconcile with, and start conducting myself with more social intelligence and grace. The truth is, that making enemies is rarely a necessity. Yes, it happens. There are insecure people who will despise you for your achievements or simply for being yourself because you challenge them by your very nature, however, there are people who seem to avoid making enemies while still living exciting and successful lives, I look to them for inspiration and guidance in moving forward.

#122

Day 6 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Rest

More Results

Major breakthrough tonight. I realized that I try to motivate myself by recalling my previous failures. Instead of analyzing them and looking for ways to improve, and then letting them go, all this does is strengthen the very habits that I’m trying to change in myself and weaken my belief in myself by showing myself abundant evidence of my inability to do what I say I’m going to do.

There is more to this, but I just need to get the initial though out.

#123

Day 6 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Listening Day

Results
I overcame a challenging situation.

Another heartbreak. I broke a heart and had mine broken in return.

It’s a major lesson for me and a good lesson.

My heart is broken because I broke a heart and it taught me a lesson.

The lesson is one of wisdom, tact, social and emotional intelligence. I’ve also handled this heartbreak with more skill than ever before. I’m not afraid of feeling anymore. Let me feel, I’m alive.

Onward with an open heart and a smile.

Great social manifestations.

Many compliments on my appearance.

Got called an anime character today because of how I look. Cool.

Good stuff. Good stuff.

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#124

Day 7 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - Listening Day

Results

Well, this happened today.

Hit on a girl at work. Was super smooth and natural. It wasn’t too obvious, and it was more suggestive than anything–I only hinted at the possibility. I don’t actually have interest in this girl, but I caught her giving me glances, so I thought “What the hell?” and decided to just try a cold approach.

Seemed to go pretty well. She seemed a little stand-offish during the interaction, but then I got her staring a few more times.

It was really just taking action for fun and for practice.

Made some more money and paid off another bill. Close to full financial recovery. I should hit full recovery by November.

Took some action to fix a broken relationship. The relationship is now in a better position than it was a few days ago. Iteration, day by day, step by step.

Pretty social at work today (new job).

Noticed that I was way nicer and more comfortable around my mother than I’ve been my whole adult life. I’m kinda just throwing this result in there, but it’s actually a huge deal, so big that I hardly noticed it.

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#125

Day 8 - Cycle 1 - Two Title Secret Stack - End of First Run - Long Washout Day 1/21 - Fast Day 1/21

The secret stack was Wanted Black, Dragon Reborn: Limit Destroyer, and Khan ST4.

I ran Wanted Black and DR:LD for the first week (if I count the test loops on long washout).

The last two listening days I ran full loops of Khan ST4 because my intuition just told me that it was a good idea, and I was like “okay, might as well see if I can handle it.”

The answer was yes, I could handle it.

Total Loops

DR:LD: 4 x 15 min; 1x 5:25 min
Wanted Black: 1 x 15 min, 3 x 30 sec, 1 x 2 min
Khan ST4: 2 x 15 min

Review and Experience of The Stack

When I first started DR:LD I ran it on full loops with 30-second micros of Wanted Black. This was calculated. I knew I needed the majority of my focus to be on healing, but I still wanted a guiding force. The idea worked. I could hardly feel Wanted Black, but what I did feel of it really helped me get through some of the more intense periods of the short run.

Right off the bat, it was INTENSE, so intense that it felt damn similar to my little go-around with Total Breakdown. I’m gonna argue right now that Total Breakdown is obsolete as a standalone healing sub, because DR:LD was just as intense, however, it has one striking difference that made it the absolute GOAT of healing subliminals: manifest positive experiences.

This aspect of the scripting makes it leagues ahead of TB. On TB, I felt hopeless, and my world seemed to reflect hopelessness to me. On DR:LD I felt hopeless, but my world seemed to cheer me on, by manifesting little things that told me to keep going because I was close to where I wanted to be.

Khan ST4 was run on an intuitive whim. I’ve been dealing with pretty serious relationship trouble on this stack (hence why I’m running it) and one night, I was just utterly defeated, I saw no hope of fixing this relationship or fixing myself. My intuition told me to run Khan ST4, and at first, I said “no” but then I realized that my intuition is almost always right if I just listen.

So I ran my loop and woke up with a text from her the next day. I reacted by calling her on all her behavior. Why? Because this relationship (uncertain as it is) cannot move forward with her thinking she can get away with the shit she pulled on me. It’s just gonna lead to a cycle of bullshit, so either we come back together better, or it’s over.

Microlooping Wanted Black with full loops of DR:LD really seemed to keep my focus pretty square on DR:LD and allowed me to focus almost all my efforts on DR:LD, however, when I ran my first loop of Khan, it overpowered everything. DR:LD would come in occasionally, but Khan was front and center in my attention.

Insights

Microlooping auxiliary titles with a focus title seems to give minor and useful effects from the auxiliary titles without overpowering the primary title.

Moving Forward

This is officially the long-term stack.

The final two cycles of the year will be Khan ST4, Wanted Black, and DR:LD with DR:LD being the focus title.

The Stack ends, long washout begins

Stack ends now. I’m taking a 21-day washout to accomplish an important goal that I learned yesterday, I couldn’t accomplish it on subliminal because of the energy demands–a long, healing, fast.

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#126

Long Washout and Fast Day 1/21

Parameters of the fast:

Day 1-14: 1 Low-calorie meal replacement shake/day, water, coffee, tea.
Day 15-21: Pure water.
Smoking quit date Nov 1st.

My full focus and attention is on this fast. It’s my only goal until it’s completed.

Starting weight: 156.4lbs
Bodyfat: 16-18%

#127

Long Washout and Fast Day 1/21

Results

Had an amazing workout today, and I was super social in the gym. Started working in with a dude, saw some old coworkers, a guy hollered at me to get those gains. It was dope, felt like a total jock tbh. :sweat_smile:

Made another hundred bucks and paid another bill. It’s like a video game.

Got a call from a dude that I didn’t even know had my number offering me 20/hour to help clean his house. Do I smell growing money manifestations and networking? Yes, that’s what I smell. What a wonderful smell it is. This dude has some connections.

Had a conversation with my innermost Khan, the dude is awesome. Total Breakdown left a bad taste, but the Khan, oh, he’s dope. This is now my life subliminal.

Got over that girl. Like, I just don’t care. If she doesn’t see my value, then that’s on her.

Overall, today was an emotional high.

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#128

Long Washout and Fast Day 2/21

Day 1 of the fast went super well. My energy was high all day and even today when I woke up, I didn’t really feel like I had fasted.

Hit another high with male enhancement yesterday, now above 18cm, looks like I’ve cleanly broken the plateau and I’ve entered a growth stage. Once I hit the next plateau, I’m probably gonna pull back into maintenance mode to avoid becoming too big.

Starting next week I’m gonna start hitting the gym 4x a week. The last two weeks I did 2 long workouts, but I would rather do 4 short workouts. More social opportunities and also, fasting is an endurance test, gassing out on one day isn’t optimal. Keep it short and frequent.

Yesterday I had some pretty glaring synchronicities about Florida and I really don’t understand what it all means. Maybe I need to head to Florida, I’m gonna contact some people after the fast and see if I can crash at their place in Orlando some time within the next few months.

Was reflecting this morning about my week on DR:LD and realized that I broke through some HUGE walls in just a week. I actually listen to other people now for one thing.

I was also operating at about my peak for healing tolerance. So DR:LD is gonna stay in my rotation for a while, at least a year, but I gotta be strategic with how I use it, how long, and when.

I gotta face facts. I need the healing, but still don’t handle healing well. It’s very disruptive for me.

My plan is to do what I did this cycle for a while: Start the cycle with a week on DR:LD, running microloops of Khan and WB, then drop DR:LD and run Khan and WB for the rest of the cycle.

1 week of healing was about all I could tolerate. If I use this strat, then over a year, I would have healed immensely.

Alright, off to work.

#129

Long Washout and Fast Day 1/21

Big developments.

Life’s a game keep playing it.

Gonna be soloing Khan ST4 for a bit.

#130

I’ve lost patience for jargon.

#131

Better to do nothing at all, then to act thoughtlessly.

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#132

I know that. I do that when I sleep :slight_smile:

#133

Sleep == power

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#134

Sleep == power == bigger peepee

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